No More Ms. Nice Gurl

hari ni agak mendidih gak darah aku ngadap budak2 nih. apahal la diorg nih degil sgt. smpi aku dah bertukar menjadi monster gle td. smpi aku pun takut dgn diriku sendri. tp diorg x takut pun? penat jer bertukar. umm, memula aku dah terbengang dgn budak2 kelas 2 DK. tp masa tu aku layan jerla ngaja wlupn budak2 nih bising gle. aku p blakang, yg dpn terloncat2. pegi dpn, yg blakang wat dajal. so abis klas tu ada satu lg klas la pulak, 2 TK. diorg ni pun dah kena tempias amarah aku yg td. memula aku dah cool, tp sbb ada seorg dua perangai mcm setan, aku nye temperature mendidih balik. abis satu kelas tuh aku wat x layan. aku suh diorg salin jer dkt white board smpila abis masa. tpkn, ble dah nk balik tuh, budak2 perempuan dtg salam aku sblm diorg balik. aku rasa sgt terharu, wlupn aku dah marah2 pun diorg x bencikn aku. mmgla bukan sume yg suka wat perangai, tp ble dah layan baik2 diorg lagila menjadi2 perangai bangsarnya. ingt, yg aku cerita nih bukan sume perangai mcm tuh. dan bukan niat aku nk marah2 diorg. but sometime the tough should get going on these kids...

so overall, its a tough day today. i know its gonna be tougher tomorrow. facing these kids is a serious business. lets hope i wont tempeleng budak2 nih. who am i kidding? me nak tempeleng diorg? uish, x berani aku, nk dtg dkt diorg pun aku takut sebenanya. sbb diorg ni mmg nmpk bapak gengster. aku yg rasa kerdil dlm kelas tuh. dan selalu aku dibuli jer oleh budak2 nih. haiya, apa mcm mau bikin nih? bikin peduli hapa aku pun orait gak. tp kesianla pulak aku tgk budak2 lain yg nak belajar tuh. x smpi hati nk punish da whole class bcoz of these few brat. i wana be nice to them, but the problem is these brats. they make the whole class suffer. pening pala pk, but dis is the teacher's life. so every one, welcome to the teacher's world; the living hell shall continue...

Just Some Update

yello... umm ape nk tulis update nih ek? umm, aku dapat jadi cikgu ganti lagi. seronoknye... tp lg seronok klu dapat jd cikgu tetap terus. tp apakn daya, x dpt2. dapat jd cikgu ganti pun jadila. sbb bile dah rasa boring, tetiba dah smpi waktu kena berenti. tp so far so good. budak2 wlupn kureng sket, tp ikut jugak ckp aku nih. paham2 jerla ajar pun subjek sejarah. aku dulu pun x berapa dgr sgt aperla yg cikgu nih dok bercerita kt dpn. my time around, budak2 nih yg bile aku suh tulis, diorg tulis. baca, diorg baca. it's like sgt sweet. tp ada jugakla budak2 nongoi yg suka nk wat pe'el diorg. still aku dapat jugak control class tuh. xdela nanti kena jelingan manja dgn cikgu nik. i feel great, so far so good...

tp yg bestnya ajar budak2 form1 & form2. ari tuh ajar form3, aku yg kena buli. ada yg panggil aku kakak jer. its like geramnye bebudak nih. dahla suka nyakat, suka nk ngorat, x padan dgn kecik. aperla parent diorg ckp klu tgk perangai anak2 diorg nih kt sekolah. haish, mmg pening pala kn?

tp yg aku x pahamnye, kenapala cikgu2 tetap nih nk konon2nya dengki dgn gaji cikgu ganti nih? i mean come on la, korang tiap2 bulan gaji masuk. tiap2 bulan ada keje. org mcm aku nih, harapkn belas ehsan jer. klu ada cikgu nk beranak, time tu baru ada keje. gaji lak, bln bapela baru nk dapat. jadi kesimpulannya, jgnla nak rasa perasaan yg x best pada cikgu2 ganti bermusim nih.

dan yg aku x bape nk paham lg... um, napela cikgu2 tetap nih suka cubicle diorg messy? aku mmg xleh nk perform klu tmpt keje berselerak. aku semak mata dgn sakit pala. so tiap kali aku amik tmpt diorg, aku akn kemas. tp aku tau, xlama lps aku tinggalkn tmpt diorg, keadaan kembali semak balik. lantakla kan, mmg org pun jarang appreciate sumthg selagi mende tuh x hilang. selagi ada kt dpn mata, kiter akan take it all for granted...

overall, i like being a sub-teacher. x kesahla klu ada mulut yg mengata. janji aku happy dgn duniaku. and budak2 tu enjoy blaja. dats da real purpose of my job pun kn. tepisan2 air liur diorg nih aku anggapkan doa jerla. mudah2an aku dapat jadi cikgu satu hari nanti... kan? =)

Lapar Ek?

tghari td aku masak bgikn ribut. hehe, sebabnya td turun lmbt. sempat lg nk berinternet. end up dah nk pukul 2 baru start masak. sejak dua menjak nih aku asyik masak kari jer. kari ikan dat is. aku pulak mmg seronok masak kari sbb senang dan i definitely sure i make it sedap. sbb nanti dapat byk sgt complain from my brother. so td masak kari ikan, sayur kubis, telur dadar, ayam dgn ikan goreng. aku masak dalam 1/2 jam jer sume tuh. bukan nak riak, tp evrytime aku masak cepat gile nih, il be praying dat i wont do dis madness no more. mmg x cukup tgn, sume tgh on atas stove. sume kang silap beri perhatian ada yg hangit. tp dats da adventure yg aku suka sgt. nk masak cpt sbb kang mak aku balik, abis spoil sume mood. i mean its enough pressure nak masak cpt, tmbh lg unwanted pressure, mmg jadi tensen aku nanti. tp overall, basically i just love cooking, dont we...

but i love cooking when no one around yg nak complain2 about my way of cooking. another but, i love cooking in the kitchen dgn kaklin. sbb seronok. not to say dat i dont like cooking with mak, tp cara mak mmg sgt cara mak. my way, i think sume org pun akn just gv way and stand perfectly still, sbb i rush here and there. if my mum around da kitchen, il be sulky while cooking sbb ader jerla yg x betul or x ikut cara die. or she just simply wana have a conversation tp kinda make me a bit nak marah...

tp ofcoz i love helping mak in the kitchen rather than the other way around. sbb i follow her evry instruction so win-win situationla. dua2 pun happy jer dkt kitchen. while cooking, seronok dpt sembang2 dgn mak. i love bein around my mum if my mood meter x hang wired. klu x, ape mak ckp sikit sume nak majuk... T_T

so our lunch menu yg slalu aku masak ialah kari ikan/ayam, ayam goreng, telur dadar dgn sayur. kari sbb sume pun suka. umm, ayam goreng tuh aku wat mcm mamaknye tuh. yang ada daun kari plus rempah2. abang aku sgt suke. telur dadar, well adik aku yg suke. sayur mmg kena ada dlm menu. tp ada jugak aku wat sup, dgn tom yam. tp x brapa laku la. maybe sbb x berlemak kot? umm, aku suka wat ikan sweet sour dgn tiga rasa. tp paling senang nk masak nasi ayam kan? sekejap jer dah siap. mcm nasi minyak mak aku x bg masak sgt sbb x sehat. daging kat umah ni dah kurang masak sbb abang aku ada darah tinggi, so sume org kena bertukar makan ikan. klu x, dulu menu asyik ayam dgn daging jer.

esok rasanya aku masak ikan tiga rasa kot? sayur td beli kacang panjang. ntahla, kekadang aku termenung gak nak masak ape. mmg xde idea. last2 abg aku ckp masak yg beser2 dahla. ayam goreng dgn sayur jer. dgn kari. tp kang nanti boring pulak. asyik mende yg sama jer.umm, slalu korang masak ape ek? nanti bgla idea. leh tukar2 resepi kn? i think im growing old, da citer pasal masak2 lak. tp masak2 nih la yg paling best kn? dis post is for youla fara, so you know wats my lunch menu. i wonder wats urs? lemme know tau!!!

Kampung Time!!! Seronok Sangat =)

Just got back from kampung. since tuk dgn wan nak mai cni, so we all went back to jitra last friday, after the friday prayer. on saturday it was such a great time. most of my families were at my grandparent's home. i was upstairs helping naim wat keje skolah die and i fell asleep. then mak came holding izni with her. ala sgt comel izni with her ponytail on her hair. so we went down and sembang2 smpila pukul 2. the next day we have to rush home. evntho it is damn tiring, tp mmg best lepak2 dgr cite pakcik&makcik&tuk&wan. lawak diorg kemain lg. siyesly leh putus urat asyik gelak memanjang. there's quite a story, my two cousins (diorg adik-beradik) will be engaged with their partner dis CNY holiday and probs tying da knot on the school holiday. so ofcoz there's a popup question from my mummy. and definitely ive no answer to dat. its not dat we dont wana get married, its just dat the time isnt rite yet. ive been patient for quite a while, so another couple of years wont hurt rite?! but im truly hapy for those whose time is around da corner for the tying mying knots. as for me, il wait. no matter how long, how excruciating bcoz im quite sure and im damn sure he's da one for me. and it is worth waiting for me to finaly be with him.

also, i wud like to welcome my newest cousin Neyli to da family!!! she's born about two weeks and dis little angel is so cute! dan sgt baiknye, senyap jer. asyik wat muka comel jer. dis is da reason why i cannot wait to have my own little ones. my aunty is doin fine, recovering in traditional way which is good bcoz she's seem to be doing great. on the way is mak tam's baby which is due on dis april. lagi i cant wait to see. nampak gaya izni will not gona be the centre of attention any more. but i still like her madly deeply do. sbb bile dgr suara die sgt comel. and evntho this little thg can be so comel, look can be pretty deceiving. sbb kadang2 die ni brutal gak. skali die pukul/ketuk/tampar/tendang/dsb. mau benjol dgn lebam2. smpi kekadang takut nk main dgn die. that is when muka makcik garang kena keluar so dat she wont hit me till i wana cry.

wat else to write. i think dats about it. take care evry1. have a good day and great weekend. till later... p/s: kt bwh ni adala sket gmbr utk korg kenal cousin2 ku yg sgt comel. aku adalah di antara cousin yg 1st generation. diorg nih 3G. rasanya sampai 3G jer kot cousin2 aku nih. 4G zaman anak2 kitorg pulakla instead of our fathers and mothers. happy viewing...

ni gmbr2 kakak; syafika (gmbr 1st) adik; izni dgn abg; danish comot mkn eskem. btw, diorg nih anak2 mak&pak tam. diorg suka ikut memana kitorg nk pegi. ape yg best sgt smpi diorg nk ikut pun aku tatau. walhal adik2 aku yg 2 org tu payah nk ikut klu p memana. time nih tgh aku main trolley dgn diorg sementara tunggu my parent habis shopping. penat woo jaga 3 orang budak yg x mkn saman. tp dis is definitely a great time with them...

ni pulak gmbr the newborn, neyli. tp sian die kena demam kuning pulak. now she's recovering so hopefully she can grow up fast and i can play with her.

yg 1st tuh gmbr mak, yasmin dgn neyli dgn klu korg perasan ada si zulaikha kt blakang sana tuh. zulaikha dgn yasmin tuh kakak neyli, diorg anak2 cik zun. yg tgh gmbr neyli. dan yg last skali tuh gmbr si izni dgn gmbr bear die. die suka sgt klu org amik gmbr die. phone aku pun dah penuh dgn gmbr2 die smpi kena transfer utk amik gmbr die yg lain. nanti lain post aku tulis lagi ek...

Just Some Craps

walla, cuba tgk 2007 nye post. ada 36 post!!! dats a big achievement for this blog. i never thought i wud post dat many entries. how unthinkable thing can go sometime. but honestly evntho there's a big number in quantity, the quality can go down straight to the drain. i knew all the post are craps. non actually contain even the smallest food for the brain. this really make me wana completely remove this blog. but then, where can i put my head, my mind when i eventually need it? then again, isn't this the place to spill everythg? your guts, your thought, your everythg? quality, quantity? wat count da most is dat dis is da place where i wana share my concern to my friends. i love you guys and i want you to know dat ure not alone, we are not alone becoz there's always invinsible shoulders keen to be by ur side no matter when. here's my shoulders, feel free to use it any time you like... teruskan berusaha!!!

Just Some Stuff

Yello, well as the title, dis is my stuff. there's some elaboration bout my stuff on the older post. so this is the post for the pictures (in case some might think i just blabbering my tongue out) got nothg to write actually, guess some pictures wud do da trick. anyway, i wana wish all my happy friend to be happy and stay happy. no matter how cloudy da sky wud be, the sun will finally beam its brightest smile upon us. show me some love peeps, coz we all need the love and im definitely happy to use the love. here goes my stuffy...

Resolution ke Evolution ke Solution ke Pollution =P

Sekarang di kala pukul 2:18 pagi, hari Jumaat dengan angin bertiup sempoi sambil mendengar dan menengok video budak2 AF menyanyi, aku duduk seorang diri di dalam bilikku yang bersepah macam x serupa bilik seorang gadis =p aku sedang menaip kerja sekolah utk kawan mak. um, time2 macam nih terasa mcm tgh wat thesis utk FYP. ahh, how i wish i can relive dat moment again. its not da part of making the thesis dat i missed, its da time im having with my roomies, the care-free feelings for learning only nothing else matters. now all dat past-by, and the connection with my roomies and friends seems to be lost. ye ke? da truth is, i miss lepaking and gossiping till very late with the peeps i trully love to hang with. itu jerla part yg i missed, yg lain2 mcm kena bgn pagi utk pegi kelas, wat assignmnt, final exam, presentation tuh sume mmg simpang empat la xmo dah ulang balik.

Jadi ape kena mengena title post kali ni dgn cite yg nak aku taip nih? hihi, sebenanye x related langsung. saje mau taruk itu title sbb bunyinye sedap. haa, sekarang tgh dgr lagu Teman Tapi Mesra - ni mmg lagu yg sgt ingtkn aku pada Lydia dgn Dibah. sbb kitorg lepak kat umah lydia nak jahit costume utk marching C.O.I.T. aku dgn dibah sgt terlompat2 menggedik abis smpi lydia pun nak halau kitorg balik. seb baik lydia baik kn? so kitorg pun dudukla smpi abis jahit. Esoknye pun kitorg marching dgn penuh patriotik, sehinggala dapat tmpt 1st!!! mmg berbaloi turun training tiap2 petang. lecturer C.O.I.T pun senyum lebar jer tgk budak2 nongoi nih menang. nganga, wat a day... x gitu dibah? kan lydia?

umm, pahal la nostalgia ni mendesak2 nk kuar utk ditaip nih? yup, i think i know why?!! sbb tgh layan jiwa yang lare le nih. aiseh, nih la yg maleh nk layan lagu cinta lembek ni, asyik tangkap syahdu mendayu-dayu jer... so sape2 yg nk layan syahdu syahdan, jgn lupe ajak aku ek. meh kita tangkap lentok sesama - ape kemende aku merepek nih?

oleh sbb pala pun tgh high sbb xleh nk tdo, (kena siapkn keje nih) aku minta maaf atas keterlanjuran kata seperti di atas. sesungguh bile kepala dah weng, cakap pun mereweng jugak. nanti len kali tulis lg ek. btw, ni entry utk fara sbb die tanya pasal update, so aku pun updatela dengan penuh kerapuan nih. harap post nih dapat membuat saudari fara atiqah tersenyum comel di hadapan PC sambil makan asam Mo Far Kor kegemarannya itu. semoga saudari terus senyum dengan penuh cahaya berseri pada masa yang datang. teruskan berusaha!!!

p/s: walaupun dah agak suam, aku nak ucapkan Selamat Tahun Baru 2008, semoga tahun nih lebih berseri dan bermakna dari tahun yang lepas2. teruskan berusaha!!!