~ Undangan Perkahwinan ~

muka depan kad

ayat al-quran yang h2b pilihkan

mengundang semua kawan-kawan yang sudi hadir sabtu ni

map untuk sampai ke rumah pengantin. harap² korang dapatla jumpe rumah nih

inilah kad jemputan yang x berapa nak cukup tuh. i wonder betul ke diorg print 600 nih? watever, korang yg buat salah, tanggungla sendiri eyh. i dont wana make a fuss out of it any more. kepada yang sudi hadir, its gona be a heavy traffic along da way. jalan kampung, sgt sempit. besar harapan agar korang x tersangkut dan bersabar dengan segala kesulitan yang bakal korang hadapi. papepun, didoakan agar segalanya berjalan dengan lancar. kite jumpa nanti eyh, jaga diri, assalamualaikum...

Summary

assalamualaikum... another 5/6 days to go. my feeling? xde pape perasaan. but more or less mcm sedey a bit, you're not gona be around @ my wedding net. tp, its for da best kan net. i love you, so i dnt wana jeopardise your future for me. so da result, no one is gona be my pengapit. if i can't have kaklin, then il have no one. stubborn as i sound, yup there's a kapla batu inside. watever, lets move on...

so, i did have my sauna. and i think i shed quite a few kilos back there. nak tawu dkt mana i did my sauna? none other than depan rumah ni ha... for a couple of times, saya telah potong rumput di bawah terik mentari. terasa macam menjadi petani gitu. well, abah bought a new mower, and dis one is ringan and quite good mower, so dats how i did my sauna. why do we have to mow da land? bcoz nanti tempat itu akn dijadikan parkir kereta. and khemah pun akn didirikan di situ. so, have to work faster to settle da lalang2 in time, lets aja aja fighting!!!

other than that, on friday, we celebrate teachas day! its was a okay day, but to be honest, it was great! i received a lot of pressie which made me dwelled with tears. i mean, budak dat evryday i marah2 die, he gave me a sweet present. sgt terharu! il put da pichas later la eyh. then, i did enter sukaneka and played da game with a combined teacha-stud team. overall, walalupun ntah hape2 since they didnt explain da rules quite well, it was fun. my studs has been very cooperative and eager to win. so we got the consolation gift, dapat hamper. we divide it equally, and evryone is happy.

so later, we had nasik minyak! which is awesome sbb nanti during my kenduri, mkn nasik beriyani, bkn nasik minyak =( (so i was told) tak kesahla nasik paper, janji sedap n sume org happy sudahla. again, im inviting evryone to come and have a good time at my wedding. hopefully i can meet evryone dis saturday...

after sume dah settle (mana nk tutup buku register lg, nak masuk sukaneka, nak dgr/tgk shows) finally, we can enjoy our skool break!!! but, its gona be a busy two weeks holiday too, sbb nak tanda kertas periksa and my wedding lg. so, lets settle evrythg one at a time okay!

umm... later, as promised dgn ina, ina being a very sweet and kind friend, accompany me to do my hair! it was a very long/mengantuk time at da saloon, i fell asleep while the hairstyler did my hair. ina pun while waiting for me, she fell asleep on da couch. after 4 hours, finally my hair is done, and da result is superb. i hope my h2b gona love my hair, and i really love my hair so much right now. enough bout my hair, as its not suppose to be discuss in here.

however, i did feel awful along da way as i didnt tell mak im goin back late and where did i go. i wana tell mak first, but with da credit xdenye such and such, i prayed silently so dat mak wont worry as much...

and i am way wrong, as i switch da phone and looked at how many miscalled ive received. minta maaf mak, ive choose a wrong matrix dis time and made mak worried. should have choose da other path, but being ignorant and selfish like always, da result is making mak worried. thanks a lot ain, you did such a great job! sheesh...

thank god when i reached home after sending ina home, bcoz of the pressies, evryone is happy unwrapping them espeacially naim. mak tanya dis and dat, and i told mak dat i did my hair. nasib mak x marah, cuma mak ckp yg mak risau and call x berangkat. but later, mak pun okay je. little dat i know, pak tam, mak tam and evryone is here. cuma imad jer xde. but its okay, dapat main2 dgn syafika n izni pun dah best. overall, its really a tiring day for friday.

yesterday, umm... it was quite a downer day. to begin with, boleh x sebelum jumpe jurunikah kena p pejabat agama and settle da borang 1st? so isu borang is still on duh! dont asked wat happen, im not gona elaborate on dat, so im praying hard on monday we can settle evrything on isu borang nih. and later, we (h2b and me)went to potostet kad kawen. sorry for those yang dapat kad potostet, our kad is finish. but on da brighter side, da potostet kad is made by me, da bride. as simple as it is, i design and made it myself. so jgnla ada yg terasa hati yea. klu terasa jugak, let me blanja nasik beriyani okeh?

so for those that wishes to come, please give me your address. hopefully before saturday you guys will receive da kad. evryone is invited, so do come and share da happy moment. il post da ori scan kad later, have a look okay.

think datsal for my post. will write some more. take care evryone, have a happy skool breaks! assalamualaikum

~ Next Week ~

alhamdulillah... my paper today is done without many hassle. now tinggal nk menandanye la pulak. plus i didnt finish da skema yet. ain, bile mau buat nih? evryone is waiting you know? sorry guys, ive no idea why my hands x mo wat itu skema la....

apart from dat, hmm... i think evrythg is okay, alhamdulillah. syukur pada Allah yg sentiasa memudahkan cara, yang sentiasa memberi petunjuk, yg sentiasa menolong hamba-Nya nih bilamana hati ini sgt merintih hiba... thank you Allah, ive no words to describe my gratitude for you...

so, next week this is it. finally the time is here for us to be hand in hand. ive been waiting for years for this moment. it is worth waiting for actually. harap semua akan berjalan lancar, the way ive picture it in mind. kawan2, doakanla yea.

umm, ive no idea wat to elaborate more. till next post then i guess. take care evryone, hopefully we can meet next week. dah lama dah x jumpa korang kan? btw, da card will be post tomorrow, hopefully they will arrive by this week la kan? orite, signing off... assalamualaikum...

-- Compile --

- esok my paper -

budak2 nih exam math. takutnye klu ada soalan yg salah. and i didnt prepare the scheme yet. kinda pening pala skrang nih. i did staple n sorted accordingly to classes dah. but still i dnt kno why im having dis kinda feeling. mcm cuak jer selagi paper math nih budak2 x jawab lg. dats why no update n no reply for comments. perasaan yg ntah hape2 nih still melanda, so just bear with me okay?

- me wedding -

uumm, so far, okayla. not gona elaborate on it much. will see hows it goes. lps abis paper math esok, baru nk kelam kabut poskn semua kad2 pada kawan2. sementara waktu nih, just bear with me okay?

- household -

abah demam, doakan abah cepat sembuh. moody jer abah, so semua kena bersikap baik. kesian kaklin, abah x kasi balik. tp i still want you to come bck, be my pengapit. klu x dpt jugak, wat to do kn? i know abah intention is good, suruh kaklin belajar rajin2, tp kakin kawen sekali sajer net. no more after dis. but i guess aper la sgt wedding kan? x dtg pun xperla. wateverla kn? malas nk pk la...

- wat else -

wish me luck tomorro. harap2 semua berjalan lancar. insyaAllah selasa sume brg2 akan dpt di settlekn. then tunggu jerla for da wedding kn? ramai pun x dpt nk dtg. which is okayla to me. cume takut makanan byk terlebih pulak. itu lain cerita lah kan? yg penting makanan cukup, bukannya x cukup. klu x cukup, then it's gona be a problem. terlebih, xperla kot.

- LDP -

sabtu lps ada ldp again. tp kali ni, pegi sgt selebet okay. dahla bgn lmbt, cincai bersiap. seb baik pki mekap jugak, evntho 1st thought xmo pki. x pki name tag, and pki selipar jer. then guess wat? ive to present for my group! best kn? time ni la korg letak nama aku utk present eyh? blasah jerla. since mengajar math, so kenala present in english kan? seb baik lancar jer present, cume tgn jer yg menggigil sbb pegang/guna mic. damn... my microphonephibia still onla, bila nk cure nih? five minutes feel like five hours. thank god i ended finally. xtaula markah bape, janji dah setel.

-/+ okay, thinks datsal nak bebbles. sorry for not updating regularly, a lot of things kinda occupied my mind. so till later okay, take care and stay healthy eyh. drink plenty of water and have enough rest. assalamualaikum...

-- Hmm --

assalamualaikum... ola, watcha doin? ai net, lama dah x borak dgn kamu. sgt rindu la... kaklin sehat x? hows evrythg over there? here evrythg pun quite alright, alhamdulillah. not to worry ok net...

so, wat to write? umm... today the exam will be started with paper bm and pjk. wish them all the best this evening, hopefully they all will pass with flying colors. btw, i did made some promises with these kids, and if they did succeed, they sure burn a huge hole in my pocket. but its okay, the intention is for them to study and struggle hard, and if they are worth it, i would gladly hand them the so wanted pressie.

owh, btw... i would to invite evryone who happen to read this crappy blog of mine to witness our lovely day this coming june. im so sorry if i didn't drop you the card, in hoping that through virtual invitation will be enough (kes kad x cukup la nih) jgnla merajuk atau terasa sekiranya x dpt kad eyh. and you couldn't make it pun it's still okay, we can meet some other time kan i suppose...

umm, net... it's okay to drop comments in here. kakin x marah lah, aper daa... sama jer mcm zuhrin, takut kakin marah sbb korang kacau blog nih. this blog pun intentionly for you both okay? so that you guys can always read my mind, you guys can understand my unstable heart. so no fear, my dear, please be here, to hear my cheers... and some other stuffs too eyh?

enough bebbles... wow bebbles sound more executive then bebel. from now on, bebbles = bebel. get it? what ever la kan? so okay net, think thats all the bebbles i can come up with. will bebbles more on the next post. nite2, sweetdreams, assalamualaikum...

Majuk =(

i hate it when we said sumthg clearly and its darn clearly stated, da other party is i dnt kno, deaf or too ignorant and made stupid mistakes...

yup, dats my opening line. sgt terasa nak ketuk je pala org itu. how are you doin business la like dis? wat kind of business you are running? watever, ive no more intention to mention about dis matter. so lets cut to the chase...

yup, evryone... my card is finally completed!!!!!! wat a long shoutout, due to the stress i just felt right now. its kinda like half done than wat my expectation/request/criteria is. the biggest looser of all, the card IS LATE!!! wat kind of express service when its late? so its ok, since they will refund back. next, ive order my card to be with a pocket. da lame reason is dat, da pocket is musnah binasa disebabkn hujan and will have to re-do it again, and will be finish dis monday. i said no thank you and cut da cost again.

next, i asked the inlay to be done in somewhat thicker/exclusive paper (which they are the one who recommended it), but they seems to forgot about it again, thus another cutting cost. in a way h2b explain it to me, ofcoz besar hikmahnye. but i just cudnt quite swallow it yet, so that's why the sulky face just now.

i cant help mself from feeling a lot a bit frustrated seeing the card isn't the way it suppose to be. but, again like h2b put it, it's just a card. so lighten up a bit, beside we can channel the refund money for our house, our other stuffs...

when we got back home, i showed it to abah. thank god no complaint, only on the complicated map. so please dear readers, follow the map with full caution. it's quite tricky to reach here, and i do hope evryone will be here safe and sound.

owh, i will ofcourse put the card here. but not tonight, since im still not in the mood to be looking at it again, sigh...

take care evryone, how weekend flies, now it just sunday and monday will come again. why can't it be saturday evryday? sigh... orite, enough sighing already, just swallow what life throws at you and stop complaining, i had enough of complaining already.

take care, be good, assalamualaikum...

... Just ...

assalamualaikum... yola... olala... okay, enuf greeting already la... so, how's evryone? how are you net? terasa mcm dah lama x borak dgn kaklin. bile kite nak chat lg nih net? when you're not busy la eyh. gudluck with your study, you can do IT!!!

apa mau cite nih eyh? umm, to start with, a birthday shoutout for abang!!! selamat hari jadi abang. bile mau bagi saya kakak ipar nih? muahaha, gurau² jer. apa² pun saya doakan abang akan terus berjaya dalam semua cabaran yg abang tempuhi. luper pulak, 8/5 hari tuh pun bday naim. x tulis entry pun pasal bday naim. apsal eyh? ntah, byk mendela skrang nak pk. tp, bday naim hr tuh, ada jugakla beli kek, dgn piza like always. so naim, dah besar dah nih, naim kena buat sume sendri dah ok? nih keje skolah pun nak tunggu kakin/mak nak tolong, barula nak buat. mulai skrang naim kena belajar utk buat sendiri ok, lebih berdikari tawu?

dats about bday greeting. well, there's another greeting i suppose, which is da techa day. but me skool celebrate quite late, which is after da exam. however, maknye skolah celebrate dis coming monday and i wud like to present me mak sumthg too dis year. so ain, will you plz make da order by dis weeked? tqvm...

so wat happen in skool? umm, tomorrow ada ldp la pulak, and have to be in skool at 7.30. wat a torture great weekend to spend kan? after dat, we (h2b n i) will hopefully goin to pick da card and hopefully will be settle by tomorro. btw, for two days dis week, parent came to see me. about their kids since im da class teacha. so talk about their brats kids dis and dat, more toward apraisal of their small good deed rather than da bad one. i felt sorry for the parent actually, i know how humiliating to come to skool and face da teachas, and their did come and concern bout their kid, which is great. so rather than talking on and on bout their bad behaviour, i talk about little of their good behaviour too...

hopefully, we cud get da kad asap. if not, then we will go and settle buying me gifts!!! im not picky, so watever h2b like, i love them also. so most of my gifts are chosen by h2b and me too ofcoz.

i think datsal to write. wana go down and ngacau adik muahaha. kesian adik, die selesema pulak. moody sket hehe. td pi pasar malam pun adik moody jer. smoga cepat sembuh ek dik. orite, till next time. take good care evryone. lets pray for evryone safety. together, we strive for da best. assalamualaikum...

A Smile =D

assalamualaikum... hows evryone today? hows today? hope dat evrythg and evryone is great. so, wussup eyh? quite okayla. but da last two period really boiled my blood to da max. ive no idea wat to do with dis brats? nak lempang, anak orang. nak tendang, anak orang. last² aku pkila tektik rahsia utk mendiamkn budak² nih. aper die? malasla mau cite, kite cite mende lain okay?

but dis evening, im darn happy coz h2b is picking me up from skool. as h2b drop me off to skool too. so i felt like a wife already, where da hubby send and pick his darling wife from work. awesome kan? wat a great feeling, thank you Allah so much =)

so, we went to da kedai kad, but like my hunch has spoken b4, da kad isnt finish yet. its either tomorrow, or friday. so we will see by then. but if nothing is done, then please refund da express charge eyh?

later, since our kad isnt available yet, we went to carre*four again. perform maghrib prayer, then have our dinner. quite full, alhamdulillah smpi x abis makan. minta maaf ya Allah, i really cudnt understd why i cant finish my food like i use to. i think my tummy had shrunk la. mkn sket terus penuh. its not dat ive lost my appetite, its just dat, i think im full when im half done. i know its bad to throw away good food, but sorry, i just cudnt stuff all of it down my throat. please forgive me ya Allah...

after diner, we look around da shops. and we manage to cross some of the things from our checklist. so great, alhamdulillah. there's a bit more to finally finish crossing the items, i hope we can finish it by this week.

owh, btw ive made my full payment for da pelamin. cut budget in a lot of things, so about 1k we cud save up da spenditure. i know wedding is once in a lifetime, but i think its better to think the after effect of the wedding. wat i had in mind bout my wedding is, the guest is happy, plenty of food for evryone, and da kenduri is blessed by evryone dat came. dats my ultimate wedding dream. but ofcoz in the most sensible and pleasant for evryone. other than dat, nothg fancy, nothg biggie, just simple and suitable for all of the guest.

hmm... i didnt know dat its gona cost a lot, dis lot for a wedding. never once i read in any wedding stories, telling da cost is quite a bomb. i kno, probably no one is about da bragging. but its good to kno da price in details so dat i can expect da bomb to explode on my face first hand. but, all in all, evrythg is settle, so yup da bomb did explode and we survive, alhamdulillah...

so back home, thank god h2b is around to shell me from kena marah sbb balik lambat. so, h2b yg kena marah =p h2b told dis and dat, abah pun marah skit jerla. wat to do kan, im 27 and i still have a curfew. now im feeling like im still twelve, dat lil gal who is grounded and can never hang out with her friends bcoz me daddy and mommy loves me very much and will always shield me from any harm. i kno dat my parent is always concern with all of their kids, and im still living under their roof, so obey is a must and making them happy yes i shall...

overall, quite a day today. and alhamdulillah it finally rained after a few days of blasting hot weather. indeed its a blessing from Allah, thank you Allah for da rain. it made us all truly happy =D

think dis is all dat i got in mind. its nearly weekend already. so lets work hard to enjoy our weekend. aja aja fighting!!! assalamualaikum...

A While

ola... assalamualaikum... hmm, been 5 days since last post. nothg to write actually, more just toward ramblings. but wat da heck, lets ramble anyway la ek...

so da update? wat we did/buy last weekend? hmm, nothin much. h2b n me went to buy sum more stuff for us. we manage to buy da jewellery (necklace-for me, ring-for h2b) and also i bought h2b a perfume. so my list for him just left with one only! da baju melayu. i hope we can finally find da baju dat h2b loves. so still in search for da baju, and my other stuff too. lets finish crossing all of da list by this week, or next week, or whenever da list can be crossed...

umm, dis morning, h2b and i will be getting our cards. hopefully da card is ready when we're goin to pick it up. or else, we will ask for refund since its not done expressly.

other than dat, wat a big sigh each time i saw my student buat perangai. im embarrased and malas-nak-layan-dah and bengang jadi cikgu kelas budak² nih. why is it so difficult to be a good student and wont make a mess till da final bell ring? haiyo, asyik nk kena marah jerla budak2 nih. im so kesian and pity these kids but they are da one who's looking for trouble. sorry guys, you must pay da price for evrythg. nothg comes free these days honey. no money, no honey...

umm, just wana pinch a bit on my question paper. ada salah pulak da, typo-error i guess. seb baik noticed b4 da test. klu x, kesian budak² ni. cedera parah urat saraf diorg kira² and then x dpt jawapan...

another pinch of thoughts... well, sumtimes doin your best can lead you sumwhere else i guess. wat im trying to say is, ive been chosen to do da explorace again. but this time isnt for da kids. but other than da kids, you got wat i mean? *raising eyesebrows* so ive no idea wat to install for this game. have to think through. seriously, been imagining da scenarios and da possibility on how da day may be, but still in da planning mode, nothg biggie. but when da clock is ticking like HaLLL, then il press da pb button, alritey?

so thinks datsal. better catch some sleep. i dnt know why, but lately its been hard to fall off to sleep. tossing and turning here n there but no avail. do you guys have da same problem? care to share your experience?

nite² evryone, and a very good morning too i suppose. may your day today better than yesterday. so, lets do our best and be the best. Fighting!!! assalamualaikum...

~ Minta Maaf ~

tadi masa tgh online, terdengar mcm nama kena panggil. tp kekadang tuh terasa mcm terperasan jer nama kena panggil. then dgr betul², rupa²nya abah panggil. terus berlari turun. cari² abah, x jupe cari. rupa²nya abah dkt luar. abah suruh bukakkan pintu cage putih tuh, sbb abah dpt tangkap kucing jantan yg jahat sgt tuh. then by the time i understood wat abah is asking me to do, kucing tuh cakar² abah, dan dapat melepaskan diri. abah sgt kecewa, i apologise many² times. i let my dad down, minta maaf abah = "(

minta maaf sbb terpekakkan telinga, i really didn't expect abah will call for me. i thought abah is calling for naim. im really sad and frustrated by myself. dis is it ain, next time, whether abah or mak is calling for someone else, just attend to them and be alert, respond to surrounding and pay attention. if not, il be a dissapointment again...

i cant erase da looks from abah. very dissapointed and frustrated. i felt like no others too. arghhh, why cant i listen carefully tadi? dont you have ears ain? duh, wat a dumb question anyway...

i hope tgn abah yg kena cakar td tuh cpt baik. im so worried rite now since abah ada diabetes. please pray for the wound to heal faster. kesian abah, i really broke his hart.

then my h2b call and asked evrythg alrite, which i sadly replied nooo, an inch close sobbing to tears. then he asked, wats wrong and i spill evrythg. he listen quietly and promised to catch dat jahat punya kucing yg dah cakar tgn abah. i really hope kucing tuh pegi jauh2 dari rumah kami, sbb kucing tuh mmg terlampau jahat sgt, die klu masuk rumah ni jer, dier suka pancut². habis baju2 yg dah lipat, kusyen and evrythg else lg die kencing. bangang giler, suka curi lauk, suka gaduh dgn kucing kitorg smpi kucing tuh tershitty evrywhere and bb yg kena basuh and da list of his evilness will go on!!!

but h2b did lift my spirit up. and cheer me =) saya sudah mampu tersenyum kembali =) alhamdulillah. cuma, saya berdoa pada Allah agar luka di tgn abah cepat sembuh. Ya Allah, sembuhkanla tgn abah, its my stupid mistakes ya Allah, please forgive me and heal abah's wound ~ amin...

dah berkali² minta maaf pada abah. harap abah jgnla kecewa lagi dgn anaknya ini. i know abah isnt dissapointed just bcoz of dis incident, it stretches longer than dat. and i kno dat very well. but i wont elaborate more on dat. so by dat, i do promise dat i wana be a better daughter, so dat abah and mak will always happy with us...

and yesterday, h2b lost his phone bcoz of me too. on his way here, i called him and asked whether he cud stop by at dat pasar malam and buy roti goreng for naim. mula² naim asked me to go to pasar mlm tuh, tp i was busy cooking dinner, so i called h2b instead. and while he was at da pasar malam, pencuri bongok telah curi my h2b phone. but, h2b always find the way to take evrythg in the other way around. he uses logic and common sense which i rarely use. he accepted the lost and make me accepted the lost too. by losing, you will gain something too, insyaAllah...

kinda feel low and down at da moment and i just dont know why. please bounce back from this state ain. its ok to feel sorrow and sadness, but too much of it will bring nothg but misery. be strong and stay strong, always looks at da brighter side and postive thinking is da way to go. take a deep breath, hold it and let it go. believe in Allah, have faith in Allah at all time. you can do this ain, aja aja fighting!!!

wow, wat a long run just to mutter about how sad i am, dat i made my dad frustrated. dis post really is a murmur for myself, dis is how i talk to myself. so dat i wont do it again next time. so dat i will respond better next time. so dat i will be better next time. so say all you want, called me freak or watever, heck i wont care any less bcoz dis is me. when i feel sad, i write. when im down, i write. again, i used to write in my lil book, always write my thoughts in there. but dis time, i will simply write in here, just for a change. but i wont make it a habit, probably i would. i dnt kno, well who knows anyway rite?

till here, sorry for keeping you reading dis long when you probably had something better to do. like always, take care and dont ever let someone dear to you down. bcoz da hartbreakin is da equal amount for both party. always be a better person evry single day. so let aja aja fighting evryone!!! assalamualaikum...

-/+ Clueless +/-

assalamualaikum... ola net, watcha doin? umm, xtau nk tulis ape kali nih. hows ur exam td? boleh jawabkn? im praying dat you will get a good grade. if not, we can always try again kan. so aja aja fighting!!!

so hows today? today been great. alhamdulillah, syukur pada nikmat yg telah Allah berikan. dapat ketenangan jiwa, kekuatan iman utk terus menempuh hidup ini. its a tough fight for survival, each of us faces a great deal of ordeal. so lets pray so dat we will all win dis battle, dat we will be rewarded with jannah towards da end...

movin on, umm... masa tgh mengaja in dis one class, where all da girls are friendly and talkative, suka sgtla nk menyembang dgn cikgu nih. im like, layan jerla budak² nih. they asked dis and dat, smpi x terlarat nk bersembang. anyway, it did made me realise when dis girl asked me "cikgu, cikgu nak kahwin dah kan?" (i did told them dat im bout to be married) "ha ah, 6 haribulan 6 nih, lambat lagi kan" and then she's kerut2kn muka and terkira². "tapi cikgu, cikgu nk kawen bulan depan lah kan?" im really like, dalam hati 'ha ah lah, lagi sebulan jer tinggal, why do i feel like it will take forever to get to my wedding day?'

wow people!!! next month im gona be married!!! nape mcm x sedar jer yg x byk masa lg yg tinggal nih. and there's a lot of stuff to do here. aiyark!!! shud i turn on da panic button rite now? HaLLLLLLL yESSSSSSS!!!

da pb will be turn on, but not just yet. il leave it as it is, work in a very poise manner, let evrythg fall into places, do evrythg in delicate and as calm as possible. and if dis all doesnt work, then il let h2b to handle evrythg. he's my rock, and rockon we will =D

orite, enuf babble bubble. il write some more some other time. thanks net for always stopping by. i miss you so very much, waiting and counting days to meet you =D goodluck kaklin for your study. i know ure gona excel and exceed in flying colors. have faith in yourself, you're da best and you know you are. take care, be safe and respond to your surrounding. assalamualaikum...

~ No Idea ~

olaaaaaaaaaaaa..... wah panjangnye shoutout =) hello evryone, assalamualaikum... umm... i dnt kno wats dis entry gona be like. there's no story to tell actually, but my fingers cant stop fidgeting on da keyboard, so let me do typing in ere...

to start with, dis evening, i finally wash da cars. wat a long evening since ive to wash three cars. actually, i just wana wash da kelisa, but being me, i cant just wash my car and let mak dgn abahnye kete kotor and its been a long time since ive wash van abah. and abah wont go to car wash to wash da van. so orite then, dis evening il just wash da three cars.

to start with, ive wash da van. punyela lama jugak nak settlekn van tuh since ive wash it alone. dgn angin sepoi2 bahasanya, makes me shiver alover. da tayars, pergh sgt hitamla da rims. penat gak nk menonyoh keluarkn segala kekotoran. and made my fingernails all blacky and i hate it. about half and hour, finally da van dah settle.

next on line, kete mak. well, kete mak kete kecik jer, so it doesnt cost me much time. and kete mak pun sometimes mak ada hantar ke car wash, so xdela kotor mcm unser abah. wash here and there, dah settle kete mak. next is kelisa...

so basuh kelisa pun xdela thorough sgt. just simply wash and get done with it. usually, long time ago, i polish la, waxla. nowadays, malas nk layan. janji x kotor sgt, sudahla. basuh kelisa, adik is around to help. adik yg spraykn da water, thus we complete it quite faster. later, dah abis basuh kelisa, its time for da interior part pulak. sampah2 yg ada dibuang, lapik kaki pun dikibas² kotoran² itu. smpi maghribla baru nk settle tiga² tuh...

so dats da story for today, kesah membasuh kete. nothg much, i know. tp nk jugak cite kn? watever... owh, today i made kari ayam. tp mak komen on da wings dat i didnt cut here and there. nasibla x komen bout da taste. klu x, sure a downer lg = "( hopefully in time, i can be a better cook for my family and for my children. i hope dat one day my children can proclaim dat their mother is da best cook ever! wow, tingginye berangan. so com'on ain, you can do it!!!

orite, thinks datsal for dis post. we'll see wat tomorrow brings. looking forward for a brand new week, which means its gona get closer for my wedding!!! now im fidgeting allover! aja aja fighting!!! lets do our best, shall we? take care, stay safe... assalamualaikum...

Will Forever Be Missed...

assalamualaikum... to all my readers, plz take a moment to recite al-fatihah for my dear tuk ndak. tuk ndak pass away yesterday, and the funeral takes place today...

it was quite a weekend i suppose... dgn planning nk ke johor and spore. kesian dkt naim sebenarnya. he's really excited to go there. tp itulah, klu bukan dah rezeki, walhal ktorg mmg dah nak sgt smpi ke sana. apa² Allah plan is da greatest. so just let me tell da story in brief bout wat happen...

umm, we leave for johor at about 10 ++ yesterday. da MRR2 was congested. da traffic is heavy along da way till seremban i suppose. da journey felt like forever to reach johor. we made a couple of stop, for prayer and refueling. about 4++ we finally reached da Se*ri Malay*sia hotel. after check-in, carried our luggage to da room, off we went to spore. well bout to go to spore anyway. then mak received a phone call...

it did breaks my hart upon hearing dis news. not bcoz we've to cancel our trip, but i thought we still have time to visit tuk ndak again. but Allah for sure love tuk ndak, and redha is wat we have to do...

da reason why we went to johor is for attending mak tam's punya kakak@kak long wedding. so after we went and singgah rumah mak tam's, we ate mee basah which is so sedap. later we continue our journey back home. adik yg drive, and he looks tired. kesian adik. kakin nk teman jugak, tp tertdo jugak sekejap². we did made a stop kejap dkt ayer keruh to pray and refuel. other than dat, no stopping and da journey back is quite smooth till we reached tol dkt mines. da MRR2 is so congested so we took da alternative route. abah decided to come to tuk ndak's home tomorrow since its way past midnite and we need our rest.

so today, early in da morning at about 7.30 we went to tuk ndak's house. i recited surah yassin till tuk ndak is taken to surau. so off we went to surau which located nearby. since its too early, not many people are around yet. i again recited surah yassin with mak. then da preparation took place.

all in all, da preparation is smooth and everythg went well. i perform my first solat jenazah today which is awsome, alhamdulillah since i wana do it for so long. ive never had a chance to do so, bcoz i endup settling/helping/doing da preparation till it was late to perform da solat. again, alhamdulillah so dat next time im prepared to perform solat jenazah. i know dat we did studied about the type of solat masa form-form dulu. tp x penah pun buat amali dan praktikal. so i guess dis time around, it's my rezeki alhamdulillah to be able to perform da solat.

we did went to kubur for da funeral. and again, it was a smooth ceremony. da weather is great and evrythg went well. tuk ndak, you will forever be missed...

to talk about tuk ndak, there's a long list of goodness to share with evryone. tuk ndak is very caring and loving. i like coming and visiting tuk ndak's home. when tuk ndak yam is around, she will cook a lot of dishes and she will talk and laugh and entertain evryone. now about a year tuk ndak yam pass away. and yesterday tuk ndak cha pass away too. they are both really great and nice people. thank you tuk ndak for evrythg. you guys were da best ever...

take care evryone. lets cherrish and love all our loves one. without them, we are nothg... assalamualaikum...

1st May...

wow, its been an hour past midnite and yet im not asleep. why? i got back way too late dis time. never ever in history we've been out so late till mum and dad has gone to sleep. so wana kno da story? let me begin...

to start off, dis mornin after many2 times wake up n tersleep again, finally i got up and bersiap. later h2b arrived and wait downstairs with abg while im getting ready. aftrward we went up to da kedai kad n unfortunately da kedai isnt open yet so we opt for another kedai. since we're in hurry coz our big day is really around da corner, we book da card for express package. so by next week da card will be settle. there goes da card issues finally. eh not quite finish yet since we're to meet da owner and discuss da artwork, inlay and blalala. so after skool, we're gona go here again...

owh, bout da borang. it turnouts dat we dnt have to go to pejabat agama since we're gona get married by the same kadi. and we're living in da same district, so da borang is only needed to be passup by abah to da jurunikah ke tok kadi (luper dah) da least is one week from nikah. so ain, silalah ingt baik2 yea?

next after da isu card, we went to kedai pelamin. we pay a bit for da bookingla. da org kedai tuh asked me to try again da baju, but as much as i wana put it on, i decline sbb ive to go to skool. and we said dat we'll be back again later at at nite. so dah settle isu booking pelamin.

settle isu borang and card and da pelamin, off i went to skool. my h2b hantar. i felt like flying without wings till evening. so happy to be with h2b and to be sent to skool by him. rasa mcm kanak-kanak sekolah =D

anyway, after skool, ive message mak dat we're gona be home late since we're gona settle da kad n da pelamin n stuff. mak ckp ok, then later after school h2b pick me up =) heaven sgt rasanya bcoz i dnt have to drive like crazy by my own after work.

after maghrib prayer and dinner at carre*four, we're headed to da kedai kad. picked da card, tgk2 itu ini, puzzled and dont kno wat to choose, after 1 hour ++ we finally did it. da price, quite priceyla kot coz i thought nk cut da budget here. but its ok, still within budget. dapat 2 bunting free, and we can get it by next week. if and only we confirm da artwork within dis week. ok, we'll try our best to settle dis asap. so to all my dearest friend, plz give me your address so i can post you da card eh?

next around 9.30 mcm tuh, da kedai pelamin dah call. and i said dat we're on our way to da kedai. so borak2 kejap then diorg pun suruh test baju. and i did! wah, da outfit is so beautiful! i do feel like a queen. da feeling is so unreal, so undescrible. i never play dressup like dis before. with da amazing cloth on me, i just awed and thank god for giving me dis opportunity once in a life time. i did my parade infront of the mirror and show it to h2b. he loved it, so dats da outfit im gona wear for my side. later, they gave h2b to try his outfit. he just blew me away. here we are, two simple people, never wear any fancy clothes. so when we did, i felt so bless and happy =)

next, we try da outfit for h2b side. i just try mine for da upper piece. lower piece isnt finish yet. so im gona be wearing a new outfit. and for dis outfit, i felt like a princess! bcoz da color is so comel and da design is so comel =) and again, h2b really sweep me off from my feet. he looks amazing. amazingly handsome. and comel too =) i think its da color dat made it look so comel. outfit for h2b dis time too also new and isnt quite ready yet. so we just have a tryla dulu. then we will come again probably next week to really do da fitting and adjust mana yg patut.

and there's quite a lot a few nasihat/tips/advise dat kak ida made. on how to look super sizzling hotty hot hotty on da big day which i think most of us girls know but im too ignorant to follow. being me, super lazy to take care of my appearance, (asal pakai baju, tutup aurat sudah) selebet and comot all da time. i cudnt help it. i like to wear sumthg im comfortable with. my famous style to go out is blasah-jerla-nak-pakai-apapun. but lately, i think i better start taking care of my appearance, just for my own sake.

so i think datsal dat i can come up with. will write again insyaAllah. take care evryone, assalamualaikum...