~ Present ~

~ Presenting ~

assalamualaikum... sorry net and evryone for such a long pause. mean to write sooner, but with da final exam coming along and tonnes of stuff to do before da skool break, i just cud barely keep up! thank god almighty evrythg is over and i can sit back at home and relax and wait for dis lil one to arrive. dis is da present, da gift i keep on playing in my mind dis few weeks to get tru till today and boy i am so glad its finaly over, alhamdulillah...

i kno i sound super exageratting when it came to skool. i mean aperla yg sgt miserable bout da place anyway? to me evry single second is like living hall, how twisted and turn, how in misery i am till the clock strike 6.50 pm evry single day dis past few months! i shudnt be writin bout dis anyway, i mean there are times when i do have great time, but to educate dis kids, really drain every drop of my energy and i am teribly exhausted til now. i dnt kno how mak and other teacha can cope and love wit wat they are doin, salute to them all.

anyway, da kids are bein such a sweethart prior to the last days and they knew im not gona be around nxt year. how hartbreakin hearing and seein their faces, and i do cherish all da time spent with them, but it's time for my family now. dis lil one will arrive insyaAllah next year, so i wana be here 247 to raise and give all my focus and love to him/her. beside, i knew they will be fine, and im just another teacha, and soon will be forgotten. my prayers are to them, and hopefully they will excel in their studies...

enuf bluff, so hows evryone doin? tomorrow we will be celebrating hari raya! im always excited and lookin forward for raya, be it raya aidilfitri, or aidiladha. takbir raya is exactly wat im lookin forward to actually. i love hearing it over and over again, and wished i cud hear it throughout the entire year. speaking bout raya, umm we didnt decide about it yet, where to spend da raya, so lets just wait and see how raya turnout dis time. il write bout it, insyaAllah...

~ Birthday Present ~

i kno its a lil bit too late to write bout my bday last month. but its kinda sweet evryone remembered and all da thoughts dat really melted me. it started with this sweethart kids who bought me a cake and we had da potong kek in class. and da present they gave me which is sgt terharu also.

then mak called and being such a wonderful loving mak, mak and bb datang bawak kek for me too to skool. how much melted hart i cud handle dat day! sgt terharu, and mak and bb evn brought me da maternity dress in pink! sgt comel and sgt termengalir air mata with all da love i received! thank you Allah, and my hartful thanks to evryone. see, dis world isn't dat bad ain! there are plenty of love to go around.

later, when hp pick me up from skool, i saw another cake at da back seat! im like wow, dis lil one sure is gona have a sugar rush today! and hp me gave me wat i really wanted all this time, mp3 player. just a simple mp3 player wich i cud stuff in my ears whenever i had to sit in a long ceramah@skool. no offense, da ceramah is good tho, but sumtimes all dis listenin do grew such a boredom inside of me, so better be listenin to sumthg good than start yawning in da midle of da crowd. da mp3 isn't quite as simple as i hope for, since i cud record any song from any station or other stuff for example in a meeting, or wateverla dat i want to record. cool kan? thanks hunny, you're always da best!

and to evryone dat send me birthday wishes, you are awesome and rock my world. thank you so much, i am spoilt with love dat day. how lucky i am, thank you Allah for evrythg, You're da best ever!!!

~ Present Lil One ~

how's lil one doin? he/she is doin great, alhamdulillah. evrythg is fine, only dat my blood kinda got to da roof a bit. 147/74, xdela tinggi sgt kan? and got some "talks" from da dr. bout how late we are for our real maternity checkup. previously, we just went to clinics for da scans and gravol supply, and since im not havin any problems, beside da previous2 checkups says dat i AM fine (i didnt have any antenatal card/book), but dis time around, thanks to my blood pressure, i had to had da "talks" by da doc. well, not gona explain myself why dis happen, it just did! anyway, we think we finally choose da place we are goin to deliver our lil one, which is @ az-zahrah, bangi.

so next month, we're gona go again for da nxt checkup and hopefully, with evrythg dah settle, my blood wont go up dat much. but i dnt kno, im seein a lot of beautiful stars lately, and by pretty, it's so pretty and beautiful. and then i feel like blackout. dis happen, when im in crowded area with lotsof people, around smokers dat huff and puff like they are baking sumthg from their lungs and last but da very least is when im @ dis one class dat really shoot my blood to da stars! then im start seeing dis beautiful stars and im such in a peace state (ofcoz in a dangerous statela kan?) when dis happen, i just take a deep breath, close my eyes firmly and stand perfectly still. it will go away, but then i will feel sad bcoz dis stars too will go away...

whenever im facing dis situations, dis lil one i dnt kno, somehow trying so hard to comfort me by twisting and making moves dat tickle me so much dat made me so hard not to laugh (aper ke hal cikgu ni gelak sorg2 lps dah marah2 tahap gaban kan?) seriously, dis one time, dis one particular student i dnt kno why he's super hyper, berlari lara dalam kelas, and shoutin at da top of his lungs, im like nak jer lempang pakai kasut okeh?!! but then again, dis lil one, makin his/her moves and i smile a bit, and went to dat budak, talk some senses into him and he did stop, finally behave like a normal person again. dis kids is always like dis after recess and 1/2 hour before balik. sgt super hyperla diorg nih. dats why im so x larat nak handle and feel like quitting evry single day.

it is such a wonderful feeling having dis lil one in me. whenever i felt sad/down/angry, it feel like dis lil one try to smooth and comfort me so much. and evry moves does tickle hunny! you're full of love and sumtimes i feel like i dnt deserve you sweety. im really not a good mummy, but im trying my hardest hunny. mummy promise to give you all my loves, instead it happen da other way around. forgive me...

~ Just Present ~

umm, dis morning we went to mv to watch da new moon, and da morning session is sold out! we manage to buy 8.40pm ticket so we will go again tonight. speakin of movies, to celebrate my last day as a teacha, we did a movie marathon last monday. we watched 1st-Jennifer's Body, 2nd-Planet 51 and da last one Christmast Carol. and last last sunday, we watched 2012 and we got da free tote bag.

i used da bag to carry dis kids exam papers. i didnt realise dat dis kids wud actually notice da bag, and so does some other teacha. we ended up talkin bout da movie and aderla mende nk borak. but lately, my head is too heavy to carry any conversation, due to lotsa things to settle before da skool is over. seriously, da checklist is long and since im looking forward to da skool break, im always ahead with da signatures on da paper. i kno its not such a big deal, but when seeing a lot of "autograph" on dat paper, it just made my day! later, all in all, evrythg is finish, and i dnt have to see skool no more, except when i start sending my own kids to da skool dat is...

~ End Present ~

so a lot has been typed in here. again, typical me dumpin evrythg in one go. again net, sorry sgt lama x update. kakin tawu kaklin selalu bukak blog ni. i hope i didnt let you down dat much. i miss you terribly and can't wait to see you again. congrats net for da good result, see i kno you can do it, and you always will. have faith and all of us wish you da very best! nanti kite jupe lagi okey? nanti kakin update lagi eyh, probably selalu smpi kaklin xmo baca dah =p so evryone, take care, and may da force be with us like always. till here, assalamualaikum...

~ Mixie Pixie ~

assalamualaikum... ola... mulala... wat a greeting to start with... so, hows evryone doin? evrythg good la kan? with raya coming along, im sure evryone is having a wonderful time with the loves one =D

to start with, dis time i think dis is goin to be all-you-can-mix-post. dunno where to start, so blasah jerla eyh. wat ever come to mind i write down okeh...

~ Mixie Raya ~

raya dis year ofcoz best like always. wats with da full puasa, i dnt have to ganti2 puasa finally alhamdulillah. so ofcoz dis time around raya is da greatest ever =) hp is da star to these kid's eye since he's da mercun supplier. (boleh x persiapan raya yg pertama kitorg beli adalah mercun?) i had a great time main mercun, tgk mercun merdeka yg berapa belas das rizlan beli, mmg best x ingt. and since rizlan knows da supplier, hp bwk budak2 nih p beli lg mercun. it was super fun, smpi wan ckp 'ish rumah mana yg dok main mercun ni tau' walhal cucu2 sendri yg dok main smpi xleh bernapas sbb byk sgt asap... evrynite smpila mlm raya keempat kot kitorg main mercun, well i only play bunga api jer sbb x brapa berani nk cucuh mercun. enoughla cerita about mercun already...

so raya mcm evry raya like always. da nite before, mak dgn mak teh masak all you can eat for tomorrow. buat nasik carrot, ketupat, rendang, sumerla yg best2. i didnt do much help, sbb pening pala bau anythg yg bertumis/bergoreng. tp still hang around da kitchen sambil dgr mak dgn sume org sembang2. then come raya, after smbhyg raya salam2 dgn sume org, amik gmbr sket2, then we headed for rumah2 dkt sekeliling rumah tuk. best jugak sbb dis time around, since hp is new to evryone, evryone explain wats da relationship of evryone. i didnt kno till now bcoz i keep on forgetting and it's hard to really understd the pangkat n evrythg. so i just assumed evryone is sedaralah, x kiralah pak/mak menakan, sepupu, dua pupu, tiga pupu, and da list will go on. tp hp really takes time to understd all da details, so let him do all da memorising and stuff, me just be happy and smiley =>

so datsal about raya in brief. we went bck to cheras on saturday since we attend aton-fakhrul wedding. arrived safely home to gombak first to send naim then headed back to cheras. it was a great time, thank you Allah for giving us the best time ever.

~ Mixie Skool ~

wat bout skool? finally da soalan final sudah siap, and dah siap stappler, woohoo!!! thanks to PMR, i didnt hv much class, so i spend da whole afternoon clipping all da soalan. aftrward saket pinggang x hengat. but since evrythg is finish, rasa best sket. no more worries dah. but silibus x abis lgla. ada final chapter nk kena abiskan. thank god final exam postphone till early november. adala lg masa utk wrap it up and do some revision sket. hopefuly dis kids will do well, amin.

umm, btw... nxt year im not gona continue my contract. enough la three years ive spend time with these kids. now its time to spend for my kid pula. mak ckp rugila degree klu x keje. but to be honest, i dont like to go to workla. evryday nmpk jer gate skolah i would say 'xnak pegi skolah, budak2 nih jahat, suka buli org' and hp will say 'sabar, lagi sebulan jer lagi, you can do this' smbil give me all da repeating soothing words dat he cud give. kesian my hubby, being my cheerleader evryday from sending me to skool till taking me home.

yes, these kids bukanla jahat mcm penjahat yg lagi dasyat jahatnya. tp, diorg ni x kira mcm mana kena marah pun, mcm mana monster pun i become, to them i'm still a very nice teacher. 'cikgu ni xper, dier baik jer, x garang sgt' so, wat to do? for 40 minutes yes they are very angel like students, da 2nd period, haru nk control klas. they are one active class. mulut pun active, kaki tangan pun active. pening pala nk abiskan syllabus dgn klas nih. tp diorg nih sgtla suka klu bersembang, mcm2 rupanya diorg nk ckp. im like layan jerla, dgr cerita2 diorg nih. i kno its hard being in their shoes, with all da peer pressure and pressure from home lg. tp jgnla asyik bg pressure dkt cikgu nih. so time sembang, diorg bukan main suka lg sume nk cerita smpi pening pala nk dgr, time blaja, tak smpi semenet bukak buku, 'cikgu take 5 lah cikgu' smpi bila nak abis blaja klu asyik nak take 5 jer nih?

enough bout these kids, diorg ni sume sebenarnya sgt baik, cuma saja nk bg pening pala cikgu nih. xperla, layan jerla diorg asalkan x kurang ajar sudah. apa yg penting, silibus abis, and diorg paham apa yg diorg tulis dlm exam. then im outta here. ofcoz i will miss those eager faces to learn, their mcm2 nye cerita sume nak cerita, their rajiness and ringan tangan nak tolong, their concern, evry litle thgs they did to make me smile. but bile pk mende2 yg diorg nih buat utk peningkn pala nih, i totally ready to get to the end. guess enough bout skool, meh citer mende lain pulak...

~ Mixie Lil One ~

lil one is doin fine, alhamdulillah. last check, wow dis lil one grows quite fast. we can see the fast beating heart, the hand and feet movement, evrythg looks good. and i can feel the movement is getting pretty hard each day. so far, im doin good, except for dis week, ive to take mc bcoz of round ligament pain. i cudnt move much and evry lil thg i did hurt like hall. so after two days of bedrest, finally da pain fadded away, alhamdulillah. and umm, i still takes gravol to ease da nausea. if i forgot to take any, the whole day i will feel uneasy and evrythg i eat will end up in da longkang =(

overall we both are doing great. can't wait for next year where we cud really see dis lil one in front of our eyes. so for now, lets wait and grow strong and healthy my love...

~ Mixie Overall ~

i think datsal i can come up with. dah xde pape dah nk tulis rasanya. klu ada, next time la pulak eyh. umm, net, kamu dah nk balik dah. i will miss you a lot net. nanti balik lagi eyh, nanti leh main dgn baby pulak. so evryone, take care and be happy like always. have a great life, assalamualaikum...

Summary

assalamualaikum... another 5/6 days to go. my feeling? xde pape perasaan. but more or less mcm sedey a bit, you're not gona be around @ my wedding net. tp, its for da best kan net. i love you, so i dnt wana jeopardise your future for me. so da result, no one is gona be my pengapit. if i can't have kaklin, then il have no one. stubborn as i sound, yup there's a kapla batu inside. watever, lets move on...

so, i did have my sauna. and i think i shed quite a few kilos back there. nak tawu dkt mana i did my sauna? none other than depan rumah ni ha... for a couple of times, saya telah potong rumput di bawah terik mentari. terasa macam menjadi petani gitu. well, abah bought a new mower, and dis one is ringan and quite good mower, so dats how i did my sauna. why do we have to mow da land? bcoz nanti tempat itu akn dijadikan parkir kereta. and khemah pun akn didirikan di situ. so, have to work faster to settle da lalang2 in time, lets aja aja fighting!!!

other than that, on friday, we celebrate teachas day! its was a okay day, but to be honest, it was great! i received a lot of pressie which made me dwelled with tears. i mean, budak dat evryday i marah2 die, he gave me a sweet present. sgt terharu! il put da pichas later la eyh. then, i did enter sukaneka and played da game with a combined teacha-stud team. overall, walalupun ntah hape2 since they didnt explain da rules quite well, it was fun. my studs has been very cooperative and eager to win. so we got the consolation gift, dapat hamper. we divide it equally, and evryone is happy.

so later, we had nasik minyak! which is awesome sbb nanti during my kenduri, mkn nasik beriyani, bkn nasik minyak =( (so i was told) tak kesahla nasik paper, janji sedap n sume org happy sudahla. again, im inviting evryone to come and have a good time at my wedding. hopefully i can meet evryone dis saturday...

after sume dah settle (mana nk tutup buku register lg, nak masuk sukaneka, nak dgr/tgk shows) finally, we can enjoy our skool break!!! but, its gona be a busy two weeks holiday too, sbb nak tanda kertas periksa and my wedding lg. so, lets settle evrythg one at a time okay!

umm... later, as promised dgn ina, ina being a very sweet and kind friend, accompany me to do my hair! it was a very long/mengantuk time at da saloon, i fell asleep while the hairstyler did my hair. ina pun while waiting for me, she fell asleep on da couch. after 4 hours, finally my hair is done, and da result is superb. i hope my h2b gona love my hair, and i really love my hair so much right now. enough bout my hair, as its not suppose to be discuss in here.

however, i did feel awful along da way as i didnt tell mak im goin back late and where did i go. i wana tell mak first, but with da credit xdenye such and such, i prayed silently so dat mak wont worry as much...

and i am way wrong, as i switch da phone and looked at how many miscalled ive received. minta maaf mak, ive choose a wrong matrix dis time and made mak worried. should have choose da other path, but being ignorant and selfish like always, da result is making mak worried. thanks a lot ain, you did such a great job! sheesh...

thank god when i reached home after sending ina home, bcoz of the pressies, evryone is happy unwrapping them espeacially naim. mak tanya dis and dat, and i told mak dat i did my hair. nasib mak x marah, cuma mak ckp yg mak risau and call x berangkat. but later, mak pun okay je. little dat i know, pak tam, mak tam and evryone is here. cuma imad jer xde. but its okay, dapat main2 dgn syafika n izni pun dah best. overall, its really a tiring day for friday.

yesterday, umm... it was quite a downer day. to begin with, boleh x sebelum jumpe jurunikah kena p pejabat agama and settle da borang 1st? so isu borang is still on duh! dont asked wat happen, im not gona elaborate on dat, so im praying hard on monday we can settle evrything on isu borang nih. and later, we (h2b and me)went to potostet kad kawen. sorry for those yang dapat kad potostet, our kad is finish. but on da brighter side, da potostet kad is made by me, da bride. as simple as it is, i design and made it myself. so jgnla ada yg terasa hati yea. klu terasa jugak, let me blanja nasik beriyani okeh?

so for those that wishes to come, please give me your address. hopefully before saturday you guys will receive da kad. evryone is invited, so do come and share da happy moment. il post da ori scan kad later, have a look okay.

think datsal for my post. will write some more. take care evryone, have a happy skool breaks! assalamualaikum

~ Next Week ~

alhamdulillah... my paper today is done without many hassle. now tinggal nk menandanye la pulak. plus i didnt finish da skema yet. ain, bile mau buat nih? evryone is waiting you know? sorry guys, ive no idea why my hands x mo wat itu skema la....

apart from dat, hmm... i think evrythg is okay, alhamdulillah. syukur pada Allah yg sentiasa memudahkan cara, yang sentiasa memberi petunjuk, yg sentiasa menolong hamba-Nya nih bilamana hati ini sgt merintih hiba... thank you Allah, ive no words to describe my gratitude for you...

so, next week this is it. finally the time is here for us to be hand in hand. ive been waiting for years for this moment. it is worth waiting for actually. harap semua akan berjalan lancar, the way ive picture it in mind. kawan2, doakanla yea.

umm, ive no idea wat to elaborate more. till next post then i guess. take care evryone, hopefully we can meet next week. dah lama dah x jumpa korang kan? btw, da card will be post tomorrow, hopefully they will arrive by this week la kan? orite, signing off... assalamualaikum...

-- Compile --

- esok my paper -

budak2 nih exam math. takutnye klu ada soalan yg salah. and i didnt prepare the scheme yet. kinda pening pala skrang nih. i did staple n sorted accordingly to classes dah. but still i dnt kno why im having dis kinda feeling. mcm cuak jer selagi paper math nih budak2 x jawab lg. dats why no update n no reply for comments. perasaan yg ntah hape2 nih still melanda, so just bear with me okay?

- me wedding -

uumm, so far, okayla. not gona elaborate on it much. will see hows it goes. lps abis paper math esok, baru nk kelam kabut poskn semua kad2 pada kawan2. sementara waktu nih, just bear with me okay?

- household -

abah demam, doakan abah cepat sembuh. moody jer abah, so semua kena bersikap baik. kesian kaklin, abah x kasi balik. tp i still want you to come bck, be my pengapit. klu x dpt jugak, wat to do kn? i know abah intention is good, suruh kaklin belajar rajin2, tp kakin kawen sekali sajer net. no more after dis. but i guess aper la sgt wedding kan? x dtg pun xperla. wateverla kn? malas nk pk la...

- wat else -

wish me luck tomorro. harap2 semua berjalan lancar. insyaAllah selasa sume brg2 akan dpt di settlekn. then tunggu jerla for da wedding kn? ramai pun x dpt nk dtg. which is okayla to me. cume takut makanan byk terlebih pulak. itu lain cerita lah kan? yg penting makanan cukup, bukannya x cukup. klu x cukup, then it's gona be a problem. terlebih, xperla kot.

- LDP -

sabtu lps ada ldp again. tp kali ni, pegi sgt selebet okay. dahla bgn lmbt, cincai bersiap. seb baik pki mekap jugak, evntho 1st thought xmo pki. x pki name tag, and pki selipar jer. then guess wat? ive to present for my group! best kn? time ni la korg letak nama aku utk present eyh? blasah jerla. since mengajar math, so kenala present in english kan? seb baik lancar jer present, cume tgn jer yg menggigil sbb pegang/guna mic. damn... my microphonephibia still onla, bila nk cure nih? five minutes feel like five hours. thank god i ended finally. xtaula markah bape, janji dah setel.

-/+ okay, thinks datsal nak bebbles. sorry for not updating regularly, a lot of things kinda occupied my mind. so till later okay, take care and stay healthy eyh. drink plenty of water and have enough rest. assalamualaikum...

-- Hmm --

assalamualaikum... ola, watcha doin? ai net, lama dah x borak dgn kamu. sgt rindu la... kaklin sehat x? hows evrythg over there? here evrythg pun quite alright, alhamdulillah. not to worry ok net...

so, wat to write? umm... today the exam will be started with paper bm and pjk. wish them all the best this evening, hopefully they all will pass with flying colors. btw, i did made some promises with these kids, and if they did succeed, they sure burn a huge hole in my pocket. but its okay, the intention is for them to study and struggle hard, and if they are worth it, i would gladly hand them the so wanted pressie.

owh, btw... i would to invite evryone who happen to read this crappy blog of mine to witness our lovely day this coming june. im so sorry if i didn't drop you the card, in hoping that through virtual invitation will be enough (kes kad x cukup la nih) jgnla merajuk atau terasa sekiranya x dpt kad eyh. and you couldn't make it pun it's still okay, we can meet some other time kan i suppose...

umm, net... it's okay to drop comments in here. kakin x marah lah, aper daa... sama jer mcm zuhrin, takut kakin marah sbb korang kacau blog nih. this blog pun intentionly for you both okay? so that you guys can always read my mind, you guys can understand my unstable heart. so no fear, my dear, please be here, to hear my cheers... and some other stuffs too eyh?

enough bebbles... wow bebbles sound more executive then bebel. from now on, bebbles = bebel. get it? what ever la kan? so okay net, think thats all the bebbles i can come up with. will bebbles more on the next post. nite2, sweetdreams, assalamualaikum...

... Just ...

assalamualaikum... yola... olala... okay, enuf greeting already la... so, how's evryone? how are you net? terasa mcm dah lama x borak dgn kaklin. bile kite nak chat lg nih net? when you're not busy la eyh. gudluck with your study, you can do IT!!!

apa mau cite nih eyh? umm, to start with, a birthday shoutout for abang!!! selamat hari jadi abang. bile mau bagi saya kakak ipar nih? muahaha, gurau² jer. apa² pun saya doakan abang akan terus berjaya dalam semua cabaran yg abang tempuhi. luper pulak, 8/5 hari tuh pun bday naim. x tulis entry pun pasal bday naim. apsal eyh? ntah, byk mendela skrang nak pk. tp, bday naim hr tuh, ada jugakla beli kek, dgn piza like always. so naim, dah besar dah nih, naim kena buat sume sendri dah ok? nih keje skolah pun nak tunggu kakin/mak nak tolong, barula nak buat. mulai skrang naim kena belajar utk buat sendiri ok, lebih berdikari tawu?

dats about bday greeting. well, there's another greeting i suppose, which is da techa day. but me skool celebrate quite late, which is after da exam. however, maknye skolah celebrate dis coming monday and i wud like to present me mak sumthg too dis year. so ain, will you plz make da order by dis weeked? tqvm...

so wat happen in skool? umm, tomorrow ada ldp la pulak, and have to be in skool at 7.30. wat a torture great weekend to spend kan? after dat, we (h2b n i) will hopefully goin to pick da card and hopefully will be settle by tomorro. btw, for two days dis week, parent came to see me. about their kids since im da class teacha. so talk about their brats kids dis and dat, more toward apraisal of their small good deed rather than da bad one. i felt sorry for the parent actually, i know how humiliating to come to skool and face da teachas, and their did come and concern bout their kid, which is great. so rather than talking on and on bout their bad behaviour, i talk about little of their good behaviour too...

hopefully, we cud get da kad asap. if not, then we will go and settle buying me gifts!!! im not picky, so watever h2b like, i love them also. so most of my gifts are chosen by h2b and me too ofcoz.

i think datsal to write. wana go down and ngacau adik muahaha. kesian adik, die selesema pulak. moody sket hehe. td pi pasar malam pun adik moody jer. smoga cepat sembuh ek dik. orite, till next time. take good care evryone. lets pray for evryone safety. together, we strive for da best. assalamualaikum...

A Smile =D

assalamualaikum... hows evryone today? hows today? hope dat evrythg and evryone is great. so, wussup eyh? quite okayla. but da last two period really boiled my blood to da max. ive no idea wat to do with dis brats? nak lempang, anak orang. nak tendang, anak orang. last² aku pkila tektik rahsia utk mendiamkn budak² nih. aper die? malasla mau cite, kite cite mende lain okay?

but dis evening, im darn happy coz h2b is picking me up from skool. as h2b drop me off to skool too. so i felt like a wife already, where da hubby send and pick his darling wife from work. awesome kan? wat a great feeling, thank you Allah so much =)

so, we went to da kedai kad, but like my hunch has spoken b4, da kad isnt finish yet. its either tomorrow, or friday. so we will see by then. but if nothing is done, then please refund da express charge eyh?

later, since our kad isnt available yet, we went to carre*four again. perform maghrib prayer, then have our dinner. quite full, alhamdulillah smpi x abis makan. minta maaf ya Allah, i really cudnt understd why i cant finish my food like i use to. i think my tummy had shrunk la. mkn sket terus penuh. its not dat ive lost my appetite, its just dat, i think im full when im half done. i know its bad to throw away good food, but sorry, i just cudnt stuff all of it down my throat. please forgive me ya Allah...

after diner, we look around da shops. and we manage to cross some of the things from our checklist. so great, alhamdulillah. there's a bit more to finally finish crossing the items, i hope we can finish it by this week.

owh, btw ive made my full payment for da pelamin. cut budget in a lot of things, so about 1k we cud save up da spenditure. i know wedding is once in a lifetime, but i think its better to think the after effect of the wedding. wat i had in mind bout my wedding is, the guest is happy, plenty of food for evryone, and da kenduri is blessed by evryone dat came. dats my ultimate wedding dream. but ofcoz in the most sensible and pleasant for evryone. other than dat, nothg fancy, nothg biggie, just simple and suitable for all of the guest.

hmm... i didnt know dat its gona cost a lot, dis lot for a wedding. never once i read in any wedding stories, telling da cost is quite a bomb. i kno, probably no one is about da bragging. but its good to kno da price in details so dat i can expect da bomb to explode on my face first hand. but, all in all, evrythg is settle, so yup da bomb did explode and we survive, alhamdulillah...

so back home, thank god h2b is around to shell me from kena marah sbb balik lambat. so, h2b yg kena marah =p h2b told dis and dat, abah pun marah skit jerla. wat to do kan, im 27 and i still have a curfew. now im feeling like im still twelve, dat lil gal who is grounded and can never hang out with her friends bcoz me daddy and mommy loves me very much and will always shield me from any harm. i kno dat my parent is always concern with all of their kids, and im still living under their roof, so obey is a must and making them happy yes i shall...

overall, quite a day today. and alhamdulillah it finally rained after a few days of blasting hot weather. indeed its a blessing from Allah, thank you Allah for da rain. it made us all truly happy =D

think dis is all dat i got in mind. its nearly weekend already. so lets work hard to enjoy our weekend. aja aja fighting!!! assalamualaikum...

A While

ola... assalamualaikum... hmm, been 5 days since last post. nothg to write actually, more just toward ramblings. but wat da heck, lets ramble anyway la ek...

so da update? wat we did/buy last weekend? hmm, nothin much. h2b n me went to buy sum more stuff for us. we manage to buy da jewellery (necklace-for me, ring-for h2b) and also i bought h2b a perfume. so my list for him just left with one only! da baju melayu. i hope we can finally find da baju dat h2b loves. so still in search for da baju, and my other stuff too. lets finish crossing all of da list by this week, or next week, or whenever da list can be crossed...

umm, dis morning, h2b and i will be getting our cards. hopefully da card is ready when we're goin to pick it up. or else, we will ask for refund since its not done expressly.

other than dat, wat a big sigh each time i saw my student buat perangai. im embarrased and malas-nak-layan-dah and bengang jadi cikgu kelas budak² nih. why is it so difficult to be a good student and wont make a mess till da final bell ring? haiyo, asyik nk kena marah jerla budak2 nih. im so kesian and pity these kids but they are da one who's looking for trouble. sorry guys, you must pay da price for evrythg. nothg comes free these days honey. no money, no honey...

umm, just wana pinch a bit on my question paper. ada salah pulak da, typo-error i guess. seb baik noticed b4 da test. klu x, kesian budak² ni. cedera parah urat saraf diorg kira² and then x dpt jawapan...

another pinch of thoughts... well, sumtimes doin your best can lead you sumwhere else i guess. wat im trying to say is, ive been chosen to do da explorace again. but this time isnt for da kids. but other than da kids, you got wat i mean? *raising eyesebrows* so ive no idea wat to install for this game. have to think through. seriously, been imagining da scenarios and da possibility on how da day may be, but still in da planning mode, nothg biggie. but when da clock is ticking like HaLLL, then il press da pb button, alritey?

so thinks datsal. better catch some sleep. i dnt know why, but lately its been hard to fall off to sleep. tossing and turning here n there but no avail. do you guys have da same problem? care to share your experience?

nite² evryone, and a very good morning too i suppose. may your day today better than yesterday. so, lets do our best and be the best. Fighting!!! assalamualaikum...

1st May...

wow, its been an hour past midnite and yet im not asleep. why? i got back way too late dis time. never ever in history we've been out so late till mum and dad has gone to sleep. so wana kno da story? let me begin...

to start off, dis mornin after many2 times wake up n tersleep again, finally i got up and bersiap. later h2b arrived and wait downstairs with abg while im getting ready. aftrward we went up to da kedai kad n unfortunately da kedai isnt open yet so we opt for another kedai. since we're in hurry coz our big day is really around da corner, we book da card for express package. so by next week da card will be settle. there goes da card issues finally. eh not quite finish yet since we're to meet da owner and discuss da artwork, inlay and blalala. so after skool, we're gona go here again...

owh, bout da borang. it turnouts dat we dnt have to go to pejabat agama since we're gona get married by the same kadi. and we're living in da same district, so da borang is only needed to be passup by abah to da jurunikah ke tok kadi (luper dah) da least is one week from nikah. so ain, silalah ingt baik2 yea?

next after da isu card, we went to kedai pelamin. we pay a bit for da bookingla. da org kedai tuh asked me to try again da baju, but as much as i wana put it on, i decline sbb ive to go to skool. and we said dat we'll be back again later at at nite. so dah settle isu booking pelamin.

settle isu borang and card and da pelamin, off i went to skool. my h2b hantar. i felt like flying without wings till evening. so happy to be with h2b and to be sent to skool by him. rasa mcm kanak-kanak sekolah =D

anyway, after skool, ive message mak dat we're gona be home late since we're gona settle da kad n da pelamin n stuff. mak ckp ok, then later after school h2b pick me up =) heaven sgt rasanya bcoz i dnt have to drive like crazy by my own after work.

after maghrib prayer and dinner at carre*four, we're headed to da kedai kad. picked da card, tgk2 itu ini, puzzled and dont kno wat to choose, after 1 hour ++ we finally did it. da price, quite priceyla kot coz i thought nk cut da budget here. but its ok, still within budget. dapat 2 bunting free, and we can get it by next week. if and only we confirm da artwork within dis week. ok, we'll try our best to settle dis asap. so to all my dearest friend, plz give me your address so i can post you da card eh?

next around 9.30 mcm tuh, da kedai pelamin dah call. and i said dat we're on our way to da kedai. so borak2 kejap then diorg pun suruh test baju. and i did! wah, da outfit is so beautiful! i do feel like a queen. da feeling is so unreal, so undescrible. i never play dressup like dis before. with da amazing cloth on me, i just awed and thank god for giving me dis opportunity once in a life time. i did my parade infront of the mirror and show it to h2b. he loved it, so dats da outfit im gona wear for my side. later, they gave h2b to try his outfit. he just blew me away. here we are, two simple people, never wear any fancy clothes. so when we did, i felt so bless and happy =)

next, we try da outfit for h2b side. i just try mine for da upper piece. lower piece isnt finish yet. so im gona be wearing a new outfit. and for dis outfit, i felt like a princess! bcoz da color is so comel and da design is so comel =) and again, h2b really sweep me off from my feet. he looks amazing. amazingly handsome. and comel too =) i think its da color dat made it look so comel. outfit for h2b dis time too also new and isnt quite ready yet. so we just have a tryla dulu. then we will come again probably next week to really do da fitting and adjust mana yg patut.

and there's quite a lot a few nasihat/tips/advise dat kak ida made. on how to look super sizzling hotty hot hotty on da big day which i think most of us girls know but im too ignorant to follow. being me, super lazy to take care of my appearance, (asal pakai baju, tutup aurat sudah) selebet and comot all da time. i cudnt help it. i like to wear sumthg im comfortable with. my famous style to go out is blasah-jerla-nak-pakai-apapun. but lately, i think i better start taking care of my appearance, just for my own sake.

so i think datsal dat i can come up with. will write again insyaAllah. take care evryone, assalamualaikum...

Some Other...

assalamualaikum... another entry again. well, hari nih balik mcm rileks sket sbb mak abah dah beli dkt pasar mlm. so layan blog jap, then nk turun utk prepare BBM sbb esok kena cerap lg (hopefully) dgn GKMP math. dah brapa kali kensel dah nih. td pun solehah dikenselkan jugak. kesian dier dah prepare sume BBM td. so hopefully esok kena cerap and settle sume nih. to dayah, minta maafla x dpt nk wish utk ko. harap konye observe pun berjalan lancar. aku siyesly xde kedit nk reply. cikgu x dpt gaji lgla. wish aku jugak tau esok...

btw, how's my favourite people doin? harap2 sumenye ok, di bawah lindungan Allah selalu. sume dkt rumah, alhamdulillah sehat. kaklin mcm mana? sehat jugakkn? kakin malas nk on9la dis days. sbb byk mende nk setelkn dulu. nanti kite chat2 lagi ok? esok kakin nk p settlekn pasal borang kawin, n pelamin n kad. nanti kakin updatekn postnye di sini orite?

so, soklan math dah siap direso. mulalah nk kena menstapler dan patahla pinggang cenggini. teruskan berusaha =) ada soklan sivik pun kak azie nk minta bahagi² lah menstapler, tp aku direct jer reject td sbb yg math nih pun aku wat sorg jer. sorry kak azie, i think i did hurt your feeling td. but im so sorry, ive only two hands. ive to finish my work first, then il help you out orite? btw, maknye soklan pun aku x buat² lg. nasib mak x ckp pape lg nih. tp harap² by tonite dah leh siap kot. so wish me all da luck eh...

i think enoughla membebel for today. td aku berjaya menyenyapkn satu kelas yg tersgt² bising mengalahkn makciks kepochi. diam jugakla budak2 nih smpi bunyi loceng nk balik. wat did i do? rahsia jerla. x machola klu bgtau korang eh? watever, bila hati dah terusik, takkan terdaya menahan air mata utk tidak jatuh berguguran bukan? well, basically, i didnt cry. i just choke and my words get da best of me. so diorg pun diam jerla. terinsafla kejap kot? watever. ive said wat i need to say and im sure they understd the message i try to convey.

kesimpulannya, malas dahla nk marah². tp klu x marah² diorg nih, nanti form 2 diorg naik lemau. then mulala cikgu petang yg disalahkn. kata tak bertegas, x marah2 budak2 nih la. i guess, i will continue my yelling, but if they are too stubborn, il just call their parent and let them know how spoil brat their child is at skool. dats my last resort for these kids. harap² besar nanti diorg nih jadila orang yg berguna.

orite, better stop and stare =D nite evryone. have a good day tomorro. assalamualaikum...

Another...

moulaaaaa.... assalamualaikum... hari ni pun terrajinla jugak nk post sket. so post jerla eh. jadi saya nk bertanya nih, semua sehat x? alhamdulillah, kami pun semuanya sehat2 belaka. kite terus pergi pada update jerla eh...

umm, ape nk cite sebenarnya? xde mende sgt. cuma dah berpuasa 2 hari, tinggal lg dua hari je nk ganti. mmg mencabar gakla puasa smbil menjerit mengajar. tp kan, bile kite reverse psycho dgn budak2 nih, jadi baiknya... alhamdulillah, x terkata kecomelan mereka... so, bile diorg pun dah beri kerjasama, saya sgtla tersenyum sambil menjerit mengajar riang =D

umm, probably dis thursday we're gona settle da borang and discuss futhermore on pelamin and kad dll. so nk finalize semuanya, then we're readyla for da wedding. boleh dah kot nk start hias2kn hantaran itu. tinggal nk beli jam, cincin and set perfume utk h2b. and baju melayu full set too. and da bedroom set too. lagi ape lg? oh yeah, da door gift. eh, apsal mcm byk lg x settle lg nih? (please wait.... switching to panic mode... warghhhhh)

rileks, masih ada byk waktu lg utk menjerit panic. buat satu2 dulu, then insyaAllah evrythg will be settle eh. in da meanwhile silala mengajar budak2 ini dgn baik sekali =>

orite, think datsal nk membebel. see how profesional i am in membebel dis day? i can go on and on membebel non-stop. mcm makciks kepochi dah gitu. orite, better stop and prepare da dinner. sian mak abah dah lapar. im hungry too sbb berbuka td mkn roti dgn milo jer.

so take care evryone. have a good day. lagi 2 hari jer keje, then we're gona have a long weekend. insyaAllah we're heading to johor and probably to s'pore. really looking forward for dis weekend. stay safe and be safe alritey. assalamualaikum...

Lucky Pot =D

assalamualaikum... here goes another entry again =) how's evryone? hopefully we are all in good mood, in good shape to continue our journey to ever after... just wana write a lil sumthin here. about da potluck dat ive mention earlier. not very much to tell, so here goes la...

to begin with, ive a lil trouble while doin da potato salad. da microwave isnt functioning well. kinda faulty a bit. dat cause my time to keep on heating it over 3 times! but still da potatoes isnt baked very well. so blasah jerla kn. da maccaroni kinda orite. da taste is so cheesy and i cant eat it too much bcoz then it will make me wana throw up.

so with low morale, i bring da food to school. in da hope dat evryone will enjoy it as much as they tounge can swallow. but much to my delight, they like it =) im darn happy and eat like no others....

da potluck is a success! evryone enjoy da food altogether and we will have some potluck in da near future hopefully. no pichas is taken since im busy cutting da nasik himpit and enjoys eating evrythg =)

so datsal i can share bout our potluck. as for today, i make begedil from yesterday baked potatoes dat i haven't finished makin da salad. so da taste is also nice and i wana fry some more for diner. take care evryone, wana go down and prepare for dinner...

Finally =D

ola lalo mulalalala.... assalamualaikum... ola sume org! sume orite? evryone in pinky health? me too and da rest of da family here. cume naim je yg sakit leher, and mak yg getting better, but not quite there yet. so plz pray for mak too yea. i pray hard each and evryday for mak to get better. Ya Allah, perkenankanlah doa hamba-Mu ini. hanya pada-Mu lah tempat kami bergantung dan mengharap belas dari-Mu...

ive sumthg to tell and share with evryone!!!! saya sudah kena observe/cerap!!!! alhamdulillah, akhirnya setelah penat menanti! tp baru dgn KP sahajalah. dgn GKMP belum lagi.so harap2 dapatla kena cerap next week.

ape komen kak izan? alhamdulillah, ada jugak teguran, bukan ke saya budak baru belajar? tp da comment sgt membina. i like it, terasa mcm diajar mcm budak sekolah je, seronok sgt. terima kasih kak izan kerana sudi mengajar budak yg baru belajar nih.

umm, nk cite pasal mengajar dlm kelas masa kena observe td la sket ek, sebelum terlupa dat is. so first, i asked da student to clean up da classroom, mmg tunggang langgang bersepah tak hengat. next asked them to pick up da rubbish before greeting me, later they can be seated.

so while they are taking out their books, i paste da BBM at da board. later, told them to copy it then do some example. here is where da slack begin. boleh tersalah kira okeh? kenapa tersalah kira? sbb p ikut bulat2 jawapan yg budak2 ni bagi. aku pun main salinla jawapan diorg nih. lps tu kak izan pun ckpla kesalahan guru ini. so sorry, i shudnt have listen membuta tuli jer, im darn nervous masa tuh, nak calculate pun otak jadi blank. then, tarik napas dalam2, buat balik example td, dis time we all get it rite! so bravo!!!

umm, after da bell rings, slow talk a bit with them, and the next class is bout to begin dah. so dat was it! dah setel, alhamdulillah. syukur semuanya berjalan dgn lancar. later, kak izan bgtaula utk jumpa die dkt bilik guru lps dah abis setel nih. aku orite jerla sbb mmg xde klas pun lps tu.

so, wat kak izan have to say bout me teaching da class? good feedback, alhamdulillah. aku dapat control kelas dgn baik, suara pun jelas kedengaran. cuma aku x bg byk example. which i normally do it, cume td hanyala satu masa sahaja. dats y bg satu example sahaja. overall, kak izan ckp i used and teach in English, which is good compare to others. so datsall da komen. and the record book pun ada juga komen, il take it to improve it later ek.

umm, on the not so sunny side... umm,... i did marah giler2 punya dkt budak yg curi purse aku dulu. selama nih aku asyik tahan jer, xnk melenting dkt budak tuh. sekali dis time, i had enough with it. mmg aku sabarkn tgn aku sket lg nk kena muka budak tuh. mcm2 la yg aku ckp. then, i did regret bout it. masa tgh ngajar dis one class, aku suruh panggil dua budak nih. then il explain why im so upset td and i apologize for some of the things ive said. i explain da scenario and wat they will do if they are in my shoes. later, diorg pun salam n minta maaf dgn aku jugak. all well ends well i suppose...

so, overall its a tiring day. sgt penat. plus ada fire drill pulak td. okayla time yg kitorg buat, 4 mins ++ xdela sume rentung. masih boleh diselamatkn lagi. and tomorrow kitorg nk buat potluck! cadang nk buat potato salad and maccaroni goreng. tp nak main hentam jer nih. harap2 jadila sedap.

so wish my potato salad n maccaroni goreng sedap ek. take care people, have a good friday tomorrow. aja aja!!~ assalamualaikum....

What's Up?

assalamualaikum... ai net, and to my dearest friends =) ada update lg? rajinla pulak mengupdate kali nih... tp xde cite nk dicitekn pun...

umm... kaklin nih, kakin dh update kaklin x baca la pulak... are you busy net? aja aja fighting!!! goodluck with your studies ek...

orite, dah xde pape nk bebel. td tgh tolong naim siapkn homework die. seb baik dah siap. leher naim selalu sakit2 la net. why la? kakin pun dah xtau nk ckp ape dah kt naim. kakin tampal koyok je dkt leher die. tp kesian tgk bile nk bukakkn koyok tu sbb tertarik kn dgn bulu leher skali, naim asyik mengaduh jer.

hows ur hand net? sudah baikkah? i hope ure recovering well. cpt sembuh dan x sakit2 dah kn.

umm, esok kakin kena cerap/observe la net. kinda nervous x hengat. hopefuly i can get good marks out of it. not too much, but if i do get high marks then alhamdulillah. syukur sgt2. so wish me luck net! teruskan berusaha!!!

orite, enouf craps. better get a goodnite sleep then. take care net, nanti kite borak2 lg eh. assalamualaikum...

Aja Aja Fighting!!!

assalamualaikum... ai net, n da rest... dah 2 minggu x tulis cite baru. sebok n malas nk berinternet... so dats why da delay. but today, i decided to write sumthg here, as a progress, as a reminder, as a watever la kn...

umm, to begin with... lets talk about da programme i kinda handle last week. its called "smart explorace kids" da shoutout 'explorace for smarter kids'. basically they are running around da skool n solve da activities for each stations. there are 10 stations all together and evry stations is a mix of science n math activities. overall, the event is a success and never once cross my mind dat il be getting any compliment from anyone. so, im really all smiley from ear to ear. sgt happy, alhamdulillah, syukur kerana Allah makbulkan doa hamba-Nya yg sgt terdesak minggu lps.

wat really happen? u ask bout da story blakang tabir? umm, lets just say all well ends well. evntho i felt like a living dead, doin and thinkin evrythg 90% by myself, but its worth da experience and da time taken to accomplish this task. now, im very pleased and satisfied with my work and myself! so congrats AIN ALIDA!!! you did it!!! thank you Allah for helping me all da way. thank you h2b for your constant support. all da rest too...

so wedding update. umm, lemme see... borg dh kinda settle last week. alhamdulillah... sgt bestnya klu dah boleh nikah terus ahad lps =D we both are all set. lg cpt lgla baguskn. dah x pyh pening2 kepala pk, takut tok kadi or h2b terdtg lmbt. sbb kami insyaAllah akn berakad nikah pada 6/6 dan kenduri pun pd hari yg sama. takut nanti terkocoh nk tukar baju n stuff n blalala. hopefully evrythg will be exactly how it shud happen...

da pelamin n stuff like dat, dah book. kitorgnye kenduri buat di rumah kt gombak nih, insyaAllah. n h2b side, insyaAllah buat dkt dewan u*i*a. so hrp2 sume nih dah setella kot. last saturday jugak p setelkn isu kad. baru je pilih design n layout. nasib baikla member abg yg wat. diorg pun orite je nk buatkn artwork and bg ktorg masa lagi nk pilih2. hrp dptla siap within next month. also since kawan abg, diorg maybe bg harga less lagila kot. but, we dont mind. janji kad lawa and da way we wanted, harga i think it's reasonable enough dah.

also, last saturday lps setel pasal kad nih, kitorg pun pla kedai pengantin recommended by kwn abg nih. dats where we booked da pelamin, da baju, da mekap, fotograph n video, sumela in one go. so malas dah nk survey n cari tmpt lain. again, da most important thing dat we focus in mind is akad nikah nanti. which is da highlight of our life. to be together hand in hand alas. yg lain2 tu, malas nk pk, boleh x? muahaha...

i know, i know dat dis is once in a life time nye event n shud b done in a certain way. tp again, malas la nk pk yg lain2 itu. nanti2 la kitorg pk. skrang byk mende yg kena setelkn dulu. bulan 5 its da time to roll our sleeve and run like HaLLLLL!!!!

umm, nanti la net kakin postkn gmbr pasal banjir ari tuh. mak dah panggil makan nasik. tp cam malas je nk mkn. nak kurus sket, muahaha. orite, enough smiling net. kakin taula yg kakin ckp jer lebeh eh. nantila, ada lg sebulan nk kurus. so aja aja fighting!!!

till ere ent. i miss you so much la rite now. miss talking with you, miss spending time with you. naim asyik sebok ajak men boling n tgk movie. nanti kite p sesama la ek net. so rite now, wana wish you gudluck n all da best tau net. you are my brilliant lil sister, you can do it net, i kno you can! so aja aja fighting!!! nanti kite tgk full*house sesama lagi ek.

take care evryone, lets aja aja fighting together shall we? so all together now, AJA AJA FIGHTING!!! TERUSKAN BERUSAHA!!!

Be Right Back

olalala... lala ola... wat an intro da? i dnt kno, dat da words poppin out of my mind to start with... so all my favorite people, how you guys are doing? still hangin tough? i hope evryone is doin fine. im fine myself and evryone in da family doing fine, thanks to Allah da greatest...

sorry net and evryone for da long awaited post. my fingers arent able to dance on da keyboard dis couple of weeks. at one time, i almost write why there isnt any new post on da comment box when i realise halloo, dis is my blog, so why da heck i didnt update it da 1st place? wat ever, lets just continue...

hmm, a lot to tell, but i guess being employed as a teacher do drain all my energy till da last of it. i barely made it to da room to sleep. it was exhausting fun after 6 hours yelling teaching dis brats kids. wat a day evryday!!! i always look forward for weekend. but then comes monday where da cycle begin again =D

to begin with, lets start with da wedding. so wat about my wedding? nothg much yet, just da simple stuff being ready. ive made da list but to lazy to keep on checking and crossing all da stuff dat isnt prepared yet. so lets worried bout sumthg else, and let mak pening-pala-dgn-perangai-anak-dan-menantu-yg-buat-derk-je-nih-pasal-kahwin-mereka =p (mak, leks la. ada lg dua bulan jer lg. we can aja aja fighting next month alrity?)

bout skool, da same o same o. nothg diff, only dat im a class teacher for dis one particular class. teaching them math, always rolling my eyes backward each time they didnt memorize forget the multiplication table. other than dat, the kids are being kids. nasib baik anak org, klu x lama dah kena lempeng, muahahaha.

wat else, abang finally run his business. im not gona elaborate much on dis. but if anyone has any problems regarding their cars, do come and tell. i wish him all da best and hopefully abg will success. aja aja fighting!!!

orite, i think datsal i can come up with. will write more, but till next time. so for da mean time, do take care and be happy =D assalamualaikum...

Brain Simulating...

after all has been said and done... terasa sgt klaka la pulak baca entry yg lepas, pasal budak2 berperangai syaiton tuh. wat ever, unless you apologize, truly apologize, then ure forgiven. klu x, haram...

not in da time to write actually. supposely i shud be sleeping rite now, but i didnt. i kno h2b gona be furious, but i cudnt shut my eyes. my brain is simulating continuosly. so before i cud realy lay my eyes to rest, im stuck rite here...

umm, dis post is suppose to make the later post dissapear from the top. i keep terreading bout it, and it made me darn furious at those budak2 kapla biola. so rather than keep feeling upset, better do sumthg bout it rite?

orite, enuf bluff. back to sleep people. nite2 evryone. gud mornin! hope today will be a fresh start of the week. assalamualaikum...

Alhamdulillah... Agungnya Kuasa Allah...

assalamualaikum... semalam tersgtla berperasaan hiba, gundah gulana, sedih dan tersgt pilu... satu musibah telah berlaku, kepercayaan telah disalahguna, kebaikan telah disalahertikan... tp hari ni, alhamdulillah... Allah menunjukkan kekuasaan-Nya dan kerahmatan-Nya buat hamba-Nya yg tersgtla hina ini. terima kasih Allah, hanya pada-Mu lah aku mengharap, dan pengharapanku telah dimakbulkan... syukran syukran...

tak terucap, tak terkata betapa besarnya rahmat dan kurniaan yg telah Allah berikan. sgt2 bersyukur dan berterima kasih pada Allah, juga pada guru-guru disiplin yg telah membantu. jasa-jasamu dikenang hingga mati. hanya Allah yg mampu membalas jasa dan budi baik kalian...

berat sgt nk cerita di sini, demi menjaga nama baik semua pihak. tp harus juga dicerita supaya dapat dijadikan pengajaran dan peringatan. jadi, izinkanla saya menceritakan apa sebenarnya yg terjadi...

ceriteranya bermula semasa berada dlm ke*las yg x perlu disebut di sini. disebabkan hari ini adanya ujian bulan mac, maka meja2 semua sudah disusun atur. meja buat gu*ru telahpun diletakkn di belakang. oleh kerana membawa byk brg, maka beg2 saya pun turut diletakkn di belakang.

bermulala sesi penga*jaran dan pembela*jaran. dgn tekun, tanpa jemu, saya mencoretkan ilmu di papan putih. kemudian sesi penerangan berlangsung. kemudian berulangla proses yg sama sehinggalah loceng waktu terakhir dibunyikan. pelajar pun pulang ke rumah. ada pelajar yg bersalaman sebelum pulang, ada pelajar yg bertanyakn itu ini. setelah memastikan tiada pelajar di kelas, saya pun mengangkut barang utk pulang ke rumah jua.

bilamana saya singgah ke kedai, meneman kwn utk memfotostet, teringin pula utk membeli sedikit barangan keperluan. masa inilah baru kusedar ada makhluk bertopengkan syaitan membuat angkara. begku telah diselongkar, dompetku telah dicuri...

pada mulanya mmg ingt telah keciciran. tp mustahil utk tercicir dua beg sekaligus. ada dua beg kecil yg hilang. satu dompet, satu lg beg yg berisi barangan mekap. jadi, nmpk jelas dan nyata yg ada tgn pencuri yg sgt panjang yg mengambilnya.

aku dan az*wa kembali ke sekolah. mencari di bilik gu*ru dan di surau. utk menyedapkn hati, mungkin aku tercicir di situ. tp, hampa dan telah ku tahu yg mana mungkin ada di situ. hati sudah semakin berat, mataku sudah mula berkaca...

terus pk pe*tang ditelefon. dari segi apa yg pk sampaikn, lebih kurang tamatla episod dompetku di bawah jagaanku. dinasihatkn buat semula dokumen2 penting dan dibenarkn utk dtg lewat esok harinya bagi menyelesaikn urusan2 itu.

pulanglah aku ke rumah. bergenang air mata sambil bercerita pada mak. mak minta aku supaya bersabar. tabahkn hati dlm menghadapi musibah ini. mak buatkn air utk menenangkn perasaanku. aku minta diri utk menunaikn solat maghrib. selesai solat, aku menangis kembali. pada Allah aku mengadu, hanya Dia-lah yg memahami rintihan hati ini. hanya pada Dia-lah aku menangis sepuas hati. x lama kemudian, mak panggil. mak minta aku x henti menyebut Al-Haq, Ya Haq. fadhilahnya besar, insyaAllah barang yg hilang dikembalikan semula...

kemudian, aku dan mak pergi ke balai polis utk membuat report. abah suruh membuat karangan, menyatakan barangan yg hilang dan sebagainya supaya senang utk membuat laporan nanti. sampai di balai polis, cekap dan mesra layanan diterima. pada Insp. H aku ceritakan apa yg terjadi. dan dia memahami dan tidak menyalahkn diriku cuai dan sebagainya. (pakcik jaga x habis2 membebel katakan aku cuai. paham x pakcik, saya ada dlm kelas, mengajar di depan. meja guru di belakang. mata saya ada dua je pakcik, klu dkt belakang kepala saya ada mata, lain ceritala. bolehla saya perati lahabau yg buat jahat dkt belakang tuh. ada paham x pakcik? kang ckp pakcik nih x pandai kang marah pulak. bukannya saya tertinggal beg tu dlm kelas. argh, wat ever. ckp byk dgn org yg x berapa nk educated ni masalah sikit.)

berbalik pd report td, setelah keterangan diambil, Insp. H bertanya samada aku ingin pegawai penyiasat utk menyiasat perkara ini. mak pun menyatakan mungkin membawa masalah pada nama se*kolah jika kes ini sudah menjadi kes polis. lantas, aku jawabkn biarla masalah ini diselesaikn oleh pihak sekolah.

hari ini, awal pagi, aku pergi mengesahkn report polis. kemudian ke jpj utk membuat lesen. tp lesen hendaklah disertakan dgn k/p. pergila dgn az*wa ke jpn. pada mulanya, hati tersgtla berat memikirkn kemungkinan denda yg terpaksa ditanggung, rm200 ringgit (ini adalah kehilangan kali kedua) setelah memberi penerangan dan report polis, alhamdulillah, bayaran tidak dikenakan. setelah selesai urusan, kami pun ke sekolah.

pada awal waktu, sungguh hatiku sedih. manakn tidak, budak2 yg ku anggap mcm naim, seperti adik2ku sendiri mengkhianati. wlupn bukn semuanya bersalah, tp x sanggup rasanya nk berdepan dgn pelajar2 ini. kuteruskn juga tugasan aku dgn sebaik mungkin. sebak di dada ku tahan, namun gugur jua. sungguh emosi cik*gu hari ini bukan?

setelah selesai peperiksaan, aku bercerita dgn kak azi. terus dia cadangkn supaya buat itu dan ini. dan pada cikgu2 lain kuceritakn hal yg sama. akhirnya, rezekiku dipermudahkn. berjumpalah dgn cikgu nik yg kebetulan sedang menguruskn kes disiplin yg lain. aku ringkaskn cerita, hanya yg penting. cikgu nik pun meminta diri utk menyelesaikn kes disiplin tersebut sblm menyelesaikn permasalahan aku pula.

berjumpa kembali dgn cikgu nik dan ustaz. mereka adalah guru disiplin. mereka bertanyakn suspek yg aku syaki, dan aku ada menyatakan dua org suspek. terus cikgu nik dan ustaz mengambil tindakan.

loceng berbunyi. aku dan guru2 lain pulang. azwa ingin singgah ke kedai smlm. aku turutkn kehendaknya. x lama di kedai, pn di*ng pun telefon. perkhabaran gembira diterima. alhamdulillah, syukur dompet ku telah dijumpai semula. aku kembali ke sekolah.

sampai di sana, suspek pertama ada di luar bilik kaunseling bersama seorang lelaki, kemungkinan bapanya dan juga pn. di*ng. pn di*ng sedang bercakap dlm telefon, kemungkinan dgn pihak polis. di tangan pn. di*ng kelihatan dompetku. alhamdulillah. muka budak tuh sikit pun aku x pandang. lelaki tersebut pun tidak berkata apa pun, minta maaf pun tidak. x kesah, janji dompet semuanya ada. itu doa yang Allah makbulkn, apa yg ada aku terima. cuma agak terkilan kerana duit yg hilang tuh allahyarhamah tuk yg bg. mana mungkin aku dptkn kembali. lg rm50 adalah duit yg abah dan mak bg yg aku dah berjanji tidak akn gunakn wlupn keadaan yg sgt mendesak. bukan rezekiku nampaknya. rezeki haram budak dua orang tuh.

kagum x dgn perangai pelajar zaman sekarang? semasa cikgu sebok mengajar di depan, korang buat perangai iblis korang dkt belakang ek? dkt neraka ko jawabla nanti. aku haramkn apa yg korg dah buat. smpi matila ko tanggung dosa ko nih. aku bukan nabi, bukan juga malaikat. dan bukan senang nk maafkan apa yg korg dah buat ni....

dahla x minta ampun pun td. x bercakap sepatah haram maaf pun. macam manala aku nk maafkn perangai ko nih? so lantak korgla ek. burn in hell la nmpknya. ada jugak aku bertanyakn satu lg beg yg berisi barangan mekap ku. x mengaku pulak diambilnya. jadi pada sesiapa yang memakai barangan yg dah kuharamkn itu, tanggungla akibatnya nanti. Allah saja yg membalas, aku xde kuasa nak membalas apa yg korg dah buat nih. wlupn perasaan td, klu ikutkn hati yg amarah nih, mau saja dilempang2, diketuk dgn kasut, dimaki hamun, namun air mata yg keluar. sedih sgt, x mampu nk marah. x mampu nk buat apa2 selain menangis mengenangkn sesuatu yg bernilai yg x mungkin aku dapat kembali.

doaku kini hanya satu. semoga dapat berjumpa kembali dgn tuk. bila teringt kembali kejadian ini, rindu pada tuk semakin menebal. argh air mata, tolong jgn mengaburi mata ini...

pengajaran dan pembelajaran pada hari ini, pada peristiwa ini adalah : jangan mudah percayakn budak2 wlupn nmpk innocent, tp hati syaitannya mana mungkin kita nmpk. bawalah brg berharga ke mana-mana.

pada Allah, terima kasih ya Allah. tiada ayat yg mampu ku ucapkn utk menyatakn perasaan ku ini. hanya Kau-lah yg mengerti segalanya. pada mak, terima kasih kerana berdoa, bersembahyang hajat. doa seorg ibu cepat Allah makbulkan, alhamdulillah. pada abah yg memahami, pada abg yg mengerti, pada naim yg mendengar rintihan dan tangisan kakin, pada bb yg mendengar, terima kasih. dan tidak lupa, berbyk2 jutaan terima kasih yg tidak terhingga pada guru2 disiplin, terima kasih byk2. cikgu nik, cikgu hafizal dan ustaz, jasamu dibawa hingga mati. terima kasih juga pn. di*ng di atas keperihatinan beliau.

alhamdulillah... nmpknya kenduri kesyukuran akn berlangsung insyaAllah. mungkin dalam minggu ini atau minggu depan. terima kasih ya Allah, alhamdulillah. syukur pada-Mu ya Allah. alhamdulillah...

Date Up =p

wah sudah lamanya tidak update!!! sgt busy jugakla for da first week sbb nk settlekn buku rekod. alhamdulillah, dah settle dah pun (hopefully) and jadual pun dah bertukar skit, which im teaching now 27 periods. so now dat i can breath sedikit, so lets blog!

mello evryone! apa khabar semua? evryone doing great? alhamdulillah, syukur. doing not so great? alhamdulillah, syukur juga sbb ujian yg mendatang itu hadiah daripada Allah. lets pass all our test in flying colors shall we?

so wat bout skool you say? alhamdulillah, semua berjalan lancar. budak2 x brapa nk lancar. math kn, for me da critical moment is f1, f2 which if we didnt grap da basic, then da later lesson is a blurry vision ( i dnt kno about you guys, but when i was in f2, i kinda lost in algebra, so there's a lot of catching up to do during f3 ) furthermore, ive to teach in english lagi, preparation and study is a must before going in class.

overall, dis couple of weeks is great for me. da colleagues are great, evryone is helpful. da students mcm biasala, ada rasa mcm nk *00* dan sebagainya, tp biasala budak2. kena bwk byk2 sabar setiap kali masuk kelas.

so far, its challenging, especially teaching morale in dis one particular class. but, i love sharing infos with dis kids. but, ive to equipped myself with general knowledge a lot, and have to be alert with all da current issues worldwide. to be true, ive no interest in wats goin on dat isnt related to me. i mean, i do read about it, but not in great details. now i think ive to reach deeper, not just by its cover...

last saturday was da annual pi*bg meeting. a lot of issues has been raised, so hopefully there's goin to be action taken. next saturday, there's a road run comin up. so i hope evrythg wil be as smooth as possible...

i tried to make my work station as interesting as i may. since da space given isnt much available, so lets make it great and nice orite?

umm, i think dis will be all. there's a lot of things to settle at skool, so lets do it efficiently, one at a time ok? wana settle da lesson plan, and da register. next week, these kids will be facing their march test. hopefully they will do great in their tests.

umm, abah is away from today till weekend. best klu dpt ikut p melaka. so dat leave only us at home. tp adik pun dah balik, ramaila sket dkt rumah. it will be da greatest if you are around too net. sudah rindu sama kamula net, cptla balik kaklin. kami menanti anda di sini =) (saja nk usik2 kaklin, i kno you want to come back too, we'll meet dis coming june yek.) aja aja kaklin, gudluck for your tests and exam, YOU CAN DO IT!!!

orite, till here then. nak tulis lagi, tp nanti2la. ill tell you bout da road run dis saturday ek. take care my friends, take good care orite! assalamualaikum...