Monday, March 24, 2008

Sumthin Sumthin

Last friday again ada interview utk gstt. tp yg bestnye gstt kali ni utk daerah gombak, instead of yg SABK ari tu sbb xtau kat mana die akn anta klu dapat. again, dis time around also i didnt put any hope utk berjaya dapat. sbb utama pegi pun just to plz my parent. at least they can see dat i try to seek for job.

anyway, aku ke PPD after i drop mum to skool. sbb smlmnya pun dah survey kt mana tmpt tu, skjp jela aku smpi. tp lps smpi aku x terus masuk, sbb clear folder aku sgt bersepah n aku pki tudung pun senget benget n i need to do sum touch on my face. klu x, nmpk sgt muke sememeh mcm xnk kena intervw. nk dkt kol 8, barula aku masuk. bile je masuk, makcik2 n pakcik2 ni sgt ramahla pulak. siap bitau kena amik nombor, isi borang bla bla bla. aku mmg pagi2 je moody habis. malas nk layan org klu boleh. n aku senyum n ckp pun mmg stock x ikhlas langsung. tp they still treat me good and with gratitude i thank you.

lps da amik borang aku pun cari2 mana nk duduk smbil isi-isi borang itu. sbbkn mmg dah rmi org yg sampai, ofcoz good seats has been taken. thus kenala duduk dgn dis girl yg sgt concentrate n focus reading her notes. so aku just excuse myslf to the seat n isila borang itu. then here's the good part, sedang aku asyik menulis came this one familiar girl. n yup, she's a friend from zaman matrix dulu. how awkward moment it was sbb aku x ingt nama die. die pun mcm ingt2 lupa but she still remember my name n there stupid me ckp mmg confident habis yg aku mmg ingt sgtla die nih. walhal dlm pala, asyik dok recall, is she from my high skool, boardin skool or matrix? uniten mmg xla kn sbb the memory still fresh to me. aku pun mula borak dgn gesture yg mmg mcm bff tp still tgh pk n puzzled. mmg sgt berlakon time tu. tp my attitude and conversation toward her mmg bukan dibuat2. i love all my friends, and to be with them is a blessing. cume sumtime memory lost is unevitable kn? aku pun dah tua, sgt tidak boleh keep the long term memories forever.

the next step yg aku wat, since aku x sure and to avoid from embarrassing myslf, aku pun dgn segannya minta nk tgkkn folder yg ada photocopied all our certs. barula aku tau and beranila nk borak2 atau tanya2 pasal budak2 lain yg aku ingt. dan kitorg pun borakla like we used to. baru aku ingt yg aku suka melepak kt bilik diorg nih sbb arfah suka watkn teh blueberry ble aku menyebok kt bilik diorg. and her mamma carey biscuits mmg sgt sedap, itu yg aku suka sgt datang bilik diorg nih.

sangat sorry yea ana, sbb aku bukannya lupa tp wat to do, memory lost+dah tua. nk wat cemana kn. tp it was worth 1 hour spent kt tmpt itu. talking to her bring back yesteryears memories yg dah agak kabur dalam pala nih. it always a joy when we can meet those from the past. aren't we lucky to have friends? and indeed friends are the footprints that we leave behind and carry forward. bkn nk ckp yg kwn2 nih tapak kaki, tp you'll get wat i mean rite?

basically, i think i flunk again sbb ada satu soklan yg x dpt jawab n dis one interviewer sgt keen to ask bout me teaching math. walhal, ajar math skali jer, sejarah 2 kali, so you do da mathla. she still keep on and on asking bout my math experience n since nowadays math is teached in english so i end up speaking with her in english. tp with this other guy kena ckp melayu sbb die tanya dlm bm. sgtla pening pala aku nk jwb kt dua2 org nih sbb at a time both ask me different questions/comments at the same time. aku just play along and kena control my blood pressure so dat i can keep maintaining my blood from going upstairs.

this weekend is a very painful days for me due to my lowerback pain aka saket pinggang. sakitnya ya rabbi, hanya org yg penah saket jer yg tau. yang x penah tau, sila diam when i tend to be over exaggerate here and there. dis is the first strike since last year. and to think of it, it happen da same time around last year. adakah penyakit ini berkala? umm, sgt naughty pinggang ku ini. saja nk make me bermanja2 dgn makla ni ek? nganga, yup, when my back hurts, dis is the time i can be excuse from doin chores. but i did it anyway, in a very s-l-o-w m-o-t-i-on like sloth gitu. klu nk swept da kitchen area slalunya dlm 3 menet dh siap, it took me tripple time to do so. sgt menyampah pulak tgk me bein like dis. i dislike overly attention and kasih sayang, yet i sumtime seek for it without me actually realise it. so is dis pain only come when i want those attention, or am i an attention seeker?

dah 2 malam mak buatkn tungku utk aku. mak panaskan tungku dan balut dgn daun jarak. mak kata daun ni baik utk bengkak. and it work like wonder. terima kasih mak, sayang mak. um, my pain is decreasing n im no longer bergerak mcm siput. altho my movement still mcm org yg dlm pantang, i hope by next week im all better sbb ive missed one date already. i wana meet my h2b. n it really break my heart when ive to tell him dat we shud cancel our date. n die sgt comel sbb die mmg comel. i mean, he understd n pray dat il get better n say all da nice thg to say to a baby like i am. mmg sgt mengada betul, n at a time i wonder how can he stand me? how can he still be wt me yg sgt mengada n sgt mencari perhatian nih? im blessed for having sum1 who cn accept me as i am, no matter how cranky or moody i am, yup he's rite there. i can't thank him enough for being sweet like sugar as always.

look at the time, its been so late already. and look at this post, so long already. i shud say i must stop dis instance. better luck for the nxt entry aite? take care and be happy.

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