~ Sumthg ~

I just read dis post, and i felt like it hit me rite in da midle of my forehead.

gosh, plz go away dis stupid fugly feeling of such IABM syndrome goin on again.

hmmm just another rumble from far too perfect mother-wana-be

...blabber is all i can do, jst be quiet already duh...

i finally love my kids

~ Thank You ~

Now i am passing this award to :

1. LyssaBobyssaMomyssa
2. MawarRosey
3. Dbah
4. Fara
5. Knits
6. Zulia
7. Nadya
8. Aandes
9. BellaDonna
10. MamaYanna

and to everyone out there =D

p/s: thanks to baby gina for da award =)

Pichas

dah selit bantal pun nak jugak main repair2 eyh sayang?

aperla yg zairil buat tuh?

mana zairilnye makanan ibu, laparla!

1st car dah pki F1 =)

owh loving dis picha very much, ibu sayang sgt zairil =)

@ Ten Months

• boleh merangkak mcm baby2 merangkak tuh, tp i think he preferred combat crawl, sekejap je merangkak then wobbly wobbly then terus combat crawl. lg senang agaknya merangkak mcm nih.
• dah tumbuh dua gigi dah dkt bawah!!! owh sungguh gembira, finally!!! lama betul tunggu gigi si kecil nih nak tumbuh, now da pearly white teeth are coming out, better start caring for them.
• klu tgh pegang satu barang dkt tgn, then offered another barang, he will let go da first thg in his hand. klu da thg can be used utk ketuk2 ke, to reach another object, dat will be his best toy of da day, bg mende lain pun dah x layan dah.
• suka tarik spek mata ayah or anyone else nye. then ketuk2 spek tu, seb baikla spek ayah tahan lasak, xdela terrosak lg.
• masa mandi, suka main with da duckys. bila about to end, kena simpan balik all da duckys sambil ckp abis dah, jom jom. klu x mmg melentik2 badan xnk keluar daripada tub. bahaya sangat sbb tgh basah, takutla sangat terslip. lps buat mcm tu, ckp jer jom jom barula badan x melentik2, xdela susah nk dukung aftrward. owh sungguh risaunya handle him around water =/
• xleh leave him inside da crib without pulling up da safety bar. si kecil dah boleh memanjat sambil pegang bar tu dah, lglah bahaya. klu letak dia utk main2 dlm tuh, mmg kenala naikkan bar tuh. masa tdo mmg la sentiasa naikkan, cuma kekadang tu terlupa nak naikkan, sgtla bahaya ain, plz be precautious like al da time ok.
• time tgh sedeh2 tuh, mulala asyik sebut mamababahmamabababah sampaila kitorg angkat dia. klu cara nih x jalan jugak, mulala batuk2 then muntah. adoyai, pandai betul eyh buat ibu dgn ayah dukung2 zairil like al da time. tp bile dah boring kena dukung, barula nanges2 nak duduk dlm walker balik.
• suka sgt cakap dah bile kitorg tanya dah makan dah? dah... dah minum dah? daahhh. tp kena wat ni time si kecil pay attention to us la. klu x, penat jer tanya, xde respon langsung.
• time mengamuk, bgla pape pun mesti kena campak. klala sgt, memula ingtkan bila dia amik, dah x majuk dah, rupanya si kecil nih amik then buang. i thought he terslip da toys, rupanya mmg sengaja campak2 tanda protes la nih eyh si kecil?!

umm, dah 10 bulan dah anak ibu nih. ure growing up so fastla sayang, kinda miss ur lil nb cries. skrang ur cries sgtla menakutkan ibu ok, kuat n xleh sabar2. nanti lgla kuat zairil nanges. its ok, ibu loves you so much no matter how hard u cried or how cranky u are! muahhhhhsssss ibu sayang zairil =)

~ Happy 10 Months ~

~ Happy Ten Months Hunny Bunch ~
~~ Happy 1 Year & 6 Months For Us ~~

Pichas

Mengintai dari celah kamar =)

tgh relax2

tgk ape tuh sayang?

layan the legendary matsui =)

ibu tgh wat pe tuh?

@ Nine Months

• sgtla banyak ckp, asyik dgr suara2 comel jer dari mulut si kecil nih. suka layan his baby talk =D
• suka main kejar2 dlm walker. sgtla laju dan sakit kaki terkena walkernye tepi2 tuh. mmg xde break2, ouch sakitla kaki ibu nih zairil!
• he can crawl now!!! tp military style, kinda like combat crawler. he can crawl really fast dis way, n rollin rollin a bit to get to wherever he wana go.
• sukala sgt main dgn selipar ibu, owh smpi kena berebut ok nak jugak main dgn selipar tuh. i think he likes anythg pinkish bcoz dat wat he like to hold n grab.
• dah dpt katil baru, yay finally!!! tp for da first nite, he's so restless inside it. so he sleep with us, later2 barula dh ok tdo dlm katilnya.
• sgtla suka panjat2 n tarik2 al da players dkt tmpt tv tuh. lagi ckp haip, lagi dia gelak sambil tgn tarik players tuh. owh sgtla geram!
• suka main dgn kipas, ada sekali tuh x sedar yg zairil nye jari dh terkena blade kipas tuh, nasib baik kipas x laju. boleh sua jari dkt kipas tuh sambil gelak2. x tahu ke yg hati ibu dah berdegup tersgtla laju nih hunny?

umm, aper lg yea bout his nine months? he's growing up so fast these days, n he keep on perfecting his knowledge each n evry day. seronok tgk dia blaja from his surrounding, from wat he sees, from wat he understand. ibu sayang zairil sgt tawu =D

~ Happy Nine Months ~

~ Happy Nine Months Hunny Bunch ~

~~ Happy 1 Year & 5 Months For Us ~~

Confession Of A Mummy =(

• sumtimes i thought my baby is a girl. tetibe eyh, zairil ni lelaki la. aper nih? terconfius gender anak sendiri pulak. i mean, i thought al dis while im carrying a lil gal inside me tummy, bile lahir baru tawu yg im having a boy. so dats why kekadang teringtkan zairil is a lil baby gal. nxt baby, kena make sure da gender for sure sebelum tersalah feeling. im sorry hunny, from now on, ibu akan treat zairil like a boy k, sgt tough2, xmo manja2. ke ok je layan manja2? i dnt kno...
• i never chebok kan zairil. i use many2 baby wipes to clean him up. x retila nak pegang2 sambil nk basuh2 kan. takut terslip while holding him, sgt takut. so my best way to clean him by using wipes. only hp je yg terer chebok kan. not me =/
• mandikan pun letakkan dlm tub dgn yg ada pelapik tu. sgt x brani nak terbalik2 kan zairil. his back, i slightly tilt his body then rub his back. x pegang2 sambil terbalik2 kan tu. im so scared handling him around water. sangat takut la =( hp je yg mandikan sambil pegang mcm2 gaya. bukan saya =/
• sumtimes i enjoy bathing him, sumtimes x. dats da times when my bad pinggang buat hal. owh sgt sakit n i hate bathing him while holding bck da pain. dis is da time when i didnt enjoy motherhood, sorry hunny =( and dis is da time hp take over. but no matter wat, ibu sayang sangat zairil ok munchkin...
• always worried whether zairil gets enough nutrient for his growth. tp rasanye cukupla sbb dia membesar sehat je kan? sume pun ckp zairil tersgtla sehat. to me, he's not chubby sgt kan? sedap pegang jadila, padat dan geram utk dipeluk2.
• i felt almost 8 months to say dat im fully recovered from labour. bile nak ckp dah totaly sehat je, tetiba rasa i had dis weird feeling alover, sakit mcm dlm pantang, i dnt knola if its my feeling jer. da back pain, sakit pinggang sgtla on and off. baru nk rasa baik, tetiba adoyai, shoot here we go again. total hall!!! but to date, im fine now, hopefully i will be fine sbb kesian si kecil il be all grumpy while im handling him =(
• ive to wear homewear sandals all da time after givin birth. i mean b4 dis kaki tersgtla panas je, stokin is da last thg i wana wear. tp pki stokin agak leceh, so i just wear da slipper jerla. is it normal da legs to feel crampy and itchy especially when da weather get cold?
• constantly thinking of his bottles, sume botol2 susu mestila berada di dlm bekasnya all da time. bile dah pki satu, mula rasa itchy n kena tunggu lg dua botol kena pakai so dat i can steam it together. sgtla membazirkan elektrik klu steam sekali sebotol. so kena hold on dulu sampai dah cukup, baru steam. then mulala risau x cukup botol susu. rasa nak beli lg je, tp dah ada 6 botol susu, cukupla kan? i dnt kno...
• during da time when i was stil pregnant, always bising dkt hp bout my belly button yg x pop out lg. smpila zairil lahir, da button didnt pop. and guess wat, turnout dat si kecilnye lil button yg pop out! im so worried n sedeh sgt coz evrytime he wana poop, da button will pop to da max and he looks in so much pain! i pray to Allah, to forgive my mindless thought, then follow tip mcm tuk buat. letak syiling dkt itu pusat, and alhamdulillah he can poop easily and da button finaly didnt pop out! nxt time ain, sila jaga mulut eyh, jgn mintak yg bukan2 ok!
• again while pregnant, i always bising about why am i not having any strech marks on my tummy? still waiting for da marks to come so dat i can keep on complaining about it. tp xde pun, so x dpt nak complain. ntah hape2 i kno, tp nak jugakla rasa mcm mana strech marks yg many mommies keep on complaining about. so dat i can too complain bout it. nxt thg i knew, its hp yg ada dis strange lines on his legs. again ain, plz jgnla mintak yg bukan2!!!
• always worried evrythg bout si kecil. i mean, i always pray to be a good mother, i hope to become a good mother. but i always question myself, am i doing enuf? am i being da mother dat si kecil want me to be? worried will he loves me unconditionaly? argh byknye nk risau, rileks jer boleh x? just be da best n do da best n evrythg will be fine ok? dnt worry to much, bcoz it wont do no good. so keep up da smiley face, teruskan usaha, aja aja fighting!!!

these are da thgs dat clouded my mind al da time! ntah hape2 i kno, tp mcm nak jugak pk n risau ntah hape2. so far, hp kata im doin good. n he knows im doing my best. and dis is da best dat i can do. till here, will write more, tp nanti2la eyh. take care evryone, i miss you so much net like always. till we meet again =)

~It's My Birthday Today~

=D

Pichas

aperla yg bestnye dkt bawah meja tuh zairil?

tgh main2

owh bestnye kek ibu =D

da boy in da mirror =)

i love dis pichas da most =D

@ Eight Months

• had his first fever just a few days before he reached eight months. owh sgtla risau, nk tdo pun seghiyau, asyikla check his temperature, tuam2 dgn air suam. letak cool fever, tukar cool fever bila dah kering cool fever tuh. i kept praying for his recovery, n alhamdulillah Allah makbulkan doa. sgtla gembira anak sudah baik demam. terima kasih Ya Allah =)
• he throw up masa kitorg tgh beli baju dkt jj wm. its like sungguh la banyak. kesian si kecil, dahla x bawak kain nk lap2, sgtla x best situasi berkenaan. nasibla ada cleaner yg rajin itu, dia yg settlekan evrythg.
• telah terpecahkan coffee makernye teko dkt jj cs masa tgh cari hadiah b-day ibu. dahla yg si kecil nih pecahkan jenama philips, yg kitorg nk beli jenama elba sahaja. adoyai, kitorg tunggu jerla manager tuh dkt tmpt kejadian, nasibla x kena bayar. klu x dah kena cancel beli coffee maker =/
• cannot be left alone, kenala duduk dgn si kecil like al da time. tp seb baikla ada walker, lehla dia duduk diam2 jap sambil mengemas apa2 yg patut.
• suka sgt memunggah barang2 yg boleh dicapai, especially wayar2. xleh tgk wayar, mesti nk tarik2, sgtla bahaya ok hunny bunch!!!
• had his hair cut by ayah, tp mcm sgtla tobek, so kena repair dkt kedai. boleh pulak nanges sgt kuat, adoyai! tp sgtla rasa dah besar tgk si kecil with his new hair cut. its like he's a lil boy already. tetiba tersedeh sorg2 tgk anak yg dah makin membesar nih, rasa mcm baru jer si kecil lahir, skrang dah besar dah anak ibu nih.

aper lagi yea during his eight months? umm think datsal la kot. you're a big boy dah sayang, ibu loves you so very much =)

~ Happy Eight Months ~

~ Happy Eight Months Hunny Bunch ~

~~ Happy 1 Year & 4 Months For Us ~~

Pichas

owh, here's da remote!

happy =D

lets play =)

nak pegi mana tuh?

lets play under da matt la pulak

@ Seven Months

• suka main anythg to do with plastic; be a plastic bag, keropok plastik, ape2 jela yg bunyi mcm plastik. there's dis one thgy @ da playmat yg bunyinye mcm plastik bile dipegang, dats wat he loves to play with.
• owh dah sedeh jugak bile ibu bgn and leave him a while. seronok =p tp mcm ala mcm mana nk buat mende lain nih, si kecil?
• can poop evn twice a day now, alhamdulillah. before start eating solid, im like so worried thinkin when was da last time he poop. now, da smell of stinky poo really made my day evryday =D
• sgt kuat melompat2, menendang2. mostly hp will carry him bcoz my bad pinggang really sakit evrytime wana hold him. i miss holding him =/
• he doesnt quite fit his crib dahla skrang. nxt agenda nk belikan crib yg besar so dat he wont hv any trouble to rolling2 while falling to sleep.
• method of movement is roll and roll till he get to where he wana go, or wat he wana reach.
• dah nmpk mcm ada putih2 kat bwh gusi, tp xde pun gigi. cume graf cranky agak meningkat lately. really testing me patience =/
• bile diaper change or wana put his cloth on, kena bg sumthg for him to hold on. like his ducky, or baby wipenye plastic til i get him done. sumtimes hv to wrestle with him a bit sbb suka sgtla nk tergolek2, then i will rasa nk nanges sbb my pinggang hurt like hall, then kena panggil hp settle kan. owh anak ibu, plz play nice with mummy hunny =>
• n while nursing, kena pegang tutup botol susu barula leh concentrate nak habiskan. if not kena struggle jugakla nak habis, dgn nak berpusing2 lg. sungguh mencabar pinggang!
• love thumbsuckin tp his left thumb! haiyo, mcm mana ni? tp xpela kn sbb baby lg, since im da one yg did da cleanin bumbum, hopefully dis habit will wear out later2. tp he also fingersuckin his two right fingers, yg ni xperla kan sbb jari kanan. hopefuly he will only fingersuckin his rights jerla, amau jari tgn kiri okeh hunny =)

umm, dis is wat happen during his seven months. he's doing great as a baby, it's me yg not in a good condition to handle him. while patience is really brushing off my sleeve, really testing n putting me to da limit, ive to breathe deep and chanted over n over dat it wont be forever like dis. dis is just a small period of toughness till my bad pinggang pain go away. so plz bad pinggang pain, plz go away plz... =')

~ Happy Seven Months ~

~ Happy 7 Months Hunny Bunch ~
~~ Happy 1 Year & 3 Months For Us ~~

Pichas

da boy in blue towel pulak =)

baru bangun tdo nih

his favourite toy, ducky =>

tgh dgr ayah cakap2

my favy picha

@ Six Months

• love to tarik my hair sampai tercabut beberapa helai, and masukkan dalam mulut, abisla butak rambut ibu mcm ni =/
• can berguling2 dah, letak kejap jer atas comforter, sampai ke hujung dah berguling2.
• he can change his position while sleeping, which is great bcoz sumtimes i will change his position myself. mcm kesianla rasa belakang dia panas jer baring statik lama2. so ubah2 kan la masa tgh tdo, now dah pandai pusing2 sendiri, good job hunny =)
• he will cry if he sees hp walk away w/o holding him. klu ibu pegi, xdela pulak nanges. owh sungguh jelesnye =/
• can scream @ da top of his lungs dah. especially if we went somewhere yg a bit crowded, maybe he didnt feel comfortable kot with his surrounding.
• he doesnt like sleeping in his buai dah. he will cry yg sedehnye sampaila kitorg angkat dia. now he can sleep atas katil dgn tepuk2 n ofcoz nanges2 kejap. then he will fall asleep. but if we both x larat nk comfort him to sleep, da buai is still in use. after he is in deep sleep, then we will put him in his crib.
• suka tepuk2 muka kitorg, and when i say sumthg, he will cover my mouth n gelak2 bile his hand bergerak2 along with my mouth. sgt klaka, ke nak suruh ibu diam nih?

hmm, i think dis is all from my observation dis month. i cant believe how quickly he grow up, and watching evry lil thg dat he did, really made my day =)

~ Happy Six Months ~

~ Happy Six Months Hunny Bunch~
~~ Happy 1 Year & 2 Months For Us ~~

Pichas

lovin dis picha so much =)
--boo chak--

suka gmbr ni, nmpk misteri =)

tgh main-main

nape gmbr terrotate sendiri nih?

@ Five Months

• can roll over from both side dah, but he still prefer to roll over from da right side.
• i thought he can say e-bu or abu for me, rupanya dats his preparation to blow bubbles. now he's salivating a lot and love to blow bubbles and we have to wear him bib all da time.
• love his bath time, suka splish splash all da water smpi tinggal sket je dalam tub. i have to bathe him first or else have to take another shower sbb baju sume sudah abis basah.
• sudah beratnye nak diangkat and didukung. hp will hold and carry him around bcoz my bad pinggang cant take it and il endup in tears sbb x tahan la saket pinggang nih.
• suka masukkan jari dalam mulut sendiri then offer masukkan dalam mulut org dgn tgn yg penuh dgn air liur. so kena watch out and jauhkan tgn dari muka or else penuh air liur dkt muka.
• his no. 2 is getting better. before dis, i have to remember when is da last time he poop. sgt risau and it became my daily chant praying he poop after 2-3 days. but his poo isnt hard, but im woried he only poop 2-3 days from da last one. only after i start giving him daily massage dat i learn from da dvd, i notice he poop evry other day. to me, dis is such a huge relief, alhamdulillah.
• since he had eaten before, so we gave da food from petit gems for 4 months onwards.

hmm, wat else happen during his five months? i guess dis is pretty much it.

~ Happy Five Months ~

~ Happy Five Months Hunny Bunch ~
~~ Happy 1 Year & 1 Month For Us ~~

Pichas

? Tengok aper tu ?

!! Happy Mood !!

- Nak naik rocker pulak eyh? -

Baru lepas mandi, refresh =)
Time to play again

~ @ Four Months~

• clingy and nanges yg teramat sedeh bile kena dukung dgn someone else beside us. stranger anxiety ke? i guess he only see us and rarely meet evryone. tp bile mood dah settle balik, he wont cry dat much.
• roll over only to one side je. which is to da right only. still struggling to roll overla tp, but he's getting there.
• first eat sumthg else than his milk, i didnt quite agree, still nak tunggu till he is six months, tp getting mad @ mil adalah tidak baik. so just put a smiley face jerla. but, mama bg sket, nak bg rasa-rasa jer, well again smiley face has to come out =)
• can play with da toys on his walker. sebelum nih, tgk n perati je kitorg tekan2 main2, now dat he can with it, adalah time to do sumthing else before he gets bored and demand for our attention.
• doesnt like his pacifier anymore. penat je try putting in his mouth, coz he keep on spitting it out and cries even louder. jadi, utk menyenyapkan guna puting sudah tidak jalan, kena try to sooth him any other way lah pula.

hmm, guess dis is all i can come up with for his four months activity. watching him grows up really entertaining and nothing more dat i cud wish for just to see his smile and laugh and a bit of those tears crankiness too =)

~ Pichas ~

~ Playing with fingers ~

~ Da X-Boy ~

~ Da boy in green towel ~

~ Yummy Hand ~

~ Happy to be butak ~

These are some of the pichas taken during his three months. ada lg tp di facebook. so net, silalah lawati facebook kakin eyh to see more pichas of da x-boy =)