After the thunder and storm

It is definitely not easy to stay calm and collected while the dua beradik cried their lungs out. I'm holding and keeping it all together so that I wont outburst my frustration towards them. Sigh, this is one of the package that come with parenthood. Patience, be with me all the time, never ever leave me ever...

The Blood

Every thing seems to be fine in the morning of 28th Jan. Zairil woke up early for his milk, and I made one for him then switch on the tv for The Blue's Clues. Later after Zairil finished his milk, I went out of the room to get something to eat. Then I prepared stuffs for Zairil's shower like his cloth, diaper and the cream & oil.

After settled, I felt something and the next thing I knew I bleed! I was so shocked and even about to faint. Told hp about it, and he calmed me down. He asked me to take a shower, and monitor the bleeding. It's fresh blood, and quite a lot but not that a lot. In my head, I kept repeating this is not happening, there's no way lilo will be deliver today since it's too earlier for him to come out and play. I took a long shower, praying for the bleeding to stop and it did stop.

Hp kept checking on me, and I said every thing is fine. I think I worked too hard on the preparation. This also had happened several times before I got married when I lifted something heavy or worked physically hard. We waited till evening and there's no blood what so ever. Thus I decided to not go to the hospital because I don't want to be check by VE, not now not yet.

Till today, lilo is moving well inside, no more bleeding and I really took my time in doing things nowadays. And I avoided lifting heavy stuffs. What a drama indeed!

The Preparation

For our preparation to welcome our little lil one, there's of course a list to be done. It's been bugging me for quite sometimes now because everything is clouding my mind. Whyla I didn't think to write everything down so that I could see the big picture of what have been messing up my mind these days.

Well, what trouble me the most is the messiness of this house! I think we are hoarders already! Even though we didn't have much stuffs, but all the things are cluttered every where so resulting me to be serabut at all times!!! The first thing first I just took a deep breath one day and took it slow cleaning up the middle room or our closet I shall call it. The process was really slow since si kecil also decided to participate and helping out. When I got really tired, I kinda took it on si kecil which is bad bad me I know. I raise my voice over and took him out from the room because he's making more mess than ever! Poor si kecil, sorry hunny!

So like I've mentioned in The Clean Up, I think I will cross cleaning up from the list. Next is preparing the hospital bags for both mummy and baby and Zairil as well. hp bag's I don't think I have to pack him one because he can always go home and grab what ever stuffs that he needed right? So again, this will be my first time packing the bags and I'm totally clueless about it. I've referred and relied on the Internet to pack up the bags and one of them is from Knits's preparation. Thanks knits for blogging about the hospital bags; both for mummy and baby.

Right now, the bags are loaded in the car already and I will cross out the hospital bags as well from the list. Next preparation I must say is about breastfeeding. This time around, I read a lot about BF and prepared the essential things to breastfeed such as the breast pump, the nursing pillow, the milk booster, the breastfeeding book, the nursing bras and cover. I know that it is up to me to successfully breastfeed our baby, and I have to equipped myself with knowledge instead of these gadget. So I am praying my hardest I wont fail again this time.

What else in the thing to do list? hmm, it will be the stuffs to get such as the jamu, the bath tub holder and the baby swing also the changing table. One more thing to do is, to clean up the back room which I want to do it a.s.a.p but hp prevent me from doing so. The back room really need an overhaul because a lot of stuff is stuffed in there. And we needed to move out two wardrobes from our room to the back room so that we could put the baby crib inside our room.

The three last item is a luxury I must say, but it will nice if we had it with us. The bath tub holder is needed because I would prefer not to bend down much thus the changing table as well. And the baby swing is needed so that we didn't have to rock Lilo to sleep. We'll see if we have enough extra budget for all these things.

I think this pretty much cover the preparation that we have done so far. Hopefully the rest of our pregnancy and delivery will be a smooth sail with not much complication. Please pray for us...

The Clean Up

I have been doing sorting and and cleaning and throwing away baby's stuffs during the weekend. I think it's a good time to start doing so because we are eight months along already. Better get ready now or never! With Zairil, we didn't have the chance to do pre-laundry or shopping as a matter of a fact. Most of the items were bought by both of our parents and we couldn't thank them enough.

We managed to buy some new baby clothes, but I think I want to add up a few more to that. It took me two days to wash everything up because the limited space of the laundry area plus the unpredictable weather nowadays. After the washing, I even took the liberty to iron everything so that everything look crisp and cuter! That would be really rare for me as I would never iron 'baju basahan' before! Plus I've washed the bengkung and baruts and kain batiks.

I've also sterilise the pump part. Right now, I think I will cross the cleaning part of the list. Even the middle room have been cleaned and sorted out. My clouded mind some how have been lifted up and it gave me a bit of confident to welcome our new baby. Before this, I felt unprepared and at total lost! It's like everything is all over the place and I am so serabut!!!

There's a few more things to do to be crossed for the list. Hopefully everything will be done before our lilo arrives =)

The Checkup

It's another monthly checkups routine on 16th Jan 2012. Again, waited for quite a while like usual. But now after we dropped our pink card, we went to Billion and had our lunch first. In that way, we don't have to wait at az-zahrah for too long. Eating out nowadays with si kecil is almost enjoyable. He will sit still for a while, that would be sufficient enough for us to finish our meals before he started pulling us for a walk.

Later, after lunch, we went back and did the normal procedures; BP and UT. Then waited for a while for our turn. This time around it is easier to entertain si kecil ever since we had the tab. So we just switch on The Blue's Clues and he will sit still while it last. Then he will move a round again and we have to start chasing him.

Our name was called and had the usual checkup. But this time, I asked about my tounge, it hurts when I want to eat. Dr. have a look at it, and she said I've an oral thrush, which she said only happen to babies. I'm like really? Yup, it's uncommon for adult to have it, 'budak2 yg selalu dapat thrush nih' She prescribe me with one pill of antibiotic and oral drops.

To me, I find it rather funny because I've been having this thrush for years now and it will come and go. When it occurs, I don't feel like opening my mouth at all; be it to eat, to talk even to smile. It just hurt, but sometimes it only irritate me. So I ignored it till it heal itself.

So the next checkup will be on Feb 13th. Are we gonna make it till the next checkup hunny in tummy or you decided to come out early? And we've registered ourselves for the ante-natal class which is on Feb 19th. I asked if there's any earlier class since I'm a little worried Lilo will arrive early, but nope there's none. So we'll see if we can make it to the class or not!

The Other Language

I stumbled upon this video while bloghoping @ http://kumakikaeamelyn.blogspot.com and find it really useful in understanding babies. With zairil, his first few days were such a blur because we didn't know exactly what he wanted and it took us quite sometimes to figure him out. Hopefully with lilo, we can understand him better and won't be upset with him that much. It is because, it is so frustrating when I couldn't calm my own baby and with that I will label myself with the IABM title right away.

Lilo's arrival is quite around the corner. To be honest, my feelings are all mixed up. Scared is ontop of the list. I am not sure what I am afraid of the most, but that's how I am feeling right now. Anyway, there will be a post on the scan, but that will have to be on hold for a while. I will write about it, but not now I guess. Take care everyone, have a nice weekend =)

The Detail Scan

So we went for the detail scan on 22/11/2011 at 2 pm. We arrived sharp, however there has been a waiting line already and I am the 14th patient of the day. Little that I know that we are the last patient for the scan. We waited at the waiting area for quite a while. However Zairil is getting restless each minute that passed by.

We brought a lot of things to keep him occupied; his cars, his books, sesame street podcast. They did entertain him for a while, then he set off again running around and making noises. Being a dad, hp couldn't stand him, so they went downstairs for a walk. Later, I went for a walk with Zairil. It took us two hours waiting for our turn, so imagine how restless this little boy is. I kept on checking with the counter to see how long we have to wait and it seems too long to get to our number.

After a solid two hours of waiting, my name was called and at that time si kecil is struggling to get out of the room. The doctor did her work quickly, and this is when we knew we are going to have another baby boy with us. So the guessing game is finally over and I've been calling lilo's name ever since!

I was really looking forward for the 3D scan as we never had one before, of course it didn't happen. It's just a regular 2D scan but in details. So everything looks fine, alhamdulillah. Again, the doctor didn't gave us any of the scan pictures! I felt so sad and frustrated because I didn't have any of Lilo's scan pichas! With Zairil I had 4 pichas, this time around none what so ever. Gosh, I felt bad for this little lil one in my tummy, but hp said it's ok. As long as everything is fine, we will see our Lilo for real when he's finally with us.

So that's all about the scan. The checkups with Dr. Fazlina will be as usual. Only if we didn't have to wait for too long for our checkups that would be really nice...

Addicted

I am truly addicted to cocoro. It's like, everything is all right when I have it in my mouth. Unlike when I am pregnant with Zairil, I used to like berryl's chocolate so much that is a must every time we went shopping. Nowadays, Cocoro is a priority in our shopping cart.

Can you see I placed it right here next to the PC? We just bought it yesterday, and it is half empty already. Gosh, this is truly addiction!!!

The Checkups

We have been to three check ups for our lilo. The first one was on 9th August 2011 and with a bit of uneasy news. Like ive mentioned before, lilo is a bit smaller than the LMP date, so Dr. fazlina said probably ive mistaken about the date. So that is why we were given with two EDDs. However, hp said probably lilo is going to arrive sooner just like his/her abglong, we just have to prepared for all possibilities i guess.

The next appointment was on 8th September 2011. But this time lilo was progressing well, the growth is similar to the fetal growth scan. I felt relieved at that point because I'm anxious from the last visit. The Dr. said everything looks good insyaAllah.

The last check up was on 25th October 2011, a day before hp's flight. This time around, we received the blood test result. It was all good, HB was on track, Rubella antibody detected but for Hep. B antibody is O IU/L, meaning that i am not protected from Hep. B. I asked about the Hep. B but dr. said it's ok, after delivery i could take the shot for Hep. B and not now that is.

Hmm, last check up really tested my patience limit as it took so long to see Dr. Fazlina. I even shed tears as well since Zairil is a bit out of control and quite hard to handle. Later Dr. Faz said she had to handle two deliveries so that is why it took a tad longer. Since the check up went smoothly, I'm fine afterward.

The next checkup will be on 22th November 2011 which will be the detail scan involving the 4D scan. Ive never done this before with Zairil and I'm really looking forward to it. Only that, Dr. faz said the detail scan will tell lilo's condition and progress. If nothing goes wrong, the Dr. in charge will only explain how's the baby is doing and will not schedule asap appointment with Dr. faz. I'm praying everything will be well for lilo in me tummy, please let everything will be alright.

Dr. Fazlina schedule the next appointment with her on 13th December 2011. I'm anxious about our 4D scan but excited as well. A bit of a mix feelings, I'm praying for everything to be well for all of us, amin...

Expecting =)

i have been meaning to write sooner about this little lil one in my tummy. but i guess, time waits for no one. i always find it difficult for me to sit down and type something. i rather spend my time on game and more game before si kecil pull my hand and demand to play with him. but now, i think it's time for me to write about our little lil one, or i shall call him/her lilo for now =)

it begin with, hmm... let see. for the 1st month, i missed my period. but hp discard it as it's my hormones imbalance and because i am sick at that time. (my period will skip if i had a bad cold or sick) so this month it skip, the next month it will come. so i took hp's words because at that time i don't feel nauseous or any symptoms of pregnancy. then i waited for the next cycle to come...

later came next month. again, no sign of the cycle cycling around. hp still didn't take my words, saying that we're possibly are pregnant. he still insisted to wait for the next cycle to come. I'm like, ok I'll wait. but one day, while we went for grocery shopping, i sneak off to a drug store and buy the stick.

after we reached home, i couldn't wait to get tested, but before that i told hp that i bought the test kit, and i want to use it now. hp just nodded, and said nothing more. so with trembling hands (i don't know why i am so nervous), i did the test,waited for the stick to be absorbed, and i could see two lines are formed. i'm speechless and scared at the same time. cried is a must and hp couldn't believe what he's hearing, that we are expecting!!!

we set up an appoinment with dr. fazlina and she still remembered us. she said that it's a good planning to have a 2nd child now, asked the LMP, and did the scan. but she said that the baby was small from the given LMP date. so she said i probably mistaken the LMP date and wrote down the date according to the lilo's size and wrote two EDD. i am all worried at that time, thinking that probably it's because i'm fasting and didn't eat proper food (we went for the checkup during fasting month) but she said 'baby x puasa, so it's ok for mummy puasa, xde pape, teruskan berpuasa'

we were given folic acid but didn't get the pink/red card yet. i guess our pregnancy didn't reach three months yet at the time and was set up with the next appoinment.

our other check up went smooth, lilo is progressing well in my tummy, in spite being roll over and jumped and bumped by abglong. takut jugak sebenarnya, tp x sakit sgt so i just avoid zairil went he wanted to jump on my tummy.

so this is the introduction of our lilo. i prayed that everything will be fine and i do hope our pregnancy goes well all the way. thank you Allah for this blessing, for giving us one more miracle of love =)