Date Up =p

wah sudah lamanya tidak update!!! sgt busy jugakla for da first week sbb nk settlekn buku rekod. alhamdulillah, dah settle dah pun (hopefully) and jadual pun dah bertukar skit, which im teaching now 27 periods. so now dat i can breath sedikit, so lets blog!

mello evryone! apa khabar semua? evryone doing great? alhamdulillah, syukur. doing not so great? alhamdulillah, syukur juga sbb ujian yg mendatang itu hadiah daripada Allah. lets pass all our test in flying colors shall we?

so wat bout skool you say? alhamdulillah, semua berjalan lancar. budak2 x brapa nk lancar. math kn, for me da critical moment is f1, f2 which if we didnt grap da basic, then da later lesson is a blurry vision ( i dnt kno about you guys, but when i was in f2, i kinda lost in algebra, so there's a lot of catching up to do during f3 ) furthermore, ive to teach in english lagi, preparation and study is a must before going in class.

overall, dis couple of weeks is great for me. da colleagues are great, evryone is helpful. da students mcm biasala, ada rasa mcm nk *00* dan sebagainya, tp biasala budak2. kena bwk byk2 sabar setiap kali masuk kelas.

so far, its challenging, especially teaching morale in dis one particular class. but, i love sharing infos with dis kids. but, ive to equipped myself with general knowledge a lot, and have to be alert with all da current issues worldwide. to be true, ive no interest in wats goin on dat isnt related to me. i mean, i do read about it, but not in great details. now i think ive to reach deeper, not just by its cover...

last saturday was da annual pi*bg meeting. a lot of issues has been raised, so hopefully there's goin to be action taken. next saturday, there's a road run comin up. so i hope evrythg wil be as smooth as possible...

i tried to make my work station as interesting as i may. since da space given isnt much available, so lets make it great and nice orite?

umm, i think dis will be all. there's a lot of things to settle at skool, so lets do it efficiently, one at a time ok? wana settle da lesson plan, and da register. next week, these kids will be facing their march test. hopefully they will do great in their tests.

umm, abah is away from today till weekend. best klu dpt ikut p melaka. so dat leave only us at home. tp adik pun dah balik, ramaila sket dkt rumah. it will be da greatest if you are around too net. sudah rindu sama kamula net, cptla balik kaklin. kami menanti anda di sini =) (saja nk usik2 kaklin, i kno you want to come back too, we'll meet dis coming june yek.) aja aja kaklin, gudluck for your tests and exam, YOU CAN DO IT!!!

orite, till here then. nak tulis lagi, tp nanti2la. ill tell you bout da road run dis saturday ek. take care my friends, take good care orite! assalamualaikum...

Yes Dear =)

kalau nak sehat, cuba buat perkara-perkara ini :

• jangan minum air ais
• jangan makan ais
• minum air banyak-banyak
• tidur awal
• jangan angkat benda berat-berat

ini adalah pesanan daripada h2b buat w2b nye. mula2 susah nak ikut, tapi bila dah dengar nasihat ini berulang kali selama 7 tahun, sedikit sebanyak terlekat juga di kepala ni. dan x jemu2 h2b memberi nasihat yang sama walaupun w2b ada banyak kapla batu dalam.

w2b akan cuba berusaha yang terbaik, jadi aja aja fighting!!! thank you for your constant advise which i seek evryday. so i'l do my best to keep fit and stay healthy. again, aja aja!!! teruskan berusaha!!!

Opps... I did it again...

yello... assalamualaikum... watcha doin guys? sume wokeh? sume sehat? alhamdulillah, didoakn sumenye dalam keadaan baik2 saja. we're doing fine, alhamdulillah. so wats da update of today? do let me tell da story yea...

wake up early today. prepared da stuff, geared up da mood, put on fake smile, then im off to da skool. actually, ive no idea da hall da skool is. mak dgn abah yg p survey dulu dah. so mak pun gave me da land mark to da skool. arrived on time, saw on duty teacher at da gate, asked her where da office is, found da office, then meet the receptionist and then went down to join da weekly assembly. first time dgr lagu wila*yah perse*kutuan and lagu skolah. i must say, these both songs are great and made me wana jiggle a bit sbb rentaknya sgt suasive gitu...

after da assembly, went to da office again to meet our PK, pn. nora*liza. so after da bargainin of da subjct, i wont mind actually, just gv me anythg, saya bukannya org yg byk songeh/pe'el. as long as i can work happily, dats enough for me to give my best to da skool.

so saya dapat mengajar petang, ajar matematik f1, sivik & moral f1. belah ptg nih sume f1, so agak nakal jugakla ini budak2. but its ok, il give them a piece of my voice once a while or once evry while accordingly =D so kitorg pun balikla dulu sblm dtg balik belah ptgnya. i went back home, sempat sidai baju, pegi beli pin no. and amik duit and basuh kete before goin to skool again...

later, around 11.30 we reached skool. kami pun jumpala pn. di*ng. she's our pk petang. a very nice teacher, a very nice person. i like her bcoz da way she talk n explain made me wana work harder and bring out da best in me, so inspiring n encouraging =)

later, went to da teacher's room and straight to da class. today's class, most of the students didnt bring their books, so i asked them bout themselves. just to mingle around with these kids...

so dats da story bout da skool. alhamdulillah, im fitting in quite easily. and ive a new friend, az*wa. we went home together. she's much younger than i am, but i treat her like a friend, not like an ad*ik bcoz she's matured enough to be treated like someone my age.

i guess, dis is wat i can fill you guys rite now. il write more insyaAllah. so have a great day people, assalamualaikum...

Sheet Happen

...Gedegang... youch!!!!!

it takes all my might not to start cursing and yelling and shouting and swearing and youchhhhhhhhhh it hurt so darn much!!!

yup, got two accident happen to me today. one, i cut my hand from trying to forge open da tong cat. second is i hit my back with da window frame, da result of trying to get up without looking first. so yup, bergegar satu rumah (over exaggerate again) and mak pun bergegas keluar nak tawu ape yg terjadi pada anaknya ini and a concern look from h2b, which makes it hurt even more (saje nk tarik perhatian =p wat a baby, shish!)

till now my back hurt like hall! mcm ada sesuatu yg telah menumbuk belakang saya dgn kuat sekali, youchhhh!!! i hope, tonite it will go away. ya Allah, ringanknla kesakitan yang hambamu alami ini ya Allah. hanya padaMu la aku meminta, hanya Engkaula yg maha penyembuh...

Magical

it was a magical moment, and i do believe it is absolute magical. wat had started three weeks ago finally comes to an end. i constantly wonder when we will reach the end of the line, will we make it? can we do this? please Allah, help us through this journey...

and today, is the day where we remark another memory inside our heart. and i am amazed on what seems to be impossible, now already done. thank you Allah for making it happened, for putting our heart together to finish this odyssey...

in another simple words, we finished painting!!! alhamdulillah, we did it! and the best part is we did it together. h2b and me, and of course with the help of others. but it was truly a magical moment for me, looking and sneaking at him working (then got shooed away to paint some other part so we could finish it quicker)

so many feeling to express, but il leave it privately, keep it to myself privately. (see, i could be a private person, i didnt write evrythg in here) but i am glad and happy that the work we started is completed. i'm giving h2b and i many2 pats on our backs, and pats for naim and adik too and evryone backs basically for doing a great job! so well done, hip hip hooray!

yes, i am going to post the end result, the masterpiece. but that's going to be later. so right now, i'm off to bed. i'm exhausted (and sakit blakang) and i'm butterflyin in me tummy thinkin of tomorrow, me 1st day. i hope it wont suck that much, it won't bad as much. i don't know what to expect, so wish me luck!

Highlight

Naim : rambut kakin kaler kuning, kalau byk lg boleh jadi blonde...

Kakin : ha ah, lawa x rambut kakin jadi blonde?

and then naim continue bercerita pasal blonde ape ntah. x concentrate sgt dgr apa yg naim ckp, tgh sebok mengecat. btw, ingtkn naim ckp pasal rambut kaler kuning sbb terkena cat, sekali tuh pasal ini rambut uban la naim. aper da naim, tp sweetla pulak. yes, ive gray hair/uban but i didnt pull it off bcoz i kinda like it. mcm natural highlight, so xyahla nk kaler2 rambut kn...

its sweet n funny kn if we take a look at kid's perspective. dats why i sometime agree with kids. well, we are kids once before right? so wat im trying to say is dat, just love me for who i am. no need to change a thing, even if i wanted to. and lets age gracefully =) with highlight on my hair or a blonde =p

thank you naim for da sort of compliment =D well, i took it as a compliment or like wise =)

Reminiscing

assalamualaikum.... hoping dat evryone dat i love are doing great. we are doing fine, alhamdulillah, thank you Allah. hmm, da story of today will be about wat happen earlier... lets begin, shall we?

as planned, mak is hosting a tahlil for tuk n tuk don. da guest are mostly from skolah mak. and i 98% knows all da teachers who came. thank you for coming cikgu-cikgu sekalian. jasamu di kenang =)

since mak da host, and da helpers only me, cik lela n wa, so kinda busy gakla in da kitchen. mak masak mee bandung/rebus gitu. kinda like a mixed up. sbb perencahnya pun dah tinggal sket. anyway, ive settle kemas n prepare da nite before, so dat in da morning xdela kelam kabut...

in da morning, around 9 mcm tu, me and h2b went to jp*wp to pick up da appointed letter. we waited for about half an hour to get da letter, En. Saz*li x jumpa cari itu list nama ke smk*dk. afterward, h2b drop me n off i went to pick up wa pulak. later, stop by umah cik ela utk amik kueh yg cik ela dah buat kan utk kenduri nih. thank you so much acik, sgt sedap kueh2 yg acik buat. nak lg, boleh x?

around 11.30 reach out, and then as usual i started to panic. buat keje mcm ribut. kain pun baru nk sidai, nak panaskn kuah, nak potong buah, nak bancuh air, blalalala.... tp thank god cik ela dgn wa ada. diorg pun memberikn pertolongan yg sungguh mantap! around 12.50 mak smpi, followed by sume cikgu2 around 1.30. so the majlis begin...

alhamdulillah evrythg went as smooth as possible. cume mee x brape nk cukup. h2b pun x sempat makan. even me pun x sempat mkn. cik ela pun x mkn. mak pun x mkn. but the food is enough for all da guest, sgt bersyukur. rezeki semua cikgu2 la kan... terima kasih kepada semua yg sudi hadir dan hadiahkn tahlil buat tuk dan tuk don.

later, after evry dishes been washed, i went to take da H*I*V test with h2b. mula2 nk buat dkt klinik bt. 6, but da test kit isnt available, so we went to hospital orang as*li. we were just on time, around 4.30 cam tu smpi. klu tmpt lain, for sure dah kena halau balik. ni staff2 sgt baik hati. xde pun nk reject kitorg. well, we're just trying our luck actually. klu kena halau balik pun nk buat cemana kn? salah kitorg jugak dtg lmbt...

again, alhamdulillah. we've finished da test and we're both negative. so dah settle la pasal test2 nih. lets move forward, shall me?

umm wats da update on mengecat? da pichas is coming, its coming. cume nantila ek saya post itu gambar2. other than dat? rasanya dah tada papa mau tulis. do take care evryone. assalamualaikum...

A Sad sad Story...

it's been a while, too while in fact since ive last heard from my roomies... its my fault totally and il accept all da blame on me... but da most saddest thing dat really bring tears to my eyes; is da long post message, dat has been long overdue, waiting to be open... waiting for me to read it...

i rarely use dis account. thus i rarely open it. but when i did, i never thought it would made me feel so hartwrenched, reading this message as though she whispers it word by word while giving me her sweetest smile... if only she replied it to my other account, if only i open it sooner, then i know she didn't forget, that she still remember me...

you are da best friend anyone could ask for. you are the friend when evryone else turn their back on me. you are da nicest person and da kindest friend to me when i need one. i miss you and i always will... i never thought it would be this way. i always picture us, da four of us, one day sit together and have our laugh like we used to...

our memories are preserved in my mind. il pass it on to my children so dat they know wat a true friend and wat a great person you are... i couldn't thank you enough for evrythg that you had given me, the precious time, the lend of hand, the joy and laughter, and all da great things that you have done for me...

my prayers are always for you. i hope we could meet again kin. thanks for evrythg, really kin, i just couldn't thank you enough...

~ Al - Fatihah ~

A Twisted Turn

alhamdulillah, just arrived home after a long walk/drive/jalan2. still figurin all dat really happen today and it made me wonder, klu dah direzekikan, mcm mana susah pun, kita akn dapat juga akhirnya kn? Allah is the greatest ever!!! thank you Allah for all da wonderful things, all da wonderful gifts. im blessed and no words can express how grateful i am...

ok, enuf with da intro. so hows my readers doin? harap sume org sehat dan gembira bersama org yg tersayang. dkt rumah nih, alhamdulillah semua org sehat, cuma abah yg masih belum sehat 100%, maybe dlm 80-90%. still alhamdulillah, syukur pada Allah sbb memberi ruang dan peluang, utk kite menyedari, berfikir dan bersyukur dgn segala nikmat yang Allah telah berikn kepada kita. terima kasih ya Allah =)

movin on, umm i must say dat da house look sparklin clean after it is bein cleaned by Maria, a housekeeper. pergh, rajin sgt maria buat keje. aku pun x daya nk buat mcm die. slalunya klu aku vakum carpet dgn mop, aku mop cincai2 jer, xdela smpi nk angkat n gulung kapet tuh. dan maria bekerja dari pg smpila ptg, non-stop. terima kasih acik maria tolong bersihkn rumah kami. nk hrpkn saya yg pemalas nih, berabukla rumah ni mcm haunted house gitu...

ok, for today, i wud like to thank all my friend dat wished gudluck for my interview. it went well, alhamdulillah. not in da way dat i expected to, but alhamdulillah. so lemme briefly tell you my today's story...

it began since yesterday, as i asked a favor from adik to come n teman me for dis interview. so adik pun agreed to come along n drive me to jp*wp. so i let him know da time n place... dis morning, b4 gettin ready, ketuk pintu bilik adik dulu for him to get ready so dat we wont be late. later, dah siap2 sume tgk jam pergh... dah 9.15. im goin banana jap thinkin we'rent gona make it on time. so thanks to adik yg bwk super best, we made it on time!!!

lps dah smpi, call pn. zaharah to let her kno im already here. then pn. zaharah asked me to go and wait on da level 2. she went to da meeting room and have a word with en. sazali, so off i went to face my interview...

skali xde interview pun... more like taklimat macam tu. punyala kepala blank sbb x baca pape, cuak takut x dpt nk jawab ape yg die tanya, skali xde interview daa.. umm, but i think its better dis way. its bcoz i nvr had any briefing b4; sub-teacher or gstt. so main hantam sajalah kn, janji wat keje. doin work w/o guideline can lead me doin sumthg like suka hati jerla kan. ofcozla i did asked other teachers, but when there's no1 to ask or no1 around, i just used my logic. then later at home barula tanya mak, then mak pun pening pala je dgr my side of the stories =D

lama jugakla taklimat, dlm 2 jam mcm tu. kesian adik kena tunggu lama. so da outcome, dis friday have to come again and collect da letter, nxt week on monday, il become a teacher again! umm, its gona be awkward moment again, introducing myself in da meeting, da new environment, new place. new people. wat da heck, just do it already. i mean its fun meeting new people n new environment. making new friends... argh, can i just skip all dat and be settle in da new place?!

so moving on, since adik has been so nice temaning his sister, so we went to fill our tummy. memula nk mkn sub*way dkt kl sentral, then change of plan la. kitorg p midvalley sbb saje2 je. masa kitorg smpi pun x rmi org dkt mid. how great it is! selalunya pack n full of manusia, ni kedai2 pun baru tgh nk settle down. memula nk tgk movie, tp since movie pun sume start pukul 1 lebeh, kensella. then kitorg pun pla mkn itu do*mi*no...

i must say, da last time kitorg mkn domino, ada satu flavor yg fuish, sedap x hengat. it made me crave for more. so dis time around, kitorg beli set for 4. walaupun nk mkn hanya utk 2 org sahaja. and order eskem lg. so budak yg amik order nih curious sketla, yela kn duduknya duo, mana lg duo yg order utk 4 org nih kn? so i said yg lg dua org nih jap lg diorg dtg. bile makanan dah dtg, barula buat muka menyesal. dan mkn dgn muka yg menyesal. tp hey, till today, no more craving nk mkn lg itu pizza.

dis is h2b way's to get over sumthg dat we crave for. yela skali hentak smpi perut xleh nk masuk dah, haa tobat dah tak nk mkn dah. so its a super saving for a long time for me. klu x setiap kali keluar jer, mesti nk mkn papela yg teringin nk mkn tu kn. so daripada pergi mkn mende yg sama 10 kali, baik mkn puas2 sekali, lps tu x teringin nk mkn dah. korg faham x ape yg ditulis nih? x paham? x paham xpe, bkn masuk pekse pun kn?

lps mkn selama 2 jam, kitorg bwk balik jerla yg mana x abis tu. x baik tinggal mcm tu jer, karang diorg ingt piza diorg x sedap plus x baik membazir. no, bkn mcm tuh, cume saya nih jer ha yg tamak, ingt kn perut besar sgt. budak tuh pun buat muka 'i told you so' jugak. lain kali jgnla order byk2 ek smpi x abis mkn...

aftrward pun balik terus. made a stop at da post office pasal nk bayar saman hari tuh. kena tunggu seratus lebih turn. woa dats a long line da. while waiting, i had a look around, turnout dat nk beli wang pos boleh beli dkt kaunter express. so i waited in line for 15 mins, dah settle itu bayar saman.

later dkt rumah, bb bgtaula yg package mak kawan dier offer. its like, wow i think its a super saving jugakla. for rm800 dah cover utk pelamin, baju, photograph, and bilik tdo+makeup. klu budjet rm1000 lagi extravagant la dienye outcome. ke harga nih biasa2 jer. ntahla sbb x penah pegi survey tmpt lain lagi. i think its a good bargain. so nanti nk p dgn mak, discuss over dis matter.

another thg to have in mind is ofcoz da kad la. pun x buat lg. pun x cari lg. umm, konon nk mintak kwn abg buat kn, so we'll see if my brother cud have a word with his friend. nxt on line is da wed favor for da men. da ladies dah beli dah. nantila p cari. ke nk order dkt kaklin jer? net, i wana buy lgla. lupa pulak nk cover utk lelaki. ingt nk bg dkt perempuan jer. nanti kakin call kaklin eyh...

okla, malas dah nk taip, nanti2 kite ckp lg ek. so take care evryone, take your meals, smile and be happy =D

Ku Merindu

Shah:
Ku merindu,
Merindu cinta yang tulus dari hatimu
Selalu ku impikan hidup bersamamu
Ku kan selalu menanti balasan cintamu


Ella:
Ku berjanji,
Berjanji mencintaimu sepenuh jiwaku
Ku tak akan mendustakan cinta kekasihku
Agar kau dapat menerima cintaku

Ku selalu, merindu cintamu
Yang selalu ada di jiwaku

Chorus:
Aku tahu kau pun cinta
Tapi malu tuk berkata
Usah kau ragui cintaku
Ku tetap merindu

Aku tahu kau pun cinta
Tapi malu tuk berkata
Ku tunggu jawapan cintamu
Ku tetap merindu

Di saat ini hatiku rindu belaian cinta darimu
Ku harap kau merestui cinta dariku
Yang selalu setia menunggu dirimu...

[Ku Merindu lirik on http://lyricsmusicvideo.blogspot.com ]

=D

yello lemmo... ape punya greeting daa? ntah, hantam sajalah. umm, xde cite pape yg best pun hari nih. but its a good morning n a good afternoon. so hey, why not blog? psycho jer lebeh ek...

umm, pg td makcik kasma n pakcik sulaiman dtg. lama juga diorg dtg melawat. which is so great sbb rumah kami nih pun x selalu menerima kunjungan. yg selalu dtg akhir-akhir ini pun adalah h2b. dis weekend nih pun insyaAllah h2b dtg lg, nk abiskn mengecat. cptla dtg weekend, boleh jumpa h2b lg =)

so esoknya its gona be my interview day. argh, malasnya nak membaca n prepare for tomoro. main blasah jerla jawab esok, boleh x? i mean, kekadang baca pun bukannya soalan itu yg mereka tanya kn? so from stressing over nothg, better i do sumthg more fun!

wish me for tomoro. im havin me cold feet. n da butterflies. n da shivers. n da wat ever feeling i had inside...

nmpk sgt mcm bosan nk menaip kn? klu bosan, xyahla nk membebel2kn kt cni kn? so enuf membebel already. pila baca2 sket for tomoro. prep for tomoro. rest for tomoro. wat ever for tomoro...

will write some more for tomoro. so i hope tomoro will be a good tomoro. see you tomoro. come wat may tomoro...

=D

Good Job!!!

wow, im just wowed at our work!!! nicely done, alhamdulillah. im so glad dat we cud accomplish so much in this weekend. its an amazing and overwhelmed feeling looking at da end result!!! thanks h2b for making it happen. its like a new home already. i felt honoured seeing our home turn to beauty again =)

owh, da end pichas isnt available yet net. so il try taking pichas tomorro then bcoz today h2b really put a tight schedule. no more playing around; rest, break, pray all in one go. its like while praying, thats when i get to rest. other than dat, work work work. pergh, sound cruel enuf. nope, just me overexaggerate as usual. we do take frequent break, well i did take a lot of break. minumla, tgk blogla, while he's sweating from doing a lot of jobs! i mean wow, i cudnt work continuously for ten minutes, but he keeps going on and on. im so ashamed, i didnt have da same work ethic. i love to work n play. or more play than work. or do sumthg else rather than work or play...

wat im trying to say is, yay!!! im lovin da work we did today! thanks to Allah for giving us da opportunity to finish wat we've planned for today. ofcoz there's a few more area to cover, but we worrid bout it later. so tonight will be da nite dat im feeling so happy with our hardwork! im telling you, with da heat dat we had to work with, with da endless wall to cover, with all da stuff we had to put aside and then put it back where it suppose to be again, we shud charge tripple =p

so i wana stop writin b4 i bore you guy to sleep. im bout to sleep myself. all dis achin and painful muscle, hopely will go away tomorrow. better have a gudnite sleep tonite. have a wonderful dream tonite, sleep n sound evryone =)

h2b tgh membuang plaster2 yg sgt yugly itu. it may look easy, but darn its hard!!! sakit tgn nk mengetuk kluar plaster2 itu.

h2b again, so hardworking i must say. thank you for helping out. you're da best ever!!!

adik pun meminjamkn tangannya juga

naim siap pakai goggle lagi

nmpk mcm semangat kn naim buat keje. x smpi setengah jam, dah boring p wat mende lain. tp he's so sweet, buatkn air teh yg sedap for yesterday n today. thanks naim, nanti watkn kakin air teh tobeli lg ek.

so guess dis is all wat i come up with. mak ckp makcik kasma nk dtg esok, nk melawat abah yg demam. ya Allah ya Tuhanku, sembuhkanla demam abah, berikanla kesihatan yg baik buat mak dan abah, adik-beradikku, juga buat h2b serta rakan2ku yg lain. tabahkanla hati kami utk melalui hari2 yg akn datang. tetapkanla iman kami, peliharala kami agar sentiasa kuat utk berjuang ke arah-Mu, semoga jalan yg kami pilih tidak lari dari jalan yg benar. perkenankanla doa hambamu ini ya Allah...

take care evryone. assalamualaikum...

Take A Break

assalamualaikum... so for dis mornin, no joggin. ada joggin, tp joggin atas katil, muahaha. as always la kn? mcm x kenal je kakin nih kan net. stop smiling net, i can see you grinning already...

so for today, we continue painting!!! penat woo nak ketuk2 itu plaster. argh, x larat sudah. dahla kena hampar itu surat khabar, tp itu surat khabar asyik beli met*ro jer, byk gle la kena hampar sbb saiznye yg kecil. argh, bile nk nmpk end result nih?

eh, ckp byk jer ek. skrang ni saya tgh take a break while h2b doing all da work alone downstairs =p i kno, i kno tp h2b jugak yg suruh masuk smbhyg dulu, then sambung balik. tp being me, nak jugak membebel dkt cni dulu, hehe, wat everla kan...

so net, a lot of progress has been done. nanti kakin postkn itu gmbr2. btw, actually da pichas bknnya x melepasi piawaian, tp itu pichas ditangkap menggunakan camera h2b. so, nantila kakin transferkn gmbr2 tu ek net...

ok, i think i better stop now. kesian h2b, sgt bertekun membuat keje sorg2. i admire him so much. i love watching him working, sbb nmpk sgt determine n sgt bertekun, which im lacking off. dats y im so pump up, seeing him work darn hard, made me wana work harder evn more. so aja aja fighting!!!

ok, my break is off now, back to work people!!! have a nice day for today and beyond =)

Put da fullstop already...

yello mello... assalamualaikum... boo chak... me again, yg suka buat perangai x tentu pasal, i know. tp i will give a pat for myself bcoz hari nih saya tidak membuat itu perangai lg, evntho td ada sipi2 mau buat itu perangai. shish, when are you gona grow up ms. ain alida oi? i mean seriously, cant you suck up all da anger b4 it spill to someone else? haiyo, i really need to control dis mouth of mine, dis feeling of mine, so dat i wont make stupid faces, i wont say anythg in such harsh way. enuf crappy talk, talk da talk la, walk da walk la. nie asyik membebel dah brapa post nih, tp x abis2 lg buat perangai ape cite nih?...

pergh... pjgnya sesi memarah diri sendiri. dats wat happen if i did sumthg bad, there's no one to blame but me. evntho its not entirely my fault, i still find it hard to resist gaduh n marah diri sendiri. plz dont take me as a weirdo or psycho or wat ever dat come across your mind, im stil sane n not a whacko la. but, i kinda like marah2 to myself, then pujukkan hati sendiri. mending my own hart after effect gitu. sigh, im not hoping for you guys to understand, bcoz i hardly understd me myself sumtimes. so paperla. enuf crappy, just move on to da piece already...

orite then, so wats da piece for today? hmm... lets rewind da day b4 shall we? which was on thrusday rite? okay, so wat happen on thursday was, i got to meet h2b and we bought some more paint together. it was a brief shopping, ape yg nk lama sgtkn, setakat pilih2 cat jer. so we went to A*CE, and i like dis store is bcoz they have evrythg in it. its like one stop for your hardware. for sure korg penah pegi kedai nih, so xyah elaborate pjg. after da paints finish getting mixed/sudah siap bancuh, kami pun pegila kedai satu lg, nak belikn for my family skali itu aya*mas. da chicken look darn tempting, h2b yg pilih. klu saya yg pilih, alamat hangusla ayam itu. then we went home...

since h2b x solat lg, h2b pun solat di rumah ni. and i want him to stay for dinner. b4 dis, once he rejected my request, so with big eyes, im hoping for da yes word. and my hope came true, so h2b stay for dinner, yay! since dah ada ayam, kami hanya buat itu nasi goreng sahajala. then, lps solat maghrib sama2, setelkn masak n.goreng itu, then we had diner together. h2b helped peeling da apple dis time, and he helped in da kitchen while borak2 dgn mak. mak sgt suka borak2 dgn h2b, so i just listen n keep me mouth shut... later on, h2b pun minta diri dulu. it felt like a minute jer spend with h2b. how time flies, hope to meet him soon...

there goes thursday. so how bout today? today alhamdulillah, best mcm biasa wlupn xde pape yg best, tp dpt hidup utk satu hari lg pun dah kira best dah kn? anyway, how clumsy i am today? not really clumsy, like a waste of time gitu. cenggini, mula2, hantar kwn naim balik rumah dkt tmn me*lewar. afterward, konon2 nk p bank utk cheque-in kn cheque la kn. later dah dkt nk smpi bank, baru teringt yg itu cheque tertinggal di rumah. later, konon2 nk p basuh kete, then itu auto basuh kete sudah tidak beroperasi. jadi saya hanya mengisi minyak sahajala. later, nk p pejabat pos nk setelkn saman. then tgk2 parkirnya susah sgt, dan punyala ramai manusia. jadi kami kensel sahajala. masa balik, dok cari2 jugak bb sbb mak mula2 suruh amik bb dkt skolah. alih2 die dah balik naik bas, sbb die habis bertugas dkt library awal hari nih. kesianla pulak adikku kena balik naik bas. smpi rumah, alhamdulillah bb dah selamat smpi.

ptg td pulak, again a pat to myself, saya telah bancuh dan membuat cucur udang 1st time! (asyik first timer je kn lately nih?) but dnt laugh at me la net, i knowla kamu sgt terer membuat cucur udang. kakin budak baru belajar. umm, selalunye bancuhan2 ni mak yg buat. saya tidak berani nk buat, takut x sedap n membazirkn jer tepung. saya cumela penggoreng sahaja. but today, sbb rasa teringin nk mkn, plus stock udang byk lg dlm peti ais, alhamdulillah, menjadi juga cucur udang. naim sgt suka, so i made it again for him tonite. net, adakah kamu sudah terliur mau mkn itu cucur udang? i know you are drooling rite now, hehe...

hmm, i think i wana go downstairs la nk tgk itu nanny. the upcoming episode are bout they getting married after fran got proposed. so jgnla naik lewat sgt yea cik ain? esok konon2 plan nk jogging. yup net, mak excited n look forward nk jalan2 amik angin dkt fr*im. and h2b will come too, rite after subuh. as we planned la kn. so we'll see wat happen tomorrow. hrp2 jadila. i do wana meet h2b again. tp klu x jadi, its ok. il merajuk tahap gaban muahaha =D

thanks for spending time with me and lending your eyes for dis post. dis is such a crappy post, i know. plus h2b doesnt like me writing bout us in here. he like thg private. wic im not good at dat. i love sharing. sharing is kepochi kan? maybe il be private slowly, i wont bable as much slowly. so for da meantime, plz bear with my big mouth nih yea? sume mende je nk cite. walhal xdela best sgt pun nk cite kn. main ckp jer suka hati, janji berckp yea x? i know its a bad habit, tp klu duduk diam jer, rasa mcm dlm mute world gitu. i dnt like mute, i like a lil bit of sound plz.

enuf!!!! see, x abis2 lg membebel. udah2 ler tu, bwk bertenang. dah, p turun bwh, tgk kejap je tau. then naik, tdo awal. but dnt you ever dare find sumthg to munch downstair young lady? its not a gud habit you kno, better watch it. fine fine, i wont munch, but can i have a bite?

hmmmm... berenti taip sekarang boleh? f.u.l.l.s.t.o.p

Boleh Tak? - TANTRUM begin...

boleh tak jgn buat perangai dgn mak? dgn abah? boleh x put only happy faces infront of them no matter how blow up i wana be? boleh x jadi anak yg baik, yg xkn jadi emoszilla? boleh x jgn nk BIG*HUGE ET memanjang? boleh x jgn buat sesuatu yg menyusahkan hati mak, yg menyerabutkn perasaan mak? boleh ke x boleh?

Jawapannya berbunyi.....

Boleh, tp ikut me bloody moodly windy swindy gitu. i know, i damn know i shudnt do/make anythg in anyways dat cud hurt me mak. but, i am kapla batu, lagi keras sama itu batu. hantuk kapla kat dinding pun kapla yg pecah =p but i did it anyway, i shudnt but i did. forgive me mak, anak yg kapla batu neh. harapkn kapla, kapla batu. darn it...

so wat did dis drama queen buat pulak kali nih? big time!!! how big? as big as my head i guess. so wat did really happen? hmm, to start with, saya sudah byk kali kena marah sbb lmbt hantar borg gs*tt itu. boleh x malas sebenarnya nk p pp*d itu. layanan die x best, mcm kurap. muahaha, xdela gurau je. probs sbb mereka penat kot, byk mende nk kena setelkn. wat ever. so moving on, since pp*d gom*bak sudah tutup itu peluang, mak ckp dkt w.p boleh lg memohon. so off we (mak n me) went to itu w.p lah. itu pun berapa kali terlajakla, xtau kat manala, blalala... moving on, berkat doa dan tawakal, akhirnya smpi jugala. then, dis is when i started to buat perangai ala2 budak hentak kaki dkt supermarket, literally je yea. jgnla korang terimaginasi aku buat sumthg like dat, gile hape minah neh nk buat cenggitu lagi...

cut craps again, so kami pun pusing2 la itu bangunan, rupanya byk jugakla bangunan nih. x terjumpa cari gitu. kenala tanya kaunter pertanyaan kan. so blalala, on da way nk smpi ke tempat yg dituju, aku dah nmpk n baca notis kata pengambilan gs*tt dah tutup. mungkin mak x perasan nk baca notis tersebut kot. so bile dah tiba di lounge tersebut, aku pun buat perangai n protes dkt mak, kata gs*tt nih dah abis blalala, so nk ajak mak balik jerla. tp mak pujuk n minta tanyala itu kaunter. for me, if i knew da result, or by da glimpse of it, i wont dare to take da risk just to listen to da slap on my face saying more or less like dis - x reti baca ke dek non oi, dah tutup lama dah ni ha, org dah tampal notis merata dah nih.

after throwing a few tantrum and memeningkn kepala mak, mak pun smpi give up and ckp jomla balik, i just sat there and keep quiet for a minute or less. rationalizing and reasoning da consequences, so i went to da counter, and asked 'gs*tt dah tutup ek?' to be answered by itu pakcik kaunter with 'dah lama dah tutup dik, bulan 12 lagi' so i gave myself a face 'i told you so' and answered back 'klu mcm tu, saya isi borang utk guru ganti la' - which utk mencover malu, but i dnt like bein a sub-teacher, sbb tempoh sgt pendek, n its hard to compress evrythg in a matter of 2-3 month time.

jd masa tgh isi2 tuh, pakcik tuh borak2 la dgn mak, mak tanya2 pakcik tu. aku sgt x suke mengisi borang itu dan berdoa x dptla jadi cikgu ganti. then pakcik tuh ckp dgn sorg pegawai kt dlm, mintak aku nye sijil2 potostet tuh, take a look at the certs, then tanya aku 'berminat x nk jadi gs*tt? ada satu lg tmpt dkt sekolah x ' so im like ok. so pakcik nih bgla aku isi borang gs*tt nih...

pergh, pjg n details nye bercerita. boleh buat esei ttg bagaimana aku mengapply gs*tt nih gitu. moving on, and cut da many craps, pegawai dkt dlm tuh mintak aku dtg selasa dpn. katanya sbb aku berpakaian tidak sesuai - pki oversize jeans ala2 baggy, dgn oversize long-sleeves shirt. mmg ala2 hippie n baggy. style hipigy la kot ek. adala dua tiga empat soklan lagi yg dier tanya, tp malasla nk taip. x penting pun. saja nk buat ala2 interview la tu.

so wish me luck yea next tuesday. praying for da best. wat ever da outcome, i accept with open arms. tho im not quite ready to become a teacher again just yet, tp rezeki jgnla ditolak2, x baik. jgnla nk jual mahal x tentu pasal yea x?

hearing dis news, mak n abah pun dah ok. xdela nk bising2 lg pasal x hantar borangla, x berusahala, x itu ini la. i understand my parents, they worrid bout me, they love me. i do love them much, so much. but, at first, i thought, bgla peluang dkt org lain pulakkn utk jd gs*tt, xknla nk conquer sorg2 jer kn. x baik. futhermore, i wud like to focus n concentrate on my upcoming wedding. ( yup, we're doin it our way. masak secara berjemaah sesama keluarga, cat rumah pun secara berjemaah, sume la berjemaah dan sendirian berhad) tp, lps asyik kena marah jer nih, i just have to take my chance n hopefully dimurahkn rezeki... plus saya sudah x larat nk dgr bising2 drpd ibu bapa saya.

so lets pray for evrythg to end up well. all well end well kan? so have a good day, have a marvellous weekend. take care n stay safe aite =)

Happy Faces

ola... lalala, fuish lamanya merajuk. udah2 ler tuh. kan ker h2b sudah pujuk? ape kesla nk majuk lama2 nih? jgn nak mengada terlebeh sudah. so apa nye yg nk majuk2 x abis2 nih? muahaha, xde pape sebenarnya. saje nak buat perangai. yup, me yg sgt suka buat perangai is unleashed for a few more weeks. so to whom it may concerns. beristighfarla byk2 nk melayan perangai sorg org neh...

enuf craps, lets move on... so how are my favourite people today? lookin good? dnt look hot ar sbb skrang nih musim demam. so if you catch a fever, your body temperature gone high, plz visit your nearest dr. rite away. we dnt wana stay in bed for days, do we? so come out and play so dat our body is fit and healthy =)

to tell not so good news, abah sebenarnya kena demam denggi. yup, kawasan rumah kami nih berhutan belukar. jadi bykla penternakan nyamuk berlaku dgn jayanya. tp, alhamdulillah platlet abah makin progressing in slow but positive way. jadi, kawan2 yg disayangi sekalian, doakn abah cepat baik yea? it really break my hart seein me dad sick. so i pray hard n hope Allah will grant me prayer, amin...

to tell a good news, yay!!!! kami dah start mengecat rumah. how exciting? very!!! sbb my h2b also help with da painting and wats not. to begin with, we had to scrap da old n yugly plaster dat da contractor did half way. sgt buruk x hengat bile die dah start terkopek2. ntah hape2 jer ntah. dahla sgt susah ok nk keluarkn itu plaster. sehari suntuk buat pun x sudah2. we started doin it on last saturday. then by sunday we finish it =) yay for us!!! but dats a quarter fraction of da house we needed to paint. ada byk lg part to cover. plus da room needed to be painted also. so its gona be a good weekend for these couple of weeks or maybe more bcoz who doesnt love painting rite? naim mmg excited jer mengecat2. im all pump up as well. so il put da end result later2 la ek. ada amik gmbr masa tgh under construction, tp gmbr2 tersebut tidak melepasi piawaian utk diletakkn di sini, jadi hrp maklumla.

so i guess dis is it. will write some more, but il save it for later. jaga diri baik2 ok kawan2. skrang musim denggi, take serious precaution around this bugs. show no mercy. gunakn spray ubat nyamuk, pasang kelambu, pasang ubat nyamuk, do wat ever you can to stop them from spreading. then kite doa sama2 dkt Allah, minta dijauhkan sesuatu yang boleh memudaratkan kite. take care, take your vitamins, drink lotsa plain water n dont forget your veggie n fruits tau. they are our tummy best frens!!! =) assalamualaikum...