Thirst

Climbing the stairs while we watched from far

Climbing the stairs with ayah

Si kecil going for a slide

Yesterday was a lovely evening after continuous pouring rain for days. So we decided to go to the park again. I like going to the park on weekdays because there aren't many people around compared to weekend. Before we left, i had a tiny voice inside saying 'hmm, i should bring zairil's drink', but my head went 'it's ok,we're going for a bit, zairil can have a drink after we arrived home'. Off we went without bringing the drink that is.

There weren't many people around, zairil played happily; running, climbing, sliding, run and climb some more. Boy, he played with all his heart. He did slipped once on the stairs, but it didn't stop him from playing again and again.

After one hour, it's time to go home. But we stop for roti eskem and then continued to the car. Forgetful hp forgot to shut the front door. Luckily everything was in place. We offered some of the roti eskem to zairil but he refused and cried for a little bit. So i thought he was sleepy from playing too much.

On the way home, we suddenly decided to make a stop at carrefour for some grocery shopping. Zairil showed sign of discomfort, but again i dismiss, still thinking he's tired.

At the carrefour, this little guy cries some more. The tears streaming down his face, made me sad and frustrated not knowing what he wants and what should i do to comfort him. Later, i found out how thirsty he was when he wanted to gobble the fruit can, thinking that it's a drink can.

All we can think off to shop hurriedly and i did took the vitagen for zairil to drink. After we paid, zairil drank four bottles of vitagen in one go. Imagine how thirsty he was at that time. I am so sorry sayang for discarding your thirst. Poor zairil, all he wanted was some drinks, yet i thought he was being cranky for no reason.

So from now on, every time we want to go to the park, please make sure you bring along zairil's drink ok?

Break Down

it was such a lovely evening today, so i decided to throw out the piling garbage and move the car from parking under the tree. later on, i said 'why not we take the car for a spin?' so we did, both of us; zairil and i went round the carrefour and then turn to the playground.

by then, i saw black clouds coming towards us. it was so dark, but i said 'alang2 dh smpi cni, mehla kita main jap' so zairil pun main2 slide, lari2 sket, climb da stairs, then it started to rain. more like a shower. so i jst let him have some more slides.

out of a sudden, it rained heavily that we have to rush to the car. at a glimpse, i saw double rainbows at da horizon, i don't know why, but it gave me a shiver. the rain became heavier.

zairil protest at the back of the car, still wanting to play at the park. i tried to comfort him, but he kept on crying. so i let him be. i insert the car key and tried to reignite the engine. nothing happened. i tried to change the gear, nothing happened.. i started to:

• panic
• freak out
• cried hysterically
• scream
• take a deep breath and cried some more
• thinking that this is some kind of a bad dream and tried to wake up from it (stupid thinking, great ain!!!)

i did all the above. at the same time, i checked the phone and the battery was dead, great!!! thank god there's a charger inside the car. i waited for the phone to charge, then i don't know whom to call. hp is thousand miles away, and zairil kept crying and crying ='(

the solution i could think of is:

• left the car at the park
• call a mechanic (but i don't have any number, it's always been hp who dealt with them)
• asked for someone to help
• walk home in the heavy rain with si kecil (since i don't have any money with me to take a cab)
• pray to Allah, please please please help me ya Allah

later, i switched da phone, tried to call hp but to no avail. i sms him and told him our situation hoping that he could help from far. then i cried some more ='( at dat moment, i felt so angry at myself and  regretted, why am i in dis situation? kan bagus duduk diam2 dkt rumah je, xdela pape terjadi. but instead, i went out. good job ain!

zairil is still crying out of frustration, and i cried with him. gosh, i am shakey all over and i have a baby to calm. i gave him a tight hug, and he stop crying for a while, but later vomited over me. as long as he stop crying, muntah pun muntahlah.

suddenly, my phone rang, and thank god, hp called. i cried while talking, then hp calmed me, asked me what happened. so i told him, there's this emergency light coming out which i didn't switch it on, then the gear won't budge, and i couldn't start the car.

the 1st problem is, it is concerning the alarm. so hp told me the step to switch off the alarm (a bit complicated step,so i won't elaborate, only will remembered it by heart) i did exactly what hp told me to do and now the emergency lights are off. and the engine can be reignite. later, the gear wont budge a bit. so hp told me to move the car back and forth so the gear can be at the right place. i did that, in spite of the car is so heavy and i felt powerless against it.

alhamdulillah, the gear is in place and the engine is running. and zairil is now calmed. no words can describe how grateful i am to Allah, sending me help even from far. thank you Allah, You've always been there for me when i need You the most. and thank you hunny for your hunch (came back to the hotel to check on the phone and saw my distress message)

overall, it did gave me a shock and i am traumatized from this experience. i know that this may be nothing to many of you, but to me it is such an ordeal. first, i seldom drive the car, so i don't know much about the car. later, i never face this kind of situation in my life, (i never face car break down on my own before) yes it became a shock to me. next, hp is away from me, so i don't know what to do, as i rely on him 1000%.  then i have a toddler with me which make it impossible to calm him and work out the problem at the same time. finally, pregnant woman can't think straight! well, this is my own excuse, so yes not all pregnant woman can't think straight right? scrap that, i can't think straight when i am in trouble, so that my final excuse =)

what an evening, despite of what had happened, i will still drive the car and try to master it. hopefully the car will be at his best behaviour when i'm the one whose driving it. so escape, be nice to me all the time ok?

A Lil Sumthing

assalamualaikum... it's been a while now i haven't write in 'proper' writing i must say. always in a rush. nak bagi salam pun x menyempat. guess dis is da price for having si kecil in da house. so how's evryone doing so far? despite of wat's goin on in da middle east, and a hartwrenching disaster dat happened in japan, my prayers is for evryone to be safe and a lil happiness goes a long way kan?

ok, umm for dis post... umm, i just wana write sumthg dat to me, yes it will make me sound like a terible mother, some ungrateful piece of meat. but its like, it did bug me once a while and i hope dat my writing wont be jugde. so read me out kay, read with your eyes, nothing else but with your eyes...

okay, once a while... maybe more than once a while, i felt like arghhh whyla my mind always have dis menyampah thoughts. and i hate it when it just blurt out of my mouth, and later i regret talking bout it. its like, tolong bersyukur boleh x? tapi kan, nak jugak ada tapinya and i hate having this burden thought of mind. so please la, please la go away and just be grateful already!!!

ni ape ni? what is it la dat im trying to say ni actually? i dunno, its hard to explain in word really. macam ditelan, x best. diluah pun sama jugak x best. lain kali janganla makan hati, makan angin kan best. boleh jugak menghirup udara yg best. umm hello?! yg byk membebel ni kenapa? wah sungguh byk betul dah bebel panjang2 ni, tp tak tertulis jugak apa yg nak ditulis yea, hmm...

ok, tu jerla nak tulis. just by writing a bit of all this makes me feel some what, lighten up?!! i'm sorry, it's just that somtimes i need to write some garbage in here. sorry for deluded your mind with my ntahapehapeness. this momma need some space to fill in some garbage outta her mind.

sorry, i promise i will write something better for the next post kay. i just need some time before i can finally write what really bothered me for the time being. accept this ntahapehapeness as an entree post before i could really write about what i really want to write.

so take care evryone. i wish for evryone's happiness and pink of health. don't forget to drink lots of water and smile like always. assalamualaikum...

~ Sumthg ~

I just read dis post, and i felt like it hit me rite in da midle of my forehead.

gosh, plz go away dis stupid fugly feeling of such IABM syndrome goin on again.

hmmm just another rumble from far too perfect mother-wana-be

...blabber is all i can do, jst be quiet already duh...

i finally love my kids

~ Minta Maaf ~

tadi masa tgh online, terdengar mcm nama kena panggil. tp kekadang tuh terasa mcm terperasan jer nama kena panggil. then dgr betul², rupa²nya abah panggil. terus berlari turun. cari² abah, x jupe cari. rupa²nya abah dkt luar. abah suruh bukakkan pintu cage putih tuh, sbb abah dpt tangkap kucing jantan yg jahat sgt tuh. then by the time i understood wat abah is asking me to do, kucing tuh cakar² abah, dan dapat melepaskan diri. abah sgt kecewa, i apologise many² times. i let my dad down, minta maaf abah = "(

minta maaf sbb terpekakkan telinga, i really didn't expect abah will call for me. i thought abah is calling for naim. im really sad and frustrated by myself. dis is it ain, next time, whether abah or mak is calling for someone else, just attend to them and be alert, respond to surrounding and pay attention. if not, il be a dissapointment again...

i cant erase da looks from abah. very dissapointed and frustrated. i felt like no others too. arghhh, why cant i listen carefully tadi? dont you have ears ain? duh, wat a dumb question anyway...

i hope tgn abah yg kena cakar td tuh cpt baik. im so worried rite now since abah ada diabetes. please pray for the wound to heal faster. kesian abah, i really broke his hart.

then my h2b call and asked evrythg alrite, which i sadly replied nooo, an inch close sobbing to tears. then he asked, wats wrong and i spill evrythg. he listen quietly and promised to catch dat jahat punya kucing yg dah cakar tgn abah. i really hope kucing tuh pegi jauh2 dari rumah kami, sbb kucing tuh mmg terlampau jahat sgt, die klu masuk rumah ni jer, dier suka pancut². habis baju2 yg dah lipat, kusyen and evrythg else lg die kencing. bangang giler, suka curi lauk, suka gaduh dgn kucing kitorg smpi kucing tuh tershitty evrywhere and bb yg kena basuh and da list of his evilness will go on!!!

but h2b did lift my spirit up. and cheer me =) saya sudah mampu tersenyum kembali =) alhamdulillah. cuma, saya berdoa pada Allah agar luka di tgn abah cepat sembuh. Ya Allah, sembuhkanla tgn abah, its my stupid mistakes ya Allah, please forgive me and heal abah's wound ~ amin...

dah berkali² minta maaf pada abah. harap abah jgnla kecewa lagi dgn anaknya ini. i know abah isnt dissapointed just bcoz of dis incident, it stretches longer than dat. and i kno dat very well. but i wont elaborate more on dat. so by dat, i do promise dat i wana be a better daughter, so dat abah and mak will always happy with us...

and yesterday, h2b lost his phone bcoz of me too. on his way here, i called him and asked whether he cud stop by at dat pasar malam and buy roti goreng for naim. mula² naim asked me to go to pasar mlm tuh, tp i was busy cooking dinner, so i called h2b instead. and while he was at da pasar malam, pencuri bongok telah curi my h2b phone. but, h2b always find the way to take evrythg in the other way around. he uses logic and common sense which i rarely use. he accepted the lost and make me accepted the lost too. by losing, you will gain something too, insyaAllah...

kinda feel low and down at da moment and i just dont know why. please bounce back from this state ain. its ok to feel sorrow and sadness, but too much of it will bring nothg but misery. be strong and stay strong, always looks at da brighter side and postive thinking is da way to go. take a deep breath, hold it and let it go. believe in Allah, have faith in Allah at all time. you can do this ain, aja aja fighting!!!

wow, wat a long run just to mutter about how sad i am, dat i made my dad frustrated. dis post really is a murmur for myself, dis is how i talk to myself. so dat i wont do it again next time. so dat i will respond better next time. so dat i will be better next time. so say all you want, called me freak or watever, heck i wont care any less bcoz dis is me. when i feel sad, i write. when im down, i write. again, i used to write in my lil book, always write my thoughts in there. but dis time, i will simply write in here, just for a change. but i wont make it a habit, probably i would. i dnt kno, well who knows anyway rite?

till here, sorry for keeping you reading dis long when you probably had something better to do. like always, take care and dont ever let someone dear to you down. bcoz da hartbreakin is da equal amount for both party. always be a better person evry single day. so let aja aja fighting evryone!!! assalamualaikum...

Will Forever Be Missed...

assalamualaikum... to all my readers, plz take a moment to recite al-fatihah for my dear tuk ndak. tuk ndak pass away yesterday, and the funeral takes place today...

it was quite a weekend i suppose... dgn planning nk ke johor and spore. kesian dkt naim sebenarnya. he's really excited to go there. tp itulah, klu bukan dah rezeki, walhal ktorg mmg dah nak sgt smpi ke sana. apa² Allah plan is da greatest. so just let me tell da story in brief bout wat happen...

umm, we leave for johor at about 10 ++ yesterday. da MRR2 was congested. da traffic is heavy along da way till seremban i suppose. da journey felt like forever to reach johor. we made a couple of stop, for prayer and refueling. about 4++ we finally reached da Se*ri Malay*sia hotel. after check-in, carried our luggage to da room, off we went to spore. well bout to go to spore anyway. then mak received a phone call...

it did breaks my hart upon hearing dis news. not bcoz we've to cancel our trip, but i thought we still have time to visit tuk ndak again. but Allah for sure love tuk ndak, and redha is wat we have to do...

da reason why we went to johor is for attending mak tam's punya kakak@kak long wedding. so after we went and singgah rumah mak tam's, we ate mee basah which is so sedap. later we continue our journey back home. adik yg drive, and he looks tired. kesian adik. kakin nk teman jugak, tp tertdo jugak sekejap². we did made a stop kejap dkt ayer keruh to pray and refuel. other than dat, no stopping and da journey back is quite smooth till we reached tol dkt mines. da MRR2 is so congested so we took da alternative route. abah decided to come to tuk ndak's home tomorrow since its way past midnite and we need our rest.

so today, early in da morning at about 7.30 we went to tuk ndak's house. i recited surah yassin till tuk ndak is taken to surau. so off we went to surau which located nearby. since its too early, not many people are around yet. i again recited surah yassin with mak. then da preparation took place.

all in all, da preparation is smooth and everythg went well. i perform my first solat jenazah today which is awsome, alhamdulillah since i wana do it for so long. ive never had a chance to do so, bcoz i endup settling/helping/doing da preparation till it was late to perform da solat. again, alhamdulillah so dat next time im prepared to perform solat jenazah. i know dat we did studied about the type of solat masa form-form dulu. tp x penah pun buat amali dan praktikal. so i guess dis time around, it's my rezeki alhamdulillah to be able to perform da solat.

we did went to kubur for da funeral. and again, it was a smooth ceremony. da weather is great and evrythg went well. tuk ndak, you will forever be missed...

to talk about tuk ndak, there's a long list of goodness to share with evryone. tuk ndak is very caring and loving. i like coming and visiting tuk ndak's home. when tuk ndak yam is around, she will cook a lot of dishes and she will talk and laugh and entertain evryone. now about a year tuk ndak yam pass away. and yesterday tuk ndak cha pass away too. they are both really great and nice people. thank you tuk ndak for evrythg. you guys were da best ever...

take care evryone. lets cherrish and love all our loves one. without them, we are nothg... assalamualaikum...

Alhamdulillah... Agungnya Kuasa Allah...

assalamualaikum... semalam tersgtla berperasaan hiba, gundah gulana, sedih dan tersgt pilu... satu musibah telah berlaku, kepercayaan telah disalahguna, kebaikan telah disalahertikan... tp hari ni, alhamdulillah... Allah menunjukkan kekuasaan-Nya dan kerahmatan-Nya buat hamba-Nya yg tersgtla hina ini. terima kasih Allah, hanya pada-Mu lah aku mengharap, dan pengharapanku telah dimakbulkan... syukran syukran...

tak terucap, tak terkata betapa besarnya rahmat dan kurniaan yg telah Allah berikan. sgt2 bersyukur dan berterima kasih pada Allah, juga pada guru-guru disiplin yg telah membantu. jasa-jasamu dikenang hingga mati. hanya Allah yg mampu membalas jasa dan budi baik kalian...

berat sgt nk cerita di sini, demi menjaga nama baik semua pihak. tp harus juga dicerita supaya dapat dijadikan pengajaran dan peringatan. jadi, izinkanla saya menceritakan apa sebenarnya yg terjadi...

ceriteranya bermula semasa berada dlm ke*las yg x perlu disebut di sini. disebabkan hari ini adanya ujian bulan mac, maka meja2 semua sudah disusun atur. meja buat gu*ru telahpun diletakkn di belakang. oleh kerana membawa byk brg, maka beg2 saya pun turut diletakkn di belakang.

bermulala sesi penga*jaran dan pembela*jaran. dgn tekun, tanpa jemu, saya mencoretkan ilmu di papan putih. kemudian sesi penerangan berlangsung. kemudian berulangla proses yg sama sehinggalah loceng waktu terakhir dibunyikan. pelajar pun pulang ke rumah. ada pelajar yg bersalaman sebelum pulang, ada pelajar yg bertanyakn itu ini. setelah memastikan tiada pelajar di kelas, saya pun mengangkut barang utk pulang ke rumah jua.

bilamana saya singgah ke kedai, meneman kwn utk memfotostet, teringin pula utk membeli sedikit barangan keperluan. masa inilah baru kusedar ada makhluk bertopengkan syaitan membuat angkara. begku telah diselongkar, dompetku telah dicuri...

pada mulanya mmg ingt telah keciciran. tp mustahil utk tercicir dua beg sekaligus. ada dua beg kecil yg hilang. satu dompet, satu lg beg yg berisi barangan mekap. jadi, nmpk jelas dan nyata yg ada tgn pencuri yg sgt panjang yg mengambilnya.

aku dan az*wa kembali ke sekolah. mencari di bilik gu*ru dan di surau. utk menyedapkn hati, mungkin aku tercicir di situ. tp, hampa dan telah ku tahu yg mana mungkin ada di situ. hati sudah semakin berat, mataku sudah mula berkaca...

terus pk pe*tang ditelefon. dari segi apa yg pk sampaikn, lebih kurang tamatla episod dompetku di bawah jagaanku. dinasihatkn buat semula dokumen2 penting dan dibenarkn utk dtg lewat esok harinya bagi menyelesaikn urusan2 itu.

pulanglah aku ke rumah. bergenang air mata sambil bercerita pada mak. mak minta aku supaya bersabar. tabahkn hati dlm menghadapi musibah ini. mak buatkn air utk menenangkn perasaanku. aku minta diri utk menunaikn solat maghrib. selesai solat, aku menangis kembali. pada Allah aku mengadu, hanya Dia-lah yg memahami rintihan hati ini. hanya pada Dia-lah aku menangis sepuas hati. x lama kemudian, mak panggil. mak minta aku x henti menyebut Al-Haq, Ya Haq. fadhilahnya besar, insyaAllah barang yg hilang dikembalikan semula...

kemudian, aku dan mak pergi ke balai polis utk membuat report. abah suruh membuat karangan, menyatakan barangan yg hilang dan sebagainya supaya senang utk membuat laporan nanti. sampai di balai polis, cekap dan mesra layanan diterima. pada Insp. H aku ceritakan apa yg terjadi. dan dia memahami dan tidak menyalahkn diriku cuai dan sebagainya. (pakcik jaga x habis2 membebel katakan aku cuai. paham x pakcik, saya ada dlm kelas, mengajar di depan. meja guru di belakang. mata saya ada dua je pakcik, klu dkt belakang kepala saya ada mata, lain ceritala. bolehla saya perati lahabau yg buat jahat dkt belakang tuh. ada paham x pakcik? kang ckp pakcik nih x pandai kang marah pulak. bukannya saya tertinggal beg tu dlm kelas. argh, wat ever. ckp byk dgn org yg x berapa nk educated ni masalah sikit.)

berbalik pd report td, setelah keterangan diambil, Insp. H bertanya samada aku ingin pegawai penyiasat utk menyiasat perkara ini. mak pun menyatakan mungkin membawa masalah pada nama se*kolah jika kes ini sudah menjadi kes polis. lantas, aku jawabkn biarla masalah ini diselesaikn oleh pihak sekolah.

hari ini, awal pagi, aku pergi mengesahkn report polis. kemudian ke jpj utk membuat lesen. tp lesen hendaklah disertakan dgn k/p. pergila dgn az*wa ke jpn. pada mulanya, hati tersgtla berat memikirkn kemungkinan denda yg terpaksa ditanggung, rm200 ringgit (ini adalah kehilangan kali kedua) setelah memberi penerangan dan report polis, alhamdulillah, bayaran tidak dikenakan. setelah selesai urusan, kami pun ke sekolah.

pada awal waktu, sungguh hatiku sedih. manakn tidak, budak2 yg ku anggap mcm naim, seperti adik2ku sendiri mengkhianati. wlupn bukn semuanya bersalah, tp x sanggup rasanya nk berdepan dgn pelajar2 ini. kuteruskn juga tugasan aku dgn sebaik mungkin. sebak di dada ku tahan, namun gugur jua. sungguh emosi cik*gu hari ini bukan?

setelah selesai peperiksaan, aku bercerita dgn kak azi. terus dia cadangkn supaya buat itu dan ini. dan pada cikgu2 lain kuceritakn hal yg sama. akhirnya, rezekiku dipermudahkn. berjumpalah dgn cikgu nik yg kebetulan sedang menguruskn kes disiplin yg lain. aku ringkaskn cerita, hanya yg penting. cikgu nik pun meminta diri utk menyelesaikn kes disiplin tersebut sblm menyelesaikn permasalahan aku pula.

berjumpa kembali dgn cikgu nik dan ustaz. mereka adalah guru disiplin. mereka bertanyakn suspek yg aku syaki, dan aku ada menyatakan dua org suspek. terus cikgu nik dan ustaz mengambil tindakan.

loceng berbunyi. aku dan guru2 lain pulang. azwa ingin singgah ke kedai smlm. aku turutkn kehendaknya. x lama di kedai, pn di*ng pun telefon. perkhabaran gembira diterima. alhamdulillah, syukur dompet ku telah dijumpai semula. aku kembali ke sekolah.

sampai di sana, suspek pertama ada di luar bilik kaunseling bersama seorang lelaki, kemungkinan bapanya dan juga pn. di*ng. pn di*ng sedang bercakap dlm telefon, kemungkinan dgn pihak polis. di tangan pn. di*ng kelihatan dompetku. alhamdulillah. muka budak tuh sikit pun aku x pandang. lelaki tersebut pun tidak berkata apa pun, minta maaf pun tidak. x kesah, janji dompet semuanya ada. itu doa yang Allah makbulkn, apa yg ada aku terima. cuma agak terkilan kerana duit yg hilang tuh allahyarhamah tuk yg bg. mana mungkin aku dptkn kembali. lg rm50 adalah duit yg abah dan mak bg yg aku dah berjanji tidak akn gunakn wlupn keadaan yg sgt mendesak. bukan rezekiku nampaknya. rezeki haram budak dua orang tuh.

kagum x dgn perangai pelajar zaman sekarang? semasa cikgu sebok mengajar di depan, korang buat perangai iblis korang dkt belakang ek? dkt neraka ko jawabla nanti. aku haramkn apa yg korg dah buat. smpi matila ko tanggung dosa ko nih. aku bukan nabi, bukan juga malaikat. dan bukan senang nk maafkan apa yg korg dah buat ni....

dahla x minta ampun pun td. x bercakap sepatah haram maaf pun. macam manala aku nk maafkn perangai ko nih? so lantak korgla ek. burn in hell la nmpknya. ada jugak aku bertanyakn satu lg beg yg berisi barangan mekap ku. x mengaku pulak diambilnya. jadi pada sesiapa yang memakai barangan yg dah kuharamkn itu, tanggungla akibatnya nanti. Allah saja yg membalas, aku xde kuasa nak membalas apa yg korg dah buat nih. wlupn perasaan td, klu ikutkn hati yg amarah nih, mau saja dilempang2, diketuk dgn kasut, dimaki hamun, namun air mata yg keluar. sedih sgt, x mampu nk marah. x mampu nk buat apa2 selain menangis mengenangkn sesuatu yg bernilai yg x mungkin aku dapat kembali.

doaku kini hanya satu. semoga dapat berjumpa kembali dgn tuk. bila teringt kembali kejadian ini, rindu pada tuk semakin menebal. argh air mata, tolong jgn mengaburi mata ini...

pengajaran dan pembelajaran pada hari ini, pada peristiwa ini adalah : jangan mudah percayakn budak2 wlupn nmpk innocent, tp hati syaitannya mana mungkin kita nmpk. bawalah brg berharga ke mana-mana.

pada Allah, terima kasih ya Allah. tiada ayat yg mampu ku ucapkn utk menyatakn perasaan ku ini. hanya Kau-lah yg mengerti segalanya. pada mak, terima kasih kerana berdoa, bersembahyang hajat. doa seorg ibu cepat Allah makbulkan, alhamdulillah. pada abah yg memahami, pada abg yg mengerti, pada naim yg mendengar rintihan dan tangisan kakin, pada bb yg mendengar, terima kasih. dan tidak lupa, berbyk2 jutaan terima kasih yg tidak terhingga pada guru2 disiplin, terima kasih byk2. cikgu nik, cikgu hafizal dan ustaz, jasamu dibawa hingga mati. terima kasih juga pn. di*ng di atas keperihatinan beliau.

alhamdulillah... nmpknya kenduri kesyukuran akn berlangsung insyaAllah. mungkin dalam minggu ini atau minggu depan. terima kasih ya Allah, alhamdulillah. syukur pada-Mu ya Allah. alhamdulillah...