Dream Land

I have dreams and so does evryone else kn... but when i was a little girl, i like to dream a lot. and i make dreaming as my favourite past time. so in my dream, i create and imagine how i am gonna live my life. some are fulfilled, some may not yet be fulfill. but so far, like i always say and believe, i had evrythg dat i ever wished for.

from my dream and the way i lead my life, there's not much of a different. i dream of being known (not well-known, not famous but just known) in high school. and i guess i did become noticed and known by the warden and some of the teachers. maybe i wished it da wrong way, i mean i should wished to be known for the good thg instead of the other way around. but wat happen stayed dat way rite?! then when i enter my higher education, i dream dat i will stay with my housemates in a double storey house with a nice front yard. i will be going to school driving a car. but eventually i didn't stay at my dream house with my constant changing housemates. so dats a big frustation. to look at the bright side, i did get the chance to drive to school. so its a blessing for me. later in my dream, i dream of having babies and taking care of them and having a wonderful husband. so far, i did get a wonderful husband to be but no babies yet. but funny because i didnt dream of living in a nice front yard double storey house with my husband and babies this time. da only matters is to have babies and a husband. so where are gonna live exactly? umm, dats shud be thought in my dream now.

moving on to my dream, again i never dream of working. i never ever dream of wearing a working suit and eventually go to work. why i never dream of dat before? is dat why i find it so hard to actually apply for work? i would rather stay at home and be the houselady (a housewife soon to be i hope) than to be up in the morning facing the workload. so here i am at my home living my dream in my dream land. really, never cross my mind when i was little to dream about me working. the only dream dat i remember, i will prepare breakfast for my hubby, kiss good bye to him, do da laundry, watch my garden, go shopping with my retired mum, do facial, do my hair, you know all the housewife stuff da housewife does. am i a brat because of not wanting to work? i really think working isnt just fit for me. i just wana be home and taking care of my family. i wana always be there for evry functions, evry events dat happen in their lives. i dont wana left out or missed any moment at all. dis is wat i dream of when i was a little girl, and from the way i see it, now my dream are becoming a reality. and it's great, yay!!!

wat a fantasy, dats wat goes in my head when my brain started to create all this fantasy, this dream. up till now, i love to dream. some might say wats da use of dreaming, just go out and live your life da way it is. but the really funny thing is, some of my dream happen da way i dream of it to happen. so instead of me planning my brain out, my dream let me live my life. so far, my dream never failed me and i wana be in my dream land, where evrythg is like candy, so sweet and full of pixies dust. da only thg i wished for now is dat i wish i could include evryone to be a part of this dream land. but does evryone want to be in my dream land? did they have their own dream land? did they believe in their dream land? do you? i believe you do... so lets build our dream land together and live life the dreamy way...

p/s: wat you read probably wont make any sense, but to find the sense you must use your sixth sense, and your common sense will rule out the nonsense afterall

Holiday Come Again

Just read a few blogs and thank god finally there's update. i was wonderin am i da only freak who enjoys blogging other than no one else... but wat can i say, i know you girls been busy with work and all, and dat makes me da only person whose living my life to the fullest =)

so by saying living my life to the fullest, i wana write my recent holiday trip... it all started last saturday. first stop we wnt to Kuala Kangsar, Perak where there's a function that my dad had to attend. so the rest of us jalan-jalan around Arena Square. for Zohor & Asar prayer, we went to the Kuala Kangsar mosque and the structure gave me an awestruck wonder. im sure for those who have been to the mosque will share the same opinion kan? later in the evening, we went to Bukit Merah for an overnight stay and for the next day we have to be at UUM for the next function. At UUM, the function was alrite. nothg much to be seen or heard. but i did the medical check provided by the sponsor. i realise the nurses doesn't calculate my BMI correctly but dat doesnt matter becoz i know how to measure it myself (my height isn't 1.57m) but im concern about my blood pressure and alhamdulillah it turn out normal 120/80. dats a relief considering my eldest brother had a high blood pressure 157/90 da last time he went for a check up. other check up was cholesterol level. the assistant draw some blood and i mistakenly gave my right arm instead of the left and as the result, my arm ache all day. (sometime i sob in silent, i cudnt stand da pain) next agenda we went back to kampung!!!

we stayed at tuk dgn wan's house till tuesday bcoz on tuesday we were about to head to Langkawi. so at Langkawi, we stayed at Aseania which is great becoz we've got 3 rooms. the place is awsome... this is da first time i stayed at Aseania, but my family have been here before. so i am da only one yg excited. to do comparison, i know Langkawi Lagoon has better rooms, service and beautiful seashore. but at Aseania, this is the tourist spot, because of the many bars and pub. so you don't really feel isolated and you can go to the shop or the beautiful beach by foot. also, the Underwater World is not that far away. we stayed at Langkawi for 3 days and i bought chocolates for my hp. i love the packaging and the beautiful boxes. so im sure dat he's gonna love it. speaking about my hp, i promised him 4 boxes of chocolate chips and he's so upset when this issue is raise over the phone. okay, i am intending to keep my promise and i promise that tha chocolate chip will be done by the time you come back here yea =)

i had a great time at Aseania, but my heartbeat stop for almost 4 seconds when i saw Naim almost drowned at the pool. mind you, over the 2 slides; never use the right side of the pool bcoz it is dangerously deep (2m) unless ure a good swimmer dat is. i was watching him from the side of the pool when i saw him panicked after reaching the end of the slide. thankfully he knows how to swim or else i have to rescue him myself. later i jumped in the pool and stand guard by him and makes him stay closed to me. i dont want another adrenaline rush over my body bcoz later i felt aches all over my body. all and all, he is safe and sound and we did have awesome time at Langkawi.

on thursday, right after we reached kampung, we went to rumah Pak Ndak bcoz his family was having kenduri. since the kenduri is almost over, there's not much to be done. only a few dishes to wash and later i swept the floor. on friday, i went over next door with mak teh. there's another kenduri will be held on saturday, kenduri kawin. at first, i helped out in the kitchen but then again there's not much to be done, so i went upstairs to help decorating the bride & groom room. i helped with setting the curtains and the veil. when i was a kid, i always fantasized to help decorating the bilik pengantin. but now dat i can, i didnt feel that excited at all. probably because of decorating some one else's room instead of mine. later that night, i helped mak teh with the bunga telur. it was yellow and i loved the way all the bunga telur set nicely at the pahar. saturday came and people enjoyed themselves at the kenduri. the food was good and everythg is perfect. i got the chance to see the bride and i prayed that i wont look dat way on my wedding. is not she's not beautiful or anything, but the way she portrayed herself; she doesnt look friendly at all. maybe she's nervous or something. i dont know, but really i did prayed hard not to be seen dat way ever...

on sunday, it's time to say goodbye to all. i have a great time with syafika and izni, my little cousins. they followed me evrywhere and that time i felt like im having my own kids. dat was tough. when i was taking care of naim, whenever i dont feel like taking care of him, there's always mak around. she will nourish him while i am having me time. but now i learn dat, having my own babies, dat mean they gonna stuck at/by me 24-7. imagine dat, no more video games, no more surfing internet, no more late night movies, no more me my own evrythg because evrythg in my life need to be change. im not the focal point any more once they are around and that freaks me out big time!!! but then some one told me, babies bring you happiness and you don't want to be out of their sight ever... i hope what that some one say is right eventually... when saying goodbye, it was heartbreaking seeing kakak's face. i like to stay with her all the time, but we need to know our place. then again, we have plenty of time to meet and have fun right. till the time come, we just have to play it right.

here come monday, and i am still feeling blues of all dat happen. still need a reality check for the house chores. tomorrow i will be up on my two feet again doin the same routine as before. but today, let me have some peace in me yea. afterall, last night, i did iron a full load. so today, let me gear up for tomorrow's duty kan... to all my dearest peeps, keep on living to the fullest, not half empty, not half full but the fullest and beyond =)

Lunch Menu

Baru lepas settle masak tghari and although some are quite skeptical nak try mkn td but in the end everybody love it. so wat is it dat ive cooked? well, to be honest i dont know it myself. main blasah jer td. now im writing it down so the next time i wont forget how to cook it. its very simple sbb kite blasah jer and it doesnt require a lot of your time to do it.

pertama sekali tumis bawang besar, nxt masukkan daging/ayam. nxt masukkan air n cabai melaka, nxt tepung jagung, nxt kicap tiram, nxt minyak bijan, nxt lada putih n hitam, nxt chicken stock a bit, nxt garam n seasonin, nxt tomato, carrot and kacang buncis and kobis n finally masukkan mee. tada, dah siap...

see, x byk kerenahkn? the amount nk masukkan bape byk it's up to you sbb nie resepi sesedap rasa, sesuka hati. the taste is quite sumthg, so do try out dis recipe =)

My 25th Anniversary

On the journey to celebrate my quarter of century of living, mind me to remind myself to always appreciate the love ones, the family, the health, the happiness, the gifts, the everything around me that i usually takes for granted. it's been a rough journey yet there's so many wonderful and joyous things keep on happening in my life. i truly cherish all these flavour, colourful and spices that blended in perfectly to make this journey so tasteful. I'm still looking for more adventures to come though and hopefully my journey so far will be my guidance toward the next few chapters of my wild path... well, Happy Birthday =)

My Properties... Show Off =P ...

Kali ni kinda bragging post if you would like to think of it as dat way... but to me, dis post really mean a big thing because of my own reasons and u wont find my reasons dats gona make any reasons at all, well what da heck la kn... i'll keep on reasoning anyway... so wats da big of a deal about my sort of bragging nih... let's hear it shall we =)

umm, so far in my live ive been in observing mode... only to see people around me using all those gadget and of course instead of observe, i would very much like to have my own gadgets... so from time to time, da waiting has been anticipating... and today my day seems to be a full glass... worth drinking it all, how i am truly blessed... thank you Allah for all these fine things i had with me... good health, happy family, someone i can truly cherish, my dearest friend and now my coolest stuff dat i had with me now...

for as long as i've remember, dari kecik dulu well, most of my stuff is second handed... of course there's a strong sense of dissatisfaction... i dont mind actually because i know it would be heart breaking for my parent if i didnt appreaciate the stuffs. so yg best bangat is my brother la, being the eldest, always get the new one. tp he deserve it sbb die pandai. so getting flying color result meaning getting a new bike, then i can have his old bike. but dats great with me janji ada beskal. new or not doesn't matter, janji leh ronda-ronda pun dah cukup. kira i'm very easy to please little girl, x byk cekadak. tp to get new toys doesn't required good grade cuma kena work really hard time hari raya. why? the more collected money, the best toys we can get. so lps raya, mak dgn abah akn bawak kitorg shopping mainan!!!

x abis2 lg flashback ke nih? okayla, we'll be moving to recent days... so nak cptkn sket story ni sbb masa kecik2 dulu x best sgt. asyik tgk orang lain jer berlagak. tau jerla budak2 kecik2 sumenye nk berlagak. kitorang pun ada jugak mende nk berlagak dgn budak2 taman tu, tp sbb mak x bg nk berlagak2, so kitorg maintain low profile jerla. for example, masa aku umur 6 tahun kitorg baru balik dari jepun. gadget kat sana pun mmg canggih dah masa tuh. kitorg ada bwk balik first game console dari jepun. masa tu rasanya kat malaysia xde lg kot, klu adapun mahal . tp i enjoy watching my brother playing it instead of playing it myself. rasa seronok betul tgk die main mario bros. especially bile die dpt selamatkn princess tu. anyway, kitorg masih x berlagak eventho we should sbb ada budak umah ujung tuh asyik berlagak 24-7. sume brg yg ada kt umah die nak berlagak kan. for example again, sbb umah die lot tepi, umah die ada mcm padang kecik kt tepi tu and dats a heaven place utk budak2 nak main2 and also because rumah2 yang lain xde padang tu. so budak2 lain telan air liur jerla. tp tu sbb budak2 lain malas nk main dgn die, at the end die kena telan ludah die sendri. wat an idiot!!! enough bad mouth la weh... bulan pose nih x baik ngumpat byk2 sgt...

up till high school pun sedeh jugak... dis is da most challenging time sbb dis is da time whether ure a cool or a looser... and dat time im a looser... total looser la masa form one... coz i dont have anyone for advise, masih terbawa2 lg attitude budak sekolah rendah. da dressing, da talking, da stuffs... masa form one mmg looser habis. then moving on form 2 kire dah upgrade sket. dah jadi pengawas and dapat lompat straight first class. no matter wat people say pun dah x kira dah... u can talk to the hand jerla, sbb telinga malas nak dengar...

form 3 is da best time of my life sbb dapat turun kelas, da 2 class which is such a relief to me because i cant standla duduk kelas budak2 pandai nih... everyone keep on expecting da best from u, klu dapat markah rendah mmg asyik kena target jer, dpt markah tinggi pun mcm xde hal sbb sume pun dapat markah tinggi. not forgetting the competition is very high. and i dont wana keep up with them sbb aku bukannya jenis yg rajin study. nak bukak buku pun malas... form 3 knape yea best? sbb budak yg best ada dlm kelas tuh... sume jenis happy je memanjang, tu yg best sangat tuh... xdela rasa stress out sgt blaja. and cikgu2 pandang serong jer kt kitorg sume. dats another good reason sbb bile time result pmr kluar, baru bijik mata diorang yg terkeluar... mana2 cikgu yang mulut dier mcm mulut tempayan pun leh tertutup jer tak percaya, sbb budak yg die dok mengata niela antara 2 org i repeat 2 orang jer yg dapat straight A's dalam kelas tuh... nganganga, dis really is the greatest and sweetest revenge ever!!!

form 4 & 5, well nothg to talk about sbb dah masuk asrama... duduk pulak kt terengganu... lainla pulak expectation diorg toward orang2 kl or orang2 luar nih... sgt x aci tol sbb aku org gombak and gombak mane de kl... tp berlagak jerla mcm orang kl wlupn xla kl mana pun. berlagak mcm beser2 jerla dgn 3 segerombolan kawan2 ku itu... umm, masa akhir form 4 aku dptla pki handphone yg just nice bentuk die. xla gabang n stylo jugak. im one of the two girls pki handphone time tu... the boys rasanya ada kot pki tp x amek port pun... handphone ni yg x x bestnya x dpt call out, so kena call mak guna public (yang kena beratur panjang tuh) then barula mak akn call balik... tp janji handphone kan, dah xyahla beratur pjg utk guna public...

masa kt matrix, well the stuff yg best dapat masa result spm keluar. abah bagi sony discman which is sgt mahal regenya time tu... tpkn, bukannya x syukur, but i want a walkman sbb nak beli cd sgt mahalla. beli tape murah sket. and senang nk bawak time naik beskal. ooo, dkt matrix pun im one of 7-8 girls yg bwk beskal... hehe, bike rider... brutal like hell masa tu... sbb dak pompuan yg bwk beskal sket jer time tu and im riding so not like a girl. siap lps2 tangan tuh time corner tajam. n masa petang2 p kt blakang, ada satu bukit mmg tinggi nk mautla (ada tangki air kt situ) kitorg mainla beskal. best woo, turun dari bukit tuh mmg laju giler... seronok sgt feeling at the top of the world la time tuh... wat a time of my life la kiranya...

dkt uniten lak... xdela best sgt pun... beser2 jerla... first year lps dapat scholar from jpa terus beli pc yg power and dpt phone first generation nokia... then ada mini fridge yg aku letak dlm bilik which make my room macam 5 star hotel... then bawak tv, sumer barang2 klu boleh nk sumbat dkt asrama tuh... dats y im so malas nk kluar bilik sbb sume nye pun ada... tp bile dah boring2 tuh bawakla turun basketball men kt blakang...umm, masa 3rd yearla baru dapat bawak kete... thanks to mak sbb kesian tgk anak dier asyik letih gle lps balik skolah... klu abis klas awal jer kena tunggu lama gle sbb abah amik lps office hour. keadaan lagila parah klu abah ada meeting... disebabkn kasih sayang yg sgt menebal pada anaknya, mak pun belila kelisa SE kaler silver-black yg sgt comel itu. senangla anaknya utk ke sana ke mari x henti2 utk amik adik2nya pulang dari sekolah, pegi kedai beli brg... pegi klas, balik kelas... seronokla dpt bawak kelisa tu smpi skrang (in spite of a few accident that occured)... sayang kelisa, ure my best buddy ever... utk final year mak belikn laptop utk buat final year project sbb my pc masa tu asyik meragam jer kejenye...

umm, so lps abis uniten ada la keje kejap kat sana n sini... because of these jobs, ive got the chance to own my most favourite gadget in the world. to some, wat i own xdela best mana pun kn... but to me, i love ever single thing and cherrish them all. dats y im so upset klu my stuffs hilang, stolen or misplaced it... but im really proud of my gadget because ive put my sweat and tears to get it all... mmgla mak ada bantu, tp its my own effort dat makes it all so special. i mean, mana best klu dpt free2 jer kan, u must proove urself dat u deserve to have it all... barula rasa best x ingt!!! to my recent collection of gadget, i just bought myself handphone Nokia - N76 (taula korang punya phone lg canggih), a Sony digital camera (DSC-S650,xla mahal sgt), a PSP yg sgt suka sbb dapat main Locco Rocco and lastly my own laptop, Acer Aspire 4710... itu sahajala yg saya ada wat masa ini... ofcourse i wana have my own bungalows and hot rides... tp skrang all dat i want is to get marry and have babies... i think for now my gadget pun dah complete and im happy at where i am rite now... no more stuff to dream for... so wats your stuff? wats ur dream gadget? keep chasing your dreams till you can taste it with your own hands...

When Makciks Gone Mad

Baru jer lps tgk 4 blogs, sumenye xde cite baru. akunye pun xde cite baru... sume yg dah suam. so kali nih cite gakla pasal Hari Wanita yg aku p dgn family 25 Ogos yg lps. dah mmg suam sgt cite nih pun, so malasla nk tulis dgn excited. tp yg nk jadikn sbb utk diceritakan ni pasal "When Makciks Gone Mad" sbb according to my observations, women tend to be stupid or perangai serupa beruk mak yeh is when men isnt around. so adala makcik2 yg serupa tak berupa orang berperangai mcm i dunno, really malas nk mencarut2 dalam blog nih. i felt ashamed and embarassed by looking at them. betul2 ruined my first concert, yup my ever first live concert i've ever been to. tp it was a fun day for my family. even ma' pun seems to enjoy herself inspite the makcik incident. i mean, taula excited dapat jupe M. Nasir, Anuar Zain and all the other artists tp ni smpi terkinja2 dgn diorg siap peluk cium artis2 itu, i really mean get a grip la makcik2 oii. ingt sikit tuhan klu x ingt laki dgn anak2 dkt rumah tu. dahla tinggalkn tangunggjawab hari tu just to "celebrate" hari wanita, ni dah smpi buat dosa pulak. really, hilang mood and respect utk makcik2 yang dah separuh abad hidup nih. ingtkan lagi tua, lagi senonoh tp i guess dis is da price for living in the new millenium... dah hilang sifat malu, dah hilang maruah diri... but i really just dont get it...

so overall da day was okayla... lps abis round2 dkt Bukit Jalil tuh, p dkt Tugu Negara... believe it or not, adik2 saya x penah pi tempat2 historical lg. diorg lg suka lepak dkt rumah rather than jalan2 berpeleseran tak tentu arah. dats why ma' pun x pening pala sbb anak2nya x suka keluar rumah sgt. Tugu Negara hari tuh ramai orang, sbb masa tu pun dah nak Hari Merdeka, byk family yg bwk anak diorg. budak2 kecik2 tuh sume excited tgk tugu smbil buat tabik spring. dis is it for this entry, but im wondering bile alergic elly to the techno nak abis... really miss her story...

In The State Of Horror

Hari khamis lepas kitorang p Sunway Lagoon, tp dis is the second time around pi situ. first time around, sume org pi except my eldest brother sbb dier ada kenduri. tp masa first time tu, aku dgn naim jer yg main air. mak dgn abah sume pi naik rides. tp kak lin, adik dgn bb jer yg naik roller coster tu. mak dgn abah naik ferris wheel. main air dgn naim best jugakla, seronok jer teman dier. tp kesian, dier nak naik yg water slide tu, tp unfortunantely aku xleh nk naik sbb x pki seluar pendek or tights. dier sgt kecewa, tp we have fun jugakla despite dier x dpt naik slides tuh. memula mmgla nk p main rides kt atas sana lps mandi, tp sbb nak balik awal, aku cuma men air jerla. tp sbb boleh dtg lg, tu yang x berapa terkilan x dpt main sume.

So dis time around rmila relatives aku pun turut serta. yg pi sunway lagoon kali ni family aku, family pak tam & mak tam dgn family ngah. diorg sume ni turun dari kedah and johor sbb minggu lepaskn cuti sekolah. so amik kesempatan nila nk berjalan-jalan kt kl nih. so the total number yg pi 23 orang;15 dewasa and 8 budak kici. budak2 kecik tu pun pki tag orang dewasa jugakla, belasah jerla, janji leh masuk.

first stop, we hit da water. masa tu men air dkt bwh, kat situ x rmi org sgt berbanding yg kt atas sana tu. so mainla ada satu slide ni. nmpk mcm x takut, tp bile dah nk smpi bwh tu kecut perut gakla. tp dah dua tiga kali naik, rasa mcm xde hal la. so dah boring men slide, sbb orang dah makin rmi kerumun, aku ajakla mak tam naik atas. masa nih, family aku dgn family mak tam & pak tam aku jer yg dah sampai. family ngah tak smpi lg sbb diorg sesat. mandi kt atas tu bestla jugak sbb ada kolam utk budak2 dgn ada kolam yg berombak. ala, korang pun mesti tau keadaan sunway lagoon mcm mana, so malasla nk cite panjang2. so pak tam kena jaga beg, while aku, mak tam, tiga anak die dgn naim p main air kt atas. budak2 ni mula2 seronok gak main air, tp asik menggigil jer. hari tu ujan, sejuk bukan main. sian diorg kesejukkan. tp sbb izni, anak mak tam yg paling kecik tu menangis kitorg pun turunla dkt port kitorg. masa turun tu barula jupe family ngah. so borak2 jap then aku ajak kak chik uda pi main rides kat atas sana sbb ari tu aku x dpt men.

masa tgh nk jalan ke atas, aku pun kering2 kn la baju, takut x dpt naik rides tu sbb baju basah. rupanya x pun. ada beberapa orang balut pki towel jer, sbb dieorg pki swimming suit or bikini. so aku pun men jerla dgn hati gumbira. tp x gumbira mana pun sbb kecut perut memanjang. first ride aku p naik pirate ship. aku ingtkn ni pirate ship yang ayun2 biasa tu. aku dah ada second thought sebelum naik, tp dierorg asyik suruh cepat naik sbb mende ni nak jalan dah. aku tanyala orang yg jaga mende ni takut x. dier ckp mana ada takut, cptla naik. so aku pun blasah jerla naik. then first swing tu, aku mcm beser jerla. then dah third swing tu dah lain mcm jer. rupanya pirate ship ni ayun 360 degree. aku pun dah tahap menyesal perahu xleh undur dah masa tu, nyesal x sudah. patutnya tgkla dulu seblum naik, ni main redah jer. aku punyala menjerit smpi x kluar suara, orang yg jaga kat bwh tuh gelakkn jer. x takut pala lutut dier. aku lak slalu terbukak mata wrong timing, masa tgh tergantung tula baru nk bukak mata, lagila jantung nk tercabut. tp in the end, i got down with one piece jugak. pala lutut, check tak tercabut pun, jantung check takde heart attack pun, peparu check tak semput pun, pala otak check x sakit mental pun. so it was quite an experiencela and it wasnt that fun afterall.

next stop kak chik nk men tomahawk. kesian dier, aku kali ni surrender. die naik sorang. aku masih in the state of horror, so aku give in jer. aku pun pi la tgk dari pagar looser. masih aku xleh bayangkn klu aku naik mende. sure pisang berbuah dua kali, asyik nyesal x sudah jer masa tgh naik. tgk kak chik mcm ok jer, so kitorang pun sambungla men sume rides except roller coster dgn naik jambatan tu sbb ari ujan and diorang tutup rides tuh. overall rides dier boleh tahan.

smpi ari nih pun aku boleh recall ketakutan aku naik mende tu. rupanya doing without knowing resulting a not very bad experience. hehe, bolehla ckp byk skrang sbb dah naik kn, masa tgh naik tuh maki hamun kat sume orang. tp yg x brape best trip kali ni kak lin xde, sbb dier dah balik gadja duduk. abg dgn bb pun x ikut, even abah pun x dtg sbb keje. aku pun memula jual mahal tp sbb mak ajak jugak so pi ikut jugakla. ape lg mau cite, tara papa pun. next postla pulak cite, next time nk cite pasal Hari Wanita...

Running Scared

Umm... i'm scared to even open my blog because writing at my own mind might get me into trouble, is it? to think some one could go to prison just by stating their mind into words, this is scary for some one like me, who just babble without thinking much... so there's a saying in elly blog goes like this...

"Watch your thoughts, they become words. Watch your words, they become actions. Watch your actions, they become habits. Watch your habits, they become character. Watch your character, they become destiny. Source: Back of book cover of Pearls of Wisdom 3"

scared or not, whenever i wanna write, i just type right on... is not like everybody in the world gonna read it, as if many will accidentally open this blog... for sure, all my best buddies are the only people who "enjoy" my writing... but really, thanks gurls for reading my mind and i hope you all with post latest news that happen around. till here, got some work and some reading to do... cheerio my fella fwen

Lifted Up

What to tell for this post yea? umm, first n foremost, my feeling kinda down for the last few weeks... due to i dunno, lack of everything? but today, im in a good shape, good mood so i wana write a little sumthingla. umm, i heard a very happy news and im verryyy happy about it. congrats elly, i hope evrythg will be fine and im hoping to attend the baby shower and meet the sweetest newborn one day. babies do bring unexplainable warm and comfy feelings. seronok dapat pegang babies, they are so joyous and make me smile constantly. to which recently i got to hold one, namanya mohd. afiq danial. afiq ni baby kak ani, bos dkt tmpt keje lama. tp seronok dpt tgk afiq and dpt pegang die. i do wish for another adik at that moment, but i dont think my parent will have another one. well, then i have to wait for my own then =)

apa lagi mau cite, ohohoh... silly me and you know what? my cimbclick account got suspended several weeks ago. its because i kept on entering the wrong userid and the p/w... till the account finally got suspend. but now i got to unsuspend my suspend cimbclick account, horray!!! thanks to the customer care (which is hard to get through) my account is back to business!!! phew... that's about it, dah tara papa mau tulis, signing off...

Same 'O Same 'O

Allo, aiyo... lamanye x tulis pape kt sini. eventho there's a lot of things happening around me last month tp up till this new month still no writing jugak... aperla... tp kini, sesudah tersedar dari lamunan, ku gagahi jua menaip barang sepatah dua ratus...

umm, for this month, which is on July... klu x silapla... setelah beberapa tawon, sepatutnya termaktub Perjanjian NoName... dulu masa kecik2 dulu, adala beberapa orang nih yg duduk kat belakang kt kelas 2A1, time BM kot tak silap, oleh sebab penyampaian cikgu yg tak didgr, bukan sbb x best, tp tataula... kitorg 4 worang telah buat satu Perjanjian yg dinamakan Perjanjian NoName... al-kisah perjanjian budak2 nih, takla gempak mana pun... tp takyahla nk bitau cni, sbb bukannya best sgt pun... overall nye, pada 31hb Julai 2007, pada pukul 4.30 pm kitorg 4 orang sepatutnya jupe balik kat kelas 2A1, blok F kat SMK Gombak Setia... tp aku pun tataula samada diorg nih ingt ke tidak... wlubagaimana pun, klu xde pape hal, kol 4.30 tuh insya allah aku akan pacakkan diri kt situ, tunggu dalam sejam... klu tada sapa yg muncul, aku balikla umah... da best thing bout this, if i play it right, i got to keep my promises dat ive made for about 11 years!!! hehe, promises mende ek? adala, hanya member2 ini saja yg tau... so kinda looking forward for this meeting, reunion wat ever to be called... hope everything will go quite as planned la...

another reunion yg aku tau adala utk ex-MRSMKP, ni elly yg bitau... tp apa dienye detail sume tara tau... reunion mrsmkp nih sebenanye im not looking forward sgt, sbb bile dah jupe2 nih, mestila kena bercerita2 and i dont have anythg to tell, not saying im a total looser, tp i dont have anythg to achieve dah... i mean, saya sudah blaja hingga ke universiti, sudah pun graduate, so thats about it, sudah capai dah cita2 masa kecik... ofcoz selepas abis blaja, kenala p keje... da thing is, i dont like going to work, work sucks and i like staying at home jer... the big Y kenapa saya suka umah saya? and kenapa saya suka duduk umah mak abah saya? sbb umah parent saya best tak ingat...

and instead of being a storyteller, might as well just lend my ears for the rest of the day... (ckp mcm nak pegi jer reunion tuh) ... tp dari msg yag ada kat kota_putra group, mcm ramai jer yg dtg... bagusla, keeping in touch mengeratkan silaturrahim... bukankah baik begitu... so i think this is about it. sebenanye, this post is done due to a special reminder from someone la... okla, nanti saya taip hari-hari kot?!! till ere, challoo