~ Happy Day ~

!!! Happy Birthday Adik !!!

Wah, sudah besar dah kamu!!! and sgtla tinggi and tgnmu sungguh menakutkan!!! muahaha, selamat hari jadi adik! smoga semua impian adik menjadi kenyataan, ure a great not so lil brother anymore and its great spending time with you and all da funny laughing muahaha times. kakin doakan yg terbaik buat adik, all da best eyh!!! You Can Do IT!!!

~ Happy Day ~

!!! Happy Birthday Kaklin !!!

I love you and miss you so much like always... have great days and kakin doakn nothg but da best for you =) ure da best sister anyone could ever have! keep smiling and be happy =D good luck net and all da best eyh! aja aja fighting!!! You Can Do IT!!!

~ Stories ~

assalamualaikum... ola evryone, halo net! i dnt kno why, but i teribly miss you. realy realy miss you. mcm lmbt lg jer kaklin nk balik. hopefully time fly fast so dat i cud see you again net. then we can have our chat n gosip eyh?

sorry for da lack of attention to dis blog. i felt teribly sorry to you net for not writing regularly. i dnt kno why, but lately ive been having a lot of anxieties and worries so hence no writing for me. i tried to have conversation with hp but stil dis butterflies wont go away. heck, ive no idea wat kind of anxiety or worry dat im having. all i kno dat im anxious n find it's hard to sleep @ nite. i guess it's just me kan, nothg to worry bout.

anyway, moving on to wat to write. umm, actually like usual i'll cramp evrythg in one go la eyh. nothg much has happen dis past couple of weeks. only story bout hari raya haji dat i didnt find da words to write. so guess i shall write bout it rite away...

~ Story Bout Raya Haji ~

i kno its way late to write bout it. so for da sake of writin, i mumble about it anyway la eyh. umm, raya haji start with us watchin da new moon dat ended about 11.00 pm. actually we went to mv pretty late, so we miss da part dat bella almost become diner for da cullens. so after da movie, we went back to gombak, to hp's home. and we stayed for da nite. so come raya da next day, mama cooked wonderful dishes dat till today im craving for it. so after hp came back from prayer and we had our breakfast/raya dishes, we went to banting, to hp's grandparent home. we stayed till noon, had wonderful lunch, hp and me also took a detour to pantai morib, and after dat we went to klang, also hp grandparent home. during our visit to klang, dis soothing and overwhelm feeling surround me. nenek klang realy remind me of tok. and i felt so comfortable and welcome there. she's so nice and i love her instantly. we had our diner and then waved our goodbyes.

later, we arrived @ rumah mak. sume org pun dah tdo except all da boys la who are busy playing games. naim yg bukakkan pintu. how sweet si naim nih. anyway, had a lil chat with evryone, time for snooze off. in da morning, abah went to masjid to helped with da korban, while evryone else duduk dkt rumah la. mak planned to do bbq later @ nite bcoz there's a lot of daging in da house. so later @ nite, we had great time bbq all da daging. sgt sedap, and da daging korban is different kan for normal daging? alhamdulillah, is great to have wonderful meals with our loves one kan? kak izam and family came and also kawan2 abg. so da more is da merrier. but i called da nite early, since im way too exhausted like usual.

we spend da weekend @ mak n mama home. it was a pleasurable and wonderful raya haji. i like it, and hopefully we can see everyone again in near future. and hopefully we can see dis lil one too so dat nxt raya we can celebrate together kan hunny?

~ Story Bout Our Home ~

da furniture had arrived! so net, mehla dtg cni nanti eyh. kinda happy bcoz we manage to turn dis place into quite a homey la. ofcoz a lot to be done, but im happy with wat we have rite now. and after we settle da house, next agenda is to focus on dis lil one. a lot of stuff to buy ofcoz, but we have plenty of time to do dat, and we're planning to settle evrythg for dis lil one nxt month insyaAllah.

~ Story Bout Lil One ~

we're looking forward for our nxt appoinment dis saturday. hopefully my bp will be alrite dis time. da pretty stars come and go but im not having too much of a headache lately, so dats a good start (except masa raya haji due to mkn byk sgt daging i think). lil one keep on making moves dat sumtime made me feel like throwing up. i mean, all da movements is pretty hard, and im always amazed by dis strong movements.

still people keep on saying how kecik my perut is. i wonder how big my tummy shud be so dat people will take me as pregnant not bcoz im fat. whenever i say dat im pregnant, they will say "yea ke, x nmpk perut pun" probably bcoz i dnt wear maternity cloth kot? bcoz i can still fit my usual jeans and my baju kurung pun muat. nonetheless, as long as when i asked hp "besarkan my perut?" and he will smile and repeat da same answer, im okay with anythg dat anyone said.

~ Story Bout Weddings ~

congratulation for mimi & hubby for their wedding last weekend. minta maaf mie x dpt nk dtg. tp papepun, aku doakan ko akn bahagia dunia akhirat. ko adalah kawan yg best, and aku doakn yg terbaik buat ko eyh. all da best mie =)

last weekend also there's a wedding of hp's uncle i think. he's hp uncle and he's younger than us! regardless, congratulation to both. may they have happy life together and be there for each other. so overall, its a very nice wedding. we arrived late as usual, but its good since not many guest left and only families remain. we had quiet a few chat with evryone and hp told me whose who and i think i met hp entire clan. ofcoz some cudnt make it but its great to see some familiar faces around. im like usual put a fake smile on me face, and engage to some of the conversations. boleh lah, asalkn i can carry myself n hp is always around to comfort me in these awkward situations.

~ Story Bout Evrythg Else ~

i think i wrote evrythg dat i cud possibly think of. il update with da checkup nanti eyh. hopefully we cud find out whether dis lil one is a girl or a boy. if not, then we will have to wait till next year then. i hate surprises and i hate waiting. but if dis lil one wont reveal him/herself, we just have to wait then. so datsit. will write some more insyaAllah. gudluck net for your exam. asal call/msg kamu jer net, mesti exam is lurking around. kakin yg dgr pun sgt pening. but im sure you can do it, i kno u can! aja aja fighting!!! all da best eyh, YOU CAN DO IT!!! - shout out like cite longest yard!

orite evryone, take care, drink plenty of fluid, have plenty of rest and smile like always. assalamualaikum...

~ Present ~

~ Presenting ~

assalamualaikum... sorry net and evryone for such a long pause. mean to write sooner, but with da final exam coming along and tonnes of stuff to do before da skool break, i just cud barely keep up! thank god almighty evrythg is over and i can sit back at home and relax and wait for dis lil one to arrive. dis is da present, da gift i keep on playing in my mind dis few weeks to get tru till today and boy i am so glad its finaly over, alhamdulillah...

i kno i sound super exageratting when it came to skool. i mean aperla yg sgt miserable bout da place anyway? to me evry single second is like living hall, how twisted and turn, how in misery i am till the clock strike 6.50 pm evry single day dis past few months! i shudnt be writin bout dis anyway, i mean there are times when i do have great time, but to educate dis kids, really drain every drop of my energy and i am teribly exhausted til now. i dnt kno how mak and other teacha can cope and love wit wat they are doin, salute to them all.

anyway, da kids are bein such a sweethart prior to the last days and they knew im not gona be around nxt year. how hartbreakin hearing and seein their faces, and i do cherish all da time spent with them, but it's time for my family now. dis lil one will arrive insyaAllah next year, so i wana be here 247 to raise and give all my focus and love to him/her. beside, i knew they will be fine, and im just another teacha, and soon will be forgotten. my prayers are to them, and hopefully they will excel in their studies...

enuf bluff, so hows evryone doin? tomorrow we will be celebrating hari raya! im always excited and lookin forward for raya, be it raya aidilfitri, or aidiladha. takbir raya is exactly wat im lookin forward to actually. i love hearing it over and over again, and wished i cud hear it throughout the entire year. speaking bout raya, umm we didnt decide about it yet, where to spend da raya, so lets just wait and see how raya turnout dis time. il write bout it, insyaAllah...

~ Birthday Present ~

i kno its a lil bit too late to write bout my bday last month. but its kinda sweet evryone remembered and all da thoughts dat really melted me. it started with this sweethart kids who bought me a cake and we had da potong kek in class. and da present they gave me which is sgt terharu also.

then mak called and being such a wonderful loving mak, mak and bb datang bawak kek for me too to skool. how much melted hart i cud handle dat day! sgt terharu, and mak and bb evn brought me da maternity dress in pink! sgt comel and sgt termengalir air mata with all da love i received! thank you Allah, and my hartful thanks to evryone. see, dis world isn't dat bad ain! there are plenty of love to go around.

later, when hp pick me up from skool, i saw another cake at da back seat! im like wow, dis lil one sure is gona have a sugar rush today! and hp me gave me wat i really wanted all this time, mp3 player. just a simple mp3 player wich i cud stuff in my ears whenever i had to sit in a long ceramah@skool. no offense, da ceramah is good tho, but sumtimes all dis listenin do grew such a boredom inside of me, so better be listenin to sumthg good than start yawning in da midle of da crowd. da mp3 isn't quite as simple as i hope for, since i cud record any song from any station or other stuff for example in a meeting, or wateverla dat i want to record. cool kan? thanks hunny, you're always da best!

and to evryone dat send me birthday wishes, you are awesome and rock my world. thank you so much, i am spoilt with love dat day. how lucky i am, thank you Allah for evrythg, You're da best ever!!!

~ Present Lil One ~

how's lil one doin? he/she is doin great, alhamdulillah. evrythg is fine, only dat my blood kinda got to da roof a bit. 147/74, xdela tinggi sgt kan? and got some "talks" from da dr. bout how late we are for our real maternity checkup. previously, we just went to clinics for da scans and gravol supply, and since im not havin any problems, beside da previous2 checkups says dat i AM fine (i didnt have any antenatal card/book), but dis time around, thanks to my blood pressure, i had to had da "talks" by da doc. well, not gona explain myself why dis happen, it just did! anyway, we think we finally choose da place we are goin to deliver our lil one, which is @ az-zahrah, bangi.

so next month, we're gona go again for da nxt checkup and hopefully, with evrythg dah settle, my blood wont go up dat much. but i dnt kno, im seein a lot of beautiful stars lately, and by pretty, it's so pretty and beautiful. and then i feel like blackout. dis happen, when im in crowded area with lotsof people, around smokers dat huff and puff like they are baking sumthg from their lungs and last but da very least is when im @ dis one class dat really shoot my blood to da stars! then im start seeing dis beautiful stars and im such in a peace state (ofcoz in a dangerous statela kan?) when dis happen, i just take a deep breath, close my eyes firmly and stand perfectly still. it will go away, but then i will feel sad bcoz dis stars too will go away...

whenever im facing dis situations, dis lil one i dnt kno, somehow trying so hard to comfort me by twisting and making moves dat tickle me so much dat made me so hard not to laugh (aper ke hal cikgu ni gelak sorg2 lps dah marah2 tahap gaban kan?) seriously, dis one time, dis one particular student i dnt kno why he's super hyper, berlari lara dalam kelas, and shoutin at da top of his lungs, im like nak jer lempang pakai kasut okeh?!! but then again, dis lil one, makin his/her moves and i smile a bit, and went to dat budak, talk some senses into him and he did stop, finally behave like a normal person again. dis kids is always like dis after recess and 1/2 hour before balik. sgt super hyperla diorg nih. dats why im so x larat nak handle and feel like quitting evry single day.

it is such a wonderful feeling having dis lil one in me. whenever i felt sad/down/angry, it feel like dis lil one try to smooth and comfort me so much. and evry moves does tickle hunny! you're full of love and sumtimes i feel like i dnt deserve you sweety. im really not a good mummy, but im trying my hardest hunny. mummy promise to give you all my loves, instead it happen da other way around. forgive me...

~ Just Present ~

umm, dis morning we went to mv to watch da new moon, and da morning session is sold out! we manage to buy 8.40pm ticket so we will go again tonight. speakin of movies, to celebrate my last day as a teacha, we did a movie marathon last monday. we watched 1st-Jennifer's Body, 2nd-Planet 51 and da last one Christmast Carol. and last last sunday, we watched 2012 and we got da free tote bag.

i used da bag to carry dis kids exam papers. i didnt realise dat dis kids wud actually notice da bag, and so does some other teacha. we ended up talkin bout da movie and aderla mende nk borak. but lately, my head is too heavy to carry any conversation, due to lotsa things to settle before da skool is over. seriously, da checklist is long and since im looking forward to da skool break, im always ahead with da signatures on da paper. i kno its not such a big deal, but when seeing a lot of "autograph" on dat paper, it just made my day! later, all in all, evrythg is finish, and i dnt have to see skool no more, except when i start sending my own kids to da skool dat is...

~ End Present ~

so a lot has been typed in here. again, typical me dumpin evrythg in one go. again net, sorry sgt lama x update. kakin tawu kaklin selalu bukak blog ni. i hope i didnt let you down dat much. i miss you terribly and can't wait to see you again. congrats net for da good result, see i kno you can do it, and you always will. have faith and all of us wish you da very best! nanti kite jupe lagi okey? nanti kakin update lagi eyh, probably selalu smpi kaklin xmo baca dah =p so evryone, take care, and may da force be with us like always. till here, assalamualaikum...

~ Mixie Pixie ~

assalamualaikum... ola... mulala... wat a greeting to start with... so, hows evryone doin? evrythg good la kan? with raya coming along, im sure evryone is having a wonderful time with the loves one =D

to start with, dis time i think dis is goin to be all-you-can-mix-post. dunno where to start, so blasah jerla eyh. wat ever come to mind i write down okeh...

~ Mixie Raya ~

raya dis year ofcoz best like always. wats with da full puasa, i dnt have to ganti2 puasa finally alhamdulillah. so ofcoz dis time around raya is da greatest ever =) hp is da star to these kid's eye since he's da mercun supplier. (boleh x persiapan raya yg pertama kitorg beli adalah mercun?) i had a great time main mercun, tgk mercun merdeka yg berapa belas das rizlan beli, mmg best x ingt. and since rizlan knows da supplier, hp bwk budak2 nih p beli lg mercun. it was super fun, smpi wan ckp 'ish rumah mana yg dok main mercun ni tau' walhal cucu2 sendri yg dok main smpi xleh bernapas sbb byk sgt asap... evrynite smpila mlm raya keempat kot kitorg main mercun, well i only play bunga api jer sbb x brapa berani nk cucuh mercun. enoughla cerita about mercun already...

so raya mcm evry raya like always. da nite before, mak dgn mak teh masak all you can eat for tomorrow. buat nasik carrot, ketupat, rendang, sumerla yg best2. i didnt do much help, sbb pening pala bau anythg yg bertumis/bergoreng. tp still hang around da kitchen sambil dgr mak dgn sume org sembang2. then come raya, after smbhyg raya salam2 dgn sume org, amik gmbr sket2, then we headed for rumah2 dkt sekeliling rumah tuk. best jugak sbb dis time around, since hp is new to evryone, evryone explain wats da relationship of evryone. i didnt kno till now bcoz i keep on forgetting and it's hard to really understd the pangkat n evrythg. so i just assumed evryone is sedaralah, x kiralah pak/mak menakan, sepupu, dua pupu, tiga pupu, and da list will go on. tp hp really takes time to understd all da details, so let him do all da memorising and stuff, me just be happy and smiley =>

so datsal about raya in brief. we went bck to cheras on saturday since we attend aton-fakhrul wedding. arrived safely home to gombak first to send naim then headed back to cheras. it was a great time, thank you Allah for giving us the best time ever.

~ Mixie Skool ~

wat bout skool? finally da soalan final sudah siap, and dah siap stappler, woohoo!!! thanks to PMR, i didnt hv much class, so i spend da whole afternoon clipping all da soalan. aftrward saket pinggang x hengat. but since evrythg is finish, rasa best sket. no more worries dah. but silibus x abis lgla. ada final chapter nk kena abiskan. thank god final exam postphone till early november. adala lg masa utk wrap it up and do some revision sket. hopefuly dis kids will do well, amin.

umm, btw... nxt year im not gona continue my contract. enough la three years ive spend time with these kids. now its time to spend for my kid pula. mak ckp rugila degree klu x keje. but to be honest, i dont like to go to workla. evryday nmpk jer gate skolah i would say 'xnak pegi skolah, budak2 nih jahat, suka buli org' and hp will say 'sabar, lagi sebulan jer lagi, you can do this' smbil give me all da repeating soothing words dat he cud give. kesian my hubby, being my cheerleader evryday from sending me to skool till taking me home.

yes, these kids bukanla jahat mcm penjahat yg lagi dasyat jahatnya. tp, diorg ni x kira mcm mana kena marah pun, mcm mana monster pun i become, to them i'm still a very nice teacher. 'cikgu ni xper, dier baik jer, x garang sgt' so, wat to do? for 40 minutes yes they are very angel like students, da 2nd period, haru nk control klas. they are one active class. mulut pun active, kaki tangan pun active. pening pala nk abiskan syllabus dgn klas nih. tp diorg nih sgtla suka klu bersembang, mcm2 rupanya diorg nk ckp. im like layan jerla, dgr cerita2 diorg nih. i kno its hard being in their shoes, with all da peer pressure and pressure from home lg. tp jgnla asyik bg pressure dkt cikgu nih. so time sembang, diorg bukan main suka lg sume nk cerita smpi pening pala nk dgr, time blaja, tak smpi semenet bukak buku, 'cikgu take 5 lah cikgu' smpi bila nak abis blaja klu asyik nak take 5 jer nih?

enough bout these kids, diorg ni sume sebenarnya sgt baik, cuma saja nk bg pening pala cikgu nih. xperla, layan jerla diorg asalkan x kurang ajar sudah. apa yg penting, silibus abis, and diorg paham apa yg diorg tulis dlm exam. then im outta here. ofcoz i will miss those eager faces to learn, their mcm2 nye cerita sume nak cerita, their rajiness and ringan tangan nak tolong, their concern, evry litle thgs they did to make me smile. but bile pk mende2 yg diorg nih buat utk peningkn pala nih, i totally ready to get to the end. guess enough bout skool, meh citer mende lain pulak...

~ Mixie Lil One ~

lil one is doin fine, alhamdulillah. last check, wow dis lil one grows quite fast. we can see the fast beating heart, the hand and feet movement, evrythg looks good. and i can feel the movement is getting pretty hard each day. so far, im doin good, except for dis week, ive to take mc bcoz of round ligament pain. i cudnt move much and evry lil thg i did hurt like hall. so after two days of bedrest, finally da pain fadded away, alhamdulillah. and umm, i still takes gravol to ease da nausea. if i forgot to take any, the whole day i will feel uneasy and evrythg i eat will end up in da longkang =(

overall we both are doing great. can't wait for next year where we cud really see dis lil one in front of our eyes. so for now, lets wait and grow strong and healthy my love...

~ Mixie Overall ~

i think datsal i can come up with. dah xde pape dah nk tulis rasanya. klu ada, next time la pulak eyh. umm, net, kamu dah nk balik dah. i will miss you a lot net. nanti balik lagi eyh, nanti leh main dgn baby pulak. so evryone, take care and be happy like always. have a great life, assalamualaikum...

Situasi =D

Situasi 1

Me : Naim, amikkan cookie cisp leh x?
Naim : kakin amikla sendiri. ni tgn naim patah (sambil menunjukkan tgn kiri & gelak2)
Me : kakin lgla, ada bb dlm perut

5 menet kemudian, naim yg comel mengambilkan cookie cisp utk kakaknya yg demand nih. tq naim =)

Situasi 2

Naim : abg ni, dkt tmpt keje main game, tp ckp penat keje (abg kejenye translator game jepun)

i'm like, adeh naim neh, sgt laser mengsound org =D

Situasi 3

Naim : birthday kakin biler?
Me : ala naim nih, dh bgtawu sepuloh kali pun tak ingt.
Naim : kakin nak hadiah aper? hadiah troli baby?

im all smiley, sgt terharu bcoz of his kind and comel thought =)

Situasi 4

mak : naim tulis dlm folio sejarah 'kakak saya telah berkahwin dan saya telah dapat abang menantu'
me : muahahahahahahahahaha

xleh tahanlah naim, ayat bm naim stock mcm shin chan lah naim =)

Situasi 5

naim : kakin selsema ke?
me : ha ah, salam naim, kakin nak balik dah, nanti kite jupe lg eyh

im all wipey and teary having to wave goodbye to evryone. naim mmg pandai buatkan saya tersenyum kembali. he's such adorable and great lil brother. sayang naim =)

dis is is all the situations dat made me smile each time i felt like crying. naim nih from kecik smpila sekarang pandai jer watkn saya tersenyum and x rasa nk marah² dah. and dis is why i miss home a lot too, di samping boleh bermuahaha dgn sume org. kaklin pun dah balik cni, tp x dpt lg jupe kamu net. nanti kite borak gossip² lg eyh. and i miss evryone @ home. probably dis thursday we can meet evryone yay! and we're heading for kampung jumaat nih. double yay! =D so lets have a good time and smiley all the way, shall we? take care evryone, assalamualaikum...

~ Worth Thousand Pictures ~

indeed this really worth thousand pictures and i love waking up evryday having to look at it with my silly smile. pardon the quality of the picture, but i think evryone gets da idea of what you are looking at kan?

yello, assalamualaikum evryone. hoping again evryone to be in good health, happy and sunny like always. dis tripple post is ofcoz due to school break! thank god finally da awaited holidays did come! im sick tired of all da innuendoes dis kids love playing lately, up to da stand ive to call pn. di*ng to stop these kids behaviour. after a few good smacks, they finally sit in peace. howla these kids nih, plz dnt make me call pn. di*ng again. you hate it and so do i. enough goofing around, lets do some learning orite, but not this weekla. next week okay?

enough bout skool. so when school holidays, ofcoz there's plenty of time for me to settle all the unsettle jobs. and free time for me too. and for this post, it's not going to be about me, it's about our lil one. so here goes the story eyh...

it begin with umm, like any other pregnancy i guess. having all dis wats wrong with me nih? why evrythg i did is so wrong? why i feel x best n nk demam all da time? why am i having dis tummy ache and evryone assumed im having a gastric nih? why i feel like wanting to punch someone in da gut (some sort like datla) why my pala is berpusing all da time, again with the so many whys...

but hp said its probably bcoz we just moved and i think so too, dis is tipical me when the environment surround me changes. and yes, the meal schedule ofcozla haywire since we arrived late at home, and end up we cooked and eat nearly midnight.

so the theory about it is actually plausible. the taught of me carrying our baby did occured once a while, since the early signs is actually there. but im not having morning sickness, only at night after work the show will go on and hp will look all worried, worried im having food poisoning or sumthg. and the cravings are piling up and occasionally, hp will make jokes about the pregnancy cravings. i guess dis lil one really trying to show his/her existance.

so after one by one of my cravings is being fulfilled, (all da cravings are about the meals we had masa dkt uniten. kuew tiaw kungfu- tropic upten and claypot yee me - pk*ns bangi) evry weekend i will make my pity face and hp occasionally bring me to these two places. since the curiousity is getting the best of us, so why not we let it off our chest and just take da test already. so we did, twice and another one time at da clinic. so it took tripple test to really makes us believe dat we are pregnant.

but since the test, my mind is occupied with a lot of question. is this lil one ok inside? since im not eating right and my stress temperature is according to these kids tantrums. why am i having this right and left tummy ache? am i having ectopic pregnancy? (dis question really worrid me alot) and till the scan, im not putting high hopes and prayers is all i can do so dat evrythg will turn out fine. and alhamdulillah, dis lil one is strong and coping with this mummy.

afterward is the part of how to tell evryone about this lil one. i hate hearing over and over again the questions/statements - bun*ting pel*amin and i made quite a fuss about it to hp. its embarrasing to me, and i dnt know how to react/answer the question/statement sometimes. but, since hp made it clear that wat ever statement doesnt mean/effect us, so my smiley is up again =)

da first annoucement to evryone in da family would be, well da first person is kaklin. im so excited to tell someone, and dat someone is you net =) later on, it was when we had dinner @ hp home. my family is also there, so hp just said it and didnt make a big deal out of it and neither evryone else. so dats a huge relief. thank god dat evryone knew and i dnt have to make anymore mental plan on how to break da news.

later, evryone @ skool. only to pn. din*ng and other big2 people. i just cudnt find the right words to tell them. but i think pn di*ng kinda knows since when we are together; be @ da canteen or jst having a chat sumwhere around da skool, she will bring up how its good to be married young, how great to be pregnant in young age, wats important vitamins to take, wat to do, dont do dis and dat, im like ok, not so comfy and i do wana open my big mouth and just tell, again this shyness really took my words.

then, in here. see how i put the ticker first and let all of you guess it by yourself? yes, im pregnant and the ticker is some sort of da development of dis lil one. couple of time we went to see da doctors, da progress of dis lil one changed. so i think im gona stick with this ticker and dis is the milestone of dis lil one. thank you for all the wishes, and yes i will bear in mind all the advices.

so net, suka x tgk gmbr ur niece/nephew to be? he/she so tiny kan? and again, where's my tears seeing my first baby pichas? none, i just chuckle and laugh. seriously, wat is wrong with me kan net? but hp said dat is my reaction when i am utterly happy. but i am waiting for da cliche of seeing-da-pichas-with-teary-moments while da scan took place. but nope, i just giggle and laugh. and my only question to da dr. is 'wow, ni dah jadi baby eyh?' and the dr. looked at me with i-dont-kno-why-you-ask-me-dat look and just explain dis is the baby's head, heart, hands and legs and dat pretty much cover our first scan. ofcoz there's a lot to ask the dr. but i think da dr. is tired so i kept my mouth to myself plus im really happy i get to see dis lil one nothg else matter.

so this is the story. umm, i hope i didnt bore you with dis story dat much. i think i over story it, didnt i? but since dis is the first story about dis lil one, a long entry wont hurt dat much rite? i think datsal i can come out with. till next time, take care evryone and selamat berpuasa =)

~ Finally ~

finally... yup, finally i did put the pichas in here. so here's to elly, i hope you do enjoy all da pichas. yes, there are more pichas, but if you wana see a bit more, meh kite jumpe then il let you have a look at all da pichas eyh...

btw, assalamualaikum... how's evryone? my prayers is for all my family and friends to be in good health, in good shape to continue our survival. im so sorry net, i know a couple or more times you visit here without any updates. later, il show sumthg really best. i hope you will like it =D

so there goes my pichas. wat to say about me wedding? it was fun, it was great, but there's no way i wana repeat and go through it again. thank god we've settle evrythg in one go, i mean saturday on my side, the next day on hp. i dont want it in any other way.

for my side, the preparation ofcoz it took a lot of effort. nama pun wedding kn? since thurday, evryone is here, and penuh dah satu rumah. which is great but also so crowded. but im happy dat evryone came. thanks for all the hardwork and lending hands...

you see, alot of things dat didnt plan, terplan last minutes. so kinda x cukup tgn and im like, darn it. is evrythg gona finish in time? is my a bit horror dream will happen? ive really letting my guard down and my both hands up to seek for Allah help. pray as i may, and Allah really the great, give me a very precious present indeed.

but along da way, ofcoz these two pair of hands need to work faster. wat wit da room need to settle, which is alhamdulillah, on friday settle. and mak teh really did a beautiful work with da langsir. it is so pretty and so goldy, feel like a princess =)

then, here come saturday. early in the morning after dusk, ive cleaned the front. sweep and finalise all da setting, angkat kerusi and so on. then inside, kemas all the tempat tidur and sweep again. darn, there's a lot to cover. tp since evryone sudah bising suruh mandi, plus da makeup team pun sudah sampai. im like, omg is it time already? give myself a quick splash. then, turun and let da team begin. im picturing myself for sure muka mcm opera cina, but im so lost focus dat i didnt care. i feel like eternity till the team give the final brush. skali pandang cermin, im like totally mesmerize by the way i look. i never thought i will look dis good, thank you Allah, my self esteem rise a bit.

then it hit us. boleh x akuarium melimpah air and banjir? im so penat already at dis point and dis is where da akad nikah will take place. dis is where h2b and juru nikah and abah will sit. while all dressed up and make up, ive cleaned da spot in lighting speed. mak and evryone ofcoz bising and saying dat sumeone will take care of it. but da thing is, h2b and evryone are on their way and the carpet is totally soaked! i just ignore da noise and continue cleaning. there, finally settle evrythg. thank god...

minutes later, h2b and evryone smpi. at this point, i am upstairs and when i wana go down, dkt bawah sume dah penuh. and im stucked. so while the juru nikah read all the stuffs about being married, the responsibilites, i do hear all of them tp dkt tepi tangga. then, when h2b is about to read/say akad nikah, i think i heard my name is called. finally, x tersangkut dkt tangga. so alhamdulillah, h2b made it and we become husband and wife (umm, i thought i shud sign some paper or sumthg. tp xde pun. i wait jugak for any paper to sign, tp xde pun) funny, where's my tears at dat time? i guess im so tired i just wish for the happiness to surround us all. but the sole reason why my teary eyes is the way abah look at me right after akad nikah. till now, if i remembered abah's look, sayu tiba2. i love you too abah...

mak and evryone is happy, so im happy too i guess. but already, i wish da day to end bcoz im really tired and barely can keep my eyes open. ive put such a fake smile which i think evryone can tell. blasah jerla kan? so all da guest came and im happy dat evryone happy and enjoyed the wedding.

so datsal bout my wedding. hp side of wedding is as followed...

So the next morning, after breakfast, hp asked to leave to pickup his bestman/pengapit. owh, i forgot to mention dat ive no pengapit since kaklin xleh balik =' ( sesape yg nyebok nk berdiri on my left side, i just gave a sharp look mentioning dat i dont need anyone thank you. i kno, klaka since hp ada pengapit, while i have none. but i dnt mind, so evryone else, plz mind your own business okay?

after hp left, the makeup team arrive. so here we go another makeup session. i hate the long hours, seems like forever to get ready. i feel like im wearing a mask! finally, its all come to the end and da first glance, umm... i dont really quite fond of me. bcoz i think da makeup makes me like garangnya, takut saya. with hp running late lg, and abah pun dah bising, i felt da tense is growing. so yes, da day went very slowly and da event felt like forever to happen. not gona elaborate much on dat, but there's one funny pichas in da album dat really reflect wat had happen dat day. funny, but thank god it's over finally. again, if da question 'would i like to repeat da moment?' no thank you. im glad its over and we are finally together.

i kno da story is not in much details. but i guess you can picture da whole thing. nothg fancy, just like ordinary and tipical wedding ceremony. but wat im looking forward from this events are all the blessing from evryone. and indeed their prayers do come true. ill tell you in da next post eyh. so guess dat cover my whole wedding ceremony. take care evryone. assalamualaikum...

...The Awaited Pichas...

The cover of the album

The wedding took place

The arrival

The main table

My hp =)

Me

The cake

The potong cake

Mak and me =D

Doa and prayers

...The Awaited Pichas...

The cover of the album

The sanding yang x best coz have to sit there and dengar kompang smpi habis which is so freakin long and i was tapping my feet all da way and evryone watching and give me da glares. but do i care? nope, cubela korang duduk dkt cni while evryone is watching, so not comfortable...

together finally. no more duduk like statue anymore

posing again

i thought i would/should cry at this time. but wat i did? i smile and chuckle, im so happy dat i laugh a bit. wats wrong with me?

pokok pose

lagi gaya pokok

enoughla with my pichas already kan?

me and the fruit bucket

...Let's See...

assalamualaikum... yolla, ola... lala...

umm... wat a long pause to be exact. mean to write sooner, but sumthg is always up. so there goes the delays, days by days...

now, when i do have the will to write, i kept scratching my head coz ive no idea where to start. so if the storyline is mixed up, blasah jerla eyh...

...Story Bout Net...

kaklin dah balik cni. but i only get to see her once. we borak a lot, sgt gossip and i left hp all alone downstairs. sorry hunny, its just talking to kaklin after a while really carried me away...

talk bout dis and dat, stories on da wedding day, laugh muahahaha alot, then have to go home. sume org pun ada, and its really a fun day spending time with evryone. tp abah mcm merajuk jer since we didnt go bck as often. mak acted cool, tp i know she feel da same way as abah. i felt no other, but ive a new home and dis is where ive to be right now. but i hope we can go back quite often la kan?

btw, net is leavin dis sunday. gosh im gona miss you terribly. i really thought we can spend more time together, but we can do that later la eyh? since you know the news already, you have to come back again tawu?

and kaklin did came to our home recently. its da best moment ever! boleh x im so lazy, and hp did most of da preparation. im like, malasnye nk wat pape, walhal kaklin dah msg they are on their way here. so hp settingkn all da cawan, and force asked me to goreng da keropok. i'm like - fine, bukannya mak dier pun yg nk dtg, mak org and buat muka x puas hati sambil goreng keropok. da truth is yes im darn excited for evryone to come, but in da same time, my body refuse to work with me. ive no idea why at dat time (but now i know why la =D ) so hp take charge, buat air and kemaskn rumah which is so sweet of him. seein me all sulky, ofcoz he will explain the reasons-why we have to do dis and dat b4 evryone arrives. and then il smile a bit => mengada like always - sigh...

anyway, we had best time. i had best time. seronok dpt jupe sume finally. naim pun sebok jer suh watkan ajar keje skolah sc. dier. im like ajar dgn pegang pembaris. si naim ni pun satu, bacala buku. sume jawapan adala dlm buku. geram betul, kan dah kena dgn pembaris...

then its time to leave. naim ingtkn im goin back with them too since i went down and hantar sumeorg smpi kereta, but sorry naim. we will see each other again later ok? waves goodbyes and my heart shrunk a bit at dat moment. how i hate saying goodbyes...


...Story Bout Skool...

wat to story bout? owh, nxt week they will be sitting for the test. boleh x dis teacha didnt stapple da soalan yet? seb baik wat soalan moral jer, x ramai sgt pun budaknya. il do it right after dis okeh? darn, teringt pulak kena wat soalan final utk math, seb baik wat kertas satu. tp still have to search for the questions la. tp dats can be worried later, since final lambat lg. sila stapler kan yg soalan moral ni dulu eyh, minggu dpn diorg dah nak periksa dah pun - baik!!!

other than dat, skool mcm tu jugakla. only dat azwa continue her study. now im short one friend. ive less someone to talk to. now dah ada some else dah ganti tmpt azwa, tp x brapa nk best, dier lelaki. and he's sitting dkt tmpt azwa, which is nxt to me. so im like, not realy comfortable. tp since our timetable pun byk yg clash, x bykla sgt jupe. and i do love sitting at my place alone, and do my own work.

does dat makes me a sombong person? da truth, ive no idea how to be kepochi, i mean, i love lending my ears jer. lending my mouth, x brapa sgt with many people around. klu in small group, let say 1-2 people, i might say sumthg. more than that, i just be the observer or be left alone. wat i mean is, 1-1 is ok with me. many, i jst not so comfy and i wish i didnt join da group earlier.

but to contradiction - im teaching in 30+ environment, bolehla pulak eyh? paperla ain, i self-proclaim im a weirdo. so wateverla eyh, sorry for dis ramble. ive no idea why im writing dis out loud...

...Story Bout Us...

wat to story jugak eyh... well, we've been through ups and downs evn only 1 month++ bein married. and thank you hunny for the constance patience and evrythg else. saya kan budak suka majuk... so ntah hape² jer, sometimes im even pening like - aperhal yg sgt sensitif sgt ni, x pahamla? if i cant understd myself, let alone hp la kn? but being him yg sgt trying to understd, he made me understd myself too...

umm... yes, wedding pichas... bout dat, since kaklin pun dh tgk album, mcm malasla pulak nk letak dkt cni. tp since ive promised to elly, can you give me some more times? sorry elly for da delay, i promise i will put it one day ok, dont know when, but it will be here yea...

...Story Bout Evryone Else...

Congrats to knits for her newborn. i do wanna come and visit masa knits dkt hospital hari tuh, but im down with a flu, takut nanti il spread da sakit to bb jr; adzryl, so i decided not to come. but i do hope i can come and visit later eyh.

Congrats to Aan for her pregnancy. seronok jer baca her blog. i pray evrythg will turn well for he and bb too.

Congratulation to aton and fakhrul. semoga semua berjalan lancar, kekal bahagia dunia akhirat eyh.

My prayers are for elly and insyirah. i do hope both of you will be well again soon eyh.

who else? umm... rasanya tu jerla kot. nmpk sgt saya x rmi kawan kn?

...Conclusion...

wat a long post, i know. but dis will cover wat ive missed writing so far. ofcoz will write more, and ofcoz da pichas will come. tp for rite now, i think post ini sudah mencukupi. x cukup tambah lagi eyh, tp next post pulak =p

till here, take care evryone. da piggy virus is really coming hard on us kan? i pray for evryone safety. news ive heard - da virus breached our skool. in da mornin session la da kes, not da aftrnoon session. but still... anyway, pray hard evryone for our safety . stay safe and be safe... assalamualaikum...

We're Home

assalamualaikum... ai net and evryone. wow, sgt lama jugak eyh x tulis dlm nih. umm, for a start, hear my sincere apology yg konon²nye poyo nk terus letak gmbr dkt cni. little dat i kno on how busy we are after marriage nih. so net, sorry eyh. kesian kaklin hari² bukak site nih tp xde gmbr kn? so today, being a good sister after a bad one, kakin try upload gmbr kt cni eyh. umm, it wud be easier if you can access da facebook, leh tgk byk², tp dkt cni pun okla kan?

umm, however, to be honest, dkt kakin ada sket jerla gmbr net. tu pun kakin amik ikut handphone wic is before da ceremony. lps tuh, my hands are tight behind my back, sbb dah xde masa nak jd runner utk amik gmbr dah. so when you come home, we will see more pichas together eyh. yg kakin letak nih, yg kakin amik sendri eyh.

so before da pichas, lemme just tell a tale a bit, jst to refreshen da memory. but its all darn blurry already. ofcoz there's a lot to tell, and ive no idea to start from where. so i think i just leave it in me memory jerla eyh, and let da pichas do da words.

alhamdulillah, dpt byk sgt hadiah. ive expect sket, or none bcoz i dnt want to burden anyone. ive only wanted from all da guests are their prayers and doa and hopefully we all are blessed. but, evryone just love seeing me dwelled with tears. so thank you so much evryone!!! saya sgt berterima kasih dan sgt terharu di atas sume pemberian sume org!!!

and till last friday i still received gifts. sgt terharu kn? and dah dua minggu pun org masih lg ucapkn selamat pengantin baru which i replied delightly - eyh, dah x baru, dah dua minggu dah jadi pengantin =) but, since evryone in happy mood, why shud i ruin it rite? so let them be happy and i keep on smiling anyway...

overall, rite now, im blogging from cheras, our new home. well, my new home, since hp have lived here since last year. overall da surrounding is great, i love it here. but once evry while i miss home. rindu dkt sume org. no wonder evry bride cried after akad nikah, its da separation dat really hit rock bottom. umm, we did spend time here (cheras) and there (gombak) and lari² jugak so dat we wont makes evryone at home terasa kehilangan kitorg. at first, i thought mcm sume org wont feel dat way, but i was wrong. mak ckp dis and dat, made me feel awful and i do wana be in two places at a time, but dats not possible kan? hopefully evryone will adjust and adapt. and no worry, cheras n gombak is not dat far away, mcm ulang balik ke uniten jer rasanya. no more tears dah okeh ain?

thinks datsal nk bebbles. net, kaklin luperla bwk cable. skrang tgh try transfer guna gigi biru (blutooth) harap² dapatla eyh. so kakin try uplod gmbr nxt post okeh? kakin rasa nk berenti dulu tulis, tgh sakit pinggang nih td mengemop dgn kemas dgn masak dgn sidai n lipat kain. so i think i shud get some rest dah. nite² net and evryone, sweetdreams. assalamualaikum...

~ Alhamdulillah ~

terima kasih ya Allah sebab berikan hadiah teristimewa hari ni. You are the greatest ever!!!! ...alhamdulillah...

~ Moodydotes ~

damn... nape asyik nk naikkn suara jer dari td nih? ain plzla, just be nice. cuba control temper anda. jgnla asyik nk mendidih jer. but, i just cudnt help it. im being da mean me rite now. the nice one has left da building. so im just showing how i felt inside. tp harap sume org faham, bcoz the last thing i wana do now is cry. i wana be happy, so plz let me be happy and cherrish this moment till the end of my life...

okey, enough emo already. next post, which is kejap5 lagi, nak taruk gmbr yg diambil tdla. ala, gambar2 around da house nih. gmbr kemah, and all stuff. umm, jap lg turun nih nak kemas2kn bawah tuh. byk lgla yg x settle lagi. so, for da meanwhile, lets just be happy and stay happy okay. rindu kamu la net...

~ Yuppidates ~

assalamualaikum... moula.... ola... hulalala... orite, i think dats enuf for da greetings. wow, another post? blasah sudahla net kn? anyway, for dis entry, umm... kakin nk letak gmbr kakin try baju kawen tuh, tp is it x mengade2 net? shud i net post it before my actual wedding? ke nak tunggu dulu? tunggu dulu la eyh, nanti lps kenduri kakin taruk banyak gambar ok net?

hari ni dlm pala, nak p berspa span kejap, if god permit. klu x, byk sgt x settle dkt rumah nih, kensel jerla. next, nak settlekn all da goodie bags. haiyo, nak tawu x? memula kn plan nk bg yg dompet kecik2 tu jer kn net, yg kaklin belikn hari tu. tp last result nak bg sume org sorg satu goodie bag, bag kertas tuh, dlm die taruk kueh dgn dompet tuh, tp dlm dompet tu ada cekelat. dlm 5 ketul. byk tuh nk siapkn. darn it, kena channel all da effort ke situ pulak. kakin ingtkn nk senang kn kerje, ni lgla bertambah kerje. watever, enuf complaining alredy. settlekan sume sudah. next ofcoz da bilikla. haiyo ni pun satu hal. itu railing kena beli yg br pulak. nk kena double railing dgn a bit shorter, ngam2 2 metre, sbb yg ada nih terlebih sudah. so, hrp2 abg dptla p beli jap lg.

okay, wat else to membebbles about? hmm... rumah nih masih lg kena kemas2 lg nih. bersepah pesah siwot... argh, why don't we have a maid, biar die yg pening pala pulak skrang nih? darm... ain... please, this is what you are capable of, so this task rely on you. you can focus all your energy and be done with all this. just hanging there and be strong like always. compile all the mumbles, we can do it later. but right now ain, in just one more day, lets do our best shall we?

okay, enough sesi memotivasikan diri. i think i better start going. owh, good news net! hehe... bilik dah kemas, yela2 kemas sket jer. i mean standard kakin yg sgt low skrang nih, mmg sgt kemas dah nih net. okey, enough with da smirk on your face, kakin tawu kakin malas nk kemas bilik nih. sian kan bilik kte nih. mseti dier merajuk hari2 tgk kakin malas nk layan dier. watever, dah ain... enough shooty... back to work! all the best, lets do our best! assalamualaikum...

~ Yupdate ~

assalamualaikum... mesti kaklin ternanti2 wats da update so far kan? darn sorry net, router nih ha buat hal, time ni la die nak wat hal. kakin pun mcm nak hawin jer masuk sungai mende alah tuh. anyway, enough babbles, lets get to da update...

so, nak post gmbr, tp mcm sgt mengantuk, plus there's a lot to be done. kakin just taip skitla update for you not to feel leftout okay. im darn sad you can't be here net, but again its for the best. you are still my pengapit no matter how far/close you are, no body can take that away from you okay net, so lets hangin tough together...

so far, pelamin dah settle, khemah pun dah settle. alhamdulillah. cume bilik jer yg blum settle lg. and nk kena kemas2 like always. bilik kite pun lps nih kakin akn pull up all my strength and get it done before the sun rise...

to be honest, i am very glad and happy that evrythg is quite the same as ive imagine.... terima kasih Allah sbb memudahkan cara, mempermudahkan perjalanan yg kami tempuhi ini. semoga majlis ini mendapat keberkatan dan menyenangkan semua pihak. itu sahaja yg diharapkan daripada majlis ini. tiada apa yg lebih menggembirakan selain daripada melihat semua sanak-saudara berkumpul, semua menikmati saat2 kegembiraan ini bersama, dan Allah memberkati majlis ini... now dats wat we truly call the wedding of the year =)

orite, enough bluff. better get me bottom off and start rolling da engine (ape punya ayat nih? blasah sudah) net, i do hope we can berwebcam so dat you could also share my happy moments too okay net? lets aja aja fighting together okay net?

itu sahaja liputan yg boleh ditaip. akn ditaip lagi net, keep on reading okay? ...hugs and kisses... assalamualaikum...

~ Undangan Perkahwinan ~

muka depan kad

ayat al-quran yang h2b pilihkan

mengundang semua kawan-kawan yang sudi hadir sabtu ni

map untuk sampai ke rumah pengantin. harap² korang dapatla jumpe rumah nih

inilah kad jemputan yang x berapa nak cukup tuh. i wonder betul ke diorg print 600 nih? watever, korang yg buat salah, tanggungla sendiri eyh. i dont wana make a fuss out of it any more. kepada yang sudi hadir, its gona be a heavy traffic along da way. jalan kampung, sgt sempit. besar harapan agar korang x tersangkut dan bersabar dengan segala kesulitan yang bakal korang hadapi. papepun, didoakan agar segalanya berjalan dengan lancar. kite jumpa nanti eyh, jaga diri, assalamualaikum...

Summary

assalamualaikum... another 5/6 days to go. my feeling? xde pape perasaan. but more or less mcm sedey a bit, you're not gona be around @ my wedding net. tp, its for da best kan net. i love you, so i dnt wana jeopardise your future for me. so da result, no one is gona be my pengapit. if i can't have kaklin, then il have no one. stubborn as i sound, yup there's a kapla batu inside. watever, lets move on...

so, i did have my sauna. and i think i shed quite a few kilos back there. nak tawu dkt mana i did my sauna? none other than depan rumah ni ha... for a couple of times, saya telah potong rumput di bawah terik mentari. terasa macam menjadi petani gitu. well, abah bought a new mower, and dis one is ringan and quite good mower, so dats how i did my sauna. why do we have to mow da land? bcoz nanti tempat itu akn dijadikan parkir kereta. and khemah pun akn didirikan di situ. so, have to work faster to settle da lalang2 in time, lets aja aja fighting!!!

other than that, on friday, we celebrate teachas day! its was a okay day, but to be honest, it was great! i received a lot of pressie which made me dwelled with tears. i mean, budak dat evryday i marah2 die, he gave me a sweet present. sgt terharu! il put da pichas later la eyh. then, i did enter sukaneka and played da game with a combined teacha-stud team. overall, walalupun ntah hape2 since they didnt explain da rules quite well, it was fun. my studs has been very cooperative and eager to win. so we got the consolation gift, dapat hamper. we divide it equally, and evryone is happy.

so later, we had nasik minyak! which is awesome sbb nanti during my kenduri, mkn nasik beriyani, bkn nasik minyak =( (so i was told) tak kesahla nasik paper, janji sedap n sume org happy sudahla. again, im inviting evryone to come and have a good time at my wedding. hopefully i can meet evryone dis saturday...

after sume dah settle (mana nk tutup buku register lg, nak masuk sukaneka, nak dgr/tgk shows) finally, we can enjoy our skool break!!! but, its gona be a busy two weeks holiday too, sbb nak tanda kertas periksa and my wedding lg. so, lets settle evrythg one at a time okay!

umm... later, as promised dgn ina, ina being a very sweet and kind friend, accompany me to do my hair! it was a very long/mengantuk time at da saloon, i fell asleep while the hairstyler did my hair. ina pun while waiting for me, she fell asleep on da couch. after 4 hours, finally my hair is done, and da result is superb. i hope my h2b gona love my hair, and i really love my hair so much right now. enough bout my hair, as its not suppose to be discuss in here.

however, i did feel awful along da way as i didnt tell mak im goin back late and where did i go. i wana tell mak first, but with da credit xdenye such and such, i prayed silently so dat mak wont worry as much...

and i am way wrong, as i switch da phone and looked at how many miscalled ive received. minta maaf mak, ive choose a wrong matrix dis time and made mak worried. should have choose da other path, but being ignorant and selfish like always, da result is making mak worried. thanks a lot ain, you did such a great job! sheesh...

thank god when i reached home after sending ina home, bcoz of the pressies, evryone is happy unwrapping them espeacially naim. mak tanya dis and dat, and i told mak dat i did my hair. nasib mak x marah, cuma mak ckp yg mak risau and call x berangkat. but later, mak pun okay je. little dat i know, pak tam, mak tam and evryone is here. cuma imad jer xde. but its okay, dapat main2 dgn syafika n izni pun dah best. overall, its really a tiring day for friday.

yesterday, umm... it was quite a downer day. to begin with, boleh x sebelum jumpe jurunikah kena p pejabat agama and settle da borang 1st? so isu borang is still on duh! dont asked wat happen, im not gona elaborate on dat, so im praying hard on monday we can settle evrything on isu borang nih. and later, we (h2b and me)went to potostet kad kawen. sorry for those yang dapat kad potostet, our kad is finish. but on da brighter side, da potostet kad is made by me, da bride. as simple as it is, i design and made it myself. so jgnla ada yg terasa hati yea. klu terasa jugak, let me blanja nasik beriyani okeh?

so for those that wishes to come, please give me your address. hopefully before saturday you guys will receive da kad. evryone is invited, so do come and share da happy moment. il post da ori scan kad later, have a look okay.

think datsal for my post. will write some more. take care evryone, have a happy skool breaks! assalamualaikum

~ Next Week ~

alhamdulillah... my paper today is done without many hassle. now tinggal nk menandanye la pulak. plus i didnt finish da skema yet. ain, bile mau buat nih? evryone is waiting you know? sorry guys, ive no idea why my hands x mo wat itu skema la....

apart from dat, hmm... i think evrythg is okay, alhamdulillah. syukur pada Allah yg sentiasa memudahkan cara, yang sentiasa memberi petunjuk, yg sentiasa menolong hamba-Nya nih bilamana hati ini sgt merintih hiba... thank you Allah, ive no words to describe my gratitude for you...

so, next week this is it. finally the time is here for us to be hand in hand. ive been waiting for years for this moment. it is worth waiting for actually. harap semua akan berjalan lancar, the way ive picture it in mind. kawan2, doakanla yea.

umm, ive no idea wat to elaborate more. till next post then i guess. take care evryone, hopefully we can meet next week. dah lama dah x jumpa korang kan? btw, da card will be post tomorrow, hopefully they will arrive by this week la kan? orite, signing off... assalamualaikum...

-- Compile --

- esok my paper -

budak2 nih exam math. takutnye klu ada soalan yg salah. and i didnt prepare the scheme yet. kinda pening pala skrang nih. i did staple n sorted accordingly to classes dah. but still i dnt kno why im having dis kinda feeling. mcm cuak jer selagi paper math nih budak2 x jawab lg. dats why no update n no reply for comments. perasaan yg ntah hape2 nih still melanda, so just bear with me okay?

- me wedding -

uumm, so far, okayla. not gona elaborate on it much. will see hows it goes. lps abis paper math esok, baru nk kelam kabut poskn semua kad2 pada kawan2. sementara waktu nih, just bear with me okay?

- household -

abah demam, doakan abah cepat sembuh. moody jer abah, so semua kena bersikap baik. kesian kaklin, abah x kasi balik. tp i still want you to come bck, be my pengapit. klu x dpt jugak, wat to do kn? i know abah intention is good, suruh kaklin belajar rajin2, tp kakin kawen sekali sajer net. no more after dis. but i guess aper la sgt wedding kan? x dtg pun xperla. wateverla kn? malas nk pk la...

- wat else -

wish me luck tomorro. harap2 semua berjalan lancar. insyaAllah selasa sume brg2 akan dpt di settlekn. then tunggu jerla for da wedding kn? ramai pun x dpt nk dtg. which is okayla to me. cume takut makanan byk terlebih pulak. itu lain cerita lah kan? yg penting makanan cukup, bukannya x cukup. klu x cukup, then it's gona be a problem. terlebih, xperla kot.

- LDP -

sabtu lps ada ldp again. tp kali ni, pegi sgt selebet okay. dahla bgn lmbt, cincai bersiap. seb baik pki mekap jugak, evntho 1st thought xmo pki. x pki name tag, and pki selipar jer. then guess wat? ive to present for my group! best kn? time ni la korg letak nama aku utk present eyh? blasah jerla. since mengajar math, so kenala present in english kan? seb baik lancar jer present, cume tgn jer yg menggigil sbb pegang/guna mic. damn... my microphonephibia still onla, bila nk cure nih? five minutes feel like five hours. thank god i ended finally. xtaula markah bape, janji dah setel.

-/+ okay, thinks datsal nak bebbles. sorry for not updating regularly, a lot of things kinda occupied my mind. so till later okay, take care and stay healthy eyh. drink plenty of water and have enough rest. assalamualaikum...

-- Hmm --

assalamualaikum... ola, watcha doin? ai net, lama dah x borak dgn kamu. sgt rindu la... kaklin sehat x? hows evrythg over there? here evrythg pun quite alright, alhamdulillah. not to worry ok net...

so, wat to write? umm... today the exam will be started with paper bm and pjk. wish them all the best this evening, hopefully they all will pass with flying colors. btw, i did made some promises with these kids, and if they did succeed, they sure burn a huge hole in my pocket. but its okay, the intention is for them to study and struggle hard, and if they are worth it, i would gladly hand them the so wanted pressie.

owh, btw... i would to invite evryone who happen to read this crappy blog of mine to witness our lovely day this coming june. im so sorry if i didn't drop you the card, in hoping that through virtual invitation will be enough (kes kad x cukup la nih) jgnla merajuk atau terasa sekiranya x dpt kad eyh. and you couldn't make it pun it's still okay, we can meet some other time kan i suppose...

umm, net... it's okay to drop comments in here. kakin x marah lah, aper daa... sama jer mcm zuhrin, takut kakin marah sbb korang kacau blog nih. this blog pun intentionly for you both okay? so that you guys can always read my mind, you guys can understand my unstable heart. so no fear, my dear, please be here, to hear my cheers... and some other stuffs too eyh?

enough bebbles... wow bebbles sound more executive then bebel. from now on, bebbles = bebel. get it? what ever la kan? so okay net, think thats all the bebbles i can come up with. will bebbles more on the next post. nite2, sweetdreams, assalamualaikum...

Majuk =(

i hate it when we said sumthg clearly and its darn clearly stated, da other party is i dnt kno, deaf or too ignorant and made stupid mistakes...

yup, dats my opening line. sgt terasa nak ketuk je pala org itu. how are you doin business la like dis? wat kind of business you are running? watever, ive no more intention to mention about dis matter. so lets cut to the chase...

yup, evryone... my card is finally completed!!!!!! wat a long shoutout, due to the stress i just felt right now. its kinda like half done than wat my expectation/request/criteria is. the biggest looser of all, the card IS LATE!!! wat kind of express service when its late? so its ok, since they will refund back. next, ive order my card to be with a pocket. da lame reason is dat, da pocket is musnah binasa disebabkn hujan and will have to re-do it again, and will be finish dis monday. i said no thank you and cut da cost again.

next, i asked the inlay to be done in somewhat thicker/exclusive paper (which they are the one who recommended it), but they seems to forgot about it again, thus another cutting cost. in a way h2b explain it to me, ofcoz besar hikmahnye. but i just cudnt quite swallow it yet, so that's why the sulky face just now.

i cant help mself from feeling a lot a bit frustrated seeing the card isn't the way it suppose to be. but, again like h2b put it, it's just a card. so lighten up a bit, beside we can channel the refund money for our house, our other stuffs...

when we got back home, i showed it to abah. thank god no complaint, only on the complicated map. so please dear readers, follow the map with full caution. it's quite tricky to reach here, and i do hope evryone will be here safe and sound.

owh, i will ofcourse put the card here. but not tonight, since im still not in the mood to be looking at it again, sigh...

take care evryone, how weekend flies, now it just sunday and monday will come again. why can't it be saturday evryday? sigh... orite, enough sighing already, just swallow what life throws at you and stop complaining, i had enough of complaining already.

take care, be good, assalamualaikum...

... Just ...

assalamualaikum... yola... olala... okay, enuf greeting already la... so, how's evryone? how are you net? terasa mcm dah lama x borak dgn kaklin. bile kite nak chat lg nih net? when you're not busy la eyh. gudluck with your study, you can do IT!!!

apa mau cite nih eyh? umm, to start with, a birthday shoutout for abang!!! selamat hari jadi abang. bile mau bagi saya kakak ipar nih? muahaha, gurau² jer. apa² pun saya doakan abang akan terus berjaya dalam semua cabaran yg abang tempuhi. luper pulak, 8/5 hari tuh pun bday naim. x tulis entry pun pasal bday naim. apsal eyh? ntah, byk mendela skrang nak pk. tp, bday naim hr tuh, ada jugakla beli kek, dgn piza like always. so naim, dah besar dah nih, naim kena buat sume sendri dah ok? nih keje skolah pun nak tunggu kakin/mak nak tolong, barula nak buat. mulai skrang naim kena belajar utk buat sendiri ok, lebih berdikari tawu?

dats about bday greeting. well, there's another greeting i suppose, which is da techa day. but me skool celebrate quite late, which is after da exam. however, maknye skolah celebrate dis coming monday and i wud like to present me mak sumthg too dis year. so ain, will you plz make da order by dis weeked? tqvm...

so wat happen in skool? umm, tomorrow ada ldp la pulak, and have to be in skool at 7.30. wat a torture great weekend to spend kan? after dat, we (h2b n i) will hopefully goin to pick da card and hopefully will be settle by tomorro. btw, for two days dis week, parent came to see me. about their kids since im da class teacha. so talk about their brats kids dis and dat, more toward apraisal of their small good deed rather than da bad one. i felt sorry for the parent actually, i know how humiliating to come to skool and face da teachas, and their did come and concern bout their kid, which is great. so rather than talking on and on bout their bad behaviour, i talk about little of their good behaviour too...

hopefully, we cud get da kad asap. if not, then we will go and settle buying me gifts!!! im not picky, so watever h2b like, i love them also. so most of my gifts are chosen by h2b and me too ofcoz.

i think datsal to write. wana go down and ngacau adik muahaha. kesian adik, die selesema pulak. moody sket hehe. td pi pasar malam pun adik moody jer. smoga cepat sembuh ek dik. orite, till next time. take good care evryone. lets pray for evryone safety. together, we strive for da best. assalamualaikum...

A Smile =D

assalamualaikum... hows evryone today? hows today? hope dat evrythg and evryone is great. so, wussup eyh? quite okayla. but da last two period really boiled my blood to da max. ive no idea wat to do with dis brats? nak lempang, anak orang. nak tendang, anak orang. last² aku pkila tektik rahsia utk mendiamkn budak² nih. aper die? malasla mau cite, kite cite mende lain okay?

but dis evening, im darn happy coz h2b is picking me up from skool. as h2b drop me off to skool too. so i felt like a wife already, where da hubby send and pick his darling wife from work. awesome kan? wat a great feeling, thank you Allah so much =)

so, we went to da kedai kad, but like my hunch has spoken b4, da kad isnt finish yet. its either tomorrow, or friday. so we will see by then. but if nothing is done, then please refund da express charge eyh?

later, since our kad isnt available yet, we went to carre*four again. perform maghrib prayer, then have our dinner. quite full, alhamdulillah smpi x abis makan. minta maaf ya Allah, i really cudnt understd why i cant finish my food like i use to. i think my tummy had shrunk la. mkn sket terus penuh. its not dat ive lost my appetite, its just dat, i think im full when im half done. i know its bad to throw away good food, but sorry, i just cudnt stuff all of it down my throat. please forgive me ya Allah...

after diner, we look around da shops. and we manage to cross some of the things from our checklist. so great, alhamdulillah. there's a bit more to finally finish crossing the items, i hope we can finish it by this week.

owh, btw ive made my full payment for da pelamin. cut budget in a lot of things, so about 1k we cud save up da spenditure. i know wedding is once in a lifetime, but i think its better to think the after effect of the wedding. wat i had in mind bout my wedding is, the guest is happy, plenty of food for evryone, and da kenduri is blessed by evryone dat came. dats my ultimate wedding dream. but ofcoz in the most sensible and pleasant for evryone. other than dat, nothg fancy, nothg biggie, just simple and suitable for all of the guest.

hmm... i didnt know dat its gona cost a lot, dis lot for a wedding. never once i read in any wedding stories, telling da cost is quite a bomb. i kno, probably no one is about da bragging. but its good to kno da price in details so dat i can expect da bomb to explode on my face first hand. but, all in all, evrythg is settle, so yup da bomb did explode and we survive, alhamdulillah...

so back home, thank god h2b is around to shell me from kena marah sbb balik lambat. so, h2b yg kena marah =p h2b told dis and dat, abah pun marah skit jerla. wat to do kan, im 27 and i still have a curfew. now im feeling like im still twelve, dat lil gal who is grounded and can never hang out with her friends bcoz me daddy and mommy loves me very much and will always shield me from any harm. i kno dat my parent is always concern with all of their kids, and im still living under their roof, so obey is a must and making them happy yes i shall...

overall, quite a day today. and alhamdulillah it finally rained after a few days of blasting hot weather. indeed its a blessing from Allah, thank you Allah for da rain. it made us all truly happy =D

think dis is all dat i got in mind. its nearly weekend already. so lets work hard to enjoy our weekend. aja aja fighting!!! assalamualaikum...

A While

ola... assalamualaikum... hmm, been 5 days since last post. nothg to write actually, more just toward ramblings. but wat da heck, lets ramble anyway la ek...

so da update? wat we did/buy last weekend? hmm, nothin much. h2b n me went to buy sum more stuff for us. we manage to buy da jewellery (necklace-for me, ring-for h2b) and also i bought h2b a perfume. so my list for him just left with one only! da baju melayu. i hope we can finally find da baju dat h2b loves. so still in search for da baju, and my other stuff too. lets finish crossing all of da list by this week, or next week, or whenever da list can be crossed...

umm, dis morning, h2b and i will be getting our cards. hopefully da card is ready when we're goin to pick it up. or else, we will ask for refund since its not done expressly.

other than dat, wat a big sigh each time i saw my student buat perangai. im embarrased and malas-nak-layan-dah and bengang jadi cikgu kelas budak² nih. why is it so difficult to be a good student and wont make a mess till da final bell ring? haiyo, asyik nk kena marah jerla budak2 nih. im so kesian and pity these kids but they are da one who's looking for trouble. sorry guys, you must pay da price for evrythg. nothg comes free these days honey. no money, no honey...

umm, just wana pinch a bit on my question paper. ada salah pulak da, typo-error i guess. seb baik noticed b4 da test. klu x, kesian budak² ni. cedera parah urat saraf diorg kira² and then x dpt jawapan...

another pinch of thoughts... well, sumtimes doin your best can lead you sumwhere else i guess. wat im trying to say is, ive been chosen to do da explorace again. but this time isnt for da kids. but other than da kids, you got wat i mean? *raising eyesebrows* so ive no idea wat to install for this game. have to think through. seriously, been imagining da scenarios and da possibility on how da day may be, but still in da planning mode, nothg biggie. but when da clock is ticking like HaLLL, then il press da pb button, alritey?

so thinks datsal. better catch some sleep. i dnt know why, but lately its been hard to fall off to sleep. tossing and turning here n there but no avail. do you guys have da same problem? care to share your experience?

nite² evryone, and a very good morning too i suppose. may your day today better than yesterday. so, lets do our best and be the best. Fighting!!! assalamualaikum...

~ Minta Maaf ~

tadi masa tgh online, terdengar mcm nama kena panggil. tp kekadang tuh terasa mcm terperasan jer nama kena panggil. then dgr betul², rupa²nya abah panggil. terus berlari turun. cari² abah, x jupe cari. rupa²nya abah dkt luar. abah suruh bukakkan pintu cage putih tuh, sbb abah dpt tangkap kucing jantan yg jahat sgt tuh. then by the time i understood wat abah is asking me to do, kucing tuh cakar² abah, dan dapat melepaskan diri. abah sgt kecewa, i apologise many² times. i let my dad down, minta maaf abah = "(

minta maaf sbb terpekakkan telinga, i really didn't expect abah will call for me. i thought abah is calling for naim. im really sad and frustrated by myself. dis is it ain, next time, whether abah or mak is calling for someone else, just attend to them and be alert, respond to surrounding and pay attention. if not, il be a dissapointment again...

i cant erase da looks from abah. very dissapointed and frustrated. i felt like no others too. arghhh, why cant i listen carefully tadi? dont you have ears ain? duh, wat a dumb question anyway...

i hope tgn abah yg kena cakar td tuh cpt baik. im so worried rite now since abah ada diabetes. please pray for the wound to heal faster. kesian abah, i really broke his hart.

then my h2b call and asked evrythg alrite, which i sadly replied nooo, an inch close sobbing to tears. then he asked, wats wrong and i spill evrythg. he listen quietly and promised to catch dat jahat punya kucing yg dah cakar tgn abah. i really hope kucing tuh pegi jauh2 dari rumah kami, sbb kucing tuh mmg terlampau jahat sgt, die klu masuk rumah ni jer, dier suka pancut². habis baju2 yg dah lipat, kusyen and evrythg else lg die kencing. bangang giler, suka curi lauk, suka gaduh dgn kucing kitorg smpi kucing tuh tershitty evrywhere and bb yg kena basuh and da list of his evilness will go on!!!

but h2b did lift my spirit up. and cheer me =) saya sudah mampu tersenyum kembali =) alhamdulillah. cuma, saya berdoa pada Allah agar luka di tgn abah cepat sembuh. Ya Allah, sembuhkanla tgn abah, its my stupid mistakes ya Allah, please forgive me and heal abah's wound ~ amin...

dah berkali² minta maaf pada abah. harap abah jgnla kecewa lagi dgn anaknya ini. i know abah isnt dissapointed just bcoz of dis incident, it stretches longer than dat. and i kno dat very well. but i wont elaborate more on dat. so by dat, i do promise dat i wana be a better daughter, so dat abah and mak will always happy with us...

and yesterday, h2b lost his phone bcoz of me too. on his way here, i called him and asked whether he cud stop by at dat pasar malam and buy roti goreng for naim. mula² naim asked me to go to pasar mlm tuh, tp i was busy cooking dinner, so i called h2b instead. and while he was at da pasar malam, pencuri bongok telah curi my h2b phone. but, h2b always find the way to take evrythg in the other way around. he uses logic and common sense which i rarely use. he accepted the lost and make me accepted the lost too. by losing, you will gain something too, insyaAllah...

kinda feel low and down at da moment and i just dont know why. please bounce back from this state ain. its ok to feel sorrow and sadness, but too much of it will bring nothg but misery. be strong and stay strong, always looks at da brighter side and postive thinking is da way to go. take a deep breath, hold it and let it go. believe in Allah, have faith in Allah at all time. you can do this ain, aja aja fighting!!!

wow, wat a long run just to mutter about how sad i am, dat i made my dad frustrated. dis post really is a murmur for myself, dis is how i talk to myself. so dat i wont do it again next time. so dat i will respond better next time. so dat i will be better next time. so say all you want, called me freak or watever, heck i wont care any less bcoz dis is me. when i feel sad, i write. when im down, i write. again, i used to write in my lil book, always write my thoughts in there. but dis time, i will simply write in here, just for a change. but i wont make it a habit, probably i would. i dnt kno, well who knows anyway rite?

till here, sorry for keeping you reading dis long when you probably had something better to do. like always, take care and dont ever let someone dear to you down. bcoz da hartbreakin is da equal amount for both party. always be a better person evry single day. so let aja aja fighting evryone!!! assalamualaikum...

-/+ Clueless +/-

assalamualaikum... ola net, watcha doin? umm, xtau nk tulis ape kali nih. hows ur exam td? boleh jawabkn? im praying dat you will get a good grade. if not, we can always try again kan. so aja aja fighting!!!

so hows today? today been great. alhamdulillah, syukur pada nikmat yg telah Allah berikan. dapat ketenangan jiwa, kekuatan iman utk terus menempuh hidup ini. its a tough fight for survival, each of us faces a great deal of ordeal. so lets pray so dat we will all win dis battle, dat we will be rewarded with jannah towards da end...

movin on, umm... masa tgh mengaja in dis one class, where all da girls are friendly and talkative, suka sgtla nk menyembang dgn cikgu nih. im like, layan jerla budak² nih. they asked dis and dat, smpi x terlarat nk bersembang. anyway, it did made me realise when dis girl asked me "cikgu, cikgu nak kahwin dah kan?" (i did told them dat im bout to be married) "ha ah, 6 haribulan 6 nih, lambat lagi kan" and then she's kerut2kn muka and terkira². "tapi cikgu, cikgu nk kawen bulan depan lah kan?" im really like, dalam hati 'ha ah lah, lagi sebulan jer tinggal, why do i feel like it will take forever to get to my wedding day?'

wow people!!! next month im gona be married!!! nape mcm x sedar jer yg x byk masa lg yg tinggal nih. and there's a lot of stuff to do here. aiyark!!! shud i turn on da panic button rite now? HaLLLLLLL yESSSSSSS!!!

da pb will be turn on, but not just yet. il leave it as it is, work in a very poise manner, let evrythg fall into places, do evrythg in delicate and as calm as possible. and if dis all doesnt work, then il let h2b to handle evrythg. he's my rock, and rockon we will =D

orite, enuf babble bubble. il write some more some other time. thanks net for always stopping by. i miss you so very much, waiting and counting days to meet you =D goodluck kaklin for your study. i know ure gona excel and exceed in flying colors. have faith in yourself, you're da best and you know you are. take care, be safe and respond to your surrounding. assalamualaikum...

~ No Idea ~

olaaaaaaaaaaaa..... wah panjangnye shoutout =) hello evryone, assalamualaikum... umm... i dnt kno wats dis entry gona be like. there's no story to tell actually, but my fingers cant stop fidgeting on da keyboard, so let me do typing in ere...

to start with, dis evening, i finally wash da cars. wat a long evening since ive to wash three cars. actually, i just wana wash da kelisa, but being me, i cant just wash my car and let mak dgn abahnye kete kotor and its been a long time since ive wash van abah. and abah wont go to car wash to wash da van. so orite then, dis evening il just wash da three cars.

to start with, ive wash da van. punyela lama jugak nak settlekn van tuh since ive wash it alone. dgn angin sepoi2 bahasanya, makes me shiver alover. da tayars, pergh sgt hitamla da rims. penat gak nk menonyoh keluarkn segala kekotoran. and made my fingernails all blacky and i hate it. about half and hour, finally da van dah settle.

next on line, kete mak. well, kete mak kete kecik jer, so it doesnt cost me much time. and kete mak pun sometimes mak ada hantar ke car wash, so xdela kotor mcm unser abah. wash here and there, dah settle kete mak. next is kelisa...

so basuh kelisa pun xdela thorough sgt. just simply wash and get done with it. usually, long time ago, i polish la, waxla. nowadays, malas nk layan. janji x kotor sgt, sudahla. basuh kelisa, adik is around to help. adik yg spraykn da water, thus we complete it quite faster. later, dah abis basuh kelisa, its time for da interior part pulak. sampah2 yg ada dibuang, lapik kaki pun dikibas² kotoran² itu. smpi maghribla baru nk settle tiga² tuh...

so dats da story for today, kesah membasuh kete. nothg much, i know. tp nk jugak cite kn? watever... owh, today i made kari ayam. tp mak komen on da wings dat i didnt cut here and there. nasibla x komen bout da taste. klu x, sure a downer lg = "( hopefully in time, i can be a better cook for my family and for my children. i hope dat one day my children can proclaim dat their mother is da best cook ever! wow, tingginye berangan. so com'on ain, you can do it!!!

orite, thinks datsal for dis post. we'll see wat tomorrow brings. looking forward for a brand new week, which means its gona get closer for my wedding!!! now im fidgeting allover! aja aja fighting!!! lets do our best, shall we? take care, stay safe... assalamualaikum...