Thursday, November 26, 2009

~ Present ~

~ Presenting ~

assalamualaikum... sorry net and evryone for such a long pause. mean to write sooner, but with da final exam coming along and tonnes of stuff to do before da skool break, i just cud barely keep up! thank god almighty evrythg is over and i can sit back at home and relax and wait for dis lil one to arrive. dis is da present, da gift i keep on playing in my mind dis few weeks to get tru till today and boy i am so glad its finaly over, alhamdulillah...

i kno i sound super exageratting when it came to skool. i mean aperla yg sgt miserable bout da place anyway? to me evry single second is like living hall, how twisted and turn, how in misery i am till the clock strike 6.50 pm evry single day dis past few months! i shudnt be writin bout dis anyway, i mean there are times when i do have great time, but to educate dis kids, really drain every drop of my energy and i am teribly exhausted til now. i dnt kno how mak and other teacha can cope and love wit wat they are doin, salute to them all.

anyway, da kids are bein such a sweethart prior to the last days and they knew im not gona be around nxt year. how hartbreakin hearing and seein their faces, and i do cherish all da time spent with them, but it's time for my family now. dis lil one will arrive insyaAllah next year, so i wana be here 247 to raise and give all my focus and love to him/her. beside, i knew they will be fine, and im just another teacha, and soon will be forgotten. my prayers are to them, and hopefully they will excel in their studies...

enuf bluff, so hows evryone doin? tomorrow we will be celebrating hari raya! im always excited and lookin forward for raya, be it raya aidilfitri, or aidiladha. takbir raya is exactly wat im lookin forward to actually. i love hearing it over and over again, and wished i cud hear it throughout the entire year. speaking bout raya, umm we didnt decide about it yet, where to spend da raya, so lets just wait and see how raya turnout dis time. il write bout it, insyaAllah...

~ Birthday Present ~

i kno its a lil bit too late to write bout my bday last month. but its kinda sweet evryone remembered and all da thoughts dat really melted me. it started with this sweethart kids who bought me a cake and we had da potong kek in class. and da present they gave me which is sgt terharu also.

then mak called and being such a wonderful loving mak, mak and bb datang bawak kek for me too to skool. how much melted hart i cud handle dat day! sgt terharu, and mak and bb evn brought me da maternity dress in pink! sgt comel and sgt termengalir air mata with all da love i received! thank you Allah, and my hartful thanks to evryone. see, dis world isn't dat bad ain! there are plenty of love to go around.

later, when hp pick me up from skool, i saw another cake at da back seat! im like wow, dis lil one sure is gona have a sugar rush today! and hp me gave me wat i really wanted all this time, mp3 player. just a simple mp3 player wich i cud stuff in my ears whenever i had to sit in a long ceramah@skool. no offense, da ceramah is good tho, but sumtimes all dis listenin do grew such a boredom inside of me, so better be listenin to sumthg good than start yawning in da midle of da crowd. da mp3 isn't quite as simple as i hope for, since i cud record any song from any station or other stuff for example in a meeting, or wateverla dat i want to record. cool kan? thanks hunny, you're always da best!

and to evryone dat send me birthday wishes, you are awesome and rock my world. thank you so much, i am spoilt with love dat day. how lucky i am, thank you Allah for evrythg, You're da best ever!!!

~ Present Lil One ~

how's lil one doin? he/she is doin great, alhamdulillah. evrythg is fine, only dat my blood kinda got to da roof a bit. 147/74, xdela tinggi sgt kan? and got some "talks" from da dr. bout how late we are for our real maternity checkup. previously, we just went to clinics for da scans and gravol supply, and since im not havin any problems, beside da previous2 checkups says dat i AM fine (i didnt have any antenatal card/book), but dis time around, thanks to my blood pressure, i had to had da "talks" by da doc. well, not gona explain myself why dis happen, it just did! anyway, we think we finally choose da place we are goin to deliver our lil one, which is @ az-zahrah, bangi.

so next month, we're gona go again for da nxt checkup and hopefully, with evrythg dah settle, my blood wont go up dat much. but i dnt kno, im seein a lot of beautiful stars lately, and by pretty, it's so pretty and beautiful. and then i feel like blackout. dis happen, when im in crowded area with lotsof people, around smokers dat huff and puff like they are baking sumthg from their lungs and last but da very least is when im @ dis one class dat really shoot my blood to da stars! then im start seeing dis beautiful stars and im such in a peace state (ofcoz in a dangerous statela kan?) when dis happen, i just take a deep breath, close my eyes firmly and stand perfectly still. it will go away, but then i will feel sad bcoz dis stars too will go away...

whenever im facing dis situations, dis lil one i dnt kno, somehow trying so hard to comfort me by twisting and making moves dat tickle me so much dat made me so hard not to laugh (aper ke hal cikgu ni gelak sorg2 lps dah marah2 tahap gaban kan?) seriously, dis one time, dis one particular student i dnt kno why he's super hyper, berlari lara dalam kelas, and shoutin at da top of his lungs, im like nak jer lempang pakai kasut okeh?!! but then again, dis lil one, makin his/her moves and i smile a bit, and went to dat budak, talk some senses into him and he did stop, finally behave like a normal person again. dis kids is always like dis after recess and 1/2 hour before balik. sgt super hyperla diorg nih. dats why im so x larat nak handle and feel like quitting evry single day.

it is such a wonderful feeling having dis lil one in me. whenever i felt sad/down/angry, it feel like dis lil one try to smooth and comfort me so much. and evry moves does tickle hunny! you're full of love and sumtimes i feel like i dnt deserve you sweety. im really not a good mummy, but im trying my hardest hunny. mummy promise to give you all my loves, instead it happen da other way around. forgive me...

~ Just Present ~

umm, dis morning we went to mv to watch da new moon, and da morning session is sold out! we manage to buy 8.40pm ticket so we will go again tonight. speakin of movies, to celebrate my last day as a teacha, we did a movie marathon last monday. we watched 1st-Jennifer's Body, 2nd-Planet 51 and da last one Christmast Carol. and last last sunday, we watched 2012 and we got da free tote bag.

i used da bag to carry dis kids exam papers. i didnt realise dat dis kids wud actually notice da bag, and so does some other teacha. we ended up talkin bout da movie and aderla mende nk borak. but lately, my head is too heavy to carry any conversation, due to lotsa things to settle before da skool is over. seriously, da checklist is long and since im looking forward to da skool break, im always ahead with da signatures on da paper. i kno its not such a big deal, but when seeing a lot of "autograph" on dat paper, it just made my day! later, all in all, evrythg is finish, and i dnt have to see skool no more, except when i start sending my own kids to da skool dat is...

~ End Present ~

so a lot has been typed in here. again, typical me dumpin evrythg in one go. again net, sorry sgt lama x update. kakin tawu kaklin selalu bukak blog ni. i hope i didnt let you down dat much. i miss you terribly and can't wait to see you again. congrats net for da good result, see i kno you can do it, and you always will. have faith and all of us wish you da very best! nanti kite jupe lagi okey? nanti kakin update lagi eyh, probably selalu smpi kaklin xmo baca dah =p so evryone, take care, and may da force be with us like always. till here, assalamualaikum...

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