Naive ke Klaka? hehe...

dis week budak2 nih pekse. since tekak pun x baik lg, dgn batuknya, dpt jugakla berehat drpd melontarkn suara utk mengaja budak2 nih. anyway sgt klaka tau bile budak2 nih jawab paper 1. byk budak2 yg tanya pasal satu soklan yg aku rasa nk tergelak bile budak2 lelaki pun tanya soklan nih.

soklan mende eh? hehe, ada satu soklan. soklan tu die bg gambarajah. and budak2 kena jawab apakah mende itu. sume budak ckp ni mcm berudu cikgu, tp xde pun jawapan berudu. aku sgt nk tergelak tp maintain jela. aku suh budak2 nih pk sendri. bknnya x penah ajar, dlm latihan pun dah buat. diorg nih je yg x reti2 nk baca kt umah. so today, aku dah dpt surat tawaran utk gstt ni. ble dah setel sume lehla merasa gaji cikgu yg sebenar. orite till later. owh, btw in advance i wud like to wish my mum, fizah and all the teachers, "HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY" where we get a day off from yelling, i mean teaching hehe

A Cross Road, Intersection Or Wat Ever

me again, nak dgr my latest ramblings? meh pasang telinga dan duduk diam2 yea murid2. kang ada yg nk kena rotan kang. yg tiga org kt blakang tuh xleh nk duduk senyap2 ke? awak nk duduk dlm kelas ke nak duduk luar? pilih yg mana awak nak?

hehe, tu dah menjadi mukadimah for my opening speech. asal aku jejak kn kaki dlm kelas, time tula perangai mengada diorg sume keluar. sakit betul, im here as your teacher, not a babysitter. sume mende nk report, die ni kacau saya, die ejek nama bapak saya, die ckp b*b* dkt saya,its like pening pala nk layan sorg2. last2 aku suruh sume duduk bukak buku. sape nk bising get da hell out of my class. lg best diorg kena halau time cikgu disiplin tgh round. hehe, padanla muka. td memekak sgt dlm kelas...

where am i goin wt this ramblings huh? mmg malas nk tulis pasal skolah coz you kno, sgt same' o same' o. balik2 budak yg sama buat hal, jadi dah xde makna nk cite psl diorg nih. buang karan sajelah. tu x cite lg pasal penindasan yg aku sbg org baru kena lalui. heh, penindasan ek? i mean come on la, there's sum stuff dats need to be done altogether. bkn main beban kt sorg je kn. yeah, im not married yet, doesnt have babies, tp dats no xcuse to campak sume on me. anyway, malasla nk cite panjang, wat sakit ati aderla. not to mention if sum1 realy read dis crap blog, x ke naya aku nanti. but whose to say they will? bkn ke kebanyakkn oldies kinda IT blind? heheh....

ape lg yg aku merepek nih? org nk cite pasal mende lain daa... apara, asik membebel psl budak2 nih la pulak. so nk cite mende nih? ape yg cross road sgt nih. well to begin with, boleh x begin dgn aku ckp yg aku asyik kena marah je klu diorg nih offer aku a job? dah couple of time dah kena nih. just now, dis morning sumbody from sumwhere mula2 dgn suara ceria ckp ive got dis (another) gstt offer. alhamdulillah, mmg syukur sgt. klu leh korg recall balik, it was da first intervw for gstt yg aku pegi dulu. sgt x sangka i will make it sbb i really thought i just burn the hall masa intervw. dan die ckp suruh report for duty dis friday which happen to be da speciest day for people like me. tp kn saya dah dapat gstt dkt skolah nih, and dats it intonasi akak tuh lari terus pitching habis. cume yg da best part nk dgr is dat, yg offer ni akn ada kursus n stuff so the potential for me to become a teacher is there. tp do i really wana be a teacher? do i want to work? hehe, no i dont. i like to be SAHW, taking care of my own family, buknnye takin care sum other people kids whose apparently n continuosly to be damn rude to me. baik dok umah jaga, didik n asuh my babies and continusly pray to Allah All Mighty to keep on blessing dis family and to spare and preserve us from any wrongdoings. (jauhkan la kami dari api neraka, mmg x mampu nak tahan seksaan, tp mmg x layak pun ke syurga Mu, sbb perangai x sebaik orang yg sgt baik)

tgk la nih, x abes2 lg nk merapu. jap lg dah nk kena bersiap utk ke skolah. umm, not forgetting dat 2day budak2 nih exam. so xdela sakit sgt tekak aku nk bertekak dgn diorg. i did pray for them to do their best, so tgkla mcm mana result budak2 nih nanti. hrp sgt they wont do dat bad, tp soklan mmg kinda susah. kesian, tp if you did ur home work, you're not being rude to any of your teachers, you studied smart and hard, then im sure success will be yours undoubtly.

kesimpulannya di sini, adakah saya mau accept itu offer. dat kinda of offer only come once in 700++ (ikut kiraan kwn2 ku hari itu) and out of this 700++ only 100 is selected. n im happy to be one of those hundred, i really am. is just dat, sanggup ke my family let me out to the outer limit, er i mean kinda out of town sket tmptnya. will my h2b agree to dis? do i really want dis so bad? do i really a teacher wana be? bcoz once ive made da decision, there's no turning back, only forward. and that isnt the situation i wana be in. thus, lets pray dat i wont make dat huge mistakes as dis concern da people i love. wats more, it involves me. xmo aku pegi tmpt yg i dont know where and scary-mary nih (evntho hari tu i really wana give it all just to be some place far away) i wana be at my home. huhuhuhu.... till here, catch up later. to all, have a very nice day =)

Happy Day Indeed!!!

ofcoz it is a happy day to celebrate our most loveable and important person in our life! who else, our mothers!!! nak cerita pengorbanan, penat lelah, haru biru melayan kerenah anak2 nya mmg x cukup ruang nk cerita. tp here's my special saying, coming rite thru my hart....

emak, saya berterima kasih byk2 sampai hujung nyawa saya sbb melahirkan saya 26 tahun yg lalu. wlupn mak ckp x berapa susah nk lahirkan saya, tp sakit yg mak tanggung itu, saya doakn agar mak ditempatkn di syurga abadi. sepanjang mak menjaga saya, memberi titisan susu yg pertama sehingga ke hari ini, membolehkan saya terus hidup utk menatap wajah mak, melihat setiap pengorbanan mak. segala mcm kerenah saya, yg kadang2 smpi memalukn mak, mak pandang sebelah mata je, mak tetap belai dgn penuh kasih sayang. bukan ke marah tandanya sayang kn? dan wlunpn kadang2 saya agak mengada2 nk termerajuk x tentu pasal, terkecikkan hati mak, mak tetap layan jela anak mak ni. kadang2 mmg rasa takjub sbb kasih sayang mak ni sgt berterusan, sgt above and beyond gitu. mmg xde kasih sayang lain yg dpt menandingi kasih sayang yg mak berikan (selain drpd kasih sayang Allah dan my h2b) jadi apa yg saya nk katakan adalah, wlupn x slalu saya ckp syg pada mak, wlupn saya x slalu peluk cium mak, tp dlm hati ni kasih dan sayang saya pada mak x penah putus. doa saya agar mak dgn abah sentiasa sihat dan dirahmati Allah pun x penah putus. terima kasih mak sbb sayangkn saya tanpa ada sebab, tanpa sebarang syarat dari dulu hingga kini. mmg x daya nak balas segala pengorbanan mak, cuma doa yg x putus2 dan mengharapkn agar Allah menyediakn balasan syurga firdausi buat mak yg tersayang nih...

so there's my hart on my sleeve, especially for mak yg tercinta. also nak wish kn happy belated bday to naim n upcomin bday to abg. smoga kedua2 adik-beradik ku ini sentiasa berjaya dan gembira selalu. dan nk minta semua doakn agar kesihatan abah+naim cepatla baik. dua2 important people in my life telah jatuh sakit. dan sudah seminggu dah abah demam+batuk. kesian sgt tgk abah. jadi minta tolong sumenye doakn abah saya sembuh. dan doakn batuk saya pun sembuh, sbb bile berckp je suara cikgu ni pecah2 dan nk tergelak pun ada bile dgr suara sendri. asal nk menjerit jer suara pecah. jadi kesian budak2 bising yg kt blakang x dpt dgr. so doaknla kesihatan kami sekeluarga baik-baik aje. datsal for today, til next entry ek...

Happy Day!!

so hari ni is a very happy for our dear kak shida, she's married today. when there's wedding, such vibrant atmosphere is everywhere. tp sumhow, mine turn out to be otherwise. nape ek? hmmm, it happen right after we went to buy a gift for our lovely bride. tgh asik melilau2 dlm kedai itu, aku tersepak lantai yg permukaan yg agak x rata. my selipa pun tercabut. aku pun penuh dgn muka sedeh ngadu pada ibu ku. dan aku telah create a little scene dlm kedai itu, di mana sumenye pun nak tgk selipa ku yg dah tercabut. sementara nk ke kedai kasut, aku DIY sket selipa itu supaya aku leh jalan dgn agak senonoh. so aku pun pinjam kaunternye stappler dgn cellotape. nmpk mcm dah steady sket selipa, aku pun round2 la blok kedai itu dgn harapan terjumpa kedai kasut sementara mak settle kn urusan hadiah. end up xde kedai kasut. so kena pegi blok2 kedai yg kt dpn sana nun, jauhla sket. cari punya cari, mmg susah nye nk beli kasut/selipa sbb org malaysia ni sume comey2, jd yg ada setakat saiz 8 je yg paling besar. last2 sambar jerla yg saiz 8 tu, takat muat pun cukupla. burn rm 25 utk selipa yg nak dipki utk sejam dua.

anyway, the reception mmg best sbb lauk die sgt sedap. aku suka sgt satu dish ni, ikan masak sweet sour i guess. dulu masa kenduri kak nini pun i think caterer yg sama kot sbb menu die sama. among the guest, kali ni spotted is pakcik ramli sarip. last kenduri spotted a. samad said dgn farid kamil. tp the special story about these celeb guest is a. samad said, sbb die cerita dgn the host and hostess yg die dtg naik bas smpi cm, then naik teksi smpi ke dewan nih. how cool is dat, datang dgn agak susah payah semata2 nk memenuhi undangan org. dis is the spirit we're talking bout!!! ble teringat je cite nih, rasa malas nk pegi keje pun hilang. i mean, pegi keje pun naik kete, keje pun sekerat hari jer. sumtimes yeah im having bad days with this budak2 yg sgt baik, sumtimes maybe i dnt. tp ini kn part of making living. mmg dah lumrahkn, mane de senang nak senang and obviously bukannya susah nak susah. jadi kesimpulannya, amikla iktibar one of the great people ni, yg mmg sgt humble, down to earth n very polite orangnya, above all he's the shining star in Malaysian sky.

ape lg nak membebel nih ek? hmm speaking of wedding, again nak mention yg my two cousins also getting married this skool holiday. and atteding wedding ofcoz unattended question bout when-am-i-gona-get-married question pop up!!! bertenang makciks sekalian, behold your tongue as you are bout 2 speak. ingtla peribahasa ini, takkan lari gunung dikejar, takkan lari nasik minyak saya nanti. jadi cuba2 la tarik napas smpi semput, insyallah ada rezeki, x lama la tu saya blanja makciks nasik minyak ek. nak amik byk2 pun xpe, nk amik ayam sekor pun xde masalah. nak tapau pun orait, no hal. saya sendri leh cedokkan utk makciks ek. cume skrang yg saya mintak agar makciks bersabar, tenangkn diri dan carila pape lagi cite panas ke gossip cik kiah daripada asyik memikirkan pasal nasik minyak saya ek....

so have i told you bout my wedding dream? pasal fantasia perkahwinan ku yg menjadi idaman para makciks bile tgk muka aku ni? hmmm, i thnk dah penah cite dgn elly, n sum yg penah keje dkt ppwn, n maybe my fellow unitenians. so nk kena repeat balik ke? payah la kot ek? sbb aku pun sudah malas mau taip da... mau prepare mood utk esok ni, nk amik mood, tarik napas dlm2, dan thnk of my happy thought, my happy place. tarik napas, tunggu smpi muka merah, hembus napas. yup, i guess im ready for tomoro. ini saja bebelan utk hari ni, sampai berjumpa lagi =)

Some Where Over The Hill

Yello mello... adeh,tgn nih biasa die. xmo nk taip dah rasanya dalam ini blog. sbbnye knape ek? hmm, sbb malas ahaha!!! boleh diterima pakai x alasan ini? beside dis blog, ive other conventional blog yg klu hilang dan org jupe, mmg mamposla nangis org yg dikutuk itu. ahahah, yeah, me n my big hand. asal ada je yg x puas ati, mula la nak menulis dgn penuh syahdu. lagipun da most ultimate reason why i blog is i like reading others. so xkn la pandai baca org punya jer, kenala give and take kn bak kata elly. so dis is da part i give, xdela byk sgt pun dan xla bagus sgt pun. tp klu dah xmo give dah boleh x?

anyway, mcm da title ckp... some where over the hill is where my new work environment is . so dkt hill mana nih? pandai2 la cari sendri ek murid2, bknnye byk sgt bukit kt gmbk nih. lgpun sume dh besa pjg, takkn la sume kena bersuap lagi betol x murid2 sekalian?

sedar x sedar dah 15 hari dah aku berpijak di bumi yg penuh dgn bloody tears and sweat. penat gak nk bertempur hari2 dgn budak2 separuh akal nih, ahaha i mean pendek akal. kadang2 tu tgn nih rasa ringan je nk lempang muka budak2 yg malu die haram letak kt mana dah. adab pun dah jadi biadap. no wonder teachers can end up in mental institution thanks to these bunch of brats.

1st weeks, was such a torture for me. i really thought i was making a huge mistake by accepting this offer. ofoz with the new environment and people made me nausea all day long. it was like walking with plastered smile on my face and evrythg just waiting to go wrong. mmgla sume cikgu2 yg masuk dlm bilik tu payah nk senyum akibat drpd pertempuran yg dasyat dlm kelas td. x kesahla, aku paham sgt2 dah tu. ada yg friendly, tanya2 itu dan ini, ada yg ingtkn aku nih budak tgh tunggu nk jumpa cikgu, ada yg walk past me w/o anythg, ada yg tanya soklan n remarks yg to me quite annoying n yup im a bit offended by it dan mcm2 lgla konon2 mcm nk break the ice gitu. tp being the outsider and new to this place just made me fall apart within. this smile soon appear to be vanish.

so there i sat praying for miracle to happen. as i prayed hard, my prayers seems to be answered by the next week.

the next week, the first good news is aku dapat mengajar sesi petang. indeed im thrill to be in the afternoon session. another next happy news is that im teaching form 1. also a good news sbb budak2 ni xdela sekureng mcm f2 or other form. the best news of all is dat ive a new friend, a teacher happen to be posting right here when i needed sum1 my age, sum1 i cud really talk to.

so now dat i have a good friend, come wat may aku leh blasah jerla. xdela rasa mcm outsiders sgt. n soklan2 yg agak ntah hape2 tu pun aku jawab jerla dgn muka yg agak manis. n perangai budak2 yg ntah hape3333333 itu pun biasanya kitorg kongsi bersama. ahaha, ingt korang je ke boleh ngumpat cikgu ha? tp, the teachers "talk" pasal korang in a good way aper. so no hard feelingla ek klu dlm bilik itu hanya kedengaran nama budak yg sama jer.

since im kinda used to this school, aku pun sgtla suka hati nk buat keje. rasa ringan sket beban yg dipikul wlupn kekadang terasa bestnye klu melepak di rumah daripada dtg skolah. tp itula, demi sesuap nasi goreng ladna, ku gagahi jua melangkah.

ni jerla kot bebelan daripada seorg cikgu. sok adala pulak mesyuarat guru. the next day ada taklimat PEKA. its been busy, tiring, sakit hati, sakit jiwa, sakit mata, sakit telinga, sakit tekak, sume sakitla menjadi seorang guru. tugas mendidik mmg bukan mudah. i salute and tabik spring buat semua guru yg betul2 melaksanakn tugas mendidik dgn excellent. sesungguhnya bukan mudah utk mendidik seseorang utk menjadi orang. buat cikgu setakat tunggu gaji tiap2 bulan tu bknnye x bagus, cume diorg dh x larat nk mengadap budak2 nongoi ni dah. tp xpela, aku paham sgt dah perasaan cikgu2 nih. orait, itu sahaja, till next class er, entry... hehe
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