Twins

While watching channel 733; Home and Health we just had a light conversion on what was displayed on the tv. "I wonder how's our life would be kalau ada twin. Mesti kelam kabut kan?" I said to hp. " Dapat pulak twin lelaki, dah ada anak lelaki empat. You'll be the only female in the house". Hp always said we will having only boys, tapi I will still wait for my little girl to be with me. We can never lose hope kan? Ok, saja-saja je nak taip what's in my mind. In the pinky-pinky mode, tambah pula lps tgk nina yang comel tu, lagila geram =)

Sungguh Comel

I will play this clip every time I open You Tube. Nina, kamu sungguh comel. Praying for one day to have a lil daughter with me as well. For now, lets have a good time with my boys first =) 

Together Again =)

Last Sunday was the most awaited day for both of us; Zairil and I since it is the day hp came home. after leaving us for 5 days, he's finally here again with us. how I wish he never leaves, but since it is job related, how could I say no to that. In fact, I am the one who encourage him to go despite of his hot and cold decision about leaving us behind.

Any way, we manage the five days without him. Zairil is being such an angel for four days, but a bit tricky on the last day of hp's arrival. But I didn't mind, because my heart is blossoming with love that what ever Zairil did, I just look at it with one eye and told myself to find my happy place so that I wont be so upset with him.

So as we've discussed before, Zairil and I will pick hp @ the LCCT. I'm questioning and in doubt of myself; can I do this? can I drive with Zairil seriously? I never did it before, and I never intend to do it, but putting that aside so that I could finally see hp, I just said to myself; YOU CAN DO IT!!!

I really hope I could do it. I have prepared mental list of what to do on Sunday. Upon waking up, I will take care of the house first. Do all the chores; clean, laundry, vacuum and mopped with Zairil's help of course =) Then we had our meals. Later, played with Zairil just to kill the time.

The clock start ticking really fast when it strike 7 pm. I bathed si kecil, put on best cloth on him, then it's time for me to get ready. The clock keep ticking away, and now it is about 8 pm. I made Zairil's milk and let him drink it while I packed all his stuff to the car.

Another trick the car played on me. hp told me on how to use the child lock at the back seat, but I didn't really listen to him thinking, he can do it again next time. So here i am, trying to turn the lock button. But when i tried to shut the door, the door wont close. Arghhh!!! what did i do wrong this time? In my mind, I was thinking of calling hp saying that I couldn't pick him up. Then, I took a very deep breath, thinking what if I pull the door's handle before I shut the door, it might work. So it did, thank god.

Later, I ran upstairs and perform Isyak prayer, then we made our move. For ten minutes, Zairil did well in his car seat, the rest of the journey, not so much. So i distracted him by offering baby bites and air ribena, and that kept him busy at the back.

Umm, i thought the journey will be smooth till LCCT, but we did face a lil bit of heart pounding moment where this huge trailer lorry shifted to my lane in a sudden and at the right lane there's this speeding car honking along the way. Thank god i sped and pass the lorry. Only god know how hard my heart was beating and my knees are shaking.

Then, alhamdulillah smooth journey ahead and when we reached LCCT, hp's plane had landed. So we have to wait for a while for hp. Thank you Zairil for being such a darling at the airport.

Afterward we had McD at KLIA just because i think their strawberry shake is the best. But we didn't stay long as it is almost midnight and by the look of hp's face, i can tell how tired he was. But he drove us home anyway because i don't think i want to drive after such experience.

Anyway, this entry just to let my thoughts out, out from where ever it came from. It is such a long post for something not so extraordinary ( to me it is ). Now he's here, so don't you ever run away from me again young lady?! - quote from Monster Inc.

- Currently -

currently, i couldn't upload any photos at da moment. thus, the blog will be photoless. will be able to upload da photos hmm... i dont kno when?! so, for da mean time, i'm thinking of laying low a bit from dis blog. hence, latest update will be able till i dont kno when?! take care evryone...

T.T.F.N

The Perfect Week EVER!!!

ola, assalamualaikum everyone!!! hi net, sgt sgt sgt rindu pada kamula, and a bit sad, ok tipu... sgt sgt sgt sad dkt airport x dpt jumpa kamu before your flight took off. i cried like si kecil, sgt sgt sgt sedeh jugak dat morning. i thought we could make it on time, hmm silly me. but it's ok, hp ckp if and only if we have extra budget, then we'll get to see you there ok. for now, i miss you mucho =/

wow, byknya sgt =D anyway, hi evryone. how's evryone doing so far? praying for evryone to be safe and sound like usual lah kan. well, last week it was da perfect week ever!!! sgt sgt sgt best sbb you're here net!!! owh how i wish da clock stop and da time stood still and we could spend more time together. silly me, wishing for sumthg dat cud never been done. still, i had great time with you net, thank you for making me a happy mummy =)

just for my recap of wat had happend during my perfect week ever!!! it started with picking you up @ da airport on wednesday, then picking bb from her asrama, (love to use da word asrama) then off we went home. ate laksa, borak2, gelak muahahaha, hantar naim tuisyen, bakar ayam dkt luar, makan2, borak2 some more, then us went home.

thursday, wat happened eyh? umm, wat really happened eyh? owh we came later on dat evening. then we had dinner, mak buat nasi kacang kan? borak2 dgn sume org, then we headed home. on friday, you guys came. tp sian naim x dpt dtg sbb tuisyen. klu kin tawu naim ada tuisyen hari jumaat, kiter leh wat movie nite on thursday kan? anyway, i had a great time dat nite. rasa mcm dulu2 kn? i love movie nite!!! lets do it again nxt time k. and thanks mucho for belanja us kfc and all da tidbits. such a blessing for having wonderful adik2 mcm korg. rasa sungguh disayangi =)

nxt on saturday, umm wat a saturday. not gonna elaborate much on saturday just coz. then came sunday... wat a day... hmm, wat can i say... i miss you net, and evryone definitely...

It's A Must!!!

this is one of the most important thing that i need and use @ all time. every time i prepared zairil's milk, before touching him, after nappy change, before and after eating, after i sneeze or cough, it's like i am so germ phobic right now. i'm so afraid that i'm da one dat give germs to lil one, dat's why i equip myself germless, to be at da least of carrying germs, get it? but now i think i'm more like umm, it's like a routine dah to me, to wash hand like every time i touch something. it's kinda like a burden jugak because in my mind, i've to constantly think, eyh dah basuh tgn ke belum? kena basuh lg nih, rasa x bersih. kena basuh dispenser tu pulak sebab td dah pegang masa tekan dia. arghhh... it's like i never satisfied no matter how many time i washed my hands.

but, after using dis, it's reassured me a bit, simply because it's automatic dispense the liquid, so i don't have to touch anythg. and because the brand itself reassured me that it is anti bacterial. but now it's more like to saja2 pulak suka-nak-basuh-tgn-sbb-nak-guna-suka-suka-hati. plus i like the smell. i love evrythg dat smell nice, who doesnt right?

i first saw this auto dispenser @ one of da cooking tv show. so im like, wah ada yea automatic tmpt sabun cuci tgn? mesti sgt mahal. i mean, yg x auto pun mahal, yg auto obviously mahalla kan? then i saw this @ jj, ofcoz it's a must for me. and now, evrytime i went near da sink, saja2 guna dis lil thgy. what am i rambling about anyway? but if you like to wash your hands more than 15x a day, why dont you give yourself a break from pumping da hand-liquid-washer, and get yourself this best lil thg dat make you go wow evrytime the liquid comes out of it? (i would still go wow till now =p)

so there you go, my must have thgy dat can put my mind at ease dat is =)

A Lil Sumthg Sumthg =)

hmm, its been a while again since the last post. once the mood is up, i can post up to 4-5 entries in one go, only that i made them scheduled. so it seems like i write every single day w/o fail. but when the mood is down the drain, hence no writing at all. i don't know, lately my emotions are running wild, untamed easily. so the best way to keep those emotions calm, is simply by doing nothing at all. nothing as in, just let it go, let it run for a lil bit, then when it calmed down, it will come back to me i guess...

what an intro la?! Ola everyone, assalamualaikum. how's everyone doing? hope that everyone is doing great. we're doing great too. but still missing kamula net, and everyone at home. sigh, i wish i can be at two places at once. i want to be there, but my place is here. my only wish now is to have a superglue or sumthg to stick this two places up so dat i wont feel dat i have to tear myself apart. what am i mumbling about da?

so for the last post, it's just sumthg out my mind boggling. and my messy heart. thanks elly and net for keeping me calm a lil bit. i guess being a mother does dat to me. always in a worry mode, always think im no good to si kecil, always with da IABM going on, always wana be da best but dont kno how to be da best, always feel like a looser when i can't calm si kecil da way hp did, always have a nervous break down when si kecil fall. throw up. cries. put sumthg in his mouth. basically im just worried i can't be a mother dat zairil wishes for. of course for now he couldn't speak his mind yet, so i don't know whether he likes me or not. but when he finally does, i don't know if i could stop my tears from falling when he says dat he hates me =(

but for now, i am working my bass off to cater all his needs, to give him a lot of hugs and kisses, to be his clown, to cook his foods, to wash his cd, to bath and play bubbles with him, to sing him songs, to catch him when he about to fall, to make him laugh, to make him smile, hopefully when he grow up, he will open his arms and give me the biggest hugs of all and beam me those smiles that i carry with to sleep.

datsal i have to say. to uncluttered what bothered me once in a while. ok, more than once in a while. but for now, i think i'm good. i am doing good. alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for everything that You've given me. You are the Greatest ever!!!

~ FireFlies ~

Lyrics | Owl City lyrics - Fireflies lyrics

~ I Want...

nobody nobody but you!!!

You know I still love you baby
And it will never change
(Saranghae)

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you
How can I be with another
I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you trying to
To make me leave ya
I know what you’re thinking
Baby why aren’t you listening
How can I just
Just love someone else and
Forget you completely
When I know you still love me

Telling me you’re not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know it’s not right so
Just stop and come back boy
How can this be
When we were meant to be

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you
How can I be with another
I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you
How can I be with another
I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why can’t we just
Just be like this
Cause it’s you that I need
And nothing else until the end
Who else can ever make me feel
The way I feel when I’m with you
No one will ever do

Telling me you’re not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know me enough so
You know what I need boy
Right next to you is where I need to be

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you
How can I be with another
I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you
How can I be with another
I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don’t want no body, body
I don’t want no body, body

Honey you know it’s you that I want
It’s you that I need
Why can’t you see

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you
How can I be with another
I don’t want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Back to the days
When we were so young and wild and free
Nothing else matters other than you and me
So tell me why can’t it be
Please let me live my life my way
Why do you push me away
I don’t want nobody nobody nobody nobody but you

~ Present ~

~ Presenting ~

assalamualaikum... sorry net and evryone for such a long pause. mean to write sooner, but with da final exam coming along and tonnes of stuff to do before da skool break, i just cud barely keep up! thank god almighty evrythg is over and i can sit back at home and relax and wait for dis lil one to arrive. dis is da present, da gift i keep on playing in my mind dis few weeks to get tru till today and boy i am so glad its finaly over, alhamdulillah...

i kno i sound super exageratting when it came to skool. i mean aperla yg sgt miserable bout da place anyway? to me evry single second is like living hall, how twisted and turn, how in misery i am till the clock strike 6.50 pm evry single day dis past few months! i shudnt be writin bout dis anyway, i mean there are times when i do have great time, but to educate dis kids, really drain every drop of my energy and i am teribly exhausted til now. i dnt kno how mak and other teacha can cope and love wit wat they are doin, salute to them all.

anyway, da kids are bein such a sweethart prior to the last days and they knew im not gona be around nxt year. how hartbreakin hearing and seein their faces, and i do cherish all da time spent with them, but it's time for my family now. dis lil one will arrive insyaAllah next year, so i wana be here 247 to raise and give all my focus and love to him/her. beside, i knew they will be fine, and im just another teacha, and soon will be forgotten. my prayers are to them, and hopefully they will excel in their studies...

enuf bluff, so hows evryone doin? tomorrow we will be celebrating hari raya! im always excited and lookin forward for raya, be it raya aidilfitri, or aidiladha. takbir raya is exactly wat im lookin forward to actually. i love hearing it over and over again, and wished i cud hear it throughout the entire year. speaking bout raya, umm we didnt decide about it yet, where to spend da raya, so lets just wait and see how raya turnout dis time. il write bout it, insyaAllah...

~ Birthday Present ~

i kno its a lil bit too late to write bout my bday last month. but its kinda sweet evryone remembered and all da thoughts dat really melted me. it started with this sweethart kids who bought me a cake and we had da potong kek in class. and da present they gave me which is sgt terharu also.

then mak called and being such a wonderful loving mak, mak and bb datang bawak kek for me too to skool. how much melted hart i cud handle dat day! sgt terharu, and mak and bb evn brought me da maternity dress in pink! sgt comel and sgt termengalir air mata with all da love i received! thank you Allah, and my hartful thanks to evryone. see, dis world isn't dat bad ain! there are plenty of love to go around.

later, when hp pick me up from skool, i saw another cake at da back seat! im like wow, dis lil one sure is gona have a sugar rush today! and hp me gave me wat i really wanted all this time, mp3 player. just a simple mp3 player wich i cud stuff in my ears whenever i had to sit in a long ceramah@skool. no offense, da ceramah is good tho, but sumtimes all dis listenin do grew such a boredom inside of me, so better be listenin to sumthg good than start yawning in da midle of da crowd. da mp3 isn't quite as simple as i hope for, since i cud record any song from any station or other stuff for example in a meeting, or wateverla dat i want to record. cool kan? thanks hunny, you're always da best!

and to evryone dat send me birthday wishes, you are awesome and rock my world. thank you so much, i am spoilt with love dat day. how lucky i am, thank you Allah for evrythg, You're da best ever!!!

~ Present Lil One ~

how's lil one doin? he/she is doin great, alhamdulillah. evrythg is fine, only dat my blood kinda got to da roof a bit. 147/74, xdela tinggi sgt kan? and got some "talks" from da dr. bout how late we are for our real maternity checkup. previously, we just went to clinics for da scans and gravol supply, and since im not havin any problems, beside da previous2 checkups says dat i AM fine (i didnt have any antenatal card/book), but dis time around, thanks to my blood pressure, i had to had da "talks" by da doc. well, not gona explain myself why dis happen, it just did! anyway, we think we finally choose da place we are goin to deliver our lil one, which is @ az-zahrah, bangi.

so next month, we're gona go again for da nxt checkup and hopefully, with evrythg dah settle, my blood wont go up dat much. but i dnt kno, im seein a lot of beautiful stars lately, and by pretty, it's so pretty and beautiful. and then i feel like blackout. dis happen, when im in crowded area with lotsof people, around smokers dat huff and puff like they are baking sumthg from their lungs and last but da very least is when im @ dis one class dat really shoot my blood to da stars! then im start seeing dis beautiful stars and im such in a peace state (ofcoz in a dangerous statela kan?) when dis happen, i just take a deep breath, close my eyes firmly and stand perfectly still. it will go away, but then i will feel sad bcoz dis stars too will go away...

whenever im facing dis situations, dis lil one i dnt kno, somehow trying so hard to comfort me by twisting and making moves dat tickle me so much dat made me so hard not to laugh (aper ke hal cikgu ni gelak sorg2 lps dah marah2 tahap gaban kan?) seriously, dis one time, dis one particular student i dnt kno why he's super hyper, berlari lara dalam kelas, and shoutin at da top of his lungs, im like nak jer lempang pakai kasut okeh?!! but then again, dis lil one, makin his/her moves and i smile a bit, and went to dat budak, talk some senses into him and he did stop, finally behave like a normal person again. dis kids is always like dis after recess and 1/2 hour before balik. sgt super hyperla diorg nih. dats why im so x larat nak handle and feel like quitting evry single day.

it is such a wonderful feeling having dis lil one in me. whenever i felt sad/down/angry, it feel like dis lil one try to smooth and comfort me so much. and evry moves does tickle hunny! you're full of love and sumtimes i feel like i dnt deserve you sweety. im really not a good mummy, but im trying my hardest hunny. mummy promise to give you all my loves, instead it happen da other way around. forgive me...

~ Just Present ~

umm, dis morning we went to mv to watch da new moon, and da morning session is sold out! we manage to buy 8.40pm ticket so we will go again tonight. speakin of movies, to celebrate my last day as a teacha, we did a movie marathon last monday. we watched 1st-Jennifer's Body, 2nd-Planet 51 and da last one Christmast Carol. and last last sunday, we watched 2012 and we got da free tote bag.

i used da bag to carry dis kids exam papers. i didnt realise dat dis kids wud actually notice da bag, and so does some other teacha. we ended up talkin bout da movie and aderla mende nk borak. but lately, my head is too heavy to carry any conversation, due to lotsa things to settle before da skool is over. seriously, da checklist is long and since im looking forward to da skool break, im always ahead with da signatures on da paper. i kno its not such a big deal, but when seeing a lot of "autograph" on dat paper, it just made my day! later, all in all, evrythg is finish, and i dnt have to see skool no more, except when i start sending my own kids to da skool dat is...

~ End Present ~

so a lot has been typed in here. again, typical me dumpin evrythg in one go. again net, sorry sgt lama x update. kakin tawu kaklin selalu bukak blog ni. i hope i didnt let you down dat much. i miss you terribly and can't wait to see you again. congrats net for da good result, see i kno you can do it, and you always will. have faith and all of us wish you da very best! nanti kite jupe lagi okey? nanti kakin update lagi eyh, probably selalu smpi kaklin xmo baca dah =p so evryone, take care, and may da force be with us like always. till here, assalamualaikum...

...Let's See...

assalamualaikum... yolla, ola... lala...

umm... wat a long pause to be exact. mean to write sooner, but sumthg is always up. so there goes the delays, days by days...

now, when i do have the will to write, i kept scratching my head coz ive no idea where to start. so if the storyline is mixed up, blasah jerla eyh...

...Story Bout Net...

kaklin dah balik cni. but i only get to see her once. we borak a lot, sgt gossip and i left hp all alone downstairs. sorry hunny, its just talking to kaklin after a while really carried me away...

talk bout dis and dat, stories on da wedding day, laugh muahahaha alot, then have to go home. sume org pun ada, and its really a fun day spending time with evryone. tp abah mcm merajuk jer since we didnt go bck as often. mak acted cool, tp i know she feel da same way as abah. i felt no other, but ive a new home and dis is where ive to be right now. but i hope we can go back quite often la kan?

btw, net is leavin dis sunday. gosh im gona miss you terribly. i really thought we can spend more time together, but we can do that later la eyh? since you know the news already, you have to come back again tawu?

and kaklin did came to our home recently. its da best moment ever! boleh x im so lazy, and hp did most of da preparation. im like, malasnye nk wat pape, walhal kaklin dah msg they are on their way here. so hp settingkn all da cawan, and force asked me to goreng da keropok. i'm like - fine, bukannya mak dier pun yg nk dtg, mak org and buat muka x puas hati sambil goreng keropok. da truth is yes im darn excited for evryone to come, but in da same time, my body refuse to work with me. ive no idea why at dat time (but now i know why la =D ) so hp take charge, buat air and kemaskn rumah which is so sweet of him. seein me all sulky, ofcoz he will explain the reasons-why we have to do dis and dat b4 evryone arrives. and then il smile a bit => mengada like always - sigh...

anyway, we had best time. i had best time. seronok dpt jupe sume finally. naim pun sebok jer suh watkan ajar keje skolah sc. dier. im like ajar dgn pegang pembaris. si naim ni pun satu, bacala buku. sume jawapan adala dlm buku. geram betul, kan dah kena dgn pembaris...

then its time to leave. naim ingtkn im goin back with them too since i went down and hantar sumeorg smpi kereta, but sorry naim. we will see each other again later ok? waves goodbyes and my heart shrunk a bit at dat moment. how i hate saying goodbyes...


...Story Bout Skool...

wat to story bout? owh, nxt week they will be sitting for the test. boleh x dis teacha didnt stapple da soalan yet? seb baik wat soalan moral jer, x ramai sgt pun budaknya. il do it right after dis okeh? darn, teringt pulak kena wat soalan final utk math, seb baik wat kertas satu. tp still have to search for the questions la. tp dats can be worried later, since final lambat lg. sila stapler kan yg soalan moral ni dulu eyh, minggu dpn diorg dah nak periksa dah pun - baik!!!

other than dat, skool mcm tu jugakla. only dat azwa continue her study. now im short one friend. ive less someone to talk to. now dah ada some else dah ganti tmpt azwa, tp x brapa nk best, dier lelaki. and he's sitting dkt tmpt azwa, which is nxt to me. so im like, not realy comfortable. tp since our timetable pun byk yg clash, x bykla sgt jupe. and i do love sitting at my place alone, and do my own work.

does dat makes me a sombong person? da truth, ive no idea how to be kepochi, i mean, i love lending my ears jer. lending my mouth, x brapa sgt with many people around. klu in small group, let say 1-2 people, i might say sumthg. more than that, i just be the observer or be left alone. wat i mean is, 1-1 is ok with me. many, i jst not so comfy and i wish i didnt join da group earlier.

but to contradiction - im teaching in 30+ environment, bolehla pulak eyh? paperla ain, i self-proclaim im a weirdo. so wateverla eyh, sorry for dis ramble. ive no idea why im writing dis out loud...

...Story Bout Us...

wat to story jugak eyh... well, we've been through ups and downs evn only 1 month++ bein married. and thank you hunny for the constance patience and evrythg else. saya kan budak suka majuk... so ntah hape² jer, sometimes im even pening like - aperhal yg sgt sensitif sgt ni, x pahamla? if i cant understd myself, let alone hp la kn? but being him yg sgt trying to understd, he made me understd myself too...

umm... yes, wedding pichas... bout dat, since kaklin pun dh tgk album, mcm malasla pulak nk letak dkt cni. tp since ive promised to elly, can you give me some more times? sorry elly for da delay, i promise i will put it one day ok, dont know when, but it will be here yea...

...Story Bout Evryone Else...

Congrats to knits for her newborn. i do wanna come and visit masa knits dkt hospital hari tuh, but im down with a flu, takut nanti il spread da sakit to bb jr; adzryl, so i decided not to come. but i do hope i can come and visit later eyh.

Congrats to Aan for her pregnancy. seronok jer baca her blog. i pray evrythg will turn well for he and bb too.

Congratulation to aton and fakhrul. semoga semua berjalan lancar, kekal bahagia dunia akhirat eyh.

My prayers are for elly and insyirah. i do hope both of you will be well again soon eyh.

who else? umm... rasanya tu jerla kot. nmpk sgt saya x rmi kawan kn?

...Conclusion...

wat a long post, i know. but dis will cover wat ive missed writing so far. ofcoz will write more, and ofcoz da pichas will come. tp for rite now, i think post ini sudah mencukupi. x cukup tambah lagi eyh, tp next post pulak =p

till here, take care evryone. da piggy virus is really coming hard on us kan? i pray for evryone safety. news ive heard - da virus breached our skool. in da mornin session la da kes, not da aftrnoon session. but still... anyway, pray hard evryone for our safety . stay safe and be safe... assalamualaikum...

... Just ...

assalamualaikum... yola... olala... okay, enuf greeting already la... so, how's evryone? how are you net? terasa mcm dah lama x borak dgn kaklin. bile kite nak chat lg nih net? when you're not busy la eyh. gudluck with your study, you can do IT!!!

apa mau cite nih eyh? umm, to start with, a birthday shoutout for abang!!! selamat hari jadi abang. bile mau bagi saya kakak ipar nih? muahaha, gurau² jer. apa² pun saya doakan abang akan terus berjaya dalam semua cabaran yg abang tempuhi. luper pulak, 8/5 hari tuh pun bday naim. x tulis entry pun pasal bday naim. apsal eyh? ntah, byk mendela skrang nak pk. tp, bday naim hr tuh, ada jugakla beli kek, dgn piza like always. so naim, dah besar dah nih, naim kena buat sume sendri dah ok? nih keje skolah pun nak tunggu kakin/mak nak tolong, barula nak buat. mulai skrang naim kena belajar utk buat sendiri ok, lebih berdikari tawu?

dats about bday greeting. well, there's another greeting i suppose, which is da techa day. but me skool celebrate quite late, which is after da exam. however, maknye skolah celebrate dis coming monday and i wud like to present me mak sumthg too dis year. so ain, will you plz make da order by dis weeked? tqvm...

so wat happen in skool? umm, tomorrow ada ldp la pulak, and have to be in skool at 7.30. wat a torture great weekend to spend kan? after dat, we (h2b n i) will hopefully goin to pick da card and hopefully will be settle by tomorro. btw, for two days dis week, parent came to see me. about their kids since im da class teacha. so talk about their brats kids dis and dat, more toward apraisal of their small good deed rather than da bad one. i felt sorry for the parent actually, i know how humiliating to come to skool and face da teachas, and their did come and concern bout their kid, which is great. so rather than talking on and on bout their bad behaviour, i talk about little of their good behaviour too...

hopefully, we cud get da kad asap. if not, then we will go and settle buying me gifts!!! im not picky, so watever h2b like, i love them also. so most of my gifts are chosen by h2b and me too ofcoz.

i think datsal to write. wana go down and ngacau adik muahaha. kesian adik, die selesema pulak. moody sket hehe. td pi pasar malam pun adik moody jer. smoga cepat sembuh ek dik. orite, till next time. take good care evryone. lets pray for evryone safety. together, we strive for da best. assalamualaikum...

Another...

moulaaaaa.... assalamualaikum... hari ni pun terrajinla jugak nk post sket. so post jerla eh. jadi saya nk bertanya nih, semua sehat x? alhamdulillah, kami pun semuanya sehat2 belaka. kite terus pergi pada update jerla eh...

umm, ape nk cite sebenarnya? xde mende sgt. cuma dah berpuasa 2 hari, tinggal lg dua hari je nk ganti. mmg mencabar gakla puasa smbil menjerit mengajar. tp kan, bile kite reverse psycho dgn budak2 nih, jadi baiknya... alhamdulillah, x terkata kecomelan mereka... so, bile diorg pun dah beri kerjasama, saya sgtla tersenyum sambil menjerit mengajar riang =D

umm, probably dis thursday we're gona settle da borang and discuss futhermore on pelamin and kad dll. so nk finalize semuanya, then we're readyla for da wedding. boleh dah kot nk start hias2kn hantaran itu. tinggal nk beli jam, cincin and set perfume utk h2b. and baju melayu full set too. and da bedroom set too. lagi ape lg? oh yeah, da door gift. eh, apsal mcm byk lg x settle lg nih? (please wait.... switching to panic mode... warghhhhh)

rileks, masih ada byk waktu lg utk menjerit panic. buat satu2 dulu, then insyaAllah evrythg will be settle eh. in da meanwhile silala mengajar budak2 ini dgn baik sekali =>

orite, think datsal nk membebel. see how profesional i am in membebel dis day? i can go on and on membebel non-stop. mcm makciks kepochi dah gitu. orite, better stop and prepare da dinner. sian mak abah dah lapar. im hungry too sbb berbuka td mkn roti dgn milo jer.

so take care evryone. have a good day. lagi 2 hari jer keje, then we're gona have a long weekend. insyaAllah we're heading to johor and probably to s'pore. really looking forward for dis weekend. stay safe and be safe alritey. assalamualaikum...

A New Look 8D

wow, wat color is dis? im way color disoriented! i dnt kno why with da sudden change. not totally like it, but not totally hate it too. blasah jerla. well, dis is my new home. hope you guys like it. off to sleep, im way sleeping too late dis time. i dnt kno why my eyes wont stop blinkin and doze to sleep but HaLL ive to stop and sleep rite now. so nite nite, err gudmornin evryone =D

A Lil Sumthin =)

Net... nie ada sket gambar yg kakin promise nak postkan hari tuh. gambar2 nih buruk sketla ek sbb amik gmbr pki phone jer. malas nk cari kamera. lets do some doodle with da pichas ek...

Ni gmbr reban ayam dkt blakang. dah tenggelam dah...

gmbr dkt dpn porch, pun dah bergenang renang dah airnya

kerusi yg tenggelam

van dan viva yg tenggelam

adik berposing sebelum alihkan waja ke dpn sana

naim yg ceria bermain dgn air walaupun kerja sekolahnya belum siap

van yg tenggelam air jugak

gmbr mcm dkt sungai pahang kan net?

so datsal gmbr2 pasal banjir. cpt betul air naik, dan cepat jugak air surut balik. kitorg pun dah risau dah takut air masuk byk dlm rumah. tp alhamdulillah, air masuk sket jer. cuma selipar dan other stuff kt luar yg dibawa oleh arus. air pun nmpk mcm tenang jer, tp deras jugakla arusnya. kena maintain jalan slow2, takut nanti tergolek dibawa air. before i end dis thrillin pichas, nak jugakla letak some happy pichas. so tara.....

lawa tak? saja je nak try berinai nih. tp kaler inai dah habis within one day. x sempat nk show off lama2. but its ok, we'll do it again later. nampak mcm crowded sgt x? kire orite la nih ek. cantik jugakla kn? pki inai ni lepas try2 dressup baju dkt kedai tuh. seronok jugak, diorg layan best sgt. so dats y kitorg pilih diorg jerla setelkn pasal pelamin n all other stuff...

yg nih gmbr rumah kite yg dah lama kakin janji nk post. saje amik gmbr jauh2 dulu =p

so dis is da end result. cantik x net? orite la kan? kaler yg ceria dan meriah =D

dahla kot gmbr2 nih. nanti kaklin balik kite borak2 lagi eh. esok mau skolah, kena tdo awalla. nite2 net, sweetdreams. goodluck with your class and stuff. teruskan berusaha!!!

What's Up?

assalamualaikum... ai net, and to my dearest friends =) ada update lg? rajinla pulak mengupdate kali nih... tp xde cite nk dicitekn pun...

umm... kaklin nih, kakin dh update kaklin x baca la pulak... are you busy net? aja aja fighting!!! goodluck with your studies ek...

orite, dah xde pape nk bebel. td tgh tolong naim siapkn homework die. seb baik dah siap. leher naim selalu sakit2 la net. why la? kakin pun dah xtau nk ckp ape dah kt naim. kakin tampal koyok je dkt leher die. tp kesian tgk bile nk bukakkn koyok tu sbb tertarik kn dgn bulu leher skali, naim asyik mengaduh jer.

hows ur hand net? sudah baikkah? i hope ure recovering well. cpt sembuh dan x sakit2 dah kn.

umm, esok kakin kena cerap/observe la net. kinda nervous x hengat. hopefuly i can get good marks out of it. not too much, but if i do get high marks then alhamdulillah. syukur sgt2. so wish me luck net! teruskan berusaha!!!

orite, enouf craps. better get a goodnite sleep then. take care net, nanti kite borak2 lg eh. assalamualaikum...

What's Down?

assalamualaikum... hmm, ola korang... xde mende nk cite pun, but just wana blog a bit in here so dat i cud let out a bit of my thoughts. to be exact, ive no thoughts to spill in here at da moment. so, lets da blabber begin...

umm, i kno its nothg biggie to put da statcounter. i kno not many readers except my close friends dat read dis blog. but, i cudnt help it but to worry n hopefully not many will read my mind. bcoz reading my fuzzy mind realy bring nothing good in da end of da day. but, if you guys wud like to keep on reading, i definitely love to keep on writing =)

so far, nothg intellectual been written in here. da grammar pun down da drain, mixed n jumbo language... a lot to complain actually while i read back wat ive wrote. but again, dis is all dat clouded my thoughts and here is where i spill it. just bear with anythg dat kinda annoys you from reading it yea...

wow, dah 4 perenggan dah pun. wana go downstairsla. mau mkn spagetti. saya sendiri masak jugak. n potato salad. sendiri masak juga. but i kinda wana ikat perut so dat my weight will turun lg. from yesterday, sudah 1 kilo turun. today xde perubahan. esokla pulak tgk mcm mana.

hmm net, kakin rasa kakin boleh kot kurus sket lg, muahaha. hopefully la ek. btw, h2b/hp/pl x kesah kakin gemok mcm ini pun. he still loves me a lot =D tp, for da sake of nk muat itu baju, better slim down a bit yea. aja aja fighting!!!

orite, sudah sudah ler tuh mengarut. nak buat mende lain pulak. till here, i miss you so much la net. nanti balik tawu! take care net, and evryone too. aja aja fighting!!!

Be Right Back

olalala... lala ola... wat an intro da? i dnt kno, dat da words poppin out of my mind to start with... so all my favorite people, how you guys are doing? still hangin tough? i hope evryone is doin fine. im fine myself and evryone in da family doing fine, thanks to Allah da greatest...

sorry net and evryone for da long awaited post. my fingers arent able to dance on da keyboard dis couple of weeks. at one time, i almost write why there isnt any new post on da comment box when i realise halloo, dis is my blog, so why da heck i didnt update it da 1st place? wat ever, lets just continue...

hmm, a lot to tell, but i guess being employed as a teacher do drain all my energy till da last of it. i barely made it to da room to sleep. it was exhausting fun after 6 hours yelling teaching dis brats kids. wat a day evryday!!! i always look forward for weekend. but then comes monday where da cycle begin again =D

to begin with, lets start with da wedding. so wat about my wedding? nothg much yet, just da simple stuff being ready. ive made da list but to lazy to keep on checking and crossing all da stuff dat isnt prepared yet. so lets worried bout sumthg else, and let mak pening-pala-dgn-perangai-anak-dan-menantu-yg-buat-derk-je-nih-pasal-kahwin-mereka =p (mak, leks la. ada lg dua bulan jer lg. we can aja aja fighting next month alrity?)

bout skool, da same o same o. nothg diff, only dat im a class teacher for dis one particular class. teaching them math, always rolling my eyes backward each time they didnt memorize forget the multiplication table. other than dat, the kids are being kids. nasib baik anak org, klu x lama dah kena lempeng, muahahaha.

wat else, abang finally run his business. im not gona elaborate much on dis. but if anyone has any problems regarding their cars, do come and tell. i wish him all da best and hopefully abg will success. aja aja fighting!!!

orite, i think datsal i can come up with. will write more, but till next time. so for da mean time, do take care and be happy =D assalamualaikum...

Fight For Survival

One day, on my way to skool, after making a stop to fill in da tank and some car wash, i saw a fight dat can never be erase from my mind. not some brutal fight, but it did blow my mind and made me realise dat till da last breath, we must fight for our survival...

so while waiting for da car to be wash, i waited under dis nangka/cempedak tree. there, i saw a cat and a rat fight in da middle of da road. da cars have to swerve a bit to avoid them. the rat keep on struggling to get away from da cat. being a cat, he love to play with his catch. later, they both went under one parked car.

da rat showed his fierce teeth and they agitate the cat a bit. but the cat ignored it and keep poking his nose to da lil fella. i kept watching this amusing fight for survival till da ane told me da car is finished. i love to stay and watch the end, but ive to go to skool. i hope da lil fella won, but then again it will increase da population of da ratigans. but all well ends well hopefully...

Date Up =p

wah sudah lamanya tidak update!!! sgt busy jugakla for da first week sbb nk settlekn buku rekod. alhamdulillah, dah settle dah pun (hopefully) and jadual pun dah bertukar skit, which im teaching now 27 periods. so now dat i can breath sedikit, so lets blog!

mello evryone! apa khabar semua? evryone doing great? alhamdulillah, syukur. doing not so great? alhamdulillah, syukur juga sbb ujian yg mendatang itu hadiah daripada Allah. lets pass all our test in flying colors shall we?

so wat bout skool you say? alhamdulillah, semua berjalan lancar. budak2 x brapa nk lancar. math kn, for me da critical moment is f1, f2 which if we didnt grap da basic, then da later lesson is a blurry vision ( i dnt kno about you guys, but when i was in f2, i kinda lost in algebra, so there's a lot of catching up to do during f3 ) furthermore, ive to teach in english lagi, preparation and study is a must before going in class.

overall, dis couple of weeks is great for me. da colleagues are great, evryone is helpful. da students mcm biasala, ada rasa mcm nk *00* dan sebagainya, tp biasala budak2. kena bwk byk2 sabar setiap kali masuk kelas.

so far, its challenging, especially teaching morale in dis one particular class. but, i love sharing infos with dis kids. but, ive to equipped myself with general knowledge a lot, and have to be alert with all da current issues worldwide. to be true, ive no interest in wats goin on dat isnt related to me. i mean, i do read about it, but not in great details. now i think ive to reach deeper, not just by its cover...

last saturday was da annual pi*bg meeting. a lot of issues has been raised, so hopefully there's goin to be action taken. next saturday, there's a road run comin up. so i hope evrythg wil be as smooth as possible...

i tried to make my work station as interesting as i may. since da space given isnt much available, so lets make it great and nice orite?

umm, i think dis will be all. there's a lot of things to settle at skool, so lets do it efficiently, one at a time ok? wana settle da lesson plan, and da register. next week, these kids will be facing their march test. hopefully they will do great in their tests.

umm, abah is away from today till weekend. best klu dpt ikut p melaka. so dat leave only us at home. tp adik pun dah balik, ramaila sket dkt rumah. it will be da greatest if you are around too net. sudah rindu sama kamula net, cptla balik kaklin. kami menanti anda di sini =) (saja nk usik2 kaklin, i kno you want to come back too, we'll meet dis coming june yek.) aja aja kaklin, gudluck for your tests and exam, YOU CAN DO IT!!!

orite, till here then. nak tulis lagi, tp nanti2la. ill tell you bout da road run dis saturday ek. take care my friends, take good care orite! assalamualaikum...