Expecting =)

i have been meaning to write sooner about this little lil one in my tummy. but i guess, time waits for no one. i always find it difficult for me to sit down and type something. i rather spend my time on game and more game before si kecil pull my hand and demand to play with him. but now, i think it's time for me to write about our little lil one, or i shall call him/her lilo for now =)

it begin with, hmm... let see. for the 1st month, i missed my period. but hp discard it as it's my hormones imbalance and because i am sick at that time. (my period will skip if i had a bad cold or sick) so this month it skip, the next month it will come. so i took hp's words because at that time i don't feel nauseous or any symptoms of pregnancy. then i waited for the next cycle to come...

later came next month. again, no sign of the cycle cycling around. hp still didn't take my words, saying that we're possibly are pregnant. he still insisted to wait for the next cycle to come. I'm like, ok I'll wait. but one day, while we went for grocery shopping, i sneak off to a drug store and buy the stick.

after we reached home, i couldn't wait to get tested, but before that i told hp that i bought the test kit, and i want to use it now. hp just nodded, and said nothing more. so with trembling hands (i don't know why i am so nervous), i did the test,waited for the stick to be absorbed, and i could see two lines are formed. i'm speechless and scared at the same time. cried is a must and hp couldn't believe what he's hearing, that we are expecting!!!

we set up an appoinment with dr. fazlina and she still remembered us. she said that it's a good planning to have a 2nd child now, asked the LMP, and did the scan. but she said that the baby was small from the given LMP date. so she said i probably mistaken the LMP date and wrote down the date according to the lilo's size and wrote two EDD. i am all worried at that time, thinking that probably it's because i'm fasting and didn't eat proper food (we went for the checkup during fasting month) but she said 'baby x puasa, so it's ok for mummy puasa, xde pape, teruskan berpuasa'

we were given folic acid but didn't get the pink/red card yet. i guess our pregnancy didn't reach three months yet at the time and was set up with the next appoinment.

our other check up went smooth, lilo is progressing well in my tummy, in spite being roll over and jumped and bumped by abglong. takut jugak sebenarnya, tp x sakit sgt so i just avoid zairil went he wanted to jump on my tummy.

so this is the introduction of our lilo. i prayed that everything will be fine and i do hope our pregnancy goes well all the way. thank you Allah for this blessing, for giving us one more miracle of love =)

Break Down

it was such a lovely evening today, so i decided to throw out the piling garbage and move the car from parking under the tree. later on, i said 'why not we take the car for a spin?' so we did, both of us; zairil and i went round the carrefour and then turn to the playground.

by then, i saw black clouds coming towards us. it was so dark, but i said 'alang2 dh smpi cni, mehla kita main jap' so zairil pun main2 slide, lari2 sket, climb da stairs, then it started to rain. more like a shower. so i jst let him have some more slides.

out of a sudden, it rained heavily that we have to rush to the car. at a glimpse, i saw double rainbows at da horizon, i don't know why, but it gave me a shiver. the rain became heavier.

zairil protest at the back of the car, still wanting to play at the park. i tried to comfort him, but he kept on crying. so i let him be. i insert the car key and tried to reignite the engine. nothing happened. i tried to change the gear, nothing happened.. i started to:

• panic
• freak out
• cried hysterically
• scream
• take a deep breath and cried some more
• thinking that this is some kind of a bad dream and tried to wake up from it (stupid thinking, great ain!!!)

i did all the above. at the same time, i checked the phone and the battery was dead, great!!! thank god there's a charger inside the car. i waited for the phone to charge, then i don't know whom to call. hp is thousand miles away, and zairil kept crying and crying ='(

the solution i could think of is:

• left the car at the park
• call a mechanic (but i don't have any number, it's always been hp who dealt with them)
• asked for someone to help
• walk home in the heavy rain with si kecil (since i don't have any money with me to take a cab)
• pray to Allah, please please please help me ya Allah

later, i switched da phone, tried to call hp but to no avail. i sms him and told him our situation hoping that he could help from far. then i cried some more ='( at dat moment, i felt so angry at myself and  regretted, why am i in dis situation? kan bagus duduk diam2 dkt rumah je, xdela pape terjadi. but instead, i went out. good job ain!

zairil is still crying out of frustration, and i cried with him. gosh, i am shakey all over and i have a baby to calm. i gave him a tight hug, and he stop crying for a while, but later vomited over me. as long as he stop crying, muntah pun muntahlah.

suddenly, my phone rang, and thank god, hp called. i cried while talking, then hp calmed me, asked me what happened. so i told him, there's this emergency light coming out which i didn't switch it on, then the gear won't budge, and i couldn't start the car.

the 1st problem is, it is concerning the alarm. so hp told me the step to switch off the alarm (a bit complicated step,so i won't elaborate, only will remembered it by heart) i did exactly what hp told me to do and now the emergency lights are off. and the engine can be reignite. later, the gear wont budge a bit. so hp told me to move the car back and forth so the gear can be at the right place. i did that, in spite of the car is so heavy and i felt powerless against it.

alhamdulillah, the gear is in place and the engine is running. and zairil is now calmed. no words can describe how grateful i am to Allah, sending me help even from far. thank you Allah, You've always been there for me when i need You the most. and thank you hunny for your hunch (came back to the hotel to check on the phone and saw my distress message)

overall, it did gave me a shock and i am traumatized from this experience. i know that this may be nothing to many of you, but to me it is such an ordeal. first, i seldom drive the car, so i don't know much about the car. later, i never face this kind of situation in my life, (i never face car break down on my own before) yes it became a shock to me. next, hp is away from me, so i don't know what to do, as i rely on him 1000%.  then i have a toddler with me which make it impossible to calm him and work out the problem at the same time. finally, pregnant woman can't think straight! well, this is my own excuse, so yes not all pregnant woman can't think straight right? scrap that, i can't think straight when i am in trouble, so that my final excuse =)

what an evening, despite of what had happened, i will still drive the car and try to master it. hopefully the car will be at his best behaviour when i'm the one whose driving it. so escape, be nice to me all the time ok?

Happy Birthday To Me =)

me with the cake =D

Pichas

saya suka makan roti dgn air milo

sambil vacuum, sambil menyiasat apa sebenarnya yg berlaku =)

mari membaca pula

sesi mencuba selipar, harap2 muat =)

saya suka main bola, hari2 saya main bola

@ 1 Year & 8 Months

• dah pandai minum straw! lambatkn zairil terer minum straw. dari bulan lps lg dah boleh minum pki straw, sekarang dah expert, xdela tersedak2.
• suka cbeebies, smpi boleh tergelak2 tgk. x paham apa yg kelaka sgt, tp kelaka sgt tgk zairil ketawa.
• suka main jengga, tp suka taburkan sahaja. lps tu baling2, gigit2.
• suka cokolat. suka air ribena.
• suka main dkt playground. suka tgk dia main slides.
• one thg about him, if he didn't get what he wants, he will show his frustration right there. but when he gets it, only for a lil while, he will walk away with a smile on his face.
• semua benda nak buat sendiri, especially time makan. bukan semua pun masuk dlm mulut, byk tertumpah. satu hal nk kemaskan balik.
• suka datang lps lari2 lps tu hug kaki hp or mine. rasa sgt priceless. comelnya.
• suka sgt sblm buat sesuatu utk zairil, suruh dia sayang muah, zairil akan sayang muah dgn bunyi muahhh. comel jer...

dah besarkan si kecil comel ni. you are soon to be abglong sayang. still ibu sayang zairil ok hunny =)

~~ Happy 1 Year & 8 Months ~~

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