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can you guess to which song zairil is singing?

Quack Quack Quack Quack

Zairil loves to sing this duck song. He even sing it to his little brother just to cheer him up. I would smile too hearing his sweet voice singing quack quack quack quack. Comel sangat nih =)

Aaa Maa

Zarif's way to tell the eyes and the mouth. As for the rest, he's still figuring out.

~ Gigglebiz ~

The first time i heard zairil singing this tune, i was wondering what song could this be? from what i heard, he's saying keek-a-buzz. It doesn't  make sense, so it turn out it is from this show. He loves the doctor doctor part, where he pretends to be a doctor and did a checkup on me and zarif using the stethoscope. Even zarif likes to buzz nana nana these days, super cute these boys of mine =)

Movie Weekend

 

Last weekend, we went to watch The Hunger Game and Thor for two consecutive days. It was fun nonetheless, but it did take a toll on us as for the next day, the boys are restless and watching movie is fun no more.

So on Saturday night, we watched The Hunger Game; Catching Fire. It was the best movie by far, because I got to enjoy it till the last bit. Zarif latched on as the movie started and slept all the way until the end. Zairil ran here and there, making a wee bit noise resulting hp to take him outside and made him promise to sit still throughout the movie. Overall, really love the movie and can't wait for the last sequel.

For Sunday night, we watched Thor 2. It was challenging to watch as Zarif has his own mind, and literally made a scene in the middle of the cinema. So this time, I had to take him outside and calm him down. We stayed till the very last credit. There are only us and another couple who stayed behind as the cleaner team made their way to clean up the area. Another overall, i can't say much about the movie as i left when the storyline got excited.

It's been a while since we spend a day-out like this. Usually we went to the playground or run errands. I guess the only thing that stopping us from doing fun things is the kids. By that i mean, when we want to do something, that must include whether the kids can behave themselves, is the place children-friendly, all those things that we must consider before taking them out.

p/s: i know right, out all of the places to have fun; is to bring them to the cinema. then prayed they wont make a scene and let you watch the movie in peace. hmm, maybe we could go to other places next time? hopefully so.

Rolling rolling

Rolling rolling keep on rolling =) One of the thing that Zairil like doing, kinda pening watching him rolling over and over. Adik wants to do it too, he's still perfecting his moves.

After the thunder and storm

It is definitely not easy to stay calm and collected while the dua beradik cried their lungs out. I'm holding and keeping it all together so that I wont outburst my frustration towards them. Sigh, this is one of the package that come with parenthood. Patience, be with me all the time, never ever leave me ever...

Round and Round

Again, please repeat over and over while turning around =)

Standard Questions

Standard questions and the standard answers from Zairil. The answer may vary, but it's usually the same =)

ABC song from zairil =)

An abc song plus some tidbits from Zairil. Repeated 100th time daily.
More songs to come from Zairil, so stay tuned =)

Stay Behind

There was this one time where the day before we left for Langkawi, I had this terrible back pain. It was so painful, I couldn't even sit right. The whole journey was a nightmare, miraculously I made it. We made a stop at rumah tuk&wan, sleep there overnight. Wan even made 'air penawar' for me, heal me by reading some surah and rubbed my back. The pain subsided, and I thought it would go away eventually.

So the next day, off we went to Langkawi. The ferry ride was a hell of a ride for me, it was torturous I must say. I just keep it all together, only to stop myself from crying. After we reached the jetty, I really couldn't move a muscle. My legs literally broke down on me, but I kept pushing myself to move, to just walk.

I gave all my strength to walk, to move about. It's like taking a baby step for me, one step at a time. Everyone else was rushing, but my little brother stay behind for me. He walked together with me, never leave my sight. He didn't hurried me, just waited for me to walk and be there for me. He is always like this, very protective, caring, he is way different from the surface. Any girl would be lucky to have him, I know I am lucky to have him as my brother =)

p/s: I always recall this incident every time my back hurt...

Charcoal Clean - Da Darlie

More info, click on the toothbrush =)

It is a little bit unusual seeing a charcoal colored toothbrush than the ordinary white colored bristle toothbrush isn't it? All my life, whenever I wanted to pick up a toothbrush, the first image came into my mind is of course the white one. Definitely Iam willing to give this one for a try the next time I need to replace my brush and to compliment with that is this expert white toothpaste. 

More info, click on the toothpaste =)

I am going to come clean about something; that is I am a customer loyalty type of shopper. It's like when I want to buy chocolate drink, the first thought is Milo (Zairil pun minta Milo bila terasa nak minum petang) When I've been using the other brand for so long, it's kinda of hard to overlook at any other product. Like I've said before, I'm going to give it a try, and hopefully I will like the result =D

The view

This is the view from our balcony. There's this calming feeling whenever I looked outside of the window, making all my sorrows, my worries dissapeared. As if the wind took them away and replaced it with this peace and serene thoughts. By gone be by gone... 

Smile

There are time zairil likes to take pictures. Then there are time when he will scream his lungs out to no pictures. Please be nice to the camera zairil, as these pictures is what ibu cherish the most. Smiley smile zairil =)

Four

The other day, I told hp that Zarif is now one year and eight months. He will be two in another four months. Later hp made me realize that Zairil will be four next year. I'm like really? I was so focused on Zarif all these while, I forgot that my other little guy is growing up too. To my eyes, Zairil is still the little baby that I hold dear in my arms, I'm taken aback when hp mention to me this. 

p/s: kids do grow up fast, don't they?

Keep on writing

In this book is where I wrote mostly about the dua beradik. Things that happen to them, which is a bit painful for me to write it down else where. I used to write about zairil monthly in this blog (for the update's sake), but I guess the mojo left the building. There's a little bit of zarif in this blog, he should appear more. I would love to continue writing about these angels of mine, after all they are my passion =)

p/s: as much as I love them till my last breath, constant guilt always haunts me every time I got upset with them. I hate to be crossed with them, but there are time they just keep on pressing the monster button. Patience, do stay with me when ever the going get tough, for when I am mad at them, the person that I am mad the most is me... 

Adique

Zarif is a year and eight months today. He will be two in four months time. Still not showing any slowing down on his milk demand. Whenever you're ready to let go, ibu will let you off to venture your world. Love you to bits hunny darling =)

~ Walking ~

While walking around the lake the other day, Zairil keep on "speaking" non-stop. He talks about crossing the bridge, telling us to be careful to not fall down in the lake, about the blue sky, he really chatted non-stop.

Till when we're about to reach the end of our walk, he still keep on "speaking" and there's this black couple looked at him and the guy said "what are you saying?" with a smile on his face. Zairil looked at him for a while, then continue "speaking" his mind.

Yup, this boy of mine is officially speaking my friend =) *i always worried about zairil isn't speaking yet, thus when he's finally speaking a lot now, he just blew my mind away. love my boy till bits*

Da first one

This is the first one =D

~ Shower My Love ~

 

 It is another boy, my boy, my son, our son =)

 Muhammad Zarif Zafrin Bin Muhammad Zuhrin

DOB : 13/03/12 ~ 19 Rabiul Akhir 1433

POB : Pusat Rawatan Islam Az-Zahrah, Bangi
TOB : 3:57 pm
Weight : 3.8 kg
Length : 51 cm

~ Our Story ~ Muhammad Zarif Zafrin

It is like any other morning, i wake up with heavy tummy and lilo is moving about inside. Such a blissful feeling I had when he's inside me =) So, we did woke up early dat day due to da appointment we had later that morning. Since we are in a rush, we didn't even had breakfast before we left the house.

Our actual appoinment was at 10 o'clock but my beloved hp some how misread the time so here we are at Az-Zahrah at 9 o'clock. It wasn't easy waiting with a toddler WITH huge voice that couldn't sit still for a minute. That day, we had to wait for quite sometimes like always. My back is really killing me, and i couldn't sit still for a minute also =D

So to keep Zairil from making too much noise; we moved about, I even brought him upstairs to the nursery and we looked at the newborn that day. After a while, we went down again and waited inside the car.

Time past by, nearly 1 o'clock we had the chance to meet Dr. Fazlina (yup, that long: almost 5 hours of waiting) We had a brief chat, then we had the ultrasound session. Hp and Zairil weren't in the room with me, they waited in the car. While Dr. Fazlina moving the stick around, she said that the baby is huge. 'Baby macam besar jer nih, kalau kita tunggu lagi, Dokter risau nanti baby akan lagi besar' after that, she said 'let's have a look' and we did the opening checking and turns out I am 5cm dilated already.

Doctor said after this check up I can straight away go the labour room which is located at the same floor. I gave hp a call, and said we're having a baby today =') Later on, hp came over and I told him what i had discussed previously inside Dr. Fazlina's room. We're a bit startled by this but made a quick decision. Hp will bring zairil to hp's parent to gombak, so that he could stay with me in the labour room.

While hp's away, I made my way to the labour room. I get changed, then waited for the nurse to put on the IV drip on me. Later, went to the loo. While waiting, i download the contraction timer which cost me rm2 to monitor the progress. Very basic apps, nothing fancy. Then, a nurse came in, asking me whether I've eaten, which is basically nothing at all since last night. So she brought me some kuih because at that time, they are serving for tea already, and a cup of hot vico as well. After eating, i never felt better (but in my mind, i'm afraid if i had to go to the loo again)

She then asked me to perform solat zuhur, and helped me to take wudhu' (really2 forgotten da niat in Arabic at that time; blame the nervousness, so i just say it BM) At this time, the surges are manageable, I made myself comfortable while waiting on the bed with some reading on the tab. I was determined not to take epidural this time around, so I've been reading post on birthing without epidural or other drugs (i should had read it before I was in the labour room, i know. but i didn't expect to give birth this soon)

Dr. Fazlina did a check up upon me, i think it was about 2 o'clock. She check on the opening, and later said to break the bag. This moment, i still can tolerate the surges... but later, the nurse said lets add up the dosage to speed up the progress (i think it was the pitocin dose?!) and that is when I felt the most intense sensation ever in my life =|

I used the contraction timer, the contraction lasted one minute, but the pain is unbearable. While waiting for that one minute to pass, I cried and held on to the bed's rail. (really2 cried my heart out silently) There's this one older nurse, she waited with me in the room (she was with me when i was in labour with zairil too) That every one minute; i cried. Later when the pain subdued, i kept on saying sorry to the nurse. To which she replied 'takpe, nak bersalin memang macam ni, sakit ni penyembuh dosa'

Then, came a few more nurses, and said 'bagusnya, diam ajer tahan sakit.' That time, i said 'tolong bagi saya ubat tahan sakit. saya tak tahan sakit dah ni' They looked at each other, and the older nurse said to give me the jab.

The time seems so slow at this point, i couldn't bring myself to think how many hours I've spend bearing the pain (feel like forever) The nurse did another check up on me, I was 8-9 cm at that time, and again they said lets add up the dosage. I was shaking my head and put  this pitiful look on my face, but they just increased it anyway. So another continuation episode of crying and checking the contraction began. Out of the sudden, I have this strong epiphany?! or i might say this inner voice saying 'sampai bila nak kena bertahan sakit macam nih, lets do something about it'

I said to the nurses i wanted to have a push. I didn't feel any contraction, but i just wanted to push anyway. So they set up the bed and brought out the equipment. Had another checking, and then came Dr. Fazlina. So the pushing stage begin, and later on i saw my baby =) The first thing i said seeing Lilo is 'ya Allah, baby'

It took a while for me to welcome Lilo in my arms, but we've made it. Hp was running late, so he wasn't with me in the labour room (unlike while having zairil, he was with me the whole time) I had the cutting down below, so while i had the stitches, Dr. Fazlina chatted with me this and that.

There is one time i was coping with the pain, they thought i was about to give birth. So they set up the bed and strap me up. But the opening isn't all the way, so that's a bit of a set back. Luckily the second time, it was fruitful and the time is right.

Dr. Fazlina said 'cepat yea awak bersalin' then i realize, I went into labour room at 1.15pm or more, then gave birth at 3.50pm. but nope, to me i felt like eternity and i didn't feel sekejap at all.

To tell you the truth, whenever i think of the pain, it really gave me a shiver. But if that is the price i have to pay to bring my child to this world, and if the pain is to repent, I'm gladly to do it all over again =)

Just A Little Hello

Assalamualaikum.... lama sudah tidak bercerita di sini =) tiada cerita yang perlu diceritakan, jadi hanya senyap sahaja. hmmm, belum lagi bercerita kelahiran zarif, sudah berjalan pun zarif nih. asyiklah bertangguh, masih di dalam draft. nanti akan diceritakan juga, tunggu yea

Muhammad Zarif Zafrin Bin Muhammad Zuhrin