LIFE

Hp and I suddenly made plan to watch movie yesterday after my appointment... So I browse the website and told hp the selection when hp shows interest in this movie. It was a great movie and we both enjoyed it, we even waited till the very end of the credits.

The ending is a bit unexpected, though we should have guess it. Anyway, it's not the movie that I want to highlight, it's the time we spend together that really made my day yesterday despite of the earlier event that had happened. 

Hopefully everything goes well and the result will tell us what is really going on. So next month, the result will be out and yeah... hope everything goes well...

Ninja Cookie

The other night, Zarif and me watched Ben And Holly when this advertisement pop-up. Well, I thought this didn't interest Zarif, so I just skip the ads. Then of course Zarif cried a bucket asking for this video, so I asked him which one (I didn't pay attention to it, as I thought this is one of the grown-up commercial; non-kids related) He said "Video yang ninja cookie tu, nak watch video ninja cookie tadi" I'm like... hoih which one lah ni dik?!!! so I started to search any ninja cookie ads but to no luck, and Zarif kept crying for it.

Later, we found out that this is the one Zarif is looking for. Exactly what I'm going through and I can totally relate myself to this video; the frustration, the build-up anger, the amount of patience needed when my kids threw tantrums; it is exhausting. I felt all the energy for that day perished as the tantrum finally gave in.

There are days I felt like, I just wanted to bury myself underneath the comforter and lock myself in from facing my kids. I just can't take anymore fights, arguments, this and that from Zairil and Zarif, including thinking of sending them to Timbuktu boarding school (Parent Trap much?!!). Then again, they are growing up; this is part and parcel from them growing up. So patience and more patience I must! haish...if only patience can be bought, so that I could stuff it in my mouth when needed (10 kilos of those please!!!)

So for now, if Zarif want the ninja cookie video, this video it is... (hmmm... mamee monster biskidz, macam mana boleh jadi ninja cookie ni dik?!!)

FLY

Their current over and over bed time stories, one of them is The Three Little Pigs. Zarif didn't know how to read yet, but he did memorized most of the parts in the book.  

So Zairil love to build houses from the blocks, and one day I heard him talking to Zarif, '"When I build a house, I don't want to make a chimney because that way the wolf will come in" Then I told him "In Malaysia, we don't need chimney, it's hot here." I think that is what the chimneys are for, right? To make the house warm and fuzzy like that?

Anyway... they love me reading stories for them before sleep. Although there are time I didn't read them, due to misbehaving... I must say I do look forward to read to them too. So most of the night, Zairil and Zarif will pick a book and usually the same book, they lay down comfortably on the bed and I will read to them. 

Zairil is seven now, I wonder how long will he want to listen to the stories? To eagerly asked for me to read to him? To lay by my side and listen to all of my words? I MUST READ TO THEM EVEN THOUGH I DON'T FEEL LIKE IT... so that I won't miss this moment when they are away from me one day... when they can live their own life... when ibu is no longer needed for most of the things... when they finally ready to leave the nest... when they are ready to FLY...

p/s: Zairil is getting better now, alhamdulillah... no more waterfall vomits, but the spots are still there. so get better Zairil. Zarif is chirpy as ever, tho there are times when naughtiness seems to be his shadow... be good adik, ibu's eyes are always on YOU!!!

Fight This

So yesterday, we went to Klinik 1 Malaysia to check on Zairil and Zarif as well. The doctor there is very nice and I love her. She explained in details and in no rush although the clinic is about to be close. She's worried on Zairil condition and said he needed to do the blood test. She gave us the referral letter and said to do it at the hospital or KK.

Later, after we reached home, hp said to go to Klinik Idzham to do the test. So off they went ( I didn't go, only hp and the kids) When they come back, I was so disoriented (I fell asleep huhu) and saw Zairil is already looking better, alhamdulillah...

This morning, only did I know that upon reaching home, Zairil didn't take any medicine but recovering on his own. His body eventually fought off his fever, alhamdulillah. I can't express how relieve I am, how grateful I am... seeing Zairil throw up everything till he had nothing inside but his gut juice, how fragile he was, how miserable he was, but he complained nothing... Just grateful... just alhamdulillah, just syukur more than ever...

Well, he's not out of the wood yet, still the spots are coming out and of course he's itchy.Get well soon Zairil and Zarif too... we can fight this...

Waterfall

Zairil kept vomiting like waterfall after the sport day. He even vomit during his game so he had to sit out the soccer and the run. Yesterday, saw some spots on his armpit... thus he had the chicken pox as well. This is the most heart breaking moment, seeing him puking his guts out and couldn't eat/drink anything. What ever come in, will come out in split second. Praying for zairil to get better, please be better zairil. you can fight this okay, ibu love you...

On the other note, it's zarif birthday today and he's expecting cake right away. hmmm, we get cake later okay baby (i love calling him baby,he's the baby for now) So happy birthday adik, you are officially five now, although like usual he wanted to be seven, because along is seven (he wanted to be the same as along)

Haishhh... bila anak tak sehat, semua pun macam dull, tak berseri tak berwarna. Hopefully everyone will get better... semoga semuanya dilindungi dalam rahmat Allah selalu, aaamiinnn...

Jinxed Me

This morning, everyone woke up late except hp... he went out to sidai kain and came back to see all of us still asleep. So rush the kids to get ready and we are late to school. Last night, zairil keep waking up in the middle of the night; coughing and throwing up phlegm. Of course this morning both of them don't want to get up and go to school. Sorry kids, hope you're doing okay at school...

Speaking of that... zarif lately didn't want to go to school. He said he missed us so much at school and that's about it. Before this, when we went to fetch him from school, he cried his lungs out because he still don't want to go back home. Pening ini macam...

This morning, at the doorway, he hugged me and said he wanted to stay with grandma. The car engine was running, so while I go to turn off the engine, zarif followed me without his shoes on and he got in the car, refusing to leave. Tough cookie this one... All in all, I carried him all the way, up the stairs till the front of the school. Salam and hugs and kisses, then I made my way out. Still feel bad about this, but he needs to be in school, unless if he's sick, but he's not... so have to go right?

Hmmm... hope adik can cope with school. Learning is tough, so hang in there adik... nanti ibu buy you ice-cream okay.have fun at school...

Silent Tears

So yesterday zarif's first day after being absent for a week from school. He seems okay, reported a few bit of other friends mischievous doing to him. Well, kids will be kids right... just let him know that he must be good no matter what others did to you, and always go to the teachers for anything....

And today... when I went up to pay the fees, after sending zarif to his class... he came to me at the office and started to cry silent tears... Hadoilah adik... haishhh... susah hati ibu macam ni adik...hmmm...

Kiss him a lil bit here and there... and promise him the things he wanted (cheap toys that easily break is the things that I don't approve buying) then, decided to bring zarif along to pay for zairil school fees. Zarif still crying and not wanting to go to school, it's a hard decision to make since his reason is that he misses us so much... also yesterday he slept late and had to wake up early this morning, hence the big fat tears...

After getting the receipt done, still zarif didn't want to go to school; also this is the first time zarif having this episode (the teachers mention this as well; "zarif tak macam ni selalunya, first time zarif nangis2 ni"). So I let him know that he will be going home early today and didn't have to stay at the daycare. So he's okay with it and now he's at school.

Phew... that's a long story today... and I really look forward for the weekend. Ibu miss you too adik, till then have fun at school