Medical Medic

Sape suka tgk house? i sure does!!! recently finished watchin house season 3 and now moving to season 4. other medical series dat i like watching is scrubs. scrubs is one of a kind, much different from any other doctors wana be series. i like scrubs for all the comical stunts, but house is more toward the attitude. i used to love watching e.r, but too much drama. the only thing i like to watch grey's anatomy is because of izzie, i dont know her cast's name in grey's because she isn't playin the main role. i like izzie because of this episode in roswell, where she doesn't give a damn dat no one is by her side durin her weddin. she is so stunning and she's drop dead gorgeous no matter wat her hair color is. knocked out is one of the movies she acted and she's the lead. why am i talking about izzie? the fact is she look honest and sincere in evry role she played. and i like watching her evntho she appeared not more than ten minutes per episode. seein her act really make the show worth watchin.

other thg why i mention about these medical tv series is dat, i love watching doctors in action. i just love seein them sayin all those never heard medical terms before. it is because in this way i cud learn new symptoms and understand wat the doctors are trying to say evrytime i pay them a visit. futhermore i can speak to my sister about medic things and i cud understand wat she's learning and how difficult it is to become a doctor. wats more important is dat i always felt grateful and thankful for the health dat Allah had blesse for my family and me. so be grateful and thankful eventho you think you don't have to...

Stare Back At Me

I just finished staring at my phone, asking myself why bother buyin expensive phone when the only thing i can do with it is staring my eyes out!!! hmm, i wonder what is hp doin now? it's 1.17 am so i know he's asleep. but ive been trying to call him or waiting for him to call, but till now jillo. i understand he's been busy with his work, with his going-away-trip-for-training-far-far-away, but i'm curious about his well-bein. whether he's okay now, had he packed already, have he eaten, the usual stuff dat evry gurlfren/wife/mother worries about. but i guess he's fine. he's always more than fine. it seems dat i'm da baby who doesn't know evrythg whenever i'm with him. but i wana hear his voice 24-7, is dat too much to ask? not much rite =)

hmm, so i guess dis is it. please excuse me, i want to continue staring at my phone again. nite evryone, sweetdreams..

Me and My Big Mouth

This is the biggest reason why i should just stich my mouth shut!!! the reason, when evrytime i said sumthg dat i dont wana do, tend to be dat sumthg is have to do by me. or evn the slightest comment about sumthg, dat sumthg will back fire to me...

for example, umm i did said how much i loathe going to work recently... then walla, i'm going to work this monday... so i will be going to work again, but i'm sure someone will be mad at me for going to work. it's a huge dilemma, i'm in between two chaos decision maker, one side want me not to work, the other side you know what the other side want me to do; to go to work... so as i'm still living under this one side roof, i should do exactly what they want me to do... turn out, this monday i'm going to work. but now, how da heck i'm gona break this news to this one side. i hope this side will understand and give the blessing...

not gonna talk about the work, it's just sumthg to be put in my resume later. i just went to the office, and the boss briefly talk about the work. so we'll see how it goes. i do hope evrythg and every side will be fine and pray for my safety. so enough jumblin, let's talk bout sumthg else...

i just past across dis magnificant gate during my way to the office. the house located at some where Bukit Antara Bangsa. so you may guess whose house is that. i like the gate, it's so unique and the house looking pretty damn awsome. again, enough about the house, i'm sure the house owners can brag about their house themselves. i should not intervene their bragness.

another stories about my big mouth, i never once should comment about anythg or anyone because i will get the consequnces right away. for another example, i should never ever have a slightest thought about others problems. such as their injuries, their condition, or anythg about other people because eventually it will happen to me. i used to slightly say in my heart when i looked at someone and there's a breakout on their faces; next day, boom happen to me. i used to slightly say in my heart this person have eye bag, now i'm having them. and now i have evry skin problem dat evryone had. the strange thing is, i'm the only person in the family whose been having endless skin problems. while none of my family member having any problem. their faces are soft and smooth and i really envy them. but what can i say, me and my big mouth.

so from now on, whenever i have the thought, i just let it go and think of sumthg else. i dont give any damn about others problem any more, i know they can solve it themselves without me thinking about it too much. but now, i'm having a big problem on how to break this working news to my someone nih. i don't know, just do it i guess. wish me luck people...

Spread The Word

Uniten, full of ups and downs memories... do i wana relive and cherish the moments? um, maybe yes or maybe not. tp thanks to Uniten, this is the platform where i met an incredibly wonderful person. if isn't for Uniten, i'm sure our path will never cross and i'm not where i am today. so there's a lot to thank Uniten for, i'm sure we all are, aren't we Unitenians? for those whose excited to come back home, here's your big day!!! but for me, enough with your stories and pictures. let me know all the details...

Concentrate and Focus

Your IQ score is 122 - Your Intellectual Type is Inspired Inventor. This means you've got exceptional verbal and mathematical skills, and are very good at brainstorming new ideas.

My 1st time seriously do the IQ test. da last time main hentam sbb byk sgt kena pk, so i get around 60 sumthg i guess. after telling this to hp, he said that i never take anythg seriously in my life. asyik nak main2 jer, dats why i get ridicious score. he said dat he knows i'm much better thatn that IF i concentrate AND i focus on wat i'm doing. so i did the quiz again and not bad right? not the nerd type just the biasa-biasa people. so the big lesson for today is never give up and do your best =) ...umm, tp test ni pun bukannya boleh pki pun, just for fun rite? gotcha ...

Dream Land

I have dreams and so does evryone else kn... but when i was a little girl, i like to dream a lot. and i make dreaming as my favourite past time. so in my dream, i create and imagine how i am gonna live my life. some are fulfilled, some may not yet be fulfill. but so far, like i always say and believe, i had evrythg dat i ever wished for.

from my dream and the way i lead my life, there's not much of a different. i dream of being known (not well-known, not famous but just known) in high school. and i guess i did become noticed and known by the warden and some of the teachers. maybe i wished it da wrong way, i mean i should wished to be known for the good thg instead of the other way around. but wat happen stayed dat way rite?! then when i enter my higher education, i dream dat i will stay with my housemates in a double storey house with a nice front yard. i will be going to school driving a car. but eventually i didn't stay at my dream house with my constant changing housemates. so dats a big frustation. to look at the bright side, i did get the chance to drive to school. so its a blessing for me. later in my dream, i dream of having babies and taking care of them and having a wonderful husband. so far, i did get a wonderful husband to be but no babies yet. but funny because i didnt dream of living in a nice front yard double storey house with my husband and babies this time. da only matters is to have babies and a husband. so where are gonna live exactly? umm, dats shud be thought in my dream now.

moving on to my dream, again i never dream of working. i never ever dream of wearing a working suit and eventually go to work. why i never dream of dat before? is dat why i find it so hard to actually apply for work? i would rather stay at home and be the houselady (a housewife soon to be i hope) than to be up in the morning facing the workload. so here i am at my home living my dream in my dream land. really, never cross my mind when i was little to dream about me working. the only dream dat i remember, i will prepare breakfast for my hubby, kiss good bye to him, do da laundry, watch my garden, go shopping with my retired mum, do facial, do my hair, you know all the housewife stuff da housewife does. am i a brat because of not wanting to work? i really think working isnt just fit for me. i just wana be home and taking care of my family. i wana always be there for evry functions, evry events dat happen in their lives. i dont wana left out or missed any moment at all. dis is wat i dream of when i was a little girl, and from the way i see it, now my dream are becoming a reality. and it's great, yay!!!

wat a fantasy, dats wat goes in my head when my brain started to create all this fantasy, this dream. up till now, i love to dream. some might say wats da use of dreaming, just go out and live your life da way it is. but the really funny thing is, some of my dream happen da way i dream of it to happen. so instead of me planning my brain out, my dream let me live my life. so far, my dream never failed me and i wana be in my dream land, where evrythg is like candy, so sweet and full of pixies dust. da only thg i wished for now is dat i wish i could include evryone to be a part of this dream land. but does evryone want to be in my dream land? did they have their own dream land? did they believe in their dream land? do you? i believe you do... so lets build our dream land together and live life the dreamy way...

p/s: wat you read probably wont make any sense, but to find the sense you must use your sixth sense, and your common sense will rule out the nonsense afterall

Holiday Come Again

Just read a few blogs and thank god finally there's update. i was wonderin am i da only freak who enjoys blogging other than no one else... but wat can i say, i know you girls been busy with work and all, and dat makes me da only person whose living my life to the fullest =)

so by saying living my life to the fullest, i wana write my recent holiday trip... it all started last saturday. first stop we wnt to Kuala Kangsar, Perak where there's a function that my dad had to attend. so the rest of us jalan-jalan around Arena Square. for Zohor & Asar prayer, we went to the Kuala Kangsar mosque and the structure gave me an awestruck wonder. im sure for those who have been to the mosque will share the same opinion kan? later in the evening, we went to Bukit Merah for an overnight stay and for the next day we have to be at UUM for the next function. At UUM, the function was alrite. nothg much to be seen or heard. but i did the medical check provided by the sponsor. i realise the nurses doesn't calculate my BMI correctly but dat doesnt matter becoz i know how to measure it myself (my height isn't 1.57m) but im concern about my blood pressure and alhamdulillah it turn out normal 120/80. dats a relief considering my eldest brother had a high blood pressure 157/90 da last time he went for a check up. other check up was cholesterol level. the assistant draw some blood and i mistakenly gave my right arm instead of the left and as the result, my arm ache all day. (sometime i sob in silent, i cudnt stand da pain) next agenda we went back to kampung!!!

we stayed at tuk dgn wan's house till tuesday bcoz on tuesday we were about to head to Langkawi. so at Langkawi, we stayed at Aseania which is great becoz we've got 3 rooms. the place is awsome... this is da first time i stayed at Aseania, but my family have been here before. so i am da only one yg excited. to do comparison, i know Langkawi Lagoon has better rooms, service and beautiful seashore. but at Aseania, this is the tourist spot, because of the many bars and pub. so you don't really feel isolated and you can go to the shop or the beautiful beach by foot. also, the Underwater World is not that far away. we stayed at Langkawi for 3 days and i bought chocolates for my hp. i love the packaging and the beautiful boxes. so im sure dat he's gonna love it. speaking about my hp, i promised him 4 boxes of chocolate chips and he's so upset when this issue is raise over the phone. okay, i am intending to keep my promise and i promise that tha chocolate chip will be done by the time you come back here yea =)

i had a great time at Aseania, but my heartbeat stop for almost 4 seconds when i saw Naim almost drowned at the pool. mind you, over the 2 slides; never use the right side of the pool bcoz it is dangerously deep (2m) unless ure a good swimmer dat is. i was watching him from the side of the pool when i saw him panicked after reaching the end of the slide. thankfully he knows how to swim or else i have to rescue him myself. later i jumped in the pool and stand guard by him and makes him stay closed to me. i dont want another adrenaline rush over my body bcoz later i felt aches all over my body. all and all, he is safe and sound and we did have awesome time at Langkawi.

on thursday, right after we reached kampung, we went to rumah Pak Ndak bcoz his family was having kenduri. since the kenduri is almost over, there's not much to be done. only a few dishes to wash and later i swept the floor. on friday, i went over next door with mak teh. there's another kenduri will be held on saturday, kenduri kawin. at first, i helped out in the kitchen but then again there's not much to be done, so i went upstairs to help decorating the bride & groom room. i helped with setting the curtains and the veil. when i was a kid, i always fantasized to help decorating the bilik pengantin. but now dat i can, i didnt feel that excited at all. probably because of decorating some one else's room instead of mine. later that night, i helped mak teh with the bunga telur. it was yellow and i loved the way all the bunga telur set nicely at the pahar. saturday came and people enjoyed themselves at the kenduri. the food was good and everythg is perfect. i got the chance to see the bride and i prayed that i wont look dat way on my wedding. is not she's not beautiful or anything, but the way she portrayed herself; she doesnt look friendly at all. maybe she's nervous or something. i dont know, but really i did prayed hard not to be seen dat way ever...

on sunday, it's time to say goodbye to all. i have a great time with syafika and izni, my little cousins. they followed me evrywhere and that time i felt like im having my own kids. dat was tough. when i was taking care of naim, whenever i dont feel like taking care of him, there's always mak around. she will nourish him while i am having me time. but now i learn dat, having my own babies, dat mean they gonna stuck at/by me 24-7. imagine dat, no more video games, no more surfing internet, no more late night movies, no more me my own evrythg because evrythg in my life need to be change. im not the focal point any more once they are around and that freaks me out big time!!! but then some one told me, babies bring you happiness and you don't want to be out of their sight ever... i hope what that some one say is right eventually... when saying goodbye, it was heartbreaking seeing kakak's face. i like to stay with her all the time, but we need to know our place. then again, we have plenty of time to meet and have fun right. till the time come, we just have to play it right.

here come monday, and i am still feeling blues of all dat happen. still need a reality check for the house chores. tomorrow i will be up on my two feet again doin the same routine as before. but today, let me have some peace in me yea. afterall, last night, i did iron a full load. so today, let me gear up for tomorrow's duty kan... to all my dearest peeps, keep on living to the fullest, not half empty, not half full but the fullest and beyond =)

Lunch Menu

Baru lepas settle masak tghari and although some are quite skeptical nak try mkn td but in the end everybody love it. so wat is it dat ive cooked? well, to be honest i dont know it myself. main blasah jer td. now im writing it down so the next time i wont forget how to cook it. its very simple sbb kite blasah jer and it doesnt require a lot of your time to do it.

pertama sekali tumis bawang besar, nxt masukkan daging/ayam. nxt masukkan air n cabai melaka, nxt tepung jagung, nxt kicap tiram, nxt minyak bijan, nxt lada putih n hitam, nxt chicken stock a bit, nxt garam n seasonin, nxt tomato, carrot and kacang buncis and kobis n finally masukkan mee. tada, dah siap...

see, x byk kerenahkn? the amount nk masukkan bape byk it's up to you sbb nie resepi sesedap rasa, sesuka hati. the taste is quite sumthg, so do try out dis recipe =)

My 25th Anniversary

On the journey to celebrate my quarter of century of living, mind me to remind myself to always appreciate the love ones, the family, the health, the happiness, the gifts, the everything around me that i usually takes for granted. it's been a rough journey yet there's so many wonderful and joyous things keep on happening in my life. i truly cherish all these flavour, colourful and spices that blended in perfectly to make this journey so tasteful. I'm still looking for more adventures to come though and hopefully my journey so far will be my guidance toward the next few chapters of my wild path... well, Happy Birthday =)

My Properties... Show Off =P ...

Kali ni kinda bragging post if you would like to think of it as dat way... but to me, dis post really mean a big thing because of my own reasons and u wont find my reasons dats gona make any reasons at all, well what da heck la kn... i'll keep on reasoning anyway... so wats da big of a deal about my sort of bragging nih... let's hear it shall we =)

umm, so far in my live ive been in observing mode... only to see people around me using all those gadget and of course instead of observe, i would very much like to have my own gadgets... so from time to time, da waiting has been anticipating... and today my day seems to be a full glass... worth drinking it all, how i am truly blessed... thank you Allah for all these fine things i had with me... good health, happy family, someone i can truly cherish, my dearest friend and now my coolest stuff dat i had with me now...

for as long as i've remember, dari kecik dulu well, most of my stuff is second handed... of course there's a strong sense of dissatisfaction... i dont mind actually because i know it would be heart breaking for my parent if i didnt appreaciate the stuffs. so yg best bangat is my brother la, being the eldest, always get the new one. tp he deserve it sbb die pandai. so getting flying color result meaning getting a new bike, then i can have his old bike. but dats great with me janji ada beskal. new or not doesn't matter, janji leh ronda-ronda pun dah cukup. kira i'm very easy to please little girl, x byk cekadak. tp to get new toys doesn't required good grade cuma kena work really hard time hari raya. why? the more collected money, the best toys we can get. so lps raya, mak dgn abah akn bawak kitorg shopping mainan!!!

x abis2 lg flashback ke nih? okayla, we'll be moving to recent days... so nak cptkn sket story ni sbb masa kecik2 dulu x best sgt. asyik tgk orang lain jer berlagak. tau jerla budak2 kecik2 sumenye nk berlagak. kitorang pun ada jugak mende nk berlagak dgn budak2 taman tu, tp sbb mak x bg nk berlagak2, so kitorg maintain low profile jerla. for example, masa aku umur 6 tahun kitorg baru balik dari jepun. gadget kat sana pun mmg canggih dah masa tuh. kitorg ada bwk balik first game console dari jepun. masa tu rasanya kat malaysia xde lg kot, klu adapun mahal . tp i enjoy watching my brother playing it instead of playing it myself. rasa seronok betul tgk die main mario bros. especially bile die dpt selamatkn princess tu. anyway, kitorg masih x berlagak eventho we should sbb ada budak umah ujung tuh asyik berlagak 24-7. sume brg yg ada kt umah die nak berlagak kan. for example again, sbb umah die lot tepi, umah die ada mcm padang kecik kt tepi tu and dats a heaven place utk budak2 nak main2 and also because rumah2 yang lain xde padang tu. so budak2 lain telan air liur jerla. tp tu sbb budak2 lain malas nk main dgn die, at the end die kena telan ludah die sendri. wat an idiot!!! enough bad mouth la weh... bulan pose nih x baik ngumpat byk2 sgt...

up till high school pun sedeh jugak... dis is da most challenging time sbb dis is da time whether ure a cool or a looser... and dat time im a looser... total looser la masa form one... coz i dont have anyone for advise, masih terbawa2 lg attitude budak sekolah rendah. da dressing, da talking, da stuffs... masa form one mmg looser habis. then moving on form 2 kire dah upgrade sket. dah jadi pengawas and dapat lompat straight first class. no matter wat people say pun dah x kira dah... u can talk to the hand jerla, sbb telinga malas nak dengar...

form 3 is da best time of my life sbb dapat turun kelas, da 2 class which is such a relief to me because i cant standla duduk kelas budak2 pandai nih... everyone keep on expecting da best from u, klu dapat markah rendah mmg asyik kena target jer, dpt markah tinggi pun mcm xde hal sbb sume pun dapat markah tinggi. not forgetting the competition is very high. and i dont wana keep up with them sbb aku bukannya jenis yg rajin study. nak bukak buku pun malas... form 3 knape yea best? sbb budak yg best ada dlm kelas tuh... sume jenis happy je memanjang, tu yg best sangat tuh... xdela rasa stress out sgt blaja. and cikgu2 pandang serong jer kt kitorg sume. dats another good reason sbb bile time result pmr kluar, baru bijik mata diorang yg terkeluar... mana2 cikgu yang mulut dier mcm mulut tempayan pun leh tertutup jer tak percaya, sbb budak yg die dok mengata niela antara 2 org i repeat 2 orang jer yg dapat straight A's dalam kelas tuh... nganganga, dis really is the greatest and sweetest revenge ever!!!

form 4 & 5, well nothg to talk about sbb dah masuk asrama... duduk pulak kt terengganu... lainla pulak expectation diorg toward orang2 kl or orang2 luar nih... sgt x aci tol sbb aku org gombak and gombak mane de kl... tp berlagak jerla mcm orang kl wlupn xla kl mana pun. berlagak mcm beser2 jerla dgn 3 segerombolan kawan2 ku itu... umm, masa akhir form 4 aku dptla pki handphone yg just nice bentuk die. xla gabang n stylo jugak. im one of the two girls pki handphone time tu... the boys rasanya ada kot pki tp x amek port pun... handphone ni yg x x bestnya x dpt call out, so kena call mak guna public (yang kena beratur panjang tuh) then barula mak akn call balik... tp janji handphone kan, dah xyahla beratur pjg utk guna public...

masa kt matrix, well the stuff yg best dapat masa result spm keluar. abah bagi sony discman which is sgt mahal regenya time tu... tpkn, bukannya x syukur, but i want a walkman sbb nak beli cd sgt mahalla. beli tape murah sket. and senang nk bawak time naik beskal. ooo, dkt matrix pun im one of 7-8 girls yg bwk beskal... hehe, bike rider... brutal like hell masa tu... sbb dak pompuan yg bwk beskal sket jer time tu and im riding so not like a girl. siap lps2 tangan tuh time corner tajam. n masa petang2 p kt blakang, ada satu bukit mmg tinggi nk mautla (ada tangki air kt situ) kitorg mainla beskal. best woo, turun dari bukit tuh mmg laju giler... seronok sgt feeling at the top of the world la time tuh... wat a time of my life la kiranya...

dkt uniten lak... xdela best sgt pun... beser2 jerla... first year lps dapat scholar from jpa terus beli pc yg power and dpt phone first generation nokia... then ada mini fridge yg aku letak dlm bilik which make my room macam 5 star hotel... then bawak tv, sumer barang2 klu boleh nk sumbat dkt asrama tuh... dats y im so malas nk kluar bilik sbb sume nye pun ada... tp bile dah boring2 tuh bawakla turun basketball men kt blakang...umm, masa 3rd yearla baru dapat bawak kete... thanks to mak sbb kesian tgk anak dier asyik letih gle lps balik skolah... klu abis klas awal jer kena tunggu lama gle sbb abah amik lps office hour. keadaan lagila parah klu abah ada meeting... disebabkn kasih sayang yg sgt menebal pada anaknya, mak pun belila kelisa SE kaler silver-black yg sgt comel itu. senangla anaknya utk ke sana ke mari x henti2 utk amik adik2nya pulang dari sekolah, pegi kedai beli brg... pegi klas, balik kelas... seronokla dpt bawak kelisa tu smpi skrang (in spite of a few accident that occured)... sayang kelisa, ure my best buddy ever... utk final year mak belikn laptop utk buat final year project sbb my pc masa tu asyik meragam jer kejenye...

umm, so lps abis uniten ada la keje kejap kat sana n sini... because of these jobs, ive got the chance to own my most favourite gadget in the world. to some, wat i own xdela best mana pun kn... but to me, i love ever single thing and cherrish them all. dats y im so upset klu my stuffs hilang, stolen or misplaced it... but im really proud of my gadget because ive put my sweat and tears to get it all... mmgla mak ada bantu, tp its my own effort dat makes it all so special. i mean, mana best klu dpt free2 jer kan, u must proove urself dat u deserve to have it all... barula rasa best x ingt!!! to my recent collection of gadget, i just bought myself handphone Nokia - N76 (taula korang punya phone lg canggih), a Sony digital camera (DSC-S650,xla mahal sgt), a PSP yg sgt suka sbb dapat main Locco Rocco and lastly my own laptop, Acer Aspire 4710... itu sahajala yg saya ada wat masa ini... ofcourse i wana have my own bungalows and hot rides... tp skrang all dat i want is to get marry and have babies... i think for now my gadget pun dah complete and im happy at where i am rite now... no more stuff to dream for... so wats your stuff? wats ur dream gadget? keep chasing your dreams till you can taste it with your own hands...